John Ames - Surviving Elite High

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SURVIVING ELITE HIGH

Copyright 2012 by JOHN H. AMES

All rights reserved. No part of this book may be

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This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters,

places, situationsand incidents are the product of the authors

imaginations or are used

fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events,

locales, or persons, living or

dead, is purely coincidental.

Published in Australia

Digitally by

Dare Empire eMedia Productions


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ISBN: 978-0-9873287-2-4

Cover Art 2012 Dare Empire eMedia Productions


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Chapter One

My knees were shaking. I dont really know why was so nervous. I had walked down these sam

corridors before, but this was my first time here as

unior. I stood looking down the main hallway, watchin

as the world slowly passed me by, and feeling as if

was completely invisible to everyone. I held myself fo

comfort, then took my first step and froze. As my hea

pounded, that stupid knot developed inside my stomac

again. I hated that feeling. I looked around, trying m

best to spot Madison or Kitty, but I was completelalone among all the commotion. I lowered my head an

continued with my excruciating journey. Suddenly, tw

hadows blocked my way. I looked up and came fac

o face with my two tormentors: Jacob Ashmore anMatthew Ward, better known as the basketball jocks.

Hello, little guy, Jacob leered as he looked down a

me. He stood six inches taller than me and was stron

as a bull. Did you miss me?

I stumbled backwards.


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Where are you going, bitch? Matthew barked a

he grabbed my collar.

He pulled me in and lifted me into the air. My tw

feet swung from side to side.

II was

Shut the fuck up, fag!

Let's give him the welcoming, Jacob suggested wit

a grin.

Oh, no, not the welcoming. Anything but thwelcoming. I knew what they wanted to do. They wer

going to throw me inside the huge trash can behind th

chool.

PUT HIM DOWN! shouted a familiar voice.We all turned to look. It was my best friend Kitt

Scott. Her red hair was visible from a mile away, an

her black eyes gave her a demonic look. I thanked Go

when I saw her pointing at Matthew. He looked at he

with a smirk. He knew that Kitty would explode an

make a big scene. Matthew unwillingly let me go, and

fell flat on my ass. I ran to Kitty's side before the

changed their minds. I wrapped my arms around he

and faced my attackers.


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See you soon, pussy, Matthew added as the

urned around and walked away.

I turned to Kitty. She was all steamed up. He

freckles seemed to have spread and were red hot. Sh

urned to me with a scowl on her face.

Why do you let those assholes treat you like that?

Kitty asked me as she placed her hands on her hips.

Geez Kitty! They're bigger and stronger than m

Plus, they're jocks, you know.I thought they stopped bullying you, Kitty stated a

he led the way through the crowd.

So did I. Besides, two against one is an unfair figh

especially against me. Have you looked at me lately?Kitty stopped in front of her locker. She glanced a

me and then opened the small compartment. I wasn

mall. Five feet and seven inches was a reasonabl

height. I was too skinny though. I didnt have an

muscles on my body and she wanted me to fight thos

wo giants. Was Kitty insane?

I know, but you've got to stand up to them

Madison and I can't be with you every single second o

he day. They bullied you around for two years and


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has to stop now!

Kitty slammed the door closed.

I know, I murmured while I spotted Madiso

behind her. Hello Madison!

Hello my two best friends in the whole wide world

Madison answered as she stood beside us. Madiso

Adams had long black hair, dark eyes and porcelai

kin. She quickly scanned our faces. What happened

thought you'd be excited to see this slut?That was Madison, alright. She knew how to su

hings up.

Jacob and Matthew, Kitty mumbled as she walke

down the hallway.Madison turned to me with a smile. She embrace

me and we immediately dashed to Kitty's side. As w

walked, Madison turned to me.

Are they still bullying you?

Ye

Yes they are, Kitty interrupted as she pulled to m

ight.

As usual, I was in the middle.

I thought they stopped bothering you, Madiso


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murmured as she smiled at a senior.

Yes, for summer.

Consider yourself lucky, Madison replied as w

walked into English class. Who wouldn't want to ge

oughed up by two hot jocks?

Me, I answered meekly as I sat in the first chair o

he first row.

Kitty sat beside me, and Madison sat behind he

This was our usual seating arrangement for all ouclasses. They turned to me.

Don't worry, just stick with one of us and you'll b

fine, Madison assured me.

I know, but we still have gym and I have to changwith them.

That's hot! Take some pictures for me!

Kitty rolled her eyes.

Sorry kiddo, we can only do so much. You've go

o stand up to them.

I'm dead meat! Why does this school have to stres

ports so much? Four years of mandatory physic

education is just crazy. Why in the world would they d

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Blame the Children Against Obesity Association

o more sugar in this school, as if we need to los

weight. We're perfect.

Yeah, soon they'll start to sell sugar like crack,

Kitty added as she high-fived Madison.

They giggled as I turned to the door. A young man

tepped inside and I immediately recognized him. It wa

icholas Anthony Hawking, also known as Nick Wil

Hawk, captain of the Elite Hawks. Girls nicknamed hiick Wild Fuck because of his promiscuous nature. H

was six feet tall, light tan skin, short dirty blond hair, an

crystal baby blue eyes. The guy was dreamy. He wa

he most popular jock in school, the school's staquarterback, and athlete extraordinaire. He was a

perfect as they come.

I want to have his babies! Madison murmured a

ick walked to the back of the class.

Why does he always have to walk in like that? As

he's some type of god or something? He wasn't like tha

a few years ago, Kitty replied as she examined Nick.

He is a god. Look at him! The guy's hot, Madiso

answered.


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And a stupid jock, I added irritably.

I know that you hate jocks, but Nick is F-I-N-E

Look at the package between his legs! It looks like th

perfect Christmas present.

I agree with John. He's a jock and a huge dick.

Yeah I bet, Madison answered with a smirk. Kitt

and I rolled our eyes. Don't get me wrong, all jock

are assholes, but this one is fine as hell.

Why don't you say that in front of his girlfriend?Are they still dating? Kitty asked us.

Yeah, that lucky bitch, Madison replied.

Everyone knew that Allison and Nick were a couple

They were crazy for each other or so it seemed. Allisowas the head cheerleader and last year's vice presiden

of the student body. Nick was not surprisingly la

year's president. Everyone knew they won because o

heir tremendous popularity and extreme wealth.

People like Nick and Allison make me sick.

Us too, Kitty answered

Madison immediately nodded in agreement.

I just hate that I have to endure two more years o

mandatory physical education.


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Stand up to those stupid pricks then, Madison tol

me. We don't want them to bully you aroun

anymore.

I smiled. The door opened once more. It was Mr

Carter, our new English teacher. She walked in with

huge smile from cheek to cheek and introduced herself

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John? Can I have a word with you?

It was Mrs. Carter. Her class had just ended an

everyone was leaving the room. I turned to my two be

friends who signaled that theyd wait outside. When thdoor closed behind them, I knew we were all alone.

tood silently in front of her desk and admired my ol

ike shoes. My heart began to pound and that stupi

knot in my stomach returned. Did I do somethin

wrong? Why does Mrs. Carter want to speak to me

Suddenly, she cleared her throat. I looked up to fin

her smiling warmly. Her smile immediately calmed m

down.

Yes, Mrs. Carter?


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I heard from your last English teacher that you'r

quite an amazing student. You've maintained a perfec

GPA and you're ahead of all your classmates.

I simply do my best.

Precisely. I also know from your school record tha

you owe a few tuition payments from last year. This is

private institution and we can't have a student owin

more than three months

Oh my God! There goes my education! I had to saomething.

Mrs. Carter, my mom is doing her best to keep u

with the payments, but the recession

Let me finish.Sorry, I answered as I hung my head.

I'm aware of your financial difficulties since I'm th

new Financial Affairs consultant. I spoke to your mo

his morning and found a solution to your problem.

I looked up. She was smiling warmly again. I though

was getting a scholarship. I wanted to jump an

cream out of pure joy right there in front of her, bu

Mrs. Carter continued.

I've enrolled you in this year's tutoring program


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You're being assigned to a special student. Th

tudent's parents will pay for your monthly school fe

and in return, you'll tutor their son for the entire schoo

year.

Why me? I asked her suddenly. Umwith all du

espect, Mrs. Carter, why me?

Well, you're the best student in your class and yo

do need the financial help. They want the best for the

on so they graciously agreed to pay for your monthchool fee. It seemed like the perfect solution.

