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WANDERERS, PURPOSE, AND ESOTERIC WORK IN THIS TIME OF TRANSITION

By Bernhard Guenther, April 22nd, 2012

A topic that has been coming up recently in a conversation with some friends is

the idea of “Wanderers” in relation to esoteric work, the awakening process

and the Time of Transition we are in. It is something that has been on my mind

for a while and wanted to explore a bit deeper, also reflecting on my own life.

I first came across this subject when I read the Ra material in the 90’s as well

as Barbara Marciniak’s “Bringers of the Dawn“. According to Ra, Wanderers are

individuals whose souls have incarnated from a higher density (4th or 6th

density) into this 3rd density with a specific mission to accomplish in order to

assist humanity, helping with The Harvest or Graduation to 4th Density during

this Age of Transformation. However, due to the “veil of forgetting” when

entering a lower density, the mission/task by the Wanderer is forgotten and

he/she needs to awaken to what they came here to do. Ra tells us:

Questioner: You spoke of Wanderers. Who are Wanderers? Where

do they come from?

Ra: Imagine, if you will, the sands of your shores. As countless as

the grains of sand are the sources of intelligent infinity. When a

social memory complex has achieved its complete understanding

of its desire, it may conclude that its desire is service to others

with the distortion towards reaching their hand, figuratively, to any

entities who call for aid. These entities whom you may call the

Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow move toward this calling of sorrow.

These entities are from all reaches of the infinite creation and are

bound together by the desire to serve in this distortion. Entities are

from all reaches of infinite creation, bound together by desire to

serve in Earth’s 3D.

Questioner: How many of them are incarnate on Earth now?

Ra: The number is approximate due to an heavy influx of those

birthed at this time due to an intensive need to lighten the

planetary vibration and thus aid in harvest. The number

approaches sixty-five million.

Questioner: Are most of these from the fourth density? Or what

density do they come from?

Ra: Few there are of fourth density. The largest number of

Wanderers, as you call them, are of the sixth density. The desire to

serve must be distorted towards a great deal of purity of mind and

what you may call foolhardiness or bravery, depending upon your

distortion complex judgment. The challenge/danger of the

Wanderer is that it will forget its mission, become

karmically involved, and thus be swept into the maelstrom

of which it had incarnated to avert the destruction….

It was the aim of Wanderers to serve the entities of this planet in

whatever way was requested. and it was also the aim of

Wanderers that their vibratory patterns might lighten the planetary

vibration as a whole, thus ameliorating the effects of planetary

disharmony and palliating any results of this disharmony. Specific

intentions such as aiding in a situation not yet manifest are not the

aim of Wanderers. Light and love go where they are sought and

needed, and their direction is not planned aforetimes.”

……The energies of the Wanderers, your teachers and adepts at

this time are all bent upon increasing the harvest. However,

there are few to harvest.”

Carla L. Rueckert, the “instrument” through which Ra spoke wrote “A

Wanderer’s Handbook”, exploring this topic in more depth and also

incorporating other channeled material:

“In addition to those lessons which are learned in a manner native

to those who work through the third density for the first

time, those who are what you call Wanderers bring a

certain task and a certain responsibility, which may be

viewed as operating so as to put into an unique light, a particular

slant or bias, those precise lessons which within third density all

must learn. And so in a sense, the task is compounded

proportionate to the unique gifts which have been brought from

other densities, so that they may be laid down in service to the

souls which seek, so hungrily, to reach beyond the limits which are

those of third density, a density of choice.”

The Pleiadians in Barabra Marciniak’s “Bringers of the Dawn” refer to the same

concept of Wanderers as “Renegades”, “System Busters” and “Family of Light”:

“You represent the renegade group of light, and you have agreed

to come back on the planet. You are on assignment. You come into

these physical bodies and take them over, and you intend, through

the power of your spiritual identity, to change the physical body.

You all selected with great care the genetic lines that would best

give you head starts with all of this. Each of you chose a genetic

history through which members of the Family of Light have

threaded….

As members of the Family of Light, you have incarnated on this

planet to prepare yourselves to do your work. What is your

work? Your work is quite simple: you carry frequency into

systems that have limited light frequency, because light is

information. This is not cold, computer-data information; it is

information that is transmitted biologically through an

electromagnetic send-out of consciousness. This is what you are

experts in. If you were to have a business card printed up for

yourselves when you are in full memory of your identity, it would

say something like: “Renegade Member of Family of Light.

Systems Buster. Available for altering systems of

consciousness within the free-will universe. On call.“….

You go for it! This is what you do. This is an aspect of your identity

that you all have in common, and you are here in the millions at

this time. You are here primarily to remember who you are, to

operate multi- dimensionally within the system, and to teach

humans-the natives in this place that have been under

frequency control for a long time….

The task for you members of the Family of Light who have desired

to take this information inside of yourselves is to anchor a new

frequency on the planet by anchoring it impeccably inside

yourselves.This is not easy. It was not meant to be easy. You

did not come here to have an easy assignment. You are

renegades, and you have been renegades…

Before you came into the body, all of you committed to designing

events that would fire your codings, or blueprints that would

activate your memories. Then you came into the body and you

forgot. All of you have had your blueprints and codings fired to

some extent because you understand that there is a divine

purpose or Divine Plan that you are a part of…

Part of the friction you feel with others is that you are on

this path of evolution and bursting forth. Others don’t like

this because they are not coded at this time to respond the

way you are. Some people are not coded at all for this…

As members of the Family of Light, you are renegades. You are

systems busters, here to conquer your own fears and to show the

rest of the planet that there is no reason to fear anything. You love

to go in and cause trouble. You are famous, your branch of the

Family of Light. You are famous for going into systems of reality

and altering the frequency, thus bringing information. It is not

your task as members of the Family of Light to

proselytize. You simply go into systems and act as receptacles;

you receive the creative cosmic rays into your bodies, the bodies

that you occupy as humans. You are in disguise as humans, and

you allow a process to take place…

You are coded, and as your memory begins to rise, you will

respond to the plan with which you came here to

participate to alter the frequencies. You will begin to hold,

keep, and maintain a certain frequency and then to line it. Identity

as frequency is the sum total of your physical, mental, emotional,

and spiritual bodies broadcast as electronic pulsations. As you live

your frequency, you affect everyone, every place you go. That is

what you are doing now. There are many who already

understand their assignment, and there are those whose

memories are just beginning to rise…

As members of the Family of Light, you have access to a

tremendous amount of understanding that others do not have. You

came in with it, you are being reminded of it, and you are now

learning it and accepting it….Light is information, so the

Family of Light is the family of information…

Believe us when we say that you, as members of the Family of

Light, made a vast study of the historical manipulation that has

been going on on this planet, just as anyone sent on assignment

would be trained for a long period of time before they were sent

out into the field. Each of you has been trained, and you have the

knowledge inside you. Our part is to hit key chords and play

your consciousness into activity so you can go ahead and

make the tune or song or dance you are prepared for.Your

knowledge is inside of you, and as you agree to discover it, it will

awaken on deeper and deeper levels. You will become very self-

sufficient, those of you who agree to this. You will also become

incredibly knowledgeable, those of you who do not stop because

you are frightened. Light is information; ignorance is

darkness…

We speak to you as if you are not human because, to us, you are

not. To us, you are members of the Family of Light, and we know

your multidimensional selves. We speak to you about dealing with

humans because it is your assignment to integrate with them,

soothe them, and awaken a spark of light within them so that they

are not all destroyed and so that this place can house a new

species and a new realm of activity….

You have been hired and are on assignment from the future to

catapult back into this cycle of existence to incarnate many times

so that you can understand what has kept humans controlled. In

this way, you can operate from the inside and change the

system….

As each of you has been assigned to become informed and to

bring about a frequency alteration on this planet, you must learn

to become Keepers of Frequency. You must rise to a certain

place of knowledge and consistently stay there. You must

become in command of your body so that you can will it into

stillness or into activity. You must be able to go inside yourself

and heal what needs to be healed emotionally and

physically. You must begin to part the jungle of self and find the

clearing so that you can show others the way….”

The topic of Wanderers or higher dimensional-beings who haveincarnated for

the purpose of assisting humanity is somewhat popular in the New Age

movement. There are plenty of people these days who claim to be “Star

Seeds”or “Light Workers” from planet this or that. However, some of them

seem to use this identification to enhance their ego and self-importance, over-

estimating their level of Being and Awareness, appearing “special” and

“mysterious”, clouded in a very fluff talk of Love and Light. Especially

nowadays, where it is hip to be “spiritual”, many self-proclaimed lightworkers

dress accordingly and give themselves fancy spiritual names which are

supposed to reflect their higher state of awareness, claiming to be awake. It’s

easy to identify oneself with such an idea but does one’s life truly reflect that?

Does one truly KNOW what it means to be a lightworker or Wanderer and the

work it entails? Or is it just another label used for appearance’s sake and to

make oneself feel better? There are many distortions and people tend to

project their own filtered view into it. As with everything these days truth is

mixed with lies.

