Sin Talk Joel Quilé 3.4.13
Sin Talk
Joel Quilé
3.4.13
How are you today?
Is your first response to say
“fine” or “good” out of habit?
Even if you are having a crappy
day…
I mean, when was the last time
you really screwed up?
Did you tell someone about it?
Or did you try to hold it in?
Ever feel like no one cares or
would want to listen if you were
honest about your life?
Or maybe you’re just too
ashamed to confess?
Have you ever felt hopeless?
Alone?
Scared?
Insecure?
Disappointed?
Can you see yourself in any of
these:
“I’m about to turn 16. My mom
wants to throw me a party. I said
no. I didn’t tell her it is because I
don’t have any friends.”
“I’m too fat for anyone to think
I’m good looking.”
I tell people that I don’t drink.
I do.
Often.
Often a lot.
It helps with my insecurity.
But being fake is even worse.”
“The boy I liked since the start of
school started liking my best
friend.
I told her it was cool…
to go ahead and date him.
I’ve cried myself to sleep for
almost a week.”
“I treat my parents like sh#t!”
“I hate that my dad left.
It makes me want to leave. Not
leave the house.
To leave life.
I think of suicide all the time. I’m
scared the thinking will turn to
doing.”
“I used to be close to my sister.
We never talk now. I can’t
remember the last time I was
nice to her.
What in hell have I done?”
“I live my life to be liked by
others. Like that is my goal.
It has cost me.
It has cost me happiness…
and hope.
Living to please others is
hopeless.”
“I am constantly afraid my
parents will find out the truth
about me.
They will kill me.
You know what sucks?
Keeping it a secret from them is
killing me too.”
“I let my boyfriend take my
virginity.
And my self worth.
He dumped me 2 weeks after he
slept with me.
I’ve regretted that night every f-
ing day for almost 3 years.”
“Every time I look at my mom I
can’t help but think how she
deserves a better son.”
“I’m afraid I love my boyfriend
way more than I love Jesus.
Worse yet. I’m afraid that
I’m okay with that.”
“I smoke weed every Friday.
I go to church on Sunday.
I go to Young Life on Monday.
I hate Tuesdays. That’s when I
realize I’m to scared to change.
Living two lives will mess with
your head.”
“I didn’t go to the party. Not
because of the beer. Because of
the bikinis.
Every girl looks better in a bikini
than I do.”
“I’m disgusted by how many lies
I tell.”
“I’m so popular. People say it is
because I’m so nice to people. If
they only knew that I’m nice to
them because I’m terrified of not
being loved.
How horribly ironic?”
“I’m terrified to go to college.
People like me here.
I’m comfortable at Byron.
I hate thinking about my future.”
“I never feel satisfied.
I have to think that there is more
to life than this.”
“I am jealous of my friends who
have both parents living at
home. I’m never getting married.
Divorce sucks.”
“I fear Friday nights. Seriously. I
never have any plans.
Being alone makes me feel…
unloved.
Feeling unloved is hell.”
“I told Jesus that he was my
entire life a long time ago.
I haven’t told anyone else about
Jesus in my entire life.
I wonder if I’m even a Christian.”
“I’m haunted by the fear that my
boyfriend might break up with
me.
So I keep giving him sex.
And it is breaking my heart.”
“My pastor says Jesus will
forgive me.
He has no idea of how much
porn I look at.
Jesus ain’t forgiving me.”
“The devil is an f-ing liar.
I’ve slept with 5 girls this year. I
don’t feel like a man. I feel like a
boy. Like a weak, selfish boy.”
“If the God of heaven has
forgiven me then why in hell
can’t I forgive myself?”
“Where are you God?”
I used to feel so close to you.”