Oh, I see

Meet me today at 3:45 at the Financial Affairs offic

o discuss the details.Yes, Mrs. Carter, and thank you, I told her with

ears of gratitude threatening to escape.

You don't have to thank me. You're a great kid and

t would be a shame for you not to reach your fu

potential and graduate next year, Mrs. Carte

answered as she picked up her briefcase. Remembe

3:45.

I nodded with a smile. I quickly made my way out o

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They stared at me for a few seconds until Kitty spok

up.

What happened? What did she want?

She wanted to talk to me aboutschool and th

upcoming year.

I have no idea why I lied to them. Maybe I didn

want to tell them that my mom was late with paymen

again or that I was a new charity case for some ric

folks. It was already humiliating enough to wear raggeclothes and get bullied around for being poor.

Can we get to class?

Okay, Kitty answered as she glanced at Madison

* * *

I hate this food, Madison complained, poking a

he rice biscuits. Did you know they feed this t

tarving children in Africa?

I don't mind the food, I remarked, taking several o

hem.

The food was free so I filled my plate wit

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our lunch until Madison spoke up.

Are you going to tell us what you discussed wit

Mrs. Carter?

It's nothing, I murmured as I played with a grape.

Come on, Johnny Boy. You can tell us anything

We're your friends and we love you, Kitty told me.

I sighed, turning to her with teary eyes.

My mom is late with the tuition payments again.

Oh, Johnny Boy, Kitty cooed as she hugged meMadison gently rubbed my back. You know you coul

always count on me for help.

And me, Madison added as she pressed her hea

on my back. But you're so stubborn! Why do yoefuse our help?

I pulled away from Kitty's warm embrace an

addressed them.

I can't take anything more from you guys. I don

even know how to repay you for the clothing and shoe

you guys bought me last year. I need to maintain m

dignity. It's a guy thing.

John, I'd love to help pay your school fees if you

et me, Madison told me as she wiped my tears. Yo


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deserve that and more. You help us with ou

homework, and we value your friendship more than a

he money in the world.

And you're the sweetest kid ever, Kitty remarke

as she tousled my short brown hair.

And cute, Madison added.

I smiled happily.

Mrs. Carter enrolled me in this year's tutorin

program. She wants me to tutor a special student. Ieturn, his parents will pay for my monthly school fee.

Special? Like retarded? Who? Kitty asked me.

I don't know. I have to meet her today at 3:45.

And you said yes? Madison asked me.I don't have a choice.

That's a great deal! You tutor a dumb rich kid and

continue to study at Elite High.

Exactly, you should be happy! Kitty added with

mile.

I know, but I feel like a charity case.

Don't say that! You're getting paid for your service

Besides, it must be an extremely rich family who wan

o invest in you because they know your worth.


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Exactly! Madison added. And what if he's a sex

ittle stud? Youd better take a naked picture of him fo

me.

You slut! Kitty laughed.

I know, but you guys love me so!

Yes we do! Kitty and I shouted as we hugged her

* * *

It was nerve wracking to say the least. I sat in Mr

Carters office and kept glancing at the time. It wa

4:30. My tutee should have been there at four o'cloc

o we could arrange a timetable at his conveniencYou know what was strange, though? She alway

eferred to him as simply 'him.' She never told me h

name and I was too embarrassed to ask. Maybe sh

wanted to keep the suspense in the air. I simply sat an

waited. When the door opened, Mrs. Carter stood u

o greet him. I didnt even need to glance back becaus

immediately recognized his voice. My heart twiste

nto a knot.

Please don't let it be him, I whispered to God.


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John? This is your tutee.

I stood up, but I kept looking at my old shoes.

I'm so sorry that I'm late but I had practice, h

explained as he stretched out his hand in front of me.

grabbed it and gently shook it as he introduced himsel

Nicholas Anthony Hawking.

John Henry Ames, I answered him.

Hey! I know you from somewhere, Nick declared

We've been in the same classes for the last twyears.

Oh! I'm sorry. I'm just really dumb sometimes.

Okay, then. I'll leave you two alone, Mrs. Carte

tated.An awkward silence crept into the room as soon a

he left. Nick examined the small office while I did m

best not to stare at him. I literally wanted to die on th

pot. I had no idea why I had agreed to tutor him in th

first place. Nick's voice startled me.

I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to be rude o

obnoxious by not knowing your name. I'm a huge dic

ometimes.

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actually know the meaning of obnoxious!?

It's okayapology accepted.

Okay, can we sit? Nick suggested. I immediatel

at down. He chuckled. I guess I didn't have to sa

hat twice.

Sorry.

You don't need to apologize.

Nick sat down beside me. To be honest, I wa

freaking out and I had no idea why. It was probablbecause he was too close to me and I could feel h

body heat. Damn! He smelled so good. I realized then

why Madison wanted him. No! I had to snap back t

eality. Nick was the king of the jocks and my numbeone enemy.

Are you okay?

Shit! Nick was waving his hand in front of my face.

Yes, I answered him.

Good, cause I asked for your time schedule.

Here it is.

I handed him the piece of paper. My hands wer

haking. As a matter of fact, my entire body wa

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Thanks. You really are a quiet little guy. Why are

you so nervous?

I'm not.

You appear to be terrified by my presence.

No I'm not. It's just that

Just what?

I sighed.

I never thought that you'd be my tutee.

Nick smiled while he continued to look at mchedule. I sat looking at him, but he kept glancing a

me every now and then. Each time he did that,

owered my head. I could clearly see him smiling at m

eaction. I began to play with my fingers since I was snervous. Why was he looking at me like that? Was I

oke to him? After he finished, he turned to me.

I see. We could meet every day after 4:30 excep

on Fridays since those are game nights. Is five oka

with you?

I simply nodded.

Cool, Nick said handing me back my schedule. H

tood up. I guess I'll see you tomorrow.

See you, I murmured.


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I immediately bolted through the door. As I glance

back at Mrs. Carters office, I suddenly felt like Id h

a rock wall and was instantly hurled backwards. Oh

no! It was Matthew and Jacob was standing besid

him. He stared down at me like a raging bull on th

oose.

You're dead, Ames! You're a dead little bitch!

I instantly began to crawl down the hallway

Matthew grabbed my legs and spun me around. With ingle tug, he pulled me under his feet. He bent dow

and grabbed me by the collar of my shirt. With a singl

erk, Matthew lifted me into the air and slammed m

nto a nearby wall. A malicious smile developed on hiface.

I'm going to fucking kill you, you little poke!

Let's fuck him up! Jacob suggested with

mischievous smile. I bet he'll love to get fucked by tw

ocks since he's a dirty homo! We can fuck him in th

ocker room and no one will hear a thing.

My heart dropped out of my body. I could no

believe what Jacob suggested. They had always mad

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Matthew's smile grew as he heard Jacob's idea.

Please

Shut the fuck up, you little fag!

Matthew slammed me against the wall again.

PUT HIM THE FUCK DOWN!

It was Nick. I immediately thanked God! That wa

he first time that Id seen him angry. I re-thanked Go

for the fact that he was not looking at me. Matthe

glanced at him and dropped me on the floor. My twormentors took a few steps back. They looked lik

hey had just seen the ghost of Christmas past! I ha

never seen such a look on their faces before. For

moment, I experienced the feeling they must have gottewhen they tormented me. I loved that look on them

Matthew tried to explain.

Sorry Nickwewe were just playing around.

Two against one? That's one fucking unfair figh

Why don't you two stand up to me like that? Nic

asked as he stepped forward.

No man, we don't want any beef with you, Jaco

answered him.

Sink this into your heads. You fuck with him, yo


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fuck with me! Understood?

Yes, Nick. Sorry man! Matthew called out as the

an down the hallway.

As I stared at them, I didnt realize when Nic

eached my side and squatted in front of me. I turned t

him. On impulse, I hugged him. I felt his warm bod

against me, his protective embrace, and his masculin

but gentle hug. As I came to my senses, I quickl

pushed him away. He laughed.Sorry!

It's okay. They really scared you, Nick reassure

me with a smile as he stood up. He stretched out h

hand and helped me to my feet. Now listen to me, hose two ever give you shit again, you tell me. I'll de

with them. Understood?

I nodded in awe.

Come here, Nick insisted as he placed his left ar

over my shoulders. He pulled me into him. I'll take yo

home.