Personally I don’t dismiss the idea of higher density souls coming back in time

with a specific mission to fulfill. However, I also take it with a grain of salt at the

same time. Reflecting on my life, I can see that I could fit the profile of a

Wanderer and learning about it has given much clarity and understanding of

myself and what I felt deep inside all along. However I don’t see myself as

being special or better since I have to learn my lessons as everyone else in this

3D human experience.

Throughout my whole life I felt different and was very much a loner in high

school, not being able to fit in, dealing with a high sensitive nature and a deep

emotional life which was confusing to say the least. Obviously many children

feel this way growing up in our pathological world and is by no means an

indication that one is automatically a Wanderer. My parents did their best in

raising me according to their knowledge. I didn’t have a bad childhood or was

abused by any means. I just felt I wasn’t from here and even as a young kid in

my pre-teens I used to look at the stars at night thinking and longing “Take me

home…Why am I here?…Why am I so alone?”. However, I never truly made the

connection that I was maybe a Wanderer, nor was I conscious of this idea. It

was just natural for me for me to stare at the night sky asking these questions

and it had a soothing affect on me.

Scott Mandelker who has published several books on the Ra material and

Buddhism came up with aquestionnaire (similar to determining personality

types) which can help to find out if one is potentially a Wanderer. Obviously

there is no true scientific way to prove one way or another. I think Mendelker’s

quiz is over-simplified, short and vague and missing some important points

which can also lead to misinterpretations. Deeper introspection and

understanding of what being a Wanderer entails is certainly needed. I would

not go by this questionnaire alone and proclaim “I’m a Wanderer” even if I can

answer most questions with a yes. It’s easy to read into things and “bend the

truth” in order to fit it for oneself. As Laura mentioned earlier, what is it you

truly DO about it?

I started questioning the world as we know it more consciously when I went to

the University of Munich studying business in 1991, a choice I made due to

social pressure, being confused, not knowing myself and just doing what

everyone else did: getting a degree, so I can have a secure job and make a

living. I was depressed and felt just like I did in High School, doing things that I

didn’t like to do but thought I had to do in order to “fit in”. I kept thinking there

must be more to life than this! Well, as the saying goes, ask and you shall

receive and I was asking sincerely from the depth of my being. The call was

answered when a good friend I met around that time asked me to try out

playing drums for his band. My life changed completely. Music has always been

my ally in my life. Listening to it helped me to deal with my complex emotional

life. But I was so conditioned and lost that I never thought to make music

myself. I was in awe when I saw bands playing live and especially intrigued

when watching the drummer. My low self-esteem didn’t even make that

connection that I could be doing this myself since I thought I had to study and

be a good student in order to get a degree in something more practical and

secure to fit into society and also please my parents.

Playing drums connected me to something deeper within me and for the first

time in my life I truly knew what I wanted to do. I was so infused with

inspiration and sudden self-confidence that I dropped out of university, saved

up money and moved to Los Angeles to study drums and percussion at the

Musicians Institute. At that time I realized there must be even more to life and

more to who I am, that there is purpose to my life, that there was something

I’m here to do. A lot of things came up for me and it was not always a happy

time. Dealing with depression, childhood programming, social conditioning and

this seemingly never-ending feeling of loneliness, unable to connect with

people on a deeper level, I started to look for answers, trying to figure myself

out as I was going through the “dark night of the soul” with suicidal thoughts

and even drug abuse (which didn’t last long, since it interfered with my passion

for playing drums. Music literally saved my life).My search and asking fueled by

intense internal suffering lead me to the works of Carl Gustav Jung, J.

Krihshnamurti, Alan Watts, Joseph Campbell and other

spiritual/psychology/philosophy literature as well as Astrology, which helped

me in the process of seeking answers to deeper life questions and

understanding myself better.

Another big shift in my life started when I first read “Bringers of the Dawn”

(BOTD) by Barbara Marciniak in the late 90’s. No other book has had such a

deep impact on me. It was almost like an instruction manual I’ve read before,

awakening something within me that was always there. It was more a

recognition than learning something new. It resonated with me deeply. Readers

of my blogs know that I don’t take the idea of “resonating” lightly since I

believe that there is such a thing as “false resonating”.

While there is validity to the idea of “resonating” with a certain teaching or

source, it can easily be misapplied if the “reading instrument”, the Self, is not

“tuned” correctly. Some fundamentalist Christians also “resonate” with the

Bible in literal terms, believing the earth is only 5000 years old. “Feel good”

messages are no proof of truth and can also be very emotional manipulative.

Disinformation is always lies mixed with truth. Enough truth to use as a bait to

get the seeker’s attention and then put him/her on a false lead so to speak,

keeping him asleep while he believes to awaken. In order to find the true

resonance one needs to separate the false self (with its assumptions,

conditioning, expectations, wishful thinking, buffers, emotional hooks and ego

desires) from the true self which is grounded in Knowledge, connected to the

small voice inside that can always separate a lie from truth, using intuition and

critical thinking alike, even if the truth is not very “pleasant” and challenging to

one’s world view. In other words, honest self-work is needed in order to

resonate with truth. Within and without.

Marciniak’s book started my quest for truth on a whole new level, confirming

my feeling that there is something else happening on our planet besides what

we have been taught and told by official culture. For many people the

information in BOTD is too far out or laughable, however that also makes sense

as I’ll explain later on. It was not only the idea of higher density souls coming

“back in time” incarnating in human form (Renegades, Family of Light) with a

mission profile to assist humanity during this time of transformation which I

resonated with, but also the more disturbing topic of hyperdimensional control

and that humans are not on top of the food chain, nor in control of themselves,

but have been manipulated genetically and controlled by “Aliens”

(hyperdimensional 4D STS forces).

Her work led me to the Ra material, as well as the Cassiopaean Experiment and

the work of Laura Knight-Jadczyk who wrote in depth about the Theological

Drama with hyperdimensional forces working through humanity, incorporating

a vast array of esoteric teachings, channeled material (Ra, Marciniak’s

Pleiadians) and research into ancient history, connecting the dots scientifically,

esoterically, historically and mystically. Her personal story and discoveries are

written about in “The Wave” and “The Secret History of the World”.

According to the Ra material and Cassiopaean transmissions humans have

been of STO (Service to Others) orientation before the “Fall”. Both sources talk

about the “Fall” from this state happening about 300,000 years ago when 4th

density STS (Service to Self) entities (called the Orion group (Ra) or

Lizzies/Reptilians (Cassiopaea, Pleiadians) ) “raided” this planet, took over

control (from a hyperdimensional point of view as in frequency/consciousness

control) and humans became STS (development of ego, false personality,

worship of physicality, cut off from the higher centers). We’re now at the end

of a big cycle where mind/body/spirit complexes (Ra) of 3rd density (humans)

have the opportunity to “graduate” or “evolve” to 4th density STO orientation

(The “harvest” according to Ra). However, this is a choice. According to both

sources as well as various ancient esoteric teachings, conscious self-work and

effort are required to move on to the next level so to speak, activating the

higher centers by gaining knowledge, engaging in sincere self-work and being

of service.

Planet earth as it is now is of STS orientation. We all are STS and cannot be

otherwise, however one can become a STO candidate and polarize oneself to

that vibration/frequency through esoteric work. 4th density STS entities try

their best to manipulate our “free will” through frequency and genetic control

which has been going on since “the fall”, keeping us in a lower form of

consciousness as they feed off those lower vibrations. It’s simply food for them

and sustains/nourishes them, like plant and animals (2nd density) serve us for

food. 3rd density feeds off 2nd density and 4th density feeds off 3rd density.

Humans are not at the end of the food chain. As above, so below. The UFO

phenomenon relates to this and is for the most part a manifestation of the

hyperdimensional matrix control system as examined in more depth in the

documentary “UFOs, Aliens, and the Question of Contact” I made with

Humberto Braga.

Now is a window of opportunity to break free from this control and evolve to a

higher level of existence. Not everyone will “graduate”. It’s everyone’s own

choice/calling and doesn’t depend on anything or anyone “out there”. No one

can do it for another, but one must do the self-work in order to activate the

higher centers, raising one’s level of Being and Awareness above a certain

minimum. This is also not something that happens over night or on a specific

date (like the much popularized end of the Mayan Calendar 12/21/2012) but is

related to the shift of ages spanning over a many years and we are already in

the midst of it.

There is a choice to be made very shortly, and it would be

preferable if all of the people of this planet understand the choice

that is to be made. It will be difficult for many of the people

of this planet to understand what this choice is, because it

is a choice that they have not considered. They have been

much too involved in their daily activities and their

confusion and their desires of a very trivial nature to be

concerned with an understanding of the choice that they

are very shortly to make. Whether they wish to or not, whether

they understand it or not, regardless of any influence, each and

every one of the people who dwell upon planet Earth will shortly

make a choice. There will be no middle area. There will be those

who choose to follow the path of love and light (knowledge) and

those who choose otherwise.

