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SevzarxoSdiT, me da Cemi megobari Tbi-liseli poeti, misi leqsebis mTargm-nelma, vinme evgenim, TavisTan, ojaxSimigvipatiJa.
uari ar gviTqvams, bufetSive SeZe-nili arayis da koniakis boTlebi mTa-rgmnelis mozrdil xelCanTaSi Cava-lageT da wavediT.
manamde, vestibiulidan, morigestelefoniT evgenim Sin dareka, stum-rebi gveyolebao.
ar vici, am SetyobinebiT, uxilavmameore mxarem ramdenad gaixara, yov-el SemTxvevaSi, Cveni mopatiJes saxezees aranairad ar asaxula. miuxedavadamisa, mainc energiulad daswvda xel-CanTas da, literatorTa saxlidan,ukve binddacemul daTovlil quCaSigamovediT.
jer metroTi, mere troleibusiTvimgzavreT, karga manZili fexiTacgaviareT da, vidre evgenis sadarba-zomde mivaRwevdiT, yinvam sasmeliTdagrovili siTbo gamomacala.
mexuTe Tu meeqvse sarTulze, mas-pinZelma, gamamacebuli saxiT mogvxe-da, mondomebiT damiznebuli TiTiRilaks daaWira da gabmul zars xmacSeaSvela:
_ larisa, sayvarelo, Cven ukve mo-vediT!
Rilakidan TiTi ar aeRo, rom
mkvrivad Sek-rul kars ra-Rac gamete-biT moawyda.
dajaxebasZaRlis mogu-duli buxunicmohyva.
male am xmispatronic da-vinaxeT.
es iyo sa-zizRrad nap-atiebi, goro-zi, SavbewvaZaRli _ go-liaTi.
maTis almur-Si gaxveulstumar kace-bze maniSna, _dRe da Ramerom gadaebas,qalebi arcgavaxsendeb-iT... mTeli si-cocxle li-teraturulproblemebzedavoben... xan-daxan lamisx e l C a r T u lCxubamdec mi-dian.
cota xnisSemdeg fran-guli estra-da CarTo.
_ xom arvicekvoT? –
SemomTavaza._ maincdamainc didi mocekvave
ar gaxlavarT._ am cekvas codna ar unda, sur-
vilic sakmarisia _ lamazi xelebimxrebze Camomafina da Tamamad momex-uta.
uxerxulad awurulma sufras ga-davxede.
kacebs CvenTvis ar ecalaT.samagierod sul sxva mxridan
ase iyo Tu ise, redaqciis davalebiTda Cemi cnobismoyvareobiT, mec avyevisaerTo fexis xmas _ moskovis gavliT,Camovedi jer irkutskSi, mere, ori saa-Tis safrenze, daba ust-kutSi.
daba poligonis rols asrulebdada, erTaderTi, ase Tu ise xeiriani sas-tumro mTlianad mSeneblobasTan da-kavSirebul sxvadasxva uwyebaTa, samin-istroebis, trestebis, sammarTveloeb-is TanamSromlebiT iyo Sevsebuli. ad-ministratorma, rogorc iqna, mominaxaadgili, krasnoiarskel geodezistTan,myudro, patara nomerSi Semasaxla. geo-dezisti sam dReSi erTxel Tu gamoCn-deboda sastumroSi, xolo Cemma axal-ma nacnobma, dasavleT cimbiris motor-izebuli sammarTvelos ufrosma, qar-Tuli WaWis moyvarulma da damfasebel-ma, vinme evtuSenkom, romelsac Stabimeore sarTulze, `luqsSi~ hqonda mow-yobili, misasvlel-mosasvlelad CaT-bunebul kabiniani `krazi~ gamomiyo.
_ mand, mgoni, male stalinis sa-dRegrZelosac dalevT! _ daiZaxa vi-Racam ukanidan da sicilma gaamxiaru-la saloni.
_ ratomac ara, _ gamoepasuxa va-lodia, _ ormocdaxuTSi, oderze, fe-xebs rom gabaninebdaT, is xom mogwon-daT? zesadRegrZeloebsac ar iSureb-diT, mamas da marCenals eZaxdiT, ro-gorc RmerTze, ise loculobdiT... ma-Sin sad iyaviT, ratom ar gaxsendebo-daT usamarTlod represirebuli Cemiojaxi?
navs. aq ar vici ra memarTeba, _ mux-lisTavebi CaiferTxa da moxrilmaqvemodan amomxeda, _ gana Sen gamor-icxav, rom im ZaRls SeiZleba marTlauyvars qali, romlis saqcielmacwonasworobidan gamoiyvana?
gamecina _ kidev Cems monayolzefiqrobda.
_ ver getyvi, ZaRls amaze araferiuTqvams.
_ da iqneb, es siyvaruli, sulac ariyos calmxrivi! _ mravalmniS-vnelovnad Camikra Tvali.
_ metismetad mZime Tema xom arSevawuxeT?
_ Tuki cxovrebaSi moipoveba ms-gavsi anomaliuri, Tundac erTi SemTx-veva, maSin ratom ar unda SevawuxoT,warmoudgenelic warmovidginoT?ZaRls erTguleba rom SeuZlia,araerTxel daamtkica adamianTanTanacxovrebis xangrZlivi istoriismanZilze. gvaqvs safuZveli vifi-qroT, rom misTvis ucxo arc siyvaru-lis grZnobaa. hoda, Ralatis mcde-lobam, maSinve dabada gawbilebulimijnuris bunebrivi reaqcia...
_ otelos cxvirsaxoci..._ ara, es ufro metia _ ugono Sey-
varebulma naturalurad dainaxa, romRalatoben!
_ amitomac iskupa eWviT gagiJe-bulma mavrma...
_ saeWvo raRa iyo... qals rom areyoCaRa...
_ wirvas gamomiyvanda da wuxelis,am ambavze, veRar icinebdiT.
_ mapatie, Seni nebarTvis gareSerom movuyevi dedaCems... cota raRa-cebic wavamate, xom ici, mwerali zogrames ise yveba, rogorc sinamdvileSimoxda, zogsac ise, rogorc unda romyofiliyo, _ Tavi damnaSave bavSviv-iT damixara, _ Semindob?
_ rom ar Segindo, ras izam?_ rasac metyvi... Tundac aqedan
gadavxtebi... oRond jer visauzmoT!vnaxav, dedaCemi ratom ar gveZax-
iso, valodia samzareuloSi Sevida daaivanze marto davrCi.
Werze TokebiT dakidul, spilosZvlisfer savarjiSo rgolebs xelebiCavWide da Tvalebi davxuWe.
axla marTla vigrZeni, rom raRacZalam aivnidan atacebuli zemoT wa-miRo.
simaRlis SiSi ara maqvs, magram ise-Ti mkveTri iyo Semodgomis janRiTdaburuli qalaqis Tavze eulad prow-ialis gancda, rom uneburad rgolebsmagrad CaveWide.
aseT rames TviTmfrinavSi ver ig-rZnob. iluminatori gborkavs, amcir-ebs xedvis kuTxes, aq ki, RrublebisTeTr, dapentil matylSi gaxveulidavyurebdi mravalmilionian qalaqs,adamianebis ukidegano sabudars.
aRar gaxsovs, vin sad iyo,gamoRma Tu gaRma sjobda,ki icodi, soflis bolosSemodgoma gdarajobda.ki icodi, noembris mzesxivebs veRar mogawvdenda,es qari da es wvimebiTavs rodisme mogawyenda.arc dRes ici,vin sad ari,ra sjobda da ra ar sjobda,moaqanebs Rrublebs qari,Semodgomav, gamarjoba!
siberis apologia
arc ise avi yofilasibere, rogorc megona,movida guls Camekonarogorc Zmasa da megobars.frTxilad mixura sarkmeli,amoikeca sabani,orpir qars moerideo,icio Wvlebis ambavi.bevrs nuRar dalev, mirCia,asaki moimizeze,mere xeljoxi momgvara,frTxilad Cadio kibeze.sibere, rogorc megona,arc ise mkacri yofila,mzes mimaficxa ezoSididi simSvide momfina.