We walked outside and yes, I was freaking out!

had never been so close to anyone like that before,

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am trying to say is that I had never been so close t

another guy before. I loved the security that his tigh

embrace offered me since, for the first time in my life,

felt protected. That was the one thing that I wante

most in the world. I wanted protection.

Nick took me to his new 2009 Shelby Mustang.

eemed like every year he had a new car, but always

Mustang. Nick loved Mustangs. Mustangs, sports, an

girls were among his favorite things in the world. Anex. Nick loved hot, wild, animalistic sex. How did

know that? Ask anyone in Elite High. We all knew

ick's life, or at least we thought we knew.

I quietly sat on the passenger seat and studied him ahe drove me home. He was born to look cool and b

cool. His aviator sunglasses gave him a cockiness that

envied. After a short stopped at Baskin Robbins, h

dropped me home. My house, compared to Nick

uxurious mansion, was a dog kennel. His tree hous

was probably bigger than my residence. He quiet

tared at me from the comfort of his car.

Meet me tomorrow at the library. I was going to te

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ports? You're built for speed.

My face got red while I smiled nervously.

No, I don't. Thanks for the ride home and for th

ce cream.

No problem. See you, kiddo.

Nick started his car and sped down the street.

tood there, watching Nick drive down the street for

couple of minutes. He was the opposite of what

originally thought. I imagined him to be an egocentriock that couldnt care less about me or anyone else

Surprisingly, he was not selfish. He was Nick Wil

Hawk: the hero, the lover, the friend, and athlet

extraordinaire. I could go on and on, but on that day, aw a side of him I had never seen before. I saw h

compassionate side. I turned around and walked bac

nto my world. For a few seconds, I had been inside h

world, but now, I had to face my own reality.

I stepped into my house. It was dark. I tried to tur

on the light, but the bulb was burnt out. I walked int

he kitchen and headed straight for the refrigerator.

was empty as usual. I honestly did not know why

bothered to check each time I got home. I guess that


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always wanted to find something inside. I found a fe

tale bagels and a jar of jam on top of the kitche

counter (or in other words, my dinner for the night).

walked into my room and locked the door. As

plopped on top of my bed, I observed my almo

empty room. At least I had a bed, a closet, and a sma

black and white television, although cable was off limit

did have a thin wire that I attached to the windo

from my television set. With that technologicannovation, I managed to get a few local channels.

was better than nothing.

I began to remember my day, my sexual tormentor

my friends, and Nick. My heart pounded at the thoughof Nick standing in front of me. He was perfect an

completely out of reach. Nick would never see me a

anything more than his shy tutor. He deserved better

much better. With these and many more thoughts,

dozed off into a deep sleep.


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Chapter Two

Its not like I dont know that I am gay. Ive beeaware of that since pretty early on. Yes, I am gay, but

would never have the courage to say it out loud. Firs

heres my mom. What would she say? Would she sti

ove me? Would she understand me? Would she hate

me? Would she disown me as her one and only son

As for my father, I never once met the guy! An

honestly, I did not want to meet him. I never onc

asked my mom about him and, in reality, I do not eve

know his name. He abandoned me when I was bornHe simply left. He didnt want the responsibility o

aising a child. I was a complicated birth. I was born a

even months weighing only two and a half pounds.

was her miracle baby and therefore I did not want tdisappoint her.

Then, there are my friends. I think that they woul

understand and love me. Finally, theres society. Let

face it; society hates everyone that does not fit into the

perfect little standards. They instantly discard them a


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ocial outcasts. I, for one, did not want to be the poo

gay guy. It was bad enough being the poor guy only.

I got up early the next day and went straight into th

hower. It was freezing cold. Hot water was a luxur

ather than a necessity. After I took my cold shower,

earched for something presentable to wear. I found a

outfit that Kitty gave me for my birthday last year. Afte

putting it on, I ran downstairs to find something to ea

To my surprise, I found a note from my mom on thkitchen counter. She congratulated me for my tuto

position and said that things were going to change fo

he better. My mom also left a plate of waffles behind;

howed her appreciation for my getting a new job. Thfact that I was getting paid to tutor took a huge weigh

off her shoulders. Making the waffles also showed he

genuine love towards me. Yes, she worked three job

and we barely had something to eat, but she did all o

hat for me. Paying for the most expensive school in th

egion was not easy. It took a lot of work and sacrifice

My mom knew that a good education was the key to

brighter future.

I ate my food and stepped outside. I hated that pa


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of the day. I had to walk three miles because Elite Hig

didnt offer public transportation. Against my will,

began my long journey to school.

I stood at the entrance once again. As I walke

down the hallway, I spotted Matthew and Jacob.

froze and immediately turned away. I prayed to th

dear Lord in the highest that neither of them would spo

me. While I stood in front of the first locker, I glance

down the hall. Shit! They were staring at me. I panickeand headed towards the entrance. Suddenly, I bumpe

nto Madison, who wore her usual vibrant smile.

Good morning.

Morning, Madison.My shaky voice sold me out. Madison stared at m

and followed my fears like a dotted line. She als

potted Matthew and Jacob. As she hugged me, sh

whispered into my ear:

It's okay.

Against my will, Madison dragged me down th

hallway while Matthew and Jacob stared at us. The

were definitely angry about yesterday and I could te

hey wanted revenge. A smirk developed on Matthew


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face when we passed in front of him.

Bye, little friend.

Madison scowled at him. When we were at a saf

distance, I turned to them. They were making their wa

owards another corridor.

Assholes, Madison murmured. You need t

eport them.

I can't, Madison. They'll have it out for me eve

more and the school won't do anything to them becausof their parents. I don't want to die young, you know.

She gave me a comforting smile and examined m

outfit.

You look cute.Thanks.

I blushed. Suddenly, we bumped into Kitty.

There you are! I've been looking everywhere fo

you two.

We just got here, Madison answered.

Cool, let's head to class.

We walked to Mr. Peterson's Literature class and

at down in our usual seating arrangement. They quick

urned to me. Kitty was the one that spoke this time.


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So, who's the kid you're tutoring?

No one important.

Kitty immediately glanced at Madison, who quick

eaned towards me.

Tell us, Johnny Boy. We'll find out eventually.

I know, but I wanted anyone else but him.

Oh, no! It's Matthew! That's why he called you littl

friend a minute ago.

Say what!? Kitty asked immediately.Hell no! Thank God! Anyone but those two freaks

Then who is it? Kitty asked eagerly.

I sighed.

Nick Wild HawkTheir mouths dropped open and remained that wa

until Madison spoke up.

Shut the fuck up! Nick Wild Hawk?!

How comes? Kitty asked me.

I don't know. I'm guessing that he needs a tutor.

You need to get a naked picture of him! Madiso

blurted out with a smile.

We scowled at her while we shook our heads.

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naked picture of Nick would cost in the porn industry

We could sell that shit and make enough money t

urvive for years.

Kitty laughed, but quickly turned to me.

What are you going to do? You hate that guy. As

far as I know, he's a huge dick.

Kitty's right. Many girls say that he's huge

Madison added with a smirk.

I had to laugh. Madison turned everything sexufunny.

I don't have a choice. He seems like a cool an

down to earth guy.

They glanced at each other. Madison turned to me.Why do you like him all of a sudden?

I don't! It's just that

What? Kitty asked smiling.

Hesaved me.

Saved you? From whom or what?

After a long sigh, I recounted to them the events tha

ranspired the previous day. I left out the sexua

harassment part. I dont know why I was s

embarrassed to tell them that. After all, it wasnt m


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fault.

That's so heroic, Madison sighed, smiling. That

why Matthew called you little friend.

Yea

At that moment, Nick came into the room. H

nodded at me as he walked by. I instantly becam

nervous and my stomach twirled. I hated the feeling o

ittle butterflies flapping around your guts to the point o

nauseousness. Madison and Kitty smiled. Theuspected that I liked him and that I was gay. They ju

never said anything to me. The teacher came in afte

him and our conversation ended. I thanked God again.

* * *

It was the dreaded third period, or Physic

Education. Do not get me wrong. I maintained an A

but what I hated was the locker room. I had to chang

n front of everyone including Matthew and Jacob.

was extremely vulnerable here since my two be

friends were far away. One time, Matthew and Jaco

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neck. But you know what was worse? It was at the en

of the class! I bathed at least fifty times that day

Another time, they locked me inside one of the locker

and left me inside for the entire period. One time, I on

had my towel on and they yanked it away from me!

was naked in front of everyone while they laughe

merrily! I was their little fun target. I would have love

o trade places with Madison since she always wante

o see naked jocks.Anyway, here I was again, standing at the entranc

of the male locker room. I sighed while I pushed th

door open.