This choice will not be made by saying, “I choose the path of love

and light,”or “l do not choose it.” The verbal choice will mean

nothing. This choice will be measured by the individual’s

demonstration of his choice. This choice is measured by what

we term the vibratory rate of the individual. It is necessary, if an

individual is to join those who make the choice of love and

understanding, for his rate of vibration to be above a certain

minimal level.

[…]

At the time at which each of you incarnated, my friends, each of

you was aware that certain lessons, hitherto unlearned, were to be

the goals for achievement in this incarnation. If it seems to you

that your entire incarnation within this illusion has been a series of

difficulties of one particular type, then you are almost certainly

aware in some manner of one of your lessons. As you can see,

these lessons are not to be avoided. They are to be

learned.

– from Hatonn, L/L Transcripts

Going back to the topic of Wanderers and renegades who have incarnated in

this time and age with a specific mission relating to the shift we’re in, there is

also this insightful writing by Marshall Vian Summers about the deeper

meaning of purpose, our “ancient home” and how it is intrinsically connected

to gaining Knowledge. Purpose is not a definition or an end in itself, but a

journey to be discovered as we work on ourselves and separate truth from lies

within and without. This process is different for each as everyone has different

lessons to learn and talents to develop.

PURPOSE IS SOMETHING YOU WILL UNDERSTAND as you climb

higher on the mountain of life. As you gain a greater vantage

point, you will understand more of the journey itself, by looking

behind and by being increasingly able to anticipate what is up

ahead. Purpose is realized by taking the journey, not by

establishing a favorable or fascinating explanation or a definition

for oneself. Purpose is not a justification. It does not compensate

for anything. Purpose is something that is waiting for you to

discover. You can only discover it by taking the journey, by

following the way, by learning as you go and by gaining the

greater perspective and understanding that one acquires as one

matures in The Way of Knowledge.

As we have said before, you have come from someplace and you

will return to that place. You have come bearing gifts for the world.

Your greater purpose is embodied in this idea. Because of your

origin and your destiny, you have something greater to give to the

world, something that the world cannot give to you. Your gift is

hidden within you like a secret cargo, but you cannot gain

access to it until you have advanced. Then it will begin to

emerge, slowly and incrementally, all on its own.

Your calling in life is very specific. It involves engaging

with certain people for specific reasons at certain junctures

of your life. The greater purpose that you share with

everyone is to keep Knowledge alive in the world and to

bring something from your Ancient Home into the

world.This is a definition that you can abide with because it will

not limit you and it will not deceive you, but go no further in your

definitions. Allow the manifestation of your purpose to take place

naturally, as it will if you follow in The Way of Knowledge. Your

purpose now is to prepare to gain a greater understanding of the

world, the world’s evolution and the world’s destiny. Within this

larger context you will gain a new vantage point for understanding

your role in the world and your reason for coming here.

Your life must be fulfilled. It must be justified. The world is a

difficult place to come to. It is not a vacation spot. It is not a place

where you are sent for punishment. It is not a place where you

are sent for pleasure. It is a place that needs your gifts

from your Ancient Home, and for this reason you have

come. […]

Your purpose is not to escape the world. Your purpose is not

to run home to your Creator. Your purpose is to give what you

came here to give, to reunite with those whom you are

intended to reunite with and to contribute all that you

have brought with you—that secret cargo that you carry even at

this moment. […]

You are here in the world for very specific reasons. They are not

your personal reasons. You are here to contribute to and

participate in a greater order of reality that exists within the world

and beyond the world and even beyond the physical manifestation

of life.

With greater awareness comes a greater ability. This all

comes from Knowledge. Here you are asked to follow, to

respond and to learn the great lessons in discernment,

discretion, communication and affinity. These lessons are

inherent in the preparation itself. From the first step to the last,

you will be learning these things, and life will be your laboratory.

As you come to realize that your purpose is not for you

alone, then you will realize that you must not allow

yourself to become self-possessed or self-absorbed. Indeed,

the great liberation is a liberation from this self-absorption which

returns you to life with an open mind and with all of your faculties

fully activated. […]

The ones who will succeed are the ones who focus on their

preparation and allow the course of their life to unfold without

determining its result and without determining what it will look

like, how it will be and so forth. Here you must develop a great and

growing faith in yourself, in the beneficence of those people who

assist you, in the Unseen Ones who guide you and help you and in

the power and presence of Knowledge within you. […]

Purpose is a process; it is not a definition. It is not a validation. It is

not a form of self- comfort. It is something that awaits you. It is a

great journey. It is a door that is open to you now, a door that you

can pass through. It is a journey where you do not lead yourself

alone, but instead become a part of the greater education that

exists throughout the universe. The Creator is at work everywhere,

reclaiming the separated through Knowledge. This is the Creator’s

purpose. Your purpose is to give what you are designed to

give, according to your nature and your true abilities. In

this, your life becomes fulfilled because everything you

have done can now serve a greater purpose.

This journey requires phenomenal self-honesty. Humility,

honesty, openness, discernment, restraint, discretion,

tolerance and compassion—these are qualities that result

from preparation and advancement in The Way of

Knowledge. These things are what provide inspiration and true

ability in life. […]

Your purpose is the same as everyone else’s. However, your calling

is specific. It is a specific set of tasks with specific people and in

specific relationships for certain purposes. That is a calling. But for

a calling to be genuine, to be real and to really bear fruit in life, it

must be fundamentally based within the greater purpose that you

share with everyone. […]

It is not wandering around blindly, speculating and having big

ideas. Instead, it is engaging in a process of development that has

been provided for you by your Creator and by your Spiritual Family

to initiate you in this life into the greater calling and purpose for

which you have come. Only through this discovery will your life be

fully justified and fully realized. Here you will enter a greater range

of relationship and understanding which will make you a person of

incredible value in the world.

The world is a hungry and lonely place. It is full of fantasy

and folly. Its suffering is profound. Its confusion is deep. Its

violence is sickening. Its possibilities are great. Who can

see these things but those who realize that they have

come from beyond the world to give something? They

realize this because it is something they can feel. It is not

an emotion; it is something they feel. They feel that they

have come here for a reason. It is something that they

cannot yet define, but they cannot make it go away either.

Something greater is calling them. This is purpose. […]

Their awareness of the mystery of life will grow more and more

profound, and their ability in life—in their relationships, in their

career, in all their activities—will deepen. This is purpose. At some

point, they will give themselves to something that involves

other people in service to the world in one capacity or

another according to their nature and their design. It will

be natural for them to give themselves in this way, as it

would be unnatural for them to decline it. This is purpose.

As we describe this process of preparation in a very general way,

do not think that you are near the end. Do not claim that you are

anywhere in the process, for how can you tell? You cannot pull

yourself out of life and examine your life. You do not have that

vantage point yet. Accept that the journey is great. It is

marvelous. It is at times difficult. But in all ways it refines

you. It washes away that which is nonessential in you and

reveals that which is permanent and meaningful. Your real

purpose and calling become apparent when all that hides

and conceals them has fallen away, and what is left is what

is real, and that becomes welcomed and embraced. […]

This is the time that you are here, and this is the condition of the

world and the evolution of the world at this time. Though your

specific calling may seem to have little to do with the Greater

Community, you are serving the world in its emergence into the

Greater Community. You are fostering goodness, Wisdom and the

reality of Knowledge in the world through your own demonstration.

This is your purpose.

Let’s summarize what we can see so far from these quoted sources.

Wandereres/Renegades are souls from a higher density (4th or 6th) that have

incarnated in a human body in order to be of assistance during this Time of

Transition. They are “system busters” challenging the status quo who don’t fit

in with most of humanity. Due to entering the lower density of physical life they

have forgotten that it was their conscious choice to do so in order to perform

certain tasks according to a mission profile. Their memory from the “ancient

home” is buried deep within them which needs to be awakened. This purpose is

an ongoing discovery that depends on conscious self-development and gaining

Knowledge. Love is Light is Knowledge. Ra says that the reason for this

“forgetting” is also rooted in respecting the free will of 3D entities:

“Free will of 3D entities needs to be preserved. Thus Wanderers

volunteer for 3D genetic or DNA connections to mind/body/spirit

complex. Forgetting process can be penetrated to extent of

Wanderer remembering what it is and why it is upon the planet.

However, it would be an infringement if Wanderers penetrated

forgetting so far as to activate more dense bodies and thus be able

to live in a god-like manner. This would not be proper for those

who have chosen to serve.”

The Ps (Pleiadians) tell us that wanderers/renegades are “committed to

designing events that would fire [their] codings, or blueprints that

would activate their memories.” In other words, the friction and struggle

many people (who could be Wanderers) perceive can be used as catalysts to

help them awaken and remember what they came here to do. The lessons

are not to be avoided, but are to be learned. The obstacle that is in the

way of a Wanderer to awaken is that he/she becomes karmically involved and

conditioned/programmed through upbringing and society, steering him/her off

the path. In order to activate the higher centers, connecting them to their

higher selves and giving them access to their “blueprints”, sincere self work is

necessary to cut through the lies and conditioning of the false personality,

which everyone has to one degree or another.