werili soflidan
erTxel mainc dagereka,erTxel mainc gefiqra,rom zamTarma ca mompara,baRi Camomefifqa.rom buxarTan marto yofnaukve aRar mwadia.rom bavSvobis bilikebzeaCrdilebi dadian.erTxel mainc mogekiTxe,geca mcire nugeSi,iqneb xmebi gagvegonamJReri siWabukeSi.iqneb Cemi simartoveCumad karSi gagvegdo,xan Tovls vxvetav,xan SeSas vWri,sxva ra unda vakeTo.zamTris Ramem ca mompara,baRi Camomefifqa,erTxel mainc mogekiTxe,rame mainc gefiqra.
mkiTxavi
SefarviT umzersSemosul stumarsdroze rom Caswvdesmis fiqrs da gumans.trialebs wyali,naxSiri bolavs,unda moigos es orTabrZolac.stumris TvalebSi daeZebs isevmisi urvis da wuxilis mizezs.icis, ra uWirs adamis modgmas,icis raze wuxs da raze mosTqvams.trialebs wyali,naxSiri bolavs,unda moigos es orTabrZolac.
boSebi fSavSi
boSebma dasces karavi,mze Semofrinda sarkmlidan,gvaTbobda,gvialersebdada oqros sxivebs gvayrida.TamaSobdnen da mRerodnen,gamoacocxles xeoba,maTi Semyure sofelixalisobda da mxneobda.wavidnen, aravin arismas mere maTi mnaxveli,datoves Cemi mowyena,monatreba da naRveli.es rodis iyo? me maxsovs,iqneb arc gaxsovT aravis,maRaroskarSi wyarosTanboSebma dasces karavi.
ufro rTulia es cxovreba,vidre gvegona,mze gadavida,gzebze acivda,drom sinanulis Taigulibevri Sekonada aivanze iasamnis cremli dacvivda,gasula Cveni didi zafxuli,Jami, romlisac ase gvjeroda,xeebi foTlebSemoZarcvuligarindebuli dganan wyarosTan.gvindoda, es dRe sxvagvarad gvegrZno,sxva sixarulis cecxli dagvenTo,ra vici, iqneb rodisme SevZloTcxovreba ase uerTmaneTod.
vedreba
jer nu Cacxrebi, gazafxulo,iyavn gazafxuli!jer es mgzavroba davasrulowynari dasasruliT.saxli wamoviwye,unda gadavxuro,davjde aivanze,sofels gadavyuro,kedlebi Selamossurnelma cacxvebis,jer nu Cacxrebi, gazafxulo,jer nu Cacxrebi.
mZime fiqrebSi garTuli ariTerTmetsarTuliani.dedaqalaqs Svenodayvelaze maRali Senoba.idga amayi da Zlieri,qalaqs gahyurebda mefuri ieriT,SuriT uyurebdnen saxlebi,Zvelebic, axlebic.hyavda saxelovani binadrebi,ukeTess veravis inatrebdiT:msaxiobebi, mwerlebi, mxatvrebi,saxels da didebas matebdnen.idga amayi da Zlieri,qalaqs gahyurebda mefuri ieriT.erTmaneTs vafrTxilebdiTsofleli bavSvebi,xumrobagamoSvebiT, -qalaqSi rom Caxval,TerTmetsarTulians rom naxav,ar daiwyo sarTulebis Tvla,qudi gadmovardeba ukan,quCis ZaRlebis gaxdeba lukma.netavi im dros,im gulubryvilobas!axlac gtkiva is dRe,rogorc Wriloba.vai, rom warmavali aris didebagangaSis naTura qreba da inTeba,wamoimarTnen axali saxlebiufro lamazebi, maRlebi.dacinviT dahyureben TerTmetsarTulians,misi saqme, ician, wasulia.moqceulia manqanebis alyaSi,Rameebs aTenebs SiSsa da gangaSSi.wavidnen saxelovani binadrebiSTainTqnen cxovrebis mdinareSi.ramdeni Sroma, wuxili, jafa,ra darCa maTgan -memorialuri dafa.gulgrilad gamodian mnaxvelebi,aravis axsovs maTi saxelebi.aravin kiTxulobs kedlebze warwerebs,mzeras bareliefebze aravin aCerebs,vai, rom warmavali aris dideba,gangaSis naTura qreba da inTeba,man ukve icis, ra da rogor ari,mwiria dideba,rogorc poetis honorari.momavlis ukve ar sjeradrois manqana CarTuli ari,eSinia, mis adgilas ar gaCnde, warwera:`aq idga TerTmetsarTuliania!~
wlebi aCqardnen
wlebi aCqardnen,rame iRonenela daeSvas Seni marxili...ade, Seibi welze maxvili...sxva gazafxuli gamoigone.erTi sicocxle,erTi ambavida yvelaferi ase martivad?!cao, Sxapuna wvimiT gambane,Torem neSo da mtveri macviva.wamoimarTe, gaglije rideTavi da bolo nuTu es aris:gamoifxizle,iqneb gaqvs kidevsabrZolo, saxmlo da saesavi.
mTvareo, mTvarev!ra medidurad mihkvalav Rames.mixval, mihyvebi ucxo bilikebs,ucxo landebTan maborialeb,meamboxe xar da gandgomili,magram es miwac rom ar geTmoba!wyaroebs amRvrev,zvavebs aqaneb,zRvebi gamogyavs napirebidan...mTvareo, mTvarev!me umweobac meyofa Cemi,mag maTrobela SuqiT mabruebcaSi agyavar,gzebze yviTel xaliCebs mifen,rom bolos maincam riyeze davlio suli.
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ra ca ver dainaxe,ra mze ver Seifere,SemogiRo WiSkarinaadrevma siberem.qarebma da wvimebmagzebi agitalaxes,bilikebs da mwvervalebses gza veRar ganaxvebs.aRar daiZvrebiansurvilebis zvavebi,gaiSleba Walebidardis aTavTavebiT.axla nanob, sicocxliTguli rom ver ijere,aivnidan dagyurebsmowyena da sibere.
ar iqna da ar meRirsaar gaixsna ca bolomde,ar mindoda, varskvlavebissaidumlo wamyoloda.mivdivar da Ramis gzebzemTvare miWers rkinis saltes,Svilo, Cemi saflavis qvasvarskvlavebi daaxateT.
iRviZebdnen muzeumebi, noxdage-bul talanebSi mtvris tiloTi fex-akrefiT dadioda saxedanaoWebuli,cocxali da lamazi Tvalebis dam-lagebeli qali... iRviZebda funCula,piridan sawovara gadmovardnili, ax-lad kbilamoWrili bavSvi, romelicxval ise veRar icxovrebda, rogorcmisi dRevandeli, asakiani Tanamo-qalaqe da, rac mTavaria, zustaddaniSnul droze, wiTeli moedniT,kremlis triumfaluri Sesasvlel-isaken miiCqaroda Savi manqanebis sax-elisuflo qaravani _ kiviliT, si-renebiT, motociklebis eskortiT,Tavbrudamxvevi siswrafiT, TiTqosSiSobdnen, kremlis alayafis kari romar CaeketaT da gareT ar darCenil-iyvnen.
es ar iyo `Cemi~ moskovi. is bavSvurxilvebSi CarCa, wminda fiqrebSi gaex-via da misi jadoqruli, gulis Sema-CoCqolebeli saxeba, dro da dro, ver-cxlisferi naZvebiT, wkriala zare-biT, TovliT, bengaluri SuSxunebistkacuniT, saaxalwlo feierverkebiTgabrdRvialdeboda da gamarindebdaxolme...
patara viyavi, mSoblebma, pirveladmoskovSi stumrad rom Camomiyvanes.