Many students were stripping off their clothes owalking around naked. I simply lowered my head an

made my way to my locker. I quickly opened it an

hrew my bag inside. I retrieved my gym clothing, whic

consisted of a white shirt and blue knitted cotton pan

with the school's initials on the right leg, and stripped t

my boxers. Suddenly, two voices startled me.

Hey little friend.

My cock missed you.

Fuck! It was Jacob and Matthew. I gulped a


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Matthew's hand touched my right shoulder and spun m

around. Matthew was butt naked and a blue jockstra

covered Jacob's family jewels.

What's the matter, little bitch? You like my big

dick? Matthew taunted as he leaned towards me.

hook my head. You want it, don't you little fag

Kneel down and put that thing in your mouth. Pleas

your man. You'll fucking love it, faggot.

I walked backwards until I bumped into my lockeMatthew smiled evilly. Suddenly, someone cleared hi

hroat and they quickly glanced to their right. A

Matthew turned to me, his face went pale.

See you around little guy!Remember, we've got your back, Jacob added a

hey headed towards the opposite end.

I sighed. As my heart rate slowed down, I turned t

ee their worst nightmare, Nick. He was standing at th

other end with his gym bag in his right hand. When h

topped beside me, Nick dropped the bag on th

bench and turned to me with a serious face.

Were they bothering you again?

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You sure?

I nodded. I have no idea why I lied to him. Well,

hink I do. I just wanted to put them behind me an

move on with my life without any violent confrontation.

knew that if Nick found out the truth, he would hun

hem down. He was that kind of guy. Everyon

espected Nick Wild Hawk since he fought like

professional. Many of his victims ended up in th

hospital while he just got a few cuts and bruises. I oncheard that he beat up three guys who were bigger an

tronger than him at the same time. Nick won easily

Personally, I thought people exaggerated, but later i

ife, I found these rumors to be true.Good. I'm going to change here since my locker

oo far away. I switched gym group.

Really? I asked him shyly as I put on my shirt.

Yeah, most of my friends are in this group anyway.

Nick took off his shirt. Holy shit! Nick's body wa

he living statue of a Greek god. He was not buff lik

many other athletes, but he was almost there. Botto

ine, his body was perfect. He proceeded to take off h

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ocks.

Aren't you going to finish changing? Nick asked m

as he sat down to put on his sneakers.

I nodded. I quickly stepped into my gym pants an

put on my sneakers. He smiled at my initial reaction.

was so nervous in front of him and I didnt know why

After we finished dressing, Nick led me to the footba

field where I met Kitty and Madison. I joined the

while Nick joined his jock friends. We had to wait foome other students, but as soon as they arrived, w

began to stretch.

Looks like Nick is in our gym class, Madiso

noted as she stretched her legs on the grass.Yeah, and I bumped into my two best friends

minute ago.

What? Does Nick know? Kitty asked me as sh

tretched her arms.

No. As soon as they saw him, they walked away.

You should have told him.

Nick isn't my dad. I shouldn't be answering to him

He's my tutee. Besides, I don't know what his re

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He's right, Kitty. Why is he being friendly toward

him all of a sudden? Jocks like him use people all th

ime, you know.

Okay, just keep your guard up.

I will.

Now that we settled thatdid you see him naked?

Madison asked with a mischievous grin.

No, but I saw him with his jock only.

Oh my God! Details!I couldnt tell Madison anything since Coach Jorda

began with his torture. We ran fifty laps around the fiel

and did every exercise demanded by the Childre

Against Obesity Association. I would have loved fohem to go through that one hour of pain that w

endured every Tuesday and Thursday. Kitty, Madiso

and I did our best, but many students had to stop ever

five seconds because they were too hot and exhausted

The jocks, on the other hand, had a blast. To them,

was like a picnic on a cloudy day while we dragged ou

asses through the finishing line. God, I hated them

almost all of them.

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out as she dropped on the ground holding her preciou

pride and joy. Kitty and I looked at each other an

aughed. We were sitting next to her while we coole

off, making the best out of our two-minute break.

need water!

Don't worry girl, half an hour left, Kitty told her.

Oh my God! I'm going to die, Madison exclaime

as she sat up straight. We got quiet as we watched th

ocks play a short game of American football. Imaginwhat it would be like to be pounded in bed by Nic

Wild Hawk? I bet that he could go on and on and on.

Kitty and I looked at each other. Madison wa

omething else. She was not afraid to show off heexual side. She hated the double standard that men go

over women. Madison was a proud postfeminist.

Why does Nick keep glancing at us?

Kitty and I turned to Nick. She was right, since Nic

kept looking at us every now and then. Suddenly

Coach Jordan blew his whistle and we were ready fo

he second round.

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I was exhausted. I just wanted to go home, drop o

my bed and forget about the world. I painfully dragge

my aching body back to the locker room. Now, th

hower rooms in Elite High School were different fro

your normal ones because they consisted of many stall

Bottom line, you could have a private bath. I thanke

God because I did not want to shower with Matthew o

acob. I quietly waited outside since I was avoidinhem.

Aren't you going in? Nick asked as he crept u

from behind me.

Yeah, I'm just waiting for the others to finish.Come on, kiddo. They won't hurt you. I won't le

hem.

Nick hung his towel over his shoulder and pushed m

nside. We were lucky since there were three empt

talls. I went into one and closed the glass door.

quickly undressed and bathed. Thanked God the schoo

had hot water available because my muscles ached

When I finished, I silently left the stall, but Nick was st

howering. I didnt know what to do. I wanted to leave


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but I couldnt leave him behind. He had been so nice t

me so I decided to wait for him. He came out a fe

minutes later with a towel wrapped around his wais

ick's wet body was anyone's fantasy come true. H

miled and nodded at me to follow him.

You don't talk that much, do you? Nick asked m

as he slipped into his boxer briefs.

I didnt see anything since he still had his towel on.

I'm justJust what? Nick asked as he took off his towel.

Shy, I guess, I answered as I put on my pants.

I see. It's just who you are and you should be prou

of yourself. We're not all the same.Thanks. I guessI lack confidence too.

We can work on that.

We finished changing and left the room. My friend

were waiting for me outside while a few jocks wer

waiting for Nick. We parted ways with a shor

goodbye. Madison asked me tons of questions abou

ick and I happily answered them.

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After classes, I headed to the library to wait fo

ick. I was two hours early, but that gave me enoug

ime to do my homework. Nick walked into the librar

at exactly 5:00 PM. Everyone stared at him as h

entered the room. Many girls released small sighs o

admiration while I tried my best to ignore him. H

pulled up a chair next to me and sat down.

We meet again.Ah! Tell me. In what exactly do you need my help?

asked him with a little more confidence than befor

To be honest, I was even surprised at myself when

asked him that question. He always made me nervouwhenever we were alone, but for some reason or othe

felt more comfortable when other people surrounde

us. We didn't discuss that.

In everything, actually. I've got to get into Princeto

because my parents went there. I've been fuckin

around for the last two years.

Fuck! Nick wanted to get into my dream university!

couldnt believe it.

Okay. So, basically you need to boost your GPA in


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order to get into Princeton. Am I right?

Yeah, that sums it up.

Princeton is a high ranking university. Getting there

won't be that easy.

That's why my parents got me the best tutor

chool. I had no idea you were that smart.

How was Nick able to say that? He didnt know tha

existed until yesterday! Nick began to search fo

omething inside his schoolbag. I pulled myself togetheand said what I had to say.

Thank you.

Nick froze.

For what?It's because of you that I'm still here. Your parent

are paying for my monthly school fee.

You don't have to thank me. My parents have lot

of money. They just want the best for me and you're th

best.

Anyone would have melted if he was not talkin

about academics, but sadly, he was.

But still, I'm thankful for the opportunity.

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homework. Later, we can review the last two days o

classes. I have to get into Princeton.

Sure.

We began with our English homework. We even

discussed the Children Against Obesity Association an

Physical Education. Can you believe that? Somehow

ick made every topic sound interesting. One thing

hated was how often he glanced at me with a tiny grin

He made me so nervous! I did my best to resist himbut it was useless. He found something amusing in me

The unknown world of jocks was one territory I woul

never be able to cross. Our session ended a little afte

ix. By then, almost everyone in school had already leftYou hungry? Nick asked me as we walked out o

chool.