This shows us that despite their hidden higher knowledge and awareness that

Wanderers bring with them, they need to deal with the challenges of life like

everyone else on the planet. It is of no use to proclaim proudly that one is a

Wanderer without realizing and engaging in the work that is necessary to truly

walk the talk. The verbal choice will mean nothing. This choice will be

measured by the individual’s demonstration of his choice. However, due

to being “foreign” to 3rd density, Wanderers do have more problems adjusting

to the planetary vibration of physicality than humans whose home is 3D. Ra

tells us:

“Due to the extreme variance between the vibratory distortions of

third density and those of the more dense densities, if you will,

Wanderers have as a general rule some form of handicap,

difficulty, or feeling of alienation which is severe. The most

common of these difficulties are alienation, the reaction against

the planetary vibration by personality disorders, as you would call

them, and body complex ailments indicating difficulty in

adjustment to the planetary vibrations such as allergies, as you

would call them”.

“Possibility of such problems due to 6D incarnating in 3D is rather

large. Not necessarily a problem — it depends upon unique

orientation of each m/b/s complex having this situation or

placement of energies.”

“There are, in case of Wanderers, not only a congenital difficulty in

dealing with 3D vibratory patterns but also a recollection, however

dim, that these distortions are not necessary or usual in home

vibration.”

Many people who resonate with being a Wanderer do so because of the most

common of these difficulties, alienation, that is severe (and I can

certainly relate to that), which is probably due to the difficulty of dealing

with 3D vibratory patterns that are not necessary or usual in home

vibration (6D).

These difficulties are crucial and can be approached in two ways for better or

worse. One can use them as an excuse to not deal with 3D life because one

feels “too spiritual” or “too good” to do so or claiming to have “transcended”

anything that may require too much work to confront, be it within oneself or in

the world. I have heard many times from people (Wanderers or not) that they

are “too spiritual” for politics or speaking out against injustices in the world

(and ultimately the 4D STS control system) because they have “transcended” it

all and just want to live in the Light (misunderstanding that Light actually

means Knowledge). But as Marianne Williamson said, addressing that at a talk

at “Lightning in a Bottle”: “There is a difference between transcendence

and denial“.

Others even use their “spiritual highness” as an excuse to not pay their bills,

get a source of income or just managing ordinary daily affairs and reject

anything that is part of life in our current 3D reality. They tend to manipulate,

leech (and essentially feed) off others, which can keep them in 3D STS

frequency with the potential of getting “stuck” there, not graduating (or not

going back “home”) and having to repeat the 3rd density cycle.

“If Wanderer demonstrated through action a negative orientation

towards others it would be caught into the planetary vibration and,

when harvested, possibly repeat master cycle of 3D as a planetary

entity”.

One needs to watch out that seeing oneself as a Wanderer doesn’t become an

escape and is not used as a buffer/excuse, which will only be in the way of

living up to one’s potential and purpose. Laura Knight-Jadczyk makes an

important point in that regard:

“This is another area where there are some misunderstandings in

the spiritual life. Many seekers believe that their inability to

function in the real world is like a badge of merit — a proof of their

great spirituality. Physical ailments, loss of function, inability to

manage ordinary daily affairs, and so on and on are all excused

because the person is so “spiritual” that they cannot be expected

to be bothered with such things.

Well, that’s all fine and good but wouldn’t you think that a person

who is supposed to have graduated to higher spiritual realms did

so because they mastered the lower ones? And, if that is the case,

what is so hard about remembering those lessons and activating

them at a higher level of competence this time around? If you

have graduated to sixth grade, surely you can ace all the

tests of third grade?“

The healthier approach, which will actually help Wanderers to truly remember

what they came here to do and act on it, is to confront these difficulties, learn

the lessons and use the friction and shocks to create the fire within,

transmuting lead into gold, building the magnetic center within, which

connects them to their higher self, the real “I” and the hidden knowledge

within them. This is where esoteric works come in. Wanderers actually have a

better disposition to engage in this work but “this is not more than a bias

and cannot be called an understanding“ as Ra said (more on that later).

Instead of rejecting these experiences and lessons due to an unconscious

feeling that this is not their natural habitat, Wanderers have actually all the

“tools” and knowledge to deal with them, especially since they chose to

incarnate due the “the call” and request. Hence, being “spiritual” and/or being

a Wanderer implies taking absolute responsibility for one’s life regardless what

the challenges and difficulties may be without blame, self-pity or self-

importance. This also relates to the work of Carlos Castaneda and Don Juan’s

teaching of the “warrior”:

“Only as a warrior can one withstand the path of knowledge. A

warrior cannot complain or regret anything. His life is an endless

challenge, and challenges cannot possibly be good or bad.

Challenges are simple challenges.”

“What seems natural is to think that a warrior who can hold his

own in the face of the unknown can certainly face petty tyrants

with impunity. But that’s not necessarily so. What destroyed the

superb warriors of ancient times was to rely on that assumption.

Nothing can temper the spirit of a warrior as much as the

challenge of dealing with impossible people in positions of power.

Only under those conditions can warriors acquire the sobriety and

serenity to withstand the pressure of the unknowable.”

So regardless of Wanderers being “higher evolved” or old souls, they’re on the

same playing field as everyone else on 3D earth and must do the work to

access their knowledge. The only “help” they have is that they may get

triggered in some way and the right book appears at the right time for example

or synchronicities and coincidences may lead them to the information or life

situation they need to come across and experience in order to be awakened.

But they need to do the work themselves with discernment, separating truth

from lies within and without. The friction and limitations of 3rd density actually

serve as a catalyst for faster learning, growth and polarization. What seems

clear is that Wanderers didn’t just choose to be of assistance with their coded

mission and potentially teach/heal but also to learn the lessons they need to

learn for their own evolution and polarization.

“[The] Wanderer has potential of greatly accelerating density

whence it comes in its progress in evolution. This is due to

intensive life experiences and opportunities of 3D. Positively

oriented Wanderers choose to hazard danger of forgetting to be of

service to others by radiating love of others. If forgetting is

penetrated, amount of catalyst in 3D will polarize

Wanderer w/ much greater efficiency than shall be

expected in higher, more harmonious densities.“

They may also be guided and awakened by higher density STO forces to be

triggered through subconscious impulses but not to do the work FOR them. As

the Ps said:

“All of you jumped at the chance to be here in such a challenging

place at such a challenging time. You were certain you could do it.

Also, you were told before you came here that there would be

much assistance and that, at different junctures of your

development, different entities would present themselves upon the

planet in different capacities to trigger you, fire you up, and

remind you-not to do it for you. We are one of those triggers, a

catalyst. ….You yourself chose to be here. You are on assignment

to bring memory forward and to bring the value of human

existence back to the forefront of creation. You are needed…….”

Each of you has been trained, and you have the knowledge inside

you. Our part is to hit key chords and play your

consciousness into activity so you can go ahead and make

the tune or song or dance you are prepared for. Your

knowledge is inside of you, and as you agree to discover it, it will

awaken on deeper and deeper levels. You will become very self-

sufficient, those of you who agree to this. You will also become

incredibly knowledgeable, those of you who do not stop because

you are frightened. Light is information; ignorance is

darkness…

Assistance comes to you in all avenues of life, yet others

cannot do things for you because you designed life in such

a way that the species must self-motivate and evolve in

order to be empowered…

It is very important to observe how you deal with events. Different

events are brought to you so that you can observe them. Learn to

observe your behavior and to spend much more time alone even if

sometimes it is difficult for you and you feel lonely. In the long run,

you will thank us for directing you to have a more meaningful

encounter with yourself…

Who’s going to bail you out when the going gets rough?

Where is the rescue team? You are it. In order to have this

transformation take place, you must use what you have to bring it

about. There is incredible assistance from all kinds of

realms; however, it all depends on you, not us. You are going

to change the frequency simply by commitment, determination,

and willpower…”

And from the Ra material:

“The methods used to awaken Wanderers are varied. The center of

each approach is the entrance into the conscious and

subconscious in such a way as to avoid causing fear and to

maximize the potential for an understandable subjective

experience that has meaning for the entity. Many such occur in

sleep, others in the midst of many activities during the waking

hours. The approach is flexible and does not necessarily include

the “Close Encounter” syndrome.”

This is also where free will comes in. Wanderers incarnated because of the

“request” and “answering the call”. Their mission is not to preach, impose or

give without being asked. From an STO perspective one can only give when

asked and many people choose not to wake up, they choose not to seek truth

or do conscious self-work. They choose to stay asleep, dreaming to be awake.