lSi marto mivedi.nacnobi, inicialebiani magida Ta-
visufali damxvda.movitane ori Wiqa, ori TefSi, erTi
boTli wiTeli, moldavuri Rvino (qa-rTuli ar hqondaT).
orive Wiqa Sevavse.vijeqi da vfiqrobdi, rom avdgebo-
di, cota xniT mivipyrobdi patara,myudro darbazSi msxdomTa yurad-Rebas da vityodi, vin daiferfla dRes`did ruseTSi,~ rom aseTi adamianebiswasvliT mxolod Svilebi ki ara, qvey-ana obldeba...
vapirebdi, magram momeCvena, rom va-lodia, Cems nabijs, aplodismentebiTar Sexvdeboda _ iq Tavmoyrili, Se-zarxoSebuli sazogadoeba, maTi sa-ubris TemebiT Tu vimsjelebdiT, su-lac ar iyo TanagrZnobisaTvis ganwy-obili.
bis tylaSuniT da Cxaodnen.sawoli aRmosavleTiT idga da mao-
cebda misi umoZraoba. mxolod samjerSemotrialebis Semdeg amexsnebodajado da gamaxsendeboda, rom sxvebiqudbenianebi Tu ibadebian, me “gamCen-ma” Tavisufali neba da frTebi damay-ola, romelic spilenZis did skivr-Sia Caketili. gasaRebis adgili kiunda sruliad ucnob keTil kacs emc-no weriliT.
Rame pirdapiri eTeri iyo. vjdebo-di mocimcime ekranTan da morbenalstriqonad rom garbodi, Tval-yursgadevnebdi. SenTan erTad kidev sxva dakidev bevri sxva. adgil-adgil, droda dro quCebSi dadiodi farniT xel-Si da roca me adidebuli mdinarisxidze gadavdiodi, Suqs miqrobdi,radganac saSinlad gindoda davs-velebuliyavi da aseT usaxurs Senisaxeli amomeTqva. Zvel, Wiisgan dafu-turavebul xis miwurebze, romlebsacdangrevis piras miiyvans xolme ubi-nadroba, plakatebs akravdi - nisleb-is, gadaxerxili xeebis, ujvrod dar-Cenili eklesiebis, samkapa Ripiani ka-cunisa da myrali, mravalwlovanibalaxebisa. ucnob qals, romelic ur-Cxulebis dedas uvlida, werilebs ug-zavnidi. me safosto yuTidan gparav-di am werilebs da visakuTrebdi si-tyvebs. dilaobiT ki verafriT viviw-yebdi, rom guda-nabadi avikari da Zil-Si gadavbargdi.
am frazebma Cutyvavilas msgavsadgamomayara saxeze da erTi maTgani yve-laze didi da xasxasa, saxelad “CinuriTvalebis mqone bavSvi minda” pekinelbiWs Tu Sevxvdebodi da misgan peki-nelisTvaleba, patara Svili meyole-boda. risTvis mindoda aseTi bavSvi?mas Tavisuflad gavaSvilebdi bavSvTasaxlisTvis. Tu miliardi misnairidarCeboda. maSin is SemTxveviTmokvdeboda.
es mogzaurTa rasa kaliebis Se-mosevaa faqtobrivad. riT damims-gavsebs? qercliani gveleSapis orka-pa enas, grZeli wiTeli sawvimaris kap-iSonidan gasdis TqrialiT nerwyviv-iT siTxe. aq Cems ezoSi daiwriteba. ka-nis ucnaur sikrialiT da siprialiT.is arasodes Semogxedavs jibriTTvalebSi, “raRacas malavs” misi qali.o, Savi qali, grZeli swori TmiT,rogorc abaJurs, an daRestneli mka-
rom dagrCa da axlaRa gamikvirda, isevrom mwvaned gicimcimebs. gakvirdebi,mikvirs. viTom cotac da sadacaaucxo qalaqis metropolitenSi varT.kaciSvilis WaWaneba ar aris. erTinabijis gadadgmac ki ar SemiZlia.didi frinveli mofrinavs gvirabidan.moiwevs. vici, rom mas Seni wayvanadaavales da Tu xels ar mogkideb, Sencwayvebi. uecrad, ofliT gecvarebasaxe, tani, xelebi da mTlianad or-Tqldebi iseve rogorc gube, rogorcmdinare, rogorc wvima. igive mindadamemarTos, eskalatorze vdgavar daar uCans bolo. maleve vxvdebi, ukanunda davbrunde, unda davbrunde ukanrom mere isev SevZlo dabruneba dadagibruno. Sen zurgze Segisva lomis-saxianma frinvelma da ase gayevi.
ase gadavifiqre gamofxizleba.
oTxSabaTi dRe
saxls rogor gamoeqceva qali, sax-ls sadac saZirkvelSi papis da papispapis Zvlebi yria. miwaze dabijebisSiSiT Tu dainficirdi, isini miwis qveSerTiandebian da Sens nabijebs eb-jinebian, magram fuZeze dauwyevlix-ar osis patarZals. papaSeni Seyvare-bia da misi udReuri qmari mSieri romdaZrwoda, Turme misive wisqvilSigaagzavnida xolme.
wisqvilis qvasTan axlos, dolabTandasvamda da dauketavda garedan kars.mTeli Rame ase mjdara. TviTon ki mi-iRebda Sens winapars, Tavisi sikeTiTaavsebda da diliT ki wisqvilSi mo-brunebuli kaci auSvebda ZaRliviTmibmuls da sofelSi abrunebda. TavimoigiJiana am gadaberebulma qalma.Sens ezo-kars SemoeCvia. saqanelassurvili moimizeza, ijda da didxansqanaobda, win-ukan. win-ukan. da win daukan, Tan butbutebda ucxo enaze.agvistos sicxeSi gareT gamoZurwulfuZisgvels daudarajda da mokla.misi sisxliT mogirwyo xeebi. xilsroca Wamdi amitomac gemwareboda dasunze ki bruvdebodi.
- mama Camovidaaa, mama Camov-idaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! – yiraze gadadigogo, midi moitexe kiseri. eg fSekiafexebi gadaSale, yvavilebi amogivid-nen da gzagza dagcvivdes da am wiTe-li yvavilebis neqtarze amovidnen mi-widan xvlikis msgavsi ambifiebi dadaadgnen Sensken mosasvlel bilike-bs.
- mama Camovidaaa, mama Camovidaa! –ici, mam, inaTanas botkini aqvs da saa-vadmyofoSi wevs... mogixura manqaniskari da dagtova gareT, aegre gaxare-buli. Sedi, Sedi da Seikete kari daCaweqi Sens sawolSi da daiZine, sizmar-Si modis maRali kaci, grZeli TliliTiTebiT da moaqvs SenTvis datkbilu-li SxamiviT vneba.
uecrad, erT wamSi, foie carield-eba da wiTeli, yvelaze wiTeli cxeniTdgaxar gareT da me vfrindebi. uS-velebel da grZel vitrinebs vawydebida minaze vrCebi.
ar meRviZeba.
erT-erTi paraskevi
“dRes mokle dRea. gamoiyeneTTqveni SemoqmedebiTi miznebisaTvis” –es sityvebi departamentis ufrosmagamoakra dafaze. me SemiZlia samsax-urSi davigviano da raime movimizezo.magaliTad is, rom STagonebisTvisTavdayira vekide, an is, rom Semodgo-mis baRSi “bomJiviT” davexetebodi dadamSeul, qecian ZaRlebs daavadebu-li kanidan aclil wiTel wylulebsvaWmevdi. an saerTod ar gaval gareT;an Cavicvam ise, TiTqos da wvimianiamindia da amgvarad gavyri Cems avad-myofur beber survilebs mzian dReeb-Si.