Yes I am. PE left me exhausted.

Cool, because I'm in the mood for burgers.

We jumped inside his car and Nick drove to th

nearest Burger King establishment. I love Burger King

think everyone does! I could actually count th

number of times I tasted those delicious burgers. Thre

tasted them when I graduated middle school and fo


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my last two birthdays. I should thank Madison an

Kitty for those times. Its so funny that three of the mos

mportant people in my life took me to Burger King.

Are you sure you're going to eat that? I aske

ick as I gazed at his super size king burger.

Hell yes! The question really isare you going t

get full?

Nick smiled as he looked at my medium size burge

and Pepsi.I don't eat a lot, but it looks like you do.

When you train hard like me, you're hungry all th

ime, Nick explained as he took a huge bite of h

burger.I laughed. He had a drop of ketchup at the top righ

corner of his lip. Nick turned to me.

What?

You've a little something there, I replied as

pointed to the right side of his lip.

Nick took a napkin and wiped his mouth. When h

finished, he turned to me with a smile.

Thats embarrassing.

I lifted my burger and took a small bite. He laughed.


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What? Do I have something on my face too?

asked as I wiped my mouth.

No. It's just that you take small bites. No wonde

you're so slim. You need to eat a lot in order to build

muscles. Don't chew your food, swallow it.

I love my body. I'm not fat or thin.

True, but that doesn't help you against Matthew o

acob.

I placed the burger down as I remembered thewords.

Whoa! You really are afraid of them. Aren't you?

Yes. They are two mean bullies. Matthew is th

worst one, though.Don't worry, I've got your back now. I promise yo

hat no one will ever hurt you again. Now, eat becaus

'm ordering a second round!

I examined every inch of Nick as we ate. His smil

was warm and welcoming. He was the perfect guy

Allison was one lucky girl. Trust me, Nick did not lie

He ordered a second round, but I took mine home.

didnt want to eat it. I wanted to keep it as a souvenir.

know it sounds stupid, but I wanted to keep somethin


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hat would remind me of that night. I still have tha

Burger King paper bag in my memory box. After h

finished with his second round of food, Nick took m

home.

When I got home, my mom was there. I found he

leeping on the sofa so I covered her with a blanket an

urned off the television. She looked exhausted eve

when she slept. I loved her long honey brown hair an

eyes. Many argued that I was the male version of mmom. I kissed her good night and headed to my room.

I immediately jumped into my bed. My entire bod

ached. It felt as if every muscle had been tugged out o

place. I closed my eyes and relived my day as I dievery night. Usually, my days were dull and uneventfu

There was nothing exciting about my life. It was th

ame old routine: survive Elite High. Yes, Madison and

Kitty enlightened my day, but besides them, my life wa

boring and flat. But something occurred the last tw

days that made my life more interesting. Nick probably

ah! He had always been there, in the background, bu

now that he was in the foreground, things change

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Yes, I craved Nick's love, but I was still afraid of i

Why? I did not want to fall in love with someone wh

would not love me back. That would suck so badly

and I was trying to avoid that nightmare. I did not wan

o get my heart broken by a nave Nick Wild Hawk.

would end up hating him. We were from two ver

different worlds and should remain that way. Nick wa

uperior in every way possible. I was nothing compare

o him. I closed my eyes. It did not take long for me tfall asleep.


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Chapter Three

I wanted to see the Burger King establishment againFor some silly reason, I needed to relive the previou

night so I decided to pass by on my way to school. As

walked through the parking lot, I looked through th

windows and saw Nick and Allison French kissing

They were sitting on the same spot where we sat th

previous night. It felt as if a knife went through my hea

and twisted itself around. I didnt know why it hurt m

he way it did. Its not like I didnt know that he wa

dating her. Everyone knew who Nick dated. Maybe was because I saw them with my very own eyes. I hun

my head and cried my way to school.

I had no idea why I was crying. Thats a lie; dee

nside, I knew. I had fallen in love with Nick WilHawk. I guess seeing them together made me to realiz

hat I was in love with him. How was I going to loo

Madison and Kitty in the eye? We all hated the jocks

Well, Madison wanted to sleep with them, but she sti

hated them. I briskly walked to school and stopped a


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my locker. For the first time ever, I didnt bother t

ook for my two sexual predators. In fact, I was s

angry that if I would have seen them, I would hav

knocked them out with a single punch. I wanted to pu

every single hair from Allison's head and shove the

down her bitchy throat.

That bitch! I shouted as I slammed my locker doo

hut.

Whoa, Nelly! Somebody's angry! Kitty exclaimeas she stood beside me.

Oh, Kitty! II didn't see you, I answered with

nervous laugh.

Nor me, Madison murmured from behind her.Oh, hey Madison!

So, who's the bitch? I mean, besides Madison tha

s, Kitty asked with a wink.

Hey! Madison replied with a laugh.

No one.

I began to make my way towards English class. The

an to my side. Madison spoke before Kitty.

There's something you're not telling us.

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my eyes again. Kitty walked up to me.

Sweetie, what happened?

I

Matthew and Jacob? Madison asked me as sh

gently combed my hair.

I shook my head and sobbed.

Nick! I knew that cheap whore couldn't b

rusted!

What did that son of a bitch do to you? Kittasked me.

I shook my head again as I tried to calm down. I ha

o tell them. They were my best friends, but I could no

ell them that I had fallen in love with Nick. I had to tehem my other secret and finally come clean. I neede

o tell someone.

I'm

What? Madison asked as she wiped my tears.

I'mgay.

Madison and Kitty turned to each other. A few

econds later, they started laughing. Yes, they started

aughing. That was their first initial reaction. I stared a

he two while their laughter died out. Kitty turned to m


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with a smile.

Baby, we knew that before you did.

Yeah, we know you like the back of our hands.

We were just waiting for you to tell us.

I was shocked. Did that mean that my mom kne

oo?

Oh. So, you don't care?

Of course not, Madison answered, smiling.

Yeah, what difference does it make if you like guysYou're still the same person and we love you no matte

what.

I thought that you guys would dislike me at least.

I think that's why we love you more, Kittanswered she extended her arm over my shoulder an

pulled me closer.

We slowly made our way to class.

Yeah, and it makes me more comfortable to tal

about boys and my menstrual cycle in front of you

Madison confessed as she hugged me.

I feel like a fool.

Don't feel that way, Kitty told me as we walke

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We're your friends and we love you, Madiso

eassured me as we sat down.

It's just that I never expected you to be so coo

about it.

We're just two cool bitches, Madison replied

However, I feel like that's not the reason you wer

crying. What made you realized that you were gay?

I guess I've always known. I just came to accept it

Madison and Kitty looked unconvinced. They knehat I was hiding something, but they didnt press o

because Nick and Mrs. Carter entered the room. Nic

nodded at me and I replied with a faint smile. I didn

want to show my resentment towards him. What woulgain from that? Absolutely nothing! I would lose hi

friendship, and I wanted to be his friend. I could b

happy with just being his nerdy buddy.

* * *

Can you believe how much homework we have fo

he weekend? Madison said as she drank her die

coke. It was lunchtime and the cafeteria was busy


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Thank God the first week of classes is over.

I know what you mean. Thank God it's Friday

Kitty squeaked excitedly.

Yup! Well, well, welllook at the happy couple,

Madison pointed out as she witnessed Nick kissin

Allison. They sure are spending a lot of time together.

I didnt look up. They were sitting a few tables awa

from us, but I could not bring myself to glance at them

t was too painful to watch.Football season starts next Friday so they're makin

he best out of the situation, Kitty added. She turned t

me. How are the tutoring sessions going with Nick?

Surprisingly well. We'll start to meet later next weebecause the new football season, I answered as

examined my empty plate. Even though he's a C

tudent, he's doing remarkably well.

Who knew a jock could be smart instead of stupid

A hot, horny and smart jock, Madison added

He's the perfect guy.

Yeah, I replied.

Too bad his girlfriend is such a little bitch.

Believe me, she was. She hated anyone that wa


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marter than her. That actually meant that she hated th

entire school. Nick fell in love with that stupid bimb

because she looked like those blonde playboy bunnie

from the magazines. He cheated on her left, right, u

and down! She was just too dim-witted to realize tha

ick was having sex with the entire squad behind he

back.

I heard Carol blew him last week at his dad

office, Madison continued.I heard she had a sore throat all week, Kitty adde

with a smile.