Many even choose to be STS on a soul level, just as many choose not to

“graduate” to 4D. Free will needs to be respected, even if it is the free will to

stay ignorant. Only STS violates free will through self-serving manipulation and

non-asked interference. This also relates to the esoteric sayings “Being wise

as serpents and gentle as doves“ and“Do not give what is holy to

dogs, and do not throw your pearls before swine, or they will trample

them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces.“

Asking can come in different ways and it not necessarily verbal, however, not

every asking is sincere, so knowledge, discernment and awareness are required

to truly distinguish between STS and STO, especially within ourselves as we all

have STS tendencies, mistaking them for STO (remember that STS is the

default polarity for this current 3rd density we are ALL subjected to). Are we

giving to another without expectation and to truly help the other person? What

part in them are we supporting? Sometimes NOT giving is actually STO in order

not to support the STS feeding dynamics. Are we being externally considerate?

Or are we considering internally and are trying to make ourselves feel better by

“being of service” or for the sake of image/appearance/status, inflating our self-

importance? For example, if people donate money to various causes, what is

their true underlying drive?

“How we admire you. We remember third density. It is the shortest

of the densities, the density of choice.You are here to choose to

serve the Creator by serving others or by serving the self

and manipulating others. As you serve others, you may be

asked to do outrageous things, to go beyond your limitations, to do

what cannot be done yet which shall be done because it must. And

in those situations we strongly advise that you release your

personal personality and move to an impersonal portion of your

deep self, that god-self of unmitigated and straightforward

compassion. To determine what is pleasing as opposed to

what is serving another entity is sometimes difficult,

especially on the spur of the moment.“

People have to learn their own lessons even if we can see how much they’re

lying to themselves and are in their own ways. Free will is essentially tied to

learning the lessons and understanding that everyone has their own lessons

but also that there are collective lessons for all of humanity to learn. From

theCassiopaea material:

Q: What creates this environment of limitation?

A: It is the grand illusion which is there for the purpose of learning.

Q: And who put the illusion into place?

A: The Creator who is also the Created. Which is also you and us

and all. As we have told you, we are you and vice versa. And so is

everything else.

Q: Is the key that it is all illusion?

A: Basically, yes. As we have told you before, if you will be patient

just a moment, the universe is merely a school. And, a school is

there for all to learn. That is why everything exists. There is no

other reason. Now, if only you understood the true depth of that

statement, you would begin to start to see, and experience for

yourself, all the levels of density that it is possible to experience,

all the dimensions that it is possible to experience, all awareness.

When an individual understands that statement to its greatest

possible depth, that individual becomes illumined. And, certainly

you have heard of that. And, for one moment, which lasts for all

eternity, that individual knows absolutely everything that there is

to know.

As an STO candidate one cannot interfere with the learning process of another,

but only assist with advice, mirrors and suggestions if it is asked for. One can

also spread “seeds of awareness”, share information and show the “door” if

appropriate but people will have to walk through it themselves. Each situation

is different and specific. No one can do the work for another, nor can anyone

“save” another. As Morpheus told Neo in “The Matrix”: “Unfortunately no

one can be told what the matrix is, you have to see it for yourself.” .

“[The wanderer’s] desire is service to others with the distortion

towards reaching their hand, figuratively, to any entities who call

for aid….Specific intentions such as aiding in a situation not yet

manifest are not the aim of Wanderers. Light and love go where

they are sought and needed, and their direction is not

planned aforetimes.”

“[Different attitude toward unharvestable Earth entities?] Not

substantially. To those who wish to sleep we could only offer

comforts designed for sleeping. Service is only possible to

extent it is requested. We were ready to serve in whatever way

we could. This still seems satisfactory as a means of dealing with

others in 3D. To be each entity which one attempts to serve

simplifies grasp of what service is necessary/possible””

– Ra

“It is not your task as members of the Family of Light to

proselytize. You simply go into systems and act as receptacles….

Assistance comes to you in all avenues of life, yet others cannot do

things for you because you designed life in such a way that the

species must self-motivate and evolve in order to be

empowered…..Not everyone is going to make the shift. Not

everyone is in the vibration that wants to work in harmony

at this time.”

– Ps

Laura Knight-Jadczyk writes:

“Ra tells us about “wanderers,” or higher dimensional-beings who

have incarnated for the purpose of assisting humanity

without violating free will. This “service to others” is described

as a “dispassionate attempt to share information without concern

for numbers or growth among others.”The attempt to make the

information available is the service. There are no shortcuts

to enlightenment. It cannot be taught. It cannot be

achieved with rituals or formulas. The only thing that can

be shared is information, stories of inspiration, love and

mystery, and experiences that may spark another person

to reach out and begin seeking on their own….

Ra warns that the challenge and danger of the wanderer is that he

or she will forget the mission, become karmically involved, and

thus be swept into the maelstrom. The question here is, of course,

how does one become karmically involved? Ra answers: By acting

in a consciously unloving manner in action with other beings. As

the readers have discovered, what is or is not “love” is a huge

issue. And it is in this subject that the most intensive

disinformation has been promulgated, or so it seems.“

All of this also relates to the topic of Organic Portals (OPs), the possibility that

half of humanity does not have an individual soul and has no ability to access

the higher centers, which would enable them to engage in esoteric work in

order to graduate. There is nothing wrong with them, it is just part of the

evolutionary process. However, one must be aware not to project one’s own

soul potential into OPs who can serve as portals through which 4D STS forces

can work through in order to keep souled individuals from advancing

(esoterically speaking), just like agent Smith in “The Matrix” was able to insert

himself into humans (programs) trying to keep Neo from awakening. The reader

is encouraged to read “Organic Portals – Soulless Humans” to get a better

understanding of that important topic.

Especially Wanderers need to be conscious and aware of the traps, deceptions

and distractions in 3rd density which may interfere with their mission since

most people are NOT like them, but have a different inner wiring so to speak.

Ra mentions that “the Wanderer is less inclined to the deviousness of

third density and therefore does not recognize as easily as a more

negative individual would, the negative nature of thoughts or beings“.

“Ra tells us that wanderers are vulnerable because they become

completely the creature of third density in mind and body, and are,

by nature, less inclined to deviousness and manipulation. For this

reason, they often do not recognize as easily the negative nature

of other beings or thoughts before they become involved with

them. Then, very often, because of this very lack of

perception of negativity, they often persist in relationships

that are negative because they repeatedly attribute to the

other person their own benevolent motives and

perceptions.

Additionally, there is just as much chance of negative

hyperdimensional telepathic mind control influence being

brought to bear on a wanderer as anyone else. The only

difference occurs in what Ra calls the “spirit complex” which, if it

wishes, has an armor of light which enables it to recognize more

clearly that which is not appropriately desired. This is not more

than a bias, and cannot be called an understanding. So, in other

words, you just have an instinct about things that are not right. But

then, with all our be-nice programming, we generally override the

instinct and shove such signals under the rug, or search endlessly

for reasons to excuse bad behavior…. Ra and the Cs both

confirm that wanderers, however they are defined, are

most definitely high-priority targets of the Matrix

Controllers.”

– Laura Knight-Jadczyk

Wanderers are not only subject to hypedimensional manipulation in this Matrix

Control System as everyone else, but are PRIMARY targets of the 4D STS forces

(Orion STS according to Ra. The Lizzies/dark shirts according to the Ps) because

their mission obviously interferes with the plans of the controllers of this world

and they don’t want this to happen. They don’t want to loose their food source.

Laura Knight-Jadczyk wrote about it in “Soul Hackers – The Hidden Hands

Behind The New Age Movement” (The Wave Book 2), chapter “All There Is Is

Lessons, or Wandering Around in Third Density Can Be Hazardous to Your

Health.” Here’s an excerpt:

[…] The problem seems to be that of “waking up” [of the wanderer] to the

nature of the mission and this presents special problems. Ra gives us several

more clues:

“Wanderers become completely the creatures of third density in

mind/body complex. There is just as much chance of [them being

subjected to Orion STS mind programming attempts] as to a

mind/body complex of [strictly third density]. The only difference

occurs in the spirit complex which, if it wishes, has an armor of

light, if you will, which enables it to recognize more clearly that

which is not be desired by the mind/body/spirit complex. This is

not more than a bias and cannot be called an

understanding.”

So we begin to understand that even the purest of the pure are

subject to corruption and deception. They do seem to have a bit of help in

separating the wheat from the chaff, but Ra describes it as “not more than a

bias and cannot be called an understanding.”

The problem is, the “bias” often comes into direct conflict with the mind

programming efforts of the Orion STS and a lot of suffering and torture can

result. And there is also a special weakness of those who are configured to STO

— since they don’t have meanness and deception in their own hearts, it can

take almost forever for them to see it in others who are being used to keep

them from awakening! Ra remarks on this as well:

“Furthermore, the Wanderer is less inclined to the deviousness of

third density and therefore does not recognize as easily as a more

negative individual would, the negative nature of thoughts or

beings… [If the Wanderer is successfully co-opted by the Orion STS

it would be] caught into the planetary vibration and, when

harvested, possibly repeat again the master cycle of third density

as a planetary entity.”

Ra also confirmed Don’s remark that those with missions, Wanderers,

are “high priority targets” of the Orion STS faction. That’s a scary

thought!