zoias TvalSi moxvda, rom am aulSiyvela nageboba xisa iyo. yvelgan _ xissaxlebi da xis kedlebi. irgvliv ki mi-mofantuliyo erTmaneTs gamijnulibaRebi da saxnav-saTesi. ganieri quCaxis karibWidan wagiyvanda Samilis se-ralis kedlebisaken, aulis SuagulSirom iyo aRmarTuli da iqaurobas me-didurad gadmohyurebda. cxenebi Sea-Wenes ezoSi, sadac kedlis mTel si-grZeze moCanda daxuruli SuSabande-bi. aq mudmivad binadrobda orasirCeuli miuridi. yvelafers asketiz-mis daRi esva. kedlebi ar iyo morTul-mokazmuli; xis svetebi, SuSabands romamagrebdnen, aseve ubralod gam-oiyurebodnen da mkacri moxazulobahqondaT. damxvdurni ki erTianad SavsamoselSi iyvnen gamowyobilni. zoiasgonebaSi gauelva, mxiaruleba da laR-oba aq fexsac ver Semoadgamso.
magram imave wuTas mTeli misi yura-dReba miipyro meore, Sida kedelmavrceli ezos SuagulSi, romelic garsertymoda sakuTriv serals _ Samil-isa da misi ojaxis sacxovrebels. mom-cro aivanze, mTavari Sesasvlelismarjvniv, zoiam SeniSna kacis figura_ Tu es iyo xilva Tovlisa da cecx-lisa? idga da ezos gadmohyurebda.goliaTs hgavda Tavisi wowola, TeTridolbandiTa da CamoSvebuli, TeTriferisave mosasxamiT. xolo misi wi-Turi wveri gamoCnda rogorc cecx-lmokidebuli buCqi samoselis Tov-liviT TeTri siwmindeSi.
`oh, RmerTo Cemo~, warmoTqva zoiammowiwebuli CurCuliT, `es xom TviTmonstri unda iyos!~
kneina ana axlomxedveli iyo damkafiod ver gaarCia, kneina barbaremki mzera daZaba, raTa kargad Seexeda,magram verc erTi da verc meore verdaakvirdebodnen Samilis nakvTebs,radgan didi karibWe bolos da bolosgaiRo da maT uTxres, SigniT SediTo.amasobaSi Samili ukve gamqraliyoTvalsawieridan.
miagno nivTebs, mis saxelze rom iyodaniSnuli da ramdenime wuTSisaucxood gamoewyo: muqi nacrisferikaba grZeli qvedataniT, patara SavimanJetebiTa da Savi ferisve sayelo-Ti.
`mesmis, qalbatono! magram, me mgo-ni, ufro iolia, Tqven SeikriWoT Tma;ai, davatoloT erTmaneTs kisrebi danaxavT, marTali Tu ara var~.
`momwydi Tavidan, Se eSmakis fexo!~_ kneina anam gaicina da xeli hkrazoias. frangi qali ki gaocebam Seipy-ro imis gamo, rogor Seicvala misiurTierToba kneinasTan. gaifiqra:`aseTi sityvebi, Tanac amgvari kilo-Ti, rom meTqva misTvis am ramdenimekviris winaT, albaT, gamaqrobda~.
`me SuaneTi var, imamis coli~, Tqvaqalma rusulad, `ara, ufrosi coliara var, deda rom iyo misi Svilebisa.igi ramdenime wlis winaT moukvda,alahma mSvidobaSi amyofos misi suli~,odnav SeWoWmanda da mere dasZina: `mesomexi var, oRond ruseTSi dabadebu-li. ai amitomac aris, rom rusulivici~, da kvlav wuTieri WoWmanis Sem-deg: `mec tyve viyavi... odesRac~.
kneinebi da zoia wamodgnen mis-asalmeblad da roca isev mokalaTd-nen iatakze, SuaneTma mimoixeda oTax-Si. mis mixra-moxras da Jestebs hqon-da bunebrivi da kargad morgebulikeTilganwyoba tyveebis mimarT, magrammis Rimilsa da xmis kiloSi iyo raRacnaZaladevi, TiTqmis xelovnuri,TiTqos yovel sityvas winaswar swoni-da.
`mjera, rom Tqveni nivTebidanaraferi dakargula~, Tqva man bolos,`kidev rame xom ar gWirdebaT?~
arel ormoSi. kibe CauSves da xelshkravdnen qals, Cadio. is ki winaaRm-degobas uwevda. moulodneli dadauokebeli SiSi daeufla zoias. xel-fexi ukankalebda. Cadri miikraTvalebsa da loyebze.
axla sandros jeri dadga da Su-aneTma bavSvi gamoarTva zoias.
Samils maSinve ar Seuxedavs zoi-asTvis da qals es esiamovna; dro mieca,rom irgvliv yvelaferi mieTvalier-moeTvalierebina. iatakze gaSlilxaliCebsa da ramdenime did, wiTelmuTaqas Tuki ar CaTvlidi, oTaxiZalze ubralod gamoiyureboda. ram-denime xmali da xanjali ekida TeTradSeRebil kedlebze; ramdenime tyav-gadakruli wigni ido Taroze _ es iyoda es. vaxSamic ki, amineTs rom gaemza-debina, sakmaod Raribuli iyo: erTiWiqa yavisferi Cai, rZe, yveli da TeTripuris ori pawia naWeri.
Samili miubrunda kneina barbares.`Sen da Seni Svili rom iq iqnebodiT,
CemTvis moulodnelic iyo da sasiam-ovnoc. me didad vafasebdi da pativsavcemdi Sens qmars~.
wamiT daJinebuli mzera esrolaqalebs, mere gaiRima.
`nuraferi SegaSfoTebT. aq kaciS-vili arafers dagiSavebT. Tqvenmogepyrobian, rogorc Cemi ojaxiswevrebs, Tuki usityvod damemor-CilebiT~.
Samili SeiWmuxna da TiTi aswia.`Tqvenma bavSvebma Tavisuflad
iTamaSon CemebTan da maTi ZiZebicgahyvebian, sadac ki isini wavlen~.
axla meore TiTic aswia.`vidre me saxlSi vimyofebi, Tqven
samiveni am oTaxSi unda darCeT Sebin-debamde. mere ki SegiZliaT skamzeCamosxdeT SuSabandSi~.
bolos mesame TiTi aswia.`rodesac saxlidan gaval, frang-
is qals SeuZlia iseirnos ezoSi da Cemscolebs estumros, magram Tqvenigvaris qalebisaTvis, anav da barbarev,aseTi qceva Seuferebeli iqneboda.Tqven arasodes ar unda gascdeT SuS-abands~.
Samili laparakobda da misi si-tyvebi TandaTan ufro da ufro Zalo-vani xdeboda.
`gulisyuriT mismineT. yvelaferijer ar miTqvams. Tuki romelime Tqven-gani Seecdeba saidumlod gaugzavnoswerili naTesavebs anda isini saidum-lo gamogzavnian werils, icodeT, arcTqven dagindobT da arc TqvensSvilebs. dagxocavT, rogorc davxoceaTi rusis oficeri, romlebsac purisnaWerSi Camaluli werili mouvidaT,anda yovel Tqvengans monebad da-vurigeb Cems naibebs!~
Samilma muqariT gaiSvira TiTityve-qalebisaken.
`erTi mdidari rusis gogos am-bavsac getyviT, Cemma mxedrebma romdaatyveves ramdenime wlis winaT, rocaeklesiaSi mieSureboda jvris dasaw-erad. misi ojaxi mzad iyo, didi gamo-sasyidi gadaexada gogos dasaxsnelad,magram amaod gaisarjnen. mcdelobamuqmad CauaraT, yuri ar vaTxove, vi-naidan im gogom Tavs neba misca, romarafrad Cavegde. amis sazRaurad mo-nasaviT gavaCuqe da sikvdilamdemonadve darCeba! igive xvedri gerge-baT wilad Tqvenca da Tqvens Svileb-sac, anav da barbarev, da Senc, frang-is qalo, Tuki manamde ar dagxoceT!~
Samili laparakobda mSvidad daamiT misi sityvebis sisastike ufromet Zalas iZenda. tyve-qalebs mexiviTdaecaT zedized gamoTqmuli damu-qrebani, myisve rom mohyva mis TavazianguliTadobas. zoias civma Jruantel-ma dauara zurgSi. kneina anam Seuracx-yofilad igrZno Tavi, Samils zurgiSeaqcia da lamobda gadaeylapa mZvin-
vare pasuxi, enis wverze rom moadga.martooden kneina barbares SerCeno-da simSvide. igi wamodga da kars miuax-lovda.