You have to admit that's hot! I also heard that h

fingered Alice during science lab.Yeah, Kitty answered, laughing. After that, h

boned Beatrice in an empty classroom.

Can we talk about something else? I aske

rritably.

Is that jealousy I smell, Johnny Boy? Kitty aske

me with a smirk.

Hell no!

Mm-hmm, Kitty replied.

Stop that!


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It's okay, Johnny Boy. You can say that he's hot,

Madison told me.

No. He's a big, stupid and horny jock!

But, that doesn't change the fact that he's hot a

hell.

Now you're calling him stupid? You just called him

mart a few minutes ago, Kitty told me.

I said he's a C+ student.

Just admit it, Madison told me.Admit what!?

That he's hot.

No!

Yes, Kitty replied.No!

Yes! they said in unison.

NO!

YES!

Fine! He's hot! I begrudgingly admitted.

They dragged it out of me. They started laughing an

turned red. I had never told anyone that I though

another guy was hot. Kitty turned to me with a smile.

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No. I said he's hot.

We know you, Johnny Boy.

You love him, dont you? Madison added.

No I don't!

You get nervous whenever he comes near you an

ealous whenever you hear those naughty rumors abou

him.

I sighed. Madison and Kitty could read me even if

was written in fifty-three different languages. I coulnever lie to them.

Fine, I like him a lot and I hate hearing stuff lik

hat.

Kitty smiled while Madison hugged my arm.I don't know what to say. Being in love wit

omeone who doesn't love you back is horrible enough

That's probably the worst feeling ever.

I know, but what can I do, Kitty? I can't stop lovin

him. Believe me, I wish I could control my emotion

owards him.

Nick is straight, baby. He has probably slept wit

half the school.

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because they're guys, Madison added.

She made us laugh. There was never a dull momen

with Madison around. Never! We turned to the happ

couple who were talking in hushed tones. Apparently

hey had already exchanged enough saliva.

I love how he inadvertently flexes his muscles

Madison continued.

Allison is one lucky bitch.

Yeah, I answered as I examined Nick's biceps aneaned back.

At that moment, Allison stood and bitch slappe

ick across his face. Our mouths dropped open

unison. The entire school froze and focused theattention towards the previously happy couple.

You fucking asshole! Why are you dumping me!?

I think we're better off alone. Can we talk about th

privately? Nick pleaded as he looked around.

Why!? Allison shouted at the top of her lungs.

Stop, screaming! Lower your voice, please.

Why Nick!? Why!? I love you!

Look! Shut the fuck up already! I'm just tired of th

ame thing over and over again! You're too muc


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drama! I want to live my life, okay? Bye, bitch.

Nick turned around and walked out of the cafeteria

Yes, Nick was a huge asshole and a dick! In a twiste

kind of way, that was the reason all the girls wante

him. He was rugged and sexy. Girls love bad boys an

ick was the worst of them. Allison immediatel

dropped to the floor crying and made a huge scene

Her two best friends helped her up, but she continue

bawling anyway.Oh my God! Madison exclaimed as we closed ou

aws.

He dumped her in front of the entire school,

declared with a laugh.What an asshole! Kitty added.

I had been having such a dull day, but afte

witnessing that, I became Mr. Happy. Yes, I felt bad

for Allison because Nick should have handled thing

differently. It was officialthe era of Nickson wa

over. It was just Nick or just Allison now. As we

headed for the period after lunch, the entire school wen

nuts. Everyone was talking about what happened and

ooked like a Miss America Pageant hit the hallway


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All the girls were combing their hair, fixing their clothe

applying more make-up or perfuming themselves. Nic

was up for grabs and girls would do anything to be h

new girlfriend.

Can you believe these people? Kitty asked as

tudent changed her blouse in the main hallway

They're going all out for him even though he just brok

up with Allison a minute ago.

I know, I answered her with a smile.I was happy. Nick would be far away from tha

tupid bimbo; however, he would probably have a new

girlfriend by the end of class. We walked into Spanis

class and found Nick surrounded by at least elevegirls. As we sat down, Nick stood up. He walked ove

o where we were and sat behind me. I was a nervou

wreck. My heart stopped as he leaned forward an

poke softly.

Hey!

Hi, I answered breathlessly, but he just chuckled a

my reaction.

Can we meet today at three instead? Coach

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Friday of the season. I've got to get into Princeton.

Yeah, sure.

Cool, Nick answered as he turned to Madison

Looking great, Madison.

Thanks, Madison answered as she looked away.

No! Nick was hitting on my best friend! Not Nic

and Madison! Not them! Kitty turned to me and smile

weakly. I immediately faced the front and focused o

Mrs. Sanchez. I heard them talking throughout thclass, but I completely blocked them out. Id rather no

know than get hurt. Nick was hitting on Madison an

here was nothing I could do. At the end of the class

Madison got my attention.John, can we talk? she asked as Nick left the clas

About? I asked trying to sound casual.

Nick.

I'll leave you two alone, Kitty remarked as sh

walked out.

I'm not going to date him. Yes, he looks good, bu

you're a million times more important to me.

That touched my heart. Tears instantly poured out o

my eyes. I hated crying in front of my friends or anyon


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else for that matter. I was just too sensitive.

Madison, I muttered as wiped my tears. If Nic

wants to date you, you should go out with him. Yo

both have the right to be happy. I can't make hi

happy.

Johnny Boy, I'll never date him. Nick is a hug

fucking dick! You saw it today. He uses girls for hi

own pleasure and amusement. I don't want to b

another one on his list. I'm doing this for myself too, yoknow? I may act like a slut, but I do have some dignit

and pride.

Whoa, Madison, you truly are an amazin

ndividual.I know, she answered, smiling. Now, let's go ge

math over with.

Madison was truly amazing. I trusted her with my lif

knew Madison and Kitty would never hurt me. To m

Madison, friends came before any cocky good-lookin

guy, even if that guy was Nick Wild Hawk. We joined

Kitty for the next period and she was happy to see u

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* * *

Guess who just asked me out? Kitty asked u

while she stored away her phone.

Our last class had just ended.

Who? Madison asked her.

Ryan.

Ryan? Ryan Robinson? I asked her. The skate

dude?Yes, and he wants Madison and I to go on a doubl

date with him and Chris Olson.

Chris Olson? The hot sexy senior? Madison aske

excitedly.Yes! They're picking us up at seven. Does tha

mean that you'll go?

Hell yes!

Good, cause I told him yes.

Madison was extremely happy; she loved senior

And yes, I was glad to know that she would be goin

out with Chris instead of Nick.

You ready to go? Nick asked as he stood besid

me.


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Yeah, I answered him with a smile.

Nick was wearing a tight red washed-up shirt an

faded blue jeans. He was looking ten times hotter toda

han usual. Probably because he was single now.

Cool, let's go, Nick told me. He turned to the girl

Ladies, see you Monday.

See you, Nick, and take good care of him, Kitt

aid playfully.

You know it.Bring him back safe and sound, Madison added.

I'd never hurt my best friend.

It was embarrassing. I felt like a sixteen year ol

going out on her first date. I wanted to kill them, but adid was blush. It didnt even register that Nick ha

called me his best friend. We walked out of class an

headed towards the library.

I'm sorry about Madison and Kitty.

It's cool. Your friends are really overprotective;

understand. The jocks haven't been that friend

owards you.

Yeah, I agreed as I opened the library door, bu

ick kept walking towards the exit. Where are yo


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going?

Just follow me, Nick answered as he continue

down the hall. Come on, I won't bite.

I wished he would. I followed him into the school

parking lot where we jumped inside his Mustang. H

drove out of school and headed towards the center o

own. Saint Peter Town was very busy at that time o

day. Many students were heading to the mall to releas

he tension of the first week of classes. Others were juhanging around on the streets and drinking with the

friends. Nick stopped at a Pizza Hut parking lot.

I'm hungry.

You're always hungry.Nick chuckled.

True, but I couldn't eat during midday. You saw the

ittle scene.

Everyone did.

Yeah, let's go inside and order a large pizza.

We stepped out of the car and Nick led me insid

he restaurant. The Pizza Hut was relatively empty whe

compared to the outside world. The waitress took us t

our table and gave us the menu. Nick instantly ordere


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a large pizza with every meat topping and giant jar o

Pepsi. I liked that about him. He always knew what h

wanted and went for it. In a way, that came out a

cockiness, but he was just too confident. He silent

examined me. I was too nervous so I looked away. A

few seconds later, I glanced back at Nick and he wa

till staring at me. While I turned my attention to th

napkins on the table, Nick chuckled.