What it means is that if a person comes into incarnation from a higher density

with a mission to serve, not only are they enveloped in the “veil of forgetting”,

they become special targets for a bunch of Intergalactic rapists and murderers

who are only restrained in their actions by some sort of vague Law of Free Will

which still allows every imaginable trick and deception to be perpetrated on

them so that they will engage in relationships, beliefs, actions or reactions

designed to “bring them down a few densities,” so to speak!

And they only get a “bias” toward what is Truth, and not a clear understanding!

So with all of this information we are trying to put together about what is out

there just waiting to trap and deceive us, how in the world are we supposed to

have a clue as to what is going on? Justwho are the Good Guys here?!

“[In terms of STO contacts from the higher densities] the

infringement upon free will is greatly undesired. Therefore, those

entities, which are Wanderers upon your plane of illusion, will be

the only subjects for the thought projections that make up the so-

called “Close Encounters” and meetings…”

Ra seems to be saying that only the “Wanderers” have any hope of being in

contact with the higher level “Good Guys” because they are, ipso facto, already

of STO configuration and therefore, contact is not an infringement upon their

free will as it would be if the STO contact came to a third density being who has

not yet graduated to the higher densities.

Of course, they all look alike here on the Big Blue Marble, and they are all

mostly engaged in living relatively normal lives side by side with one another.

And they do have to be “awakened”! Also, there is a special condition under

which Wanderers may be contacted, it seems, that pretty much eliminates your

“weekend seminar” in channeling. It seems that there is an almost

mathematical law involved in being able to communicate with higher density

beings:

The calling of a group of people whose square overcame the integrated

resistance of those unwilling to search or learn…

If we just stop and think for a moment about the nature of most

people on the planet who donot want to search or learn; they do not

want to think or do the necessary work that prepares a “vessel” for

the inflow of higher knowledge; they want to be “saved” with as little

effort as possible, then you begin to understand the odds against

contact with truly higher density STO beings. That is the operation of the

Law of Free Will.

The majority of beings of third density are STS — they would not be in this

density otherwise. By this choice, they have also chosen the illusions that are

part of this “con job”. Yes, at a very deep level, it is a choice to experience in

order to learn, but let’s not get ahead of ourselves here.

By the very fact that this is the choice of the majority, the few who

might truly wish to perceive the truth are overruled by the mass

choice according to the law of Free Will!

Even if the being is a fourth or sixth density “Wanderer”, by entering

this density, they have chosen to “play by the rules” and cannot

abridge them!

Thus, in order to penetrate this “veil of forgetting”, extreme effort is required in

a mathematical ratio. A consistent “call” by a group, must go out. And the

energy required to penetrate the veil must be built up over a period of time in

order to meet this requirement. This principle is expressed in two of the

purported sayings of Jesus: “Wherever two or more are gathered in my

name…” and you must “ask and keep on asking, knock and keep on knocking,

and it will be opened to you.”

So, just by thinking about this very simple Law of Free Will and its implications,

we come to an understanding that the likelihood of the many “sources” of

information that purport to have “serendipitously” contacted this or that

channel who was just humming along one day and — ZAP! — along came

Swami Whosits or Koot Hoot or Lord Sandyando or whoever, are very likely

victims of the deception — possibly even Wanderers being “neutralized” by STS

forces, or simply those who are “agents” of the STS forces, including those

programmed a la Greenbaum.

Ra did give us a figure: 65 million Wanderers on the planet at the time

he was speaking. That amounts to about one person out of every

hundred on the planet. But how many of them survive the attacks?

How many of them actually do, can, or will wake up? Particularly when

we must expect them to be objects of special “attention” in terms of

“attack”?

But, apparently all is not lost! Those Wanderers who have struggled and

worked or survived the attack/lessons to the point that something inside them

is ready can awaken via subtle “contacts” or inner urgings:

“The feeling of being awakened or activated is the goal of this type

of contact… The methods used to awaken Wanderers are varied.

The center of each approach is the entrance into the conscious

and subconscious in such a way as to avoid causing fear and to

maximize the potential for an understandable subjective

experience that has meaning for the entity. Many such occur in

sleep, others in the midst of many activities during the waking

hours. The approach is flexible and does not necessarily include

the “Close Encounter” syndrome.”

So we are given to understand that such “wake up” experiences can be

varied. Considering the deceptions and manipulations of the Orion STS

that have already been described, we also must consider that there

will be many efforts to block, obfuscate, or mimic such awakenings.

Again, only knowledge can give us the tools with which to

discriminate. Again Ra brings up a special class of attack that can occur to

those who are on a destined mission, as the Cassiopaeans call it:

“Wanderers do have “Close Encounters” with Orion STS, though it

is rare. [Such] occurs either due to the Orion entities’ lack of

perception of the depth of positivity to be encountered or due to

the Orion entities’ desire to, shall we say, attempt to remove this

positivity from this plane of existence. …A mistaken Orion STS

contact with highly polarized positive entities can wreak havoc

with Orion troops unless [they] are able to depolarize the entity

mistakenly contacted.

This occurrence is almost unheard of. Therefore, the Orion group

prefers to make physical contact only with the weaker-minded

entity… The most typical approach of Orion entities is to

choose what you might call the weaker minded entity that

it might suggest a greater amount of Orion STS philosophy

to be disseminated.”

So now we begin to understand the special traps set up for these Wanderers

wherein human agentsare used to manipulate and control them. If they

cannot be corrupted directly, the strategy is to corrupt those around

them — including family, friends, spouses and associates of all

kinds.While I would never claim to be one of these “Wanderers”, even if the

profile does fit (since I am not inclined to “true believership” in anything), there

was a curious exchange with the Cassiopaeans at one session which included

another individual who also fits this profile that gives some clues as to how this

occurs:

May 3, 1997

Q: (L) Reading through the session of May 23, last year, when TK

was also here, and the issue of his living in isolation from the rest

of the world was addressed, you asked who had begged him to

stay there even though he wanted to move to a place where he

could have more contact with other people and more opportunities

for growth and stimulation. The answer to this question was that it

was his wife who insisted on remaining even though it was clear

that he was unhappy in the environment. Then you made a remark

about an EM [Electromagnetic] vector. The way I understood it is

that you were saying that a person can be an EM vector. Is that

possible?

A: Vector means focuser of direction.

Q: (L) So his wife is the one who controls the focus of his direction.

But how? Could that mean that a human being can vector EM

waves simply by their presence and that these EM waves are part

of the control system that manipulates people? Can it be that such

“agents” are used as EM vectors in the sense that they emanate a

special frequency that literally affects the mind in terms of

shutting down clarity, or even actually transmitting pre-coded

thought loops?

A: Precisely.

Q: (L) I also noticed that several of us have been involved

with persons and relationships that seem designed to

confuse, defuse, and otherwise distort our learning, as well

as drain our energy. Basically, keeping us so stressed that

we cannot fulfill our potential. Is there some significance to

this observation?

A: That is elementary, my dear Knight! […]

Q: (L) Were the individuals in our lives selected for the extremely

subtle nature of their abilities to evoke pity, or were we

programmed to respond to pity so that we were blind to something

that was obvious to other people?

A: Neither. You were selected to interact with those who would

trigger a hypnotic response that would ultimately lead to a drain of

energy.

Q: (T) Well, it is a fact, because my energy is sure drained. (L)

What is the purpose of this draining of energy?

A: What do you think?

Q: (T) So you can’t concentrate or do anything. You can’t get

anywhere with anything.

A: Or, at least not the important things.

Q: (T) Is that why my concentration is so low?

A: Yes. You are dealing with a no-win situation!! As you know.

Q: (T) So, if I don’t get out, I will just keep going down. Is it the

area or the person?

A: Both. One is wrapped within the other. […]

Q: (L) Is it true that being in the presence of such people, that one

is under the influence of an energy, an emanation from them

physically, that befuddles the mind and makes it almost impossible

to think one’s way out of the situation?

A: It is the draining of energy that befuddles the mind.

Q: (L) Where does this energy drain?

A: 4th density STS.

Q: (L) These people we are associated with drain our energy from

us and fourth density STS harvests it from them?

A: “They” do nothing!!!! 4th density STS does it all through

them! […]

Lesson number 1: Always expect attack.

Lesson number 2: Know the modes of same.

Lesson number 3: Know how to counteract same.

When you are under attack, expect the unexpected, if it is

going to cause problems… But, if you expect it, you learn

how to “head it off,” thus neutralizing it. This is called

vigilance, which is rooted in knowledge. And, what does

knowledge do?

Q: (L) Protects! I guess that a person just has to come to

the full realization that virtually everything that happens

on the planet — no exceptions — is a symbol of some

interaction of STS vs. STO energy at higher levels.

A: Yes, and for most, that is not as of yet realized. It must

be part of a natural learning process.