`Sen ar unda dagvemuqro, Samil!Cven ar vapirebT urCobas. rac SeexebaCvenTvis gamogzavnil werilebs, Cvenar ZalgviZs pasuxi vagoT arc maT Si-naarsze da arc imaze, Tu ra gziT dara xerxiT gamogvigzavnian~.
Samilma gamomcdeli mzera miapyrokneina barbares da xanmokle pauzisSemdeg Tqva:
`da mainc, rogorc giTxariT, iseiqneba, rac ar unda moxdes, radac arunda damijdes. Tuki romelime Tqven-gani miiRebs, Tundac erTxel, saidum-lo uwyebas, veRarasodes veRar ix-ilavT Tavisuflebas! da gaxsovdeT,Cemi muqara arasodes yofila fuWi!~
Samili gaCumda, TiTqosda saimi-sod, rom msmenelni Rrmad Caswvdomod-nen mis naTqvams. mere guneba Seecvalada kvlav gaiRima.
`axla, rodesac erTmaneTs gavugeT,anav, Sens qmars miswer da werilsmaCveneb, rom Sevafaso. generalma re-adma mas daavala molaparakeba Cven-Tan~.
kneina anas guliswyroma gauqra daTvalebi bednierebis cremliT aevso.es iyo pirveli oficialuri cnobaimis Taobaze, rom Tavadi daviT Wav-WavaZe cocxali da saR-salamaTi iyo.saCuqrebic TiTqos amasve niSnavda,magram erTi sityvac rom ar axlda,aman daaeWva da kneina anas kargad moex-seneboda _ daviTi Tu ara, misianebixom gamogzavnidnen.
`diax, Samil~, Tqva man TiTqmis mor-Cilad, ̀ me davwer, rasac ki mibrZaneb~.
`maS, Zalian kargi. ai, ase miswere:Samili TavisTvis iTxovs Tavis Svilsjemaledins, Tavisi xalxisTvis ki _milion maneTs vercxliT!~
tyve-qalebs sunTqva SeekraT. imxa-nad vercxlis maRali fasisa da cx-ovrebis donis gamo TiTze CamosaTv-leli iqnebodnen amxela simdidrismflobelni. `milioni maneTi!~ gaimeo-ra kneina anam imis imediT, egeb sworadver gavigeo.
`oh, Cven ar gagvaCnia amdeni fuli.araferi gagvaCnia, aseT Tanxas romSeswvdes~.
`me miTxres, rom auracxeli gan-Zeuli upoviaT Tqvens saxlSi~.
da es sivrce, es siuxve rogor amovwuro?es talRebiT savse veli rogor gamovcuro?rogor vigrZno da movicva am grZnobebis kide?am mTis iqiT, am zRvis iqiT rogor gadavide?
saTvaleebiani biWi paltos sayeloTi Cae-bRuja da kedelze yavda ayudebuli. merom daminaxa, Zirs dado, momesalma da gin-da, nayinze dagpatiJoo, mkiTxa.
jejgvia, ra, debili jejgvi.ki-meTqi, vuTxari...
***_ ara, Cemi Zma, vaJkacoba ra SuaSia,
sportsmeni var da magitom ar vsvam._ sportsmeni-mortsmeni ar vici me,
miutaneT gansxvavebuli!_ kargi, am erTs davlev Seni xaTriT...
***saavadmyofoSi viyavi da dedamisi
tiroda.
buci daabijes Tavze.mere gaTiSula.
***_ daviTrie is `skripaCi~, unda
damertya da uceb ar gaeZro? inglisurzedadis Cem mezobelTan.
_ mere?_ mere Sen rom miTxari, nayinze an
sadme dapatiJe da ase ufro dauaxlovde-bio, meTqi, barem vetyvi-meTqi da dav-patiJe.
_ mere?_ mere araferi, im `skripaCs~ mere
vnaxav._ ras erCi?_ eg iyo, maSin tribunidan jejgvi rom
damiZaxa...***
yeli mtkiva, ar minda nayini-meTqi. ma-Sin ratom wamomyevio. is biWi rom ar gece-ma-meTqi. mTxove da aRar vcemo. rogorcdaikom ise gTxovo-meTqi? daiko ra Sua-Siao...
da mkerdze momaSterda.
***_ bevri davlie._ vin gaZalebda?_ Tamadam Tavi gaigiJa, vaJkacobao da
egeTebi daiwyo. ise ki movereodi, magramnaTesavis ojaxi iyo... saxlSi rogor wa-miRes, ar maxsovs. fu, es `paxmelia~!
maSin alekos veRar vaZlev... ara, zurasaRar mivcem ormags... telefonisTvismainc eyofa.
da qeTis vuyidi im kabas, zolebiani romoewona. da saTvaleebs. Zviri Rirs-meT-qi da ar vayidine. marTla Zviri Rirda.
ro movigeb, ar davurekav, egreve saCu-qrebiT avadgebi.
auuuu, daglijavs! garekavs sixaru-liT.
9...eh, erTi dadebaRa damrCa...dajdes ra 25, Tore xelfasamde ra
moicdis?midi, ra, jigar, midi, ra...da mere films gadaviReb. xo, gadaviReb
da 25-s davarqmev. ai, “13” xo magra gahit-da da yvela magaze tiris, xoda “25” ufrogahitdeba, msoflio bestseleri gaxdeba.riT var babluanze naklebi, ro...
mere kanis kinofestivalze damajil-doveben da iqidan qeTis xels davuqnev.qeTi am dros saparikmaxeroSi iqneba Tmisdasavarcxnad da Tavis somex parikmaxersetyvis, ai, Cemi qmario, televizorSiao...
mere gulCvili dedaCemic atirdeba...ro Camoval, aeroportSi ministrebi daprezidenti damxvdebian... mere al paCinomTxovs, Semdeg filmSi maTamaSeo... ara, esnametania, al paCino me ar damirekavs...mara babluans xo daureka de nirom da...znaCit, mec damirekavs erT-erTi... vize na-klebi var, to. babluani ara Temo xvib-liani!
Tan saTauric ra magaria: “25”!!!13...eh...vatrakeb da mixaria...davureko zuras...ara, rac marTalia, marTalia:babluani Cemze magari reJisoria...
_ am gamosvlaze Tavisi komentar-ebi gaakeTes tariel Wanturiam dagivi alxaziSvilma da me `dasamatebe-li~ aRaraferi maqvs. erTs ki vityodinaxevradxumrobiT _ aseTi kategori-uli da SiSveli gamoTqmebisagan Taviunda SevikavoT _ am dros Zir-fesvi-ani analizi da gamowvlilviTi das-kvnebia mTavari da ara kategoriuligambedaoba... is literatori Cemi um-crosi megobaria da mis balRur akvi-atebas _ ar arsebobs, ar arsebobso,balRurive paTosiT vupasuxebdi: se-bobs! sebobs! Cemo batono-meTqi.
_ isev galaktionze minda gkiTx-oT: rogor warmogidgebaT igi didiqarTuli poeziis mTagrexilSi da ragavlena moaxdina man piradad TqvensSemoqmedebaze?