Why do you get so nervous whenever I stare at yoike that?

II don't.

Yes, you do. I'm not stupid. I've noticed.

Anyone would be uncomfortable when someontares at them that way.

Nick laughed.

You have to be more confident. We really have to

work on that.

The waitress brought the jar of Pepsi and two glas

cups. He silently stared at her ass as she walked away

That's one tight ass, Nick murmured as he took

ip of his drink.

I ignored his comment. He turned to me. I had to sa


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omething before he began to stare at me again o

worse, read my mind like Madison or Kitty.

Why did you dump Allison?

Nick placed his cup on the table and sighed.

Well, to be honest, I was just dating her to ge

pussy.

I could not believe it myself and I was hearing i

ick really was an ass. I kept my mouth shut an

continued listening to him.I didn't want to continue with the charade, so I di

what any man should have done. She wants to plan

wedding date! Can you believe that?! She's thinkin

about marriage and we haven't even graduated ourned eighteen!

Whoa, Nelly! She's a little cuckoo.

Nick chuckled. Damn! He looked so sexy wheneve

he smiled.

A little? More like completely and mentally insane!

ust want to live my life! Yes, I want to settle down on

day, but not until I meet my one true love.

One true love? I knew Nick was a sensitive bad boy

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Those are rumors, okay? he said, smiling.

You sure? People would swear under oath tha

hey're true.

Nick chuckled again.

Okay, yes, some of them are true. I've slept aroun

with a lot of girls and I fuck like there's no tomorrow

But, in my defense, sex is the best thing in the world

You understand that. You're a guy.

I instantly turned red. In fact, I almost choked on mdrink. Nick laughed at my reaction.

Or, are you a virgin? Nick asked me with a smirk

Yes.

I have no idea how that came out. I wanted to take back, but it was too late. Nick looked like he wa

aken aback. I saw the smirk creep across his face.

Well, if you were a girl, I'd take you home with m

onight.

Yes, he did say that to me! No joke! I almost die

on the spot. My face got redder than the Pizza Hut

oof. Nick was laughing his ass off. Just then, th

waitress arrived with the pizza. I praised the Lord in th

highest! To me, that was divine intervention. Nic


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erved me two slices and served himself four. We ate in

ilence until he spoke up a few minutes later.

I won't tell anyone. Don't worry about it, okay?

I panicked. I wanted to turn the focus back on him

o I blurted out the first question that formed in m

head.

How many women have you slept with?

Nick replied with laugh.

A lot actually, but I always use protection.That's says a lot about you, I answered as I ate m

pizza.

Yeah, I fuck women like a crazy maniac, he sai

with a grin. I don't stop until they beg for mercy ocrawl out of bed on a wheelchair.

I was speechless. Nick was such a dick. In fact, h

was a pig! Sex was on his mind twenty-four hours

day and seven days a week. I choked on my pizza, an

ick chuckled.

Don't worry, someday you'll experience it.

Okay, I mumbled.

You will, trust me, Nick reassured me as he took

huge bite of his pizza. John, tell me more about you


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You know everything about me and I barely know

anything about you. Who is the guy behind the name?

What can I say about me? Well, my mom is a singl

parent that works three jobs to keep up with the bill

We dont have much, but she wants me to get a goo

education at Elite High so I can have a brighter future

'm not lucky like everyone else in school. Sometimes,

go without things most people take for granted. Thing

are hard, but we do what we have to do to get by.Well, believe it or not, you're the lucky one. You

have a mother who loves you and you're not shallo

ike everyone else in school. You're not like them. I lik

hat about you. You're humble. Yeah, that's the perfecword to describe you. Humble.

So it seemed there was still hope for Nick Wil

Hawk after all. There was actually a human being insid

hat egotistical, cocky sex machine.

Thanks Nick. And I know deep down you're

caring and sensitive guy. And I don't want to make yo

uncomfortable by saying that, but it's just that everyon

hinks you're this cocky sex-maniac who only care

about himself. Do you get what I'm trying to tell you?


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Yes I do, and I know that's my fault. I'm a playe

and a huge dick to women, but I want to change.

eally do. Yes, I've had lots of sex, but I always end up

feeling empty afterwards. In a way, I feel used by th

girls I sleep with. I crave more than just casual sex.

crave love. Not just any love but real love. Whoa, I ju

ealized that.

Nick smiled.

It's never too late to change, Nick. I know that yocan. I have no doubts about that. If you do, you'll b

able to find the true meaning of happiness and be th

perfect guy. You're almost perfect. You just need to

control that compulsive organ between your legs.Nick laughed.

Thanks. I'll change and find somebody to love. It

difficult to do it alone though. Would you help me out?

doubt that I can do it by myself.

Sure. I promise to help you tame the beast betwee

your legs.

We both laughed. Nick was an amazing guy. He jus

needed someone to help him find his way in life. Yes, h

had been a dick in the past, but I knew that he coul


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change. He wanted to change and that was important.

decided to make it my mission to help him out.

We got to know each other pretty well that night.

found out that many of the rumors about him had bee

lightly exaggerated. Carol had a sore throat, but it wa

hanks to a virus not Nick's large penis. All of th

umors had some sort of truth behind them, but

wasnt as bad as I thought. It wasnt until seven that w

decided to head home. Nick stopped at a grocery storon the way. He said he needed to pick up a few things

o I patiently waited inside the car. It was then that

potted two figures making their way towards me.

was Matthew and Jacob.


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Chapter Four

I panicked since I was alone and on the oppositide of the empty street. I silently stepped out of Nick

car and made my way towards the grocery store.

needed to get to safety. With a low- pitched whistle

hey let me know they had spotted me. I was like

deer caught in the headlights. I didnt know what to do

made a run for it.

Come here you little fag! Matthew shouted as h

ackled me to the ground.

He grabbed me by the collar of my shirt and draggeme away. I tried to set myself free, but it wa

mpossible since Matthew was too strong for me. Th

cent of alcohol let me know that he was intoxicated

He grabbed me by the neck and slammed me againhe wall of an empty building. Jacob silently watched a

he events unfolded.

You little fuck! You got me in trouble with Nick!

I didn't tell

Shut the fuck up! Matthew shouted as he slamme


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me against the wall again.

Dude, let him go. Nick has this kid's back now

acob reminded him as he looked around.

Fuck Nick! That bitch isnt around here!

Matthew turned to me. He looked like a derange

psychopath.

I'm going to beat the shit out of you! But first, I'

going to tear your fucking faggot ass apart. I'm going t

how you how a real man fucks!He rubbed his genitals over my right leg and move

upwards. Suddenly, I felt his hard penis against my so

one. I was petrified. Tears poured out of my eyes. M

entire body began to tremble uncontrollably. Suddenlyacob took off running. He left me alone with that craz

monster. After Matthew punched me in the stomach,

hit the ground hard. I was going to die.

WHAT THE FUCK DID I TELL YOU!?

I looked up. It was Nick. He was scowling an

pointing at Matthew. Matthew stepped forward an

poke to him defiantly.

Fuck you, asshole! You think you're hot shi

because you're the star quarterback!? You're nothin


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more than a piece of shit like this fuck here!

Matthew pointed at me at the end of his sentenc

Suddenly, he lunged at Nick. Nick quickly moved ou

of the way and kneed him in the stomach. Then, h

connected his fist with Matthew's lower jaw. Matthew

flew backwards and fell on the ground. Before he coul

do anything else, Nick kicked his stomach. He sat o

op of him and savagely punched his face. It was a sid

of Nick I had never seen before in my life. It was hdark side. He kept punching Matthew like a wild anim

on crack. That is the only way I could describe him. H

ooked like a deranged beast. When I managed t

tand, I hurled myself at Nick and I tried to push hiaway from Matthew. It was useless; Nick was sti

going at him.

Nick! Baby! Please! Stop it! Please! You're goin

o kill him! Please! I shouted while I tried to get him o

Matthew.

Honestly, he could have killed Matthew, but I didn

want Nick to go to jail or become a murderer o

account of me. I continued to push Nick away fro

Matthew until he finally heard me. He glanced at m


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and stood up. I was still hugging him when I looke

down on Matthew. His face was swollen and bloo

tained his shirt.

Motherfucker! Touch him again and I'll fucking ki

you!