Q: (L) Well, I guess that all of us tend to keep one or another area

sacrosanct and think that it is not subject to attack, or that we can

use logic and third density thinking to explain it. Until a person

realizes that attack can come through even one’s self, wives and

husbands, children and parents, friends —

virtually anybody — nobody is exempt.

A: The block is a lack of faith in the concept. Remember, when

one has been indoctrinated by religion, culture and/or

science, they are predisposed to view all things in the

sense of the measurable physical reality exclusively. One

must be cured of lack of faith in the reality of nonphysical

attack.

One major thing we see from the above is that our associations can be crucial.

Of course, if we areaware that anyone and everyone can be used as an “EM

vector” to modulate our frequency or behavior or thinking, then we have some

protection. But to be unaware of it, to be in close association with those

who are unaware themselves, and therefore subject to this

manipulation, is to be firmly “in the trap”.

But suppose one person in a relationship begins to “wake up”, and becomes

aware (even if only vaguely), that all is not as it seems. They will have

continual glimpses of the reality, mostly when not in the presence of the other

individual. They may clearly see that something is not working, that it is not

right, and may even make decisions to change it or to leave. But the instant

the other person is physically present with their EM vectoring capabilities, the

glimpses of truth are “damped” or even shut down and the waking person

begins to feel schizophrenic or crazy in some way for having such conflicting

and opposing thoughts. Add to this the social and religious enculturation to

“turn the other cheek” or “suffer because it’s noble and holy,” and you have

the recipe for cooking the Wanderer’s goose!

Another of the factors in the control system is the “self-destruct” program.

Obviously the aliens have no problem abducting and killing and eating many

people who are still lost in the initial choice for STS/third density. But there are

the special cases of the Wanderers who, obviously, the STS invaders don’t want

to tangle with at that level, as described above by Ra, so they have a rather

clever wayaround this little stumbling block to their machinations: the suicide

game.

This is a very cunning setup, I can tell you! It can follow a variety of lines in the

lives of different people, and it seems that the STS Orions take some sort of

fiendish delight in designing variations for their entertainment pleasure, but the

gist of it is this: a Wanderer is born. Obviously they have to be born

somewhere, to some family, with certain genetics. It is also equally obvious

that the choices probably don’t include having Wanderers for parents or

siblings, (though there are exceptions). There they are, innocent little babies,

volunteers for a great mission, surrounded by potential EM vectors and Lizzie

agents! And the game begins!

Abuse — physical, sexual, and psychological — comes into play to “set

them up” for a later fall — if in fact they are not just simply killed by

same right at the beginning. But the special characteristic of the

Wanderer type is that they continue to “shine” with a sort of “inner

purity” of the questing spirit even in the face of such treatment. As a

result of this abuse, they can be attached by any number of “dead dudes” or

elementals or even demonic-type entities that enter in through wounds in the

psychological/psychic shield like cosmic bacteria.

The usual next stage in this drama is to cause the Wanderer to be

attracted to a particular type of person who is a sort of “false image”

of STO. This can be what researcher Eve Lorgen calls a Love

Bite relationship where a great “cosmic love” is simulated, only to fall

flat as soon as the EM vector is turned off. The intended result of this

betrayal is to induce suicidal feelings or to set the Wanderer up for

the next variation of the game.

What happens now is that the Wanderer is set up by the previous dramas to

seek out marriage or love partners who are also abusive either overtly or

covertly. And, of course, the Wanderer’s special characteristics of being unable

to really understand negative thinking because it is not a part of their own

make-up, prevents them from seeing exactly what is going on. They always

seem to attribute the same high motives and ideals to others that are in

themselves. They endlessly excuse abuse and hurt to themselves and others

with the idea that if they just love the other long enough, hard enough, pure

enough or stand by them through thick and thin, that the abuser will

overcome theirhurts/wounds which are the cause of their abusive behavior, and

they will then be able to be whole, which, of course, the Wanderer believes to

be a person similar to themselves!

Gee, sounds like the Way of the Monk, doesn’t it? Perhaps that “way” was

created just to trap such positive individuals and to use them as energy food

for STS.

Then there is the constant projection of the suicide program by the many EM

vectors that the Wanderer finds in their environment. It takes careful

observation to determine who these individuals may be, but it can be

done! The natural feelings of being lost and alone and alienated from

this environment are intensified and twisted so that the Wanderer

begins to focus solely upon the idea of getting out from under this

enormous psychic pressure. Spirit attachments can also be used in

this respect, attacking the Wanderer from the “inside”, so to speak.

April 15, 1995

Q: (L) [You have mentioned attack.] Is this physical danger or just

harassment danger?

A: Mind attack for purpose of self-destruction.

Q: (L) Is there anything that can be done to shield against

this kind of attack?

A: Yes. Knowledge input on a continuous basis.

Q: (L) And what form should this knowledge take? Does this mean

channeled information, books, videos, what?

A: All and other. Networking of information now, warning!!! All

others will very soon experience great increase of same type of

attack, two of you have had episodes in past from same source for

similar reasons, but now your association puts you in different

category!! Remember all channels and those of similar

make-up are identified, tracked, and “dealt with”. Suicidal

thoughts?

Q: (T) So, we have the knowledge and that’s all we need to do to

prevent the attacks from being nasty?

A: You do not have all the awareness you need! Not by any means!

Remember, all there is is lessons. Daily prayer helps.

Through it all, the Wanderer never whines or complains that others are “doing

it to” them; they always tend, first of all, to seek in themselves the cause of the

events or the treatment they receive. They react with the idea that somehow

they are not giving enough or in the right way, though they are entirely naive

about what “giving” really is because, as mentioned, they have been

brainwashed by the erroneous ideals of the third density STS environment

which are manipulations to induce service to an illusion.

With this enculturation, the most difficult thing that the Wanderer has

to face and do is to learn to not give in some instances, because

this not giving is actually a form of giving at the soul level. Ra

exemplifies this in a curious series of comments:

For many of your centuries, both the [STO group] and the [STS

group] busied themselves with each other upon planes above your

own, shall we say, planes in time/space whereby machinations

were conceived and the armor of light girded. Battles have been

and are continuing to be fought upon these levels.

…Picture [your mind] in total unity with all other minds of your

society. You are then single-minded and that which is a weak

electrical charge in your physical illusion is now an enormously

powerful machine whereby thoughts may be projected as things.

…In this endeavor the [STS group] charges or attacks the [STO

group] armed with light. The result, a standoff, as you would call it,

both energies being somewhat depleted by this and needing to

regroup; the negative depleted through failure to manipulate, the

positive depleted through failure to accept that which is given.

…[To explain “failure to accept that which is given”]: At the level of

time/space which this takes place in the form of what you may call

thought-war, the most accepting and loving energy would be to so

love those who wished to manipulate that those entities were

surrounded and engulfed, transformed by positive energies.

…This, however, being a battle of equals, the [STO group] is aware

that it cannot, on equal footing, allow itself to be manipulated in

order to remain purely positive, for then though pure it would not

be of any consequence, having been placed by the so-called

powers of darkness under the heel, as you may say. It is thus

that those who deal with this thought war must be defensive

rather than accepting in order to preserve their usefulness in

service to others. Thusly, they cannot accept fullywhat the [STS

group] wishes to give, that being enslavement.

…The only consequence which has been helpful is a balancing of

the energies available to this planet so that these energies have

less necessity to be balanced in this time/space, thus lessening the

chances of planetary annihilation.

So we see here a guiding principle of balance. For those who believe that it is

Love to “accept enslavement” — which is to respond to manipulation and

thereby serve the STS faction, it becomes clear that to do so is to neutralize

their effectiveness as an STO candidate because they are then no longer

“purely positive”! By accepting the manipulations, they become part of

the other side!

The bottom line here is this: if you are duped or sucked into the

illusions of the machinations of STS, you are effectively “one of

them”, no matter what your intentions, and you thus further

contribute to the unbalanced energies. This neutralizes the true

nature of Service to Others. […]

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We can see now that being a Wanderer is not a walk in the park, nor a “free

ride” on this planetary experience. It doesn’t matter what knowledge they have

brought with them. It takes tremendous work, vigilance and discernment to

bring it forth and act on it, being aware of attacks from the “other team”. This

entails much conscious struggle and suffering, especially at the beginning, as

the Wanderer is activating his/her higher centers linking him/her to his/her

higher self more consciously, so they start to remember and align themselves

with their life’s purpose.

This purpose is not a definition and task one realizes over night. It’s a process

and since the future is open with different potential outcomes, the tasks based

on the wanderer’s inherent gifts will reveal themselves more specifically

according to specific situations and the choices they make. Their direction is

not planned aforetimes. This also depends on the Wanderer’s conscious self-

work to learn the lessons he/she needs to learn in order to be truly of service.

This implies not only remembering themselves but also gaining Knowledge on a

continuous basis.

“Purpose is realized by taking the journey, not by establishing a

favorable or fascinating explanation or a definition for oneself.

Purpose is not a justification. It does not compensate for anything.