_ galaktion tabiZe, CemTvis, ise-Ti erTiani da msoflmxedvelobrivadmTliani Semoqmedi ar aris, rogoricvTqvaT, guramiSvili, ilia, akaki, vaJa.galaktion tabiZis poeziis erTi naw-ili, romelsac me, marina cvetaevaswabaZviT, `Cems galaktions~ davar-qmevdi, Zalian miyvars da ver warmo-midgenia Cemi literaturuli samyaroumisod... xolo meore nawili, ase vTq-vaT `revoluciuri nawili~, romelS-ic igi nametani `yelgadagdebiT~ umR-eris leninsa da komunizms, did lite-raturad ar mimaCnia... rac Seexeba ze-gavlenas _ vimeoreb, rom `Cemi ga-laktioni~ me Zalian miyvars da raki
_ Zalian bevrs... da es danakargiaunazRaurebelia. qarTul liter-aturaSi TvalSisacemia simravle
iseTi mwerlebisa, vinc swored am `sa-zogadoebrivi moRvaweobis~ wyalobiTver moaswro sakuTari SemoqmedebiTipotencialis realizeba _ nikolozbaraTaSvili, grigol orbeliani, ale-qsandre yazbegi, niko samadaSvili dasxva mravali. yvelaze ufro saSineldReSi ki, albaT, vaJa-fSavela iyo _igi tye-RreSi, saxnav-saTesSi, saTib-samkalSi daatarebda Tavis dauwerelleqsebsa da moTxrobebs. gavixsenoTfolkneris ocneba _ sadme Ramisyaraulis adgili eSova da ewera. TqvenmeubnebiT _ uTavsebdiTo... ara, vervuTavsebdi da Cemi dro daundobladmihqonda praqtikul `miznebsa da amo-canebs~. bolos ki amas vityodi _ xSir-ad laparakoben mwerlis daxmarebazeda Tuki marTla vinmes aqvs daxmarebissurvili, mwerals werisTvis Sesabami-si pirobebi unda Seuqmnas (miTumetesCvennair qveyanaSi, sadac wignebis ti-raJi ukiduresad dabalia da honora-ri praqtikulad ar arsebobs).
_ 70-iani wlebis Sua xanebSi mZaf-ri polemika gaimarTa qarTuli Tavis-ufali leqsis problemebze. po-lemikis centrSi Tqven da SoTa niSni-aniZe moeqeciT. im polemikis eqoSemdgomac araerTxel gaisma qarTulliteraturul kritikaSi da SeiZle-ba iTqvas, rom es Tema dResac `cocx-alia~. ras ityodiT _ wlebis Semde-gac imave azrze dgaxarT, Tu raime Se-icvala Tqvens poziciaSi?
_ ara, Cems SexedulebebSi araferiSecvlila da arc SeiZleboda Secv-liliyo, radganac am wlebis manZilzemravali mniSvnelovani uriTmo leqsiSeemata Cveni poeziis mdinares da Ta-visufali leqsi ueWvel faqtad iqca.me elementarul rames vambobdi _qarTuli riTmiani leqsis gverdiT ar-sebobis ufleba uriTmo leqssac aqvs-meTqi. Cemi oponentebi ki mrisxanedaprotestebdnen _ verlibris adgiliCvens literaturaSi araao. ise ki,wlebis Semdeg, Tu rames vnanob, ai, amasvnanob: _ ar unda Cavreuliyavi am pro-vinciul kamaTSi. Tumca... esec undaiTqvas: verlibris winaaRmdeg mowyo-bil laSqrobas TviT partiis cent-raluri komitetis mdivnebi xelmZRv-anelobdnen da qveSevrdom litera-torebs avalebdnen, moeSalaT es `uid-eobis bude~. SemTxveviTi ar iyo, rom imxanebSi Catarebul Tbilisis partiulkonferenciaze gamosulma cekas kul-turis ganyofilebis gamgem nikolozjaSma sastikad gaakritika Jurnal ̀ ci-skarSi~ dabeWdili Cemi `uideo~ leqse-bi. es iyo realoba da masze reagirebaaucilebeli iyo. ise ki, bolos undavTqva, rom poezia maincdamainc didmniSvnelobas ar aniWebs tanisamoss...
_ Tqveni gaxmaurebuli poema`TorRva Zagani~, ase vTqvaT, `tradi-ciuli riTmiani leqsiTaa~ dawerili,Tqveni poeziis did nawilSi ki uriT-mo leqsis formebs iyenebT. ase rom,orive saleqso formas erTnairi war-matebiT flobT. mainteresebs, maSratom aZlevT upiratesobas uriTmoleqss? iqneb imitom, rom es formaufro moergo Tqvens SemoqmedebiTbunebas, Tqvens fsiqologias, Tqvensmxatvrul-literaturul princi-pebs?
_ marTali brZandebiT, geTanxme-biT... magram aqve isic minda vTqva, romriTmiani da uriTmo leqsis urTierT-mimarTebis Tema Zalian sainteresoTemaa da aq am Temis ganxilva-amowur-vas ver SevZlebT _ Zalian Sors wagviy-vans.
_ Cems `mTavar saqmed~ mainc leqsimimaCnia da mTel dros da energiasswored leqsebs vaxarjav. iyo dro,roca megona, rom win Zalian, Zaliandidi dro mqonda da risi gakeTebacmsurda, yvelafers movaswrebdi; mego-
na, raRac saqmeebis `gadaweva~ Sei-Zleboda. axla egre aRaraa. ager, TiTq-mis uecrad da moulodnelad wamomad-ga cifri 70 da garkveviT gamomicxada_ moemzadeo... Tumca, mTlad upa-tronodac ar mimitovebia Cemi wer-ilebi da esseebi. vfiqrob, erT krebu-lad gamovce Cemi `dokumenturi pro-za~ _ dRiurebi, dokumenturimoTxrobebi, esseebi, sxvadasxva droisprozauli Canawerebi (`gaufiltravifiqrebi~) da a.S. vfiqrob, uinteresowigni ar unda gamovides... vnaxoT...
_ `dokumentur prozaze~ gamax-senda _ am bolo dros Tqvens Semo-qmedebaSi prozac gamoCnda _ asevTqvaT, ̀ dokumenturi proza~. me mo-meCvena, rom es prozauli monakveTe-bi raRac didi moculobis nawarmoe-bis fragmentebia. ras gvetyodiT,biografiuli romanis daweras xom arapirebT?
_ ara, ara! Cems ujrebSi uamraviprozauli Canaweria: legendebi, gad-mocemebi, mamaCemisgan, Cemi dedisZmis-gan, xeobis saintereso adamianebisganmonayoli tragikuli, Tu iumoristu-li ambebi... am masalas seriozuli Caj-doma da damuSaveba sWirdeba da amsaqmes Sors aRar gadavdeb. yoveliveamas zemoTnaxsenebi dokumenturiprozis wignSi gavaerTianeb. Cems Ta-obas mrisxane Jami wamoewia _ mkvdarida sikvdilze mimdgari soflebiTaasavse Cveni xeobebi... me ar maqvs ufle-ba, xelSi kalami meWiros da maT guSin-del dReze araferi vTqva. rac Seexeba`biografiul romans~, icocxle, kar-gi ideaa, magram yovelives Tavisi droda Sesabamisi Zalebi sWirdeba... mimaC-nia, rom es dro wasulia da amxelatvirTis awevis Zalac aRara maqvs.
_ axalgazrda poetebi. vis kiTx-ulobT, vis gamoyofT, ra axali mo-tivebi gesmiT maT mier Seqmnili te-qstebidan?