Nick, please! Let's go! I shouted as I continued t

hold him off.

In reality, there was no way I could hold Nick o

when he went psycho. I was merely in his way. Hcould have easily pushed me aside, but Nick was no

going to hurt me. He promised me that.

Nick nodded. He grabbed my wrist and we ran t

his sports car. I turned to look at Matthew. He warying to sit up. He was going to be okay; he wa

another jock like Nick. Matthew could take it like

man, even if he wasnt one.

We jumped into Nick's car and sped down th

treet. We were a few blocks away from my hous

when Nick came to a sudden stop. I noticed that h

was still fuming with rage. We didnt say a word t

each other. After a few minutes of complete silence,

glanced at him. He held his chin with his hand an


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tared blankly ahead, deep in thought. Suddenly, h

punched the steering wheel. His action made m

umped. Nick turned to me.

I'm sorry, John. I'm not angry at you. I'm angry a

hat lowlife piece of shit!

Nick turned to face the end of the street again.

began to play with my fingers instead. I tried to com

up with something to tell him, but nothing came to mind

ick continued to breathe deeply for a few morminutes until he calmed down. He turned to me with

mile.

You should try out for the football team. None o

he guys try to tackle me when I have the ball.We laughed.

I can see why, I answered, smiling. Nick chuckled

Thank you for saving me again, Nick.

You don't need to thank me. I just lose my min

whenever I see someone bullying someone else. I didn

ell you this before, but one of my friends was bullied

middle school. He lost his eyesight after his attacker h

him on the back of the head with a baseball bat. Tha

ed to his suicide a few months later. Ever since then


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've had zero tolerance for bullies. Eventually, I wa

bound to kick Matthew's ass. It was just a matter o

ime.

That was the reason Nick protected me. In my ow

fantasy world, he would have done it because he love

me, but in reality, he did it because I was weak an

pathetic. I sighed.

I'm so sorry Nick. I can see why you beat him th

way you did. You have a lot of anger inside of youWhat they did to your friend was cruel. Nick, do yo

hink that Matthew will be okay?

That fucking asshole will be fine! I just wanted t

break his nose and bruise his eyes. That way, whenevehe tries to bully someone, he thinks twice. Why do yo

even care about that fucking punk!?

I sensed his temper rising again. I had to sa

omething before he hit me.

I don't give a shit about that asshole, Nick! H

could drop dead. I care about you! I don't want you t

get in trouble or end up jail because of me.

Nick curiously looked at me for a few seconds. I go

nervous again. It sounded weird for me to tell him that


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cared so much for his safety. A smile developed on hi

face.

Thanks for caring. Madison was right. You truly ar

an amazing friend.

It seemed that was what they were talking abou

during class and I got the wrong impression. I wante

o hug Madison at that moment.

Thanks.

Matthew should be thankful because if it wasn't foyou, I'd have beaten him up real good.

Bring down your testosterone level, Mr. Hawking.

Yeah, I should go home and jerk off.

I laughed, even though his comment made me a littluncomfortable. The topic of sex always made m

uneasy. Nick laughed at my reaction. Suddenly, h

froze.

I'm such a fucking dick! Did he hurt you? Do yo

want to go to the hospital?

No! I'm fine. He just punched me once in th

tomach. Don't worry, I'm okay.

You sure?

Positive, Nick.


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Okay, let me take you home before Madison an

Kitty kill me.

I laughed. Nick started his car and sped down th

treet. When we arrived at my house, I realized that th

ights were off. That meant that my mom wasnt hom

yet. I stepped out of the car and thanked him fo

everything. As I turned to my house, he called me back

Wait! These are for you, Nick insisted as he too

out six grocery bags from the trunk of his car. I donake no for an answer.

Nick, you really shouldn't have, I replied as I too

hem. Please, let me know if Matthew reports you.

hink I won't be able to sleep tonight.Don't worry, I'll be fine. Give me your number an

'll call you if anything comes up.

We don't have a phone, Nick, I admitted meekly.

It's cool, take mine, Nick replied as he took out h

Blackberry from his right pocket.

Nick I

I don't take no for an answer. Don't you want t

know if I'm going to jail?

Yes, I do.


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Then take it, Nick insisted as he dropped it insid

my front pocket. He quickly walked back to his ca

And you owe me a tutoring session. I'll call you t

confirm when and where, okay?

Sure, I answered him with a smile.

Nick jumped into his car and disappeared at th

corner of my street. I ran inside to unpack the grocer

bags. I was dumbfounded. Nick had bought everythin

a household needs for an entire week. Finally, aftemany empty weeks, the refrigerator was filled to th

max. I admired it for a few seconds and headed to m

oom. I was ecstatic. The day turned out to be amazing

ick dumped Allison, we got to know each othepretty well and he saved my life again. I could not wa

for Monday so I could tell my girls everything.

When I dropped on my bed, I felt something insid

my pants. It was Nick's phone! I took it out. I foun

forty-three missed calls and twenty-three texts fro

Allison. Nick also had over three hundred texts an

calls from many other girls. I laughed at their pun

attempt to contact him. His phone was on silent mod

and that was the reason why I did not hear it throughou


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he day. I quickly opened his phone book. I wa

tunned. He had over eight hundred contacts. Nick ha

every teenagers phone number within a fifty mil

adius. He had a few sexy messages from man

different girls, but no replies. I decided not to invade h

privacy and placed the phone on my nightstand. I wa

exhausted. I slowly crawled into my bed and a fe

minutes later, I fell asleep.

A buzzing sound woke me up a few hours later. olled on my bed and sat up. I realized that Nick

Blackberry was ringing. When I glanced at the screen

he word House was flashing repeatedly. I quickl

answered it.Hello?

Hey, what's up? Did I wake you up?

It was Nick.

Nah, I was watching television, I lied to him afte

glancing at the clock. It was eleven thirty. I quickl

emembered Matthew. What happened wit

Matthew? Did he report you?

Nah! That pussy said that four guys beat him u

because they tried to rob him. I just talked to Jacob


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Can you believe that he apologized on his behalf?

Thank God! I was so worried.

You worry too much, Johnny Cake.

Johnny Cake?

He laughed.

Sorry, it's just that your nickname, Johnny Boy

eminds me of a Caribbean bread call Johnny Cake.

asted them this past summer.

Oh, I see. I like that nickname!Okay, Johnny Cake. Turn off my phone and ge

ome shuteye. If you don't, you'll get at least a millio

calls tonight. I'll call you tomorrow after nine so we ca

decide where to meet and study. Cool?Okay Nickelodeon! Good night and swee

dreams.

Nick chuckled again.

Good night to you too, Johnny Cake.

After he hung up, I dropped on my bed and glance

at the clock. Nick was going to call me in less than te

hours. We were going to see each other again! I was s

happy. I turned off the phone and drifted to sleep.

A small noise woke me up. I looked up. Nick wa


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tanding at the foot of my bed wearing nothing mor

han black pajama pants. I immediately sat up. Before

could say anything, he crawled on top of me.

How did

Nick placed his hand on my mouth and whispere

nto my ear.

Shh! You'll wake up your mom. I had to see you

again. I couldn't wait until tomorrow. I want to mak

you mine right now.Nick leaned in and our lips met. It really was an ou

of-body experience. I had never felt that shockin

feeling that starts in your lips, travels throughout you

entire body and rests in your heart. Once he stoppedhe stared at me and touched my body.

I love you, John. I love you John. JohnJohn

OHN!

I opened my eyes and came face to face with m

mom. She was sitting on my bed with a perplexed loo

on her face. It was all a dream. Nick was far away fro

me.

Mom? What happened?

Baby? Where did you get all that food?


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Oh, Nick gave it to me.

Nick? Who's Nick?

The guy I'm tutoring. I didn't want to take it, but h

convinced me.

And that phone? she asked me as she pointed t

ick's Blackberry.

That's Nick phone. He lent it to me last nigh

because he wanted to call me today so we can schedu

a study session.My mom nodded.

Okay, I need to meet Nick so I can thank him fo

he food, but you have to return that phone as soon a

possible. We don't take anything that's not ours.Mom, I didn't steal it. He lent it to me because w

don't have a house phone.

I know honey, but what do you expect me to thin

when I find the refrigerator full and an expensive phon

on your nightstand? I know that you'd never steal. I'

ust making sure that you're on the right path. I'm real

urprised that you took those items. You never tak

anything from Kitty

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