_ vcdilob wavikiTxo, Tumca isicvici, rom waukiTxavi ufro meti mrCe-ba. amitom ver gavkadnierdebi, xmas verdaviboxeb da Tundac `Cemi azris~ ga-moTqmis uflebiT ver vilaparakeb. iseki, zedapiruli STabeWdilebiT mgo-nia, rom televiziis aRorZinebis epo-qa Tavis saqmes akeTebs _ TviTon ax-algazrda mwerlebi ufro Canan, vidremaTi nawarmoebebi... aseve zerele STa-bWedilebiT mgonia, rom leqsebSi na-metani xSirad ismis me, me... me da Sen...gasagebia, rom subieqtur motivebs li-rikidan ver ganvdevniT, magram arcisaa kargi, roca mwerali ganuwyvete-li me-dan da sakuTari saojaxo wri-dan ver gadis. locviT ki, guliTadadvlocav Cems axadgazrda Tanamoka-lmeebs _ poetebs, prozaikosebs, kri-tikosebs... Cven erTad varT _ `Zve-lebic~ da `axlebic~ erT saqmes va-keTebT... mwerlebi xom asakiT ki ara,upirvelesad talantiT gansxvavdebi-an erTmaneTisgan....
_ miTosi da Tqven. miTosuri sam-yarodan amoizarda Tqveni poema`TorRa Zagani~, aseve miTosiTaa na-sazrdoebi Tqveni Semoqmedebis didinawili. miTosuri nakadi kidev ufrogaZlierda am bolo dros gamoqvey-nebul leqsebsa da poemebSi. maincsaidan amdeni devi, macili, qaji daal-qaji?.. ras ebrZvian da ra ar as-venebT RvTisSvilebs pirimzes, ze-gardas, cecxlis jvars, lomisas, ko-palas, iaxsars?
_ es Cemi siyrmis samyaroa, am mi-Tosur samyaroSi avidgi fexi. Cvenixeoba Cveni da Cveni winaprebis salo-cavi xatebiT, xevisberebiT, dasture-biT, xatis veeba ifnebze dakidebulizarebiT, spilenZis didi salude qva-bebiT iyo savse. am xeobaSi erTad cx-ovrobdnen xatebi da adamianebi. xatiiyo xalxis mfarveli da imedi, xatiaSinebda da Cvens erdoebSi SemoRwe-vas ar anebebda avsulebs; xatebze iyodamokidebuli sicocxle da sikvdili,bedniereba da ubedureba, dari da av-dari; meores mxriv ki adamianebi gan-sazRvravdnen xatebis Zlevamosilebas_ sanTels unTebdnen, saklavsuklavdnen, leqsebiTa da simRerebiTganadidebdnen... gavida dro da TviTCemive warsuli da Cemive mama-biZaniiqcnen miTologiad _ ai isini: farisufrosi ninia, romelic Wrel mind-orze Wreli windebiT mocekvaveRvTisSvilad warmomidgeba xolme;mWedeli beJia, romelic bumbulis sim-subuqiT iqnevs veeba uros da gavar-varebul rkinas bRuja-bRuja yva-vilebi scviva; mewisqvile jirkva, ro-melic devis qals yvarobs da is qaliwisqvilis saRvaridan Sedis Ram-Ramo-biT jirkvasTan... ai, am samyarodangadmovidnen Cemi leqsebi da es Zalianbunebrivia _ mercxalsac uyvarsTavisi bude...
_ did madlobas gixdiT amsaubrisaTvis da bolos erTsac Seg-ekiTxebiT: samomavlod ra gegmebigaqvT, ris daweras da gamoqveynebasapirebT am uaxloes xanebSi?
_ me erTi ucnauroba mWirs: rasacvgegmav, verasodes vasruleb. erT xanserTad varT xolme me da Cemi `samo-mavlo gegma~, mere ki vSordebiT, geg-ma sul qreba, me ki Cems daugegmav sam-uSaos vasruleb. amgvarad, rasac vgeg-mav, winaswarve vici, rom ver Sevas-ruleb; xolo Tu ufro praqtikulgegmaze vilaparakebT _ minda gam-ovce anda gamosacemad mainc movamza-do Cemi nawerebis oTxtomeuli (pirve-li tomi _ poezia, meore _ liter-aturuli werilebi, mesame _ dokumen-turi proza, meoTxe _ publicisti-ka), Tumca isic kargad vici, rom esCanafiqric ocneba ufroa, vidre re-aloba.
iagom morigi sarecenzio dedanidamido magidaze - erTi Seneburadmixedeo. saqaRaldeze ewera`Wabuaamirejibi, moTxrobebi~. ar gamegona.`aseTi mwerali gagigiaT vinmes?~ - vi-kiTxe. `arao~ - yvelam, garda elizbarubilavasi. me CavTvale, rom muSaobaSigarTulma ver gaigona Cemi SekiTxva,anda gaigona da... e.i. morigi damwyebiTu ucnobi mwerlis dedani gadmome-ca. iago aseTebs ratomRac me maZlev-da ufro xSirad. Tumca ra ratomRac.uaryofiTi daskvnebis wera ar iyo sa-siamovno - Sromac ikargeboda, rakiwigni ar gamovidoda da ganawyenebu-li avtorebis mogeriebac gixdeboda.rogoria Tavis leqsebis genialu-robaSi darwmunebuli giJpoetasaTvismtkiceba imisa, Seni leqsebi ar vargao.ganawyenebulni midiodnen da ranaircils aRar mwamebdnen. marto leqsebiara, proza xSirad uaresi iyo, Tu kiimaTze`proza~ SeiZleboda eTqva kacs.
CavTvale, rom es viRac Wabua ami-rejibic am rangis iqneboda, Tumcagvar-saxelma erTgvari simpaTia gamiC-ina. roca saamisod movidrove, daviw-ye kiTxva da pirvelive abzacidan vi-grZeni namdvil da saintereso mweral-Tan mqonda saqme. TiToeuli moTxro-ba iseTi interesiT wavikiTxe, redaq-toruli Tvali mimaviwyda. mere mivu-brundi saCxrekad, magram am mxrivacsasworebi TiTqmis araferi iyo. raTqma unda, dadebiTi recenzia davwere.sxvanairad me ar SemeZlo, kargzekargs vwerdi, cudze - cuds. mafrTx-ilebdnen gamocdili redaqtorebi,sanam recenzias dawer, jer gaige mo-samzadebel gegmaSi aris Tu ara, surTgamocema Tu arao. amis gamo didi usia-movnebebic Semxvda. Cemi dadebiTi re-cenziiT mere iTxovda avtori, gegma-Si unda SemitanoTo, gegmaSi Setaniliiwyebda yvirils, roca amoagdebdnen.
recenzia damTavrebuli ara mqon-da, xmel-xmeli, maRali kaci Semovida.ikiTxa, rogor aris Cemi wignis saqmeo?iagom Cemsken aniSna - sarecenziod ai,gigi xornaulsa aqvso. ase gavicaniTWabua amirejibi. vuTxari, Tqveni moT-xrobebi momewona da dadebiT recen-ziasa vwer-meTqi. didi madlobao miT-xra da Tan imave toniT gaagrZela:
- Cem saproteqciod, saTxovneladxom aravin mosula SenTano?
- aravin, vin unda mosuliyo-meTqi?- aravin! ubralod me minda esmodes
yvelas, rom marTla mowonebis gamower dadebiT recenzias da ara vinmesTxovniT.
- ara, ras brZanebT, TxovniT da mi-TiTebebiT arasodes damiweria da arcamas vwer! - cota ar iyos, mewyina. vervigebdi ras ambobda, - giTxariT dakidev gimeorebT, Tqveni moTxrobebime momewona, gnebavT xutasTan SebrZan-diT da SemogyvebiT - es moTxrobebiunda gamoices-meTqi!
- didi madlobeli var! - odnav Cae-Rima, gaficxeba rom Semetyo, - me ar-sad Semsvleli da mTxovneli ara var!varga, gamoeciT, ar varga, rogorcmomitania, iseve waviReb! - moWra mok-led, mqised wamoxta, xeli CamomarTvada ise swrafad gavarda, gacileba vermovaswari.
- dedas geficebiT, ver davijereb-di, Tu aseTi vaJkaci kidev dadiodaTbilisis quCebSi! - SesZaxa Zvelma re-daqtorma naTela lorTqifaniZem.marto naTela da sxva Cveni qali re-daqtorebi - lili gegelia, neli ama-Sukeli - ki ara, mec aRtacebuli davr-Ci. Wabua ara hgavda sxva avtorebs,`CawyobebiTa~ da qlesaobiT mosulni,xutasTan Seyolas rom mexvewebodnen.
xutasTvis Seetana viRacas ambavi.sxva aravin iqneboda an TviT iago, anelizbari. meore dRe iyo Tu mesame,gamomiZaxa da:
- gigi, Wabua amirejibis wignzedadebiTs wer?
- diax, Zalian momewona.- mainc ras wer?- rom wigni aucileblad unda gam-
oices.- Senze yofila aq yvelaferi!
elizbars rom uaryofiTi aqvs dawer-ili, ici? Sen Tvli, rom imaze metaderkvevi, ra unda gamoices da ra ara?
- namdvilad ar vicodi, batonelizbars uaryofiTi Tu hqonda daw-erili, magram romc mcodnoda, memainc imas davwerdi, rac davwere.
- eg imitom, rom Sen briyvi xar, winar ixedebi, elizbari gamocdilia,windaxeduli - eg Seni Wabua amireji-bi, ici, rom gadasaxlebidan axlaxansaris dabrunebuli, aTi Tu TxuTmetiweli cixeebsa da gadasaxlebaSi aqvsgatarebuli.
- pirvelad mesmis, batono xuta!kidec imitom aris ase damajereblad,ase Zalian sainteresod cimbiruliambebi... raki eWvi geparebaT, Semogi-tanT erT yvelaze patara, yvelazeubralo moTxrobas, waikiTxeT daTqven gadawyviteT, me ki vici, rom moge-wonebaT.
- egre vqnaT, kargi, Semomitane.mdare arcerTi ar iyo, moculobiT
ki `velosipedi~ iyo yvelaze patara,is Sevutane. miTxra, aq ara mcalia amiswasakiTxad, Sin waviReb da pasuxs xvalgetyvio. naxevari saaTic ar iqnebodagasuli, mdivanma Semoixeda, xutageZaxiso.
meore diliT gvian movida, batonixuta. Cveulebriv cxramde modiodaxolme. movida da sanam sxvadasxvebsdauZaxebda, isev me damiZaxa.
- yoCaR, gigi, Cven es wigni dawuneb-uli rom gadagvegdo avtorisTvis,Tavi mogveWreboda. Tqven ra giTx-ariT, TeTrad gamaTenebineT Rame.moawere dasabeWdad xeli da stambaSigavuSvaT, am wigns gegmaSi Setana arasWirdeba, gegmis gareSe unda gam-ovceT!
fexebze ekida cenzura da moskov-ic, wigni Tu moewoneboda, Tu saWirodmiiCnevda, gegmis gareSe pirdapir stam-baSi agzavnida. Cemi SuamdgomlobiT,magaliTad, ase gamosca mixeil WabaS-vilis`ucxo sityvaTa leqsikoni~; Ce-mamde didi brZola hqonda gadaxdili`Cveni saunjis~ pirvel tomSi Setani-li hagiografiuli teqstebis gamo -rogor SeiZleba sabavSvo gamomcem-lobam religiuri literatura ga-mosceso?
`Zia SoTas badia~ - ase hqvia Wabuaamirejibis moTxrobebis im krebuls,romelic 1965 wels gamoica da rom-lis redaqtoric me gaxlavarT. am am-bavma dagvamegobra. sufrebze, sadacki erTad movxvdebodiT, yovelTvisdidi rixiT aformebda Cemi ̀ gmirobis~ambavs. Sexvedrebi ki xSiri gvqondavaxuStisTan, gogi TurmanaulTan fSav-Si da sxvebTan. meubneboda - exla erTromans vamTavreb`daTa TuTaSxias~,imis redaqtoradac Sen meyolebio.magram mere, jer`ciskarSi~ im romanisdabeWdvasTan dakavSirebiT, mere wig-nad gamocemasTan, iseTi ambebi dau-triales, iq gigi xornaulis adgiliaRara rCeboda. miuxedavad amisa, Cve-ni megobroba mainc grZeldeboda.
- eh, ar Rirs! - xeli Caiqnia Wabuam.ar moeSvnen da gviambo: gadavixede
ezoSi, manqana iq aRar idga; vfiqrob-di Camowerili taqsi vis rad unda, vinmoiparavso, gamoCnda yvelafris mki-srebeli xalxi. Tanac, etyoba, icod-nen, rom Cemi iyo, telefonze da-mirekes`oriaTas maneTs ama da am adg-ilas moitan da manqanas waiyvano~.`moicaT, moicaT yurmili ar dahki-doTo! - CavZaxe, - viRaca nabiWvrebixarT, Tqven me ar micnobT. midiT amada am misamarTze, ikiTxeT esa da eskaci da hkiTxeT, Wabua amirejibi rakaciao da is getyviT. exla ori saaTisvadas gaZlevT: manqana moiyvaneT daiqve daayeneT, Tu TavisTvis kargi gin-daT-meTqi. erTi saaTic ar iyo gasu-li, gadavixede da moeyvanaT.
wamosvlisas Wabuam im weliwads ga-mosuli ̀ daTa TuTaSxias~ II tomi maCu-qa warweriT: `gigi xornauls, SesaniS-nav mwerals, megobarsa da Zmakacs siy-varuliT - Seni Wabua 1976 w.~ pirvelitomi raki nayidi mqonda, aRar gamo-varTvi.
gigi xornauli
Wabua amirejibimogonebaTa wignidan
- gogo, Camomiwere Seni, Seni Zmebis,dedisa da mamis dabadebis wlebi, Tvee-bi. momitane Savi bzis jvari da gasanT-luli Zafi. Caiketeba boqlomi, dar-Cebi ganze.
oTxSabaTis sizmari
eniT uTqmeli mowyenilobisgan in-fantilur arsebad viqeci. rogor min-doda gamomexata sixaruli, roca gxe-davdi mdinaris xidze. srulma uunar-obam momicva. rac adre Cems sisustedmimaCnda, anu siyvaruli, axla undob-lobad meqca da swored igive ram ma-Zlierebda SenTanac da (zogadad garesamyarosTan). yelSi gamoburTulixorcmeti maZlevda warmoudgenel en-ergias da mutantis ier-saxes. mudmi-vad CarTuli radioTi, televizoriT,kompiuteriT, yursacvamebgarWobiligadavrbodi gzajvaredinebze daTvalebs vawebebdi wamwamebiT, rom ube-dureba ar damtexoda Tavs da vaiTu,SemTxveviT gamexila.. ise davpatarav-di.. silamazisadmi yovelgvari mowi-webis grZnoba gamiqra. sixarulisa damwuxarebis zeaWrili da xan qvedaSve-buli klaknilis rxeviT SiSiT vadgam-di TiToeul nabijs. genetikuraddaviSale. Cems socialur qcevasaranairi axsna ar moeZebneba. me Semi-Zlia aTi frankis gamo sicocxles gam-ovasalmo mama, romelic didi xaniaarsad muSaobs da daxeuli fexsacmliTdadis. aRarc ki maxsendeba babuas sax-lSi rodis viyavi stumrad. masTan er-Tad sadme wasvlaze aRar maqvs lapar-aki, is CemTvis sruliad ucxo eTni-kuri jgufis wevria. Cems identifika-cias, anu diagnosis dasmas me Tvi-Tonac veRar vaxerxeb da mudmivad sak-uTar TavTan SejibrSi dasasruliskenmiveqanebi.
Sen ki, am yvelafris sawinaaRmde-god mamapapiseul saxlSi mogyavslamazi qali, wvebi masTan pirveli Ra-mis uflebiT da yovel Tves mis men-struaciul cikls akontroleb. naTe-savebTan erTad awyob SabaTobis Sexve-drebs da did sufrebze Seni simamriTamadaa. kviraobiT ki ubnis taZarSidadixar da stiqarosnis TeTri kvar-TiT aRavlen mesas.