Purpose is something that is waiting for you to discover. You can

only discover it by taking the journey, by following the way,

by learning as you go and by gaining the greater

perspective and understanding that one acquires as one

matures in The Way of Knowledge.

This journey requires phenomenal self-honesty. Humility,

honesty, openness, discernment, restraint, discretion,

tolerance and compassion— these are qualities that result

from preparation and advancement in The Way of

Knowledge. These things are what provide inspiration and true

ability in life…..With greater awareness comes a greater ability.

This all comes from Knowledge.Here you are asked to follow,

to respond and to learn the great lessons in discernment,

discretion, communication and affinity. These lessons are

inherent in the preparation itself…..Accept that the journey is

great. It is marvelous. It is at times difficult. But in all ways it

refines you. It washes away that which is nonessential in you and

reveals that which is permanent and meaningful. Your real

purpose and calling become apparent when all that hides

and conceals them has fallen away, and what is left is what

is real, and that becomes welcomed and embraced.“

I can relate to this in my own life. As mentioned before, I came to the Los

Angeles to study drums and percussion and play in bands. It was the beginning

of my journey towards self-discovery. I was following my bliss, as Joseph

Campbell would say. Back then I thought that was my purpose, what I really

wanted to do. Nothing else mattered. I played drums 4-6 hours a day,

rehearsed with my band and put my heart and soul into it. All I wanted to do

was make music, tour and make a living as a musician. However, I was still

suffering and struggling internally. A lot of things came up during that time for

me which I was forced to look at, otherwise I would have not survived as my

depression and despair put me on the edge of insanity.

At the same time new friends and and situations came into my life which

introduced me to the healing arts, in particular yoga, qi gong, and bodywork as

well as shamanism and medicine plants, which also helped me in my inner

process. Interestingly I wasn’t seeking these things out fully conscious. It just

happened in the flow of life as I was seeking answers and trying to heal and

understand myself. Something else was guiding me. During that time I also

discovered another talent: bodywork. My roommate back then, who was a yoga

teacher and bodyworker, introduced me to it, worked on me and started to

teach me some basic massage techniques. He became my mentor. Having had

tremendous breakthroughs and healing moments physically and emotionally

through receiving bodywork, I experienced first hand the healing power of it. I

began to do bodywork on friends and seemed to have a healing touch for it

based on the feedback I received. People came to me asking me to work on

them on a regular basis, yet I didn’t think of doing it professionally back then.

My focus was still on music and drumming.

I started to write during my time with my band Revolve in early 2000. We gave

out writings at our shows to spread awareness, but eventually my drive to seek

truth and knowledge overshadowed the musical aspect of my life and it

seemed very natural when the band broke up. Writing helped me to learn and

clarify the new information I was taking in. Many insights came along with it. I

was inspired and wanted to share all this amazing hidden Knowledge about our

reality and what was happening on our planet. Looking back I can see how this

at times was not externally considerate and I was trying to give without being

asked. I can also see how I was gullible and not discerning about some of the

information I came across back then. I was drinking the New Age cool-aid at

one point, driven by wishful thinking, emotional hooks and was not very

discerning. However, it complicated my life even more. Thankfully the universe

didn’t give me what I “wanted”, but what I “needed” at that time to snap me

out it.

When my band Revolve broke up after inspiring years of musical creativity,

recording and touring, I enrolled in Massage School to pursue bodywork, the

new talent I had discovered. It seemed the universe literally pushed me to do it

and I was answering the call. I have been working as a professional bodyworker

ever since. It was a complete shift in my life path and it seemed that certain

triggers lead me to it without my “conscious” choice. Looking back at my life,

connecting the dots, I feel like what the late Apple founder Steve Jobs said.

When discovering your bliss, sometimes you just gotta do things because you

are drawn to them for reasons you canʼt fully understand in the moment and

only in retrospect can you connect the dots in your life and see how it all works

together. For example, I know now that without my years as a drummer, using

music and drumming for healing and emotional exploration (even if I wasn’t

fully aware of that back then), and without my suffering and crisis, I wouldn’t

be the bodyworker and healer Iʼm today nor write about the things I’m writing

now. However, I never “planned” to become a bodyworker or writer. I know now

that I had to confront my dark side, programming and conditioning and heal

myself, however painful it was, in order to become my real Self (and there is

always more work to do). As Carl Jung said: “There is no coming to

consciousness without pain.” It’s the mythological journey of Chiron, the

Wounded Healer, who in his search for his own cure discovered how to heal

others. The lesson of Chiron teaches us is that we can overcome pain and

transcend into knowledge.

“You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect

them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will

somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something —

your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never

let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.”

– Steve Jobs

I also had many assisting forces, seen and unseen, spirit guides and non-

physical STO forces that guided me along when I was able and willing to

“listen”. There were many friends, mentors and teachers that came in and out

of my life who helped me along the way, assisting me on my path or giving me

just the right book to read. And of course, in light of the Knowledge I have now,

I can also see how STS forces and the Matrix Control System have tried to steer

me off my path (sometimes disguised as “angels”, “friends” or romantic

relationships) working through people (and my own “predator-mind”) with

temptations and distractions, getting at my weak spots. However, I felt very

strongly throughout my life that I came here with a specific purpose that is

beyond what I “think” I want to do at times and this purpose seems to

crystallize itself and becomes clearer as I learn my lessons, “get myself out of

the way” and remember more of who I truly am. There is still much more to

learn and to remember.

“A hero is someone who has given his or her life to something

bigger than oneself.”

– Joseph Campbell

My intent for sharing my personal story throughout this article is also for you to

reflect back on your own life and see how you “got here”, so you can

understand your past and your life choices better, when you have been truly

acting in alignment with your higher self or self-sabotaging because of

conditioned/programmed patterns and beliefs. That way we can understand our

present better and create our future more consciously. What worked for me

may not work for another. We all have our own story, individual lessons to

learn, karma to work out and talents to develop.

“Each Wanderer has unique abilities, biases, specialties so that

from each portion of each Density represented among Wanderers

come array of pre-incarnative talents which may be expressed so

that each Wanderer, in offering itself before incarnation, has some

special service to offer in addition to the doubling effect of

planetary love/light [vibrations adding to the planet just as

electrical polarity or charging a battery] and basic function of

serving as beacon or shepher….

The best way of service to others is the constant attempt to seek

to share the love of the Creator as it is known to the inner self. This

involves self knowledge and the ability to open the self to the

other-self without hesitation. This involves, shall we say, radiating

that which is the essence or the heart of the mind/body/ spirit

complex…. The best way for each seeker in third density to

be of service to others is unique to that mind/body/spirit

complex. This means that the mind/body/ spirit complex

must then seek within itself the intelligence of its own

discernment as to the way it may best serve other-selves.

This will be different for each.”

– Ra

Let’s take the archetypal Hero’s Journey a bit deeper and look at the awakening

process more closely, knowing now that there are other forces acting against

us, trying to keep us from advancing esoterically. The initiatory process is the

same in all true mystery teachings. It is not a sudden “enlightenment” where

one feels One with everything. It is not a pleasant event at all, but is a decent

into the underworld, fighting demons, coming to terms with the predator within

and the lies one is telling oneself, dying and being reborn, crossing the

threshold which enables one to engage in esoteric work consciously. Laura

Knight Jadczyk writes in “The Wave” Volume 5&6 “Petty Tyrants & Facing the

Unknown”:

“The moment of true initiation. It seems that, as the great masters

teach us, it is not a moment of “great enlightenment.” It is not

someone who comes to “show us reality.” It is not a “seeing all the

world as a oneness.” It is seeing the self as a liar and a feeder on

others. It is measuring the self with TRUTH. It is seeing that

the predator has been feeding on the self, that the self has

been feeding on others and propagating the infection on to

all those who one claims to love and wish to help.

Initiation is not a glorious inpouring of life and love and tears for

the beauty and oneness of the world.

It is sheer terror.

It is a descent into Hell. It is the Shamanic descent into the

underworld to do battle with demons. It is the dismemberment of

the body, the flaying of the flesh from the bones, and the

subsequent rebuilding of the self on a different foundation – a

foundation of spiritual verity.

And if I could convey to you that Hell, that sensation, that solitary

test in which the soul is weighed, BY THE SELF, finally and

completely and seen for what it has truly done, you would see how

little truth there is because of all the beliefs of the Matrix that have

been inculcated and promulgate and tended so carefully by our

emotions and by the deceptions of the predator within who

convinces us that we are “good” and “pure” and there is

“oneness.”

Indeed, one sees that there is “oneness,” but one sees that the

aspect of God that is experienced at this level is the black,

sucking, feeding maw of STS (Service to Self). One sees how little

true Love is actually manifested at this level of being. One sees

that all of our illusions about “goodness” and truth and

beauty are LIES. They are masks for more feeding. And that is so

horrifying an initiation that few survive.

That is “paying everything.”

Now, re-read what Gurdjieff had to say about the matter; how he

pointed out that a person has to “pay in advance,” that the key is

to accept the idea that one is not what one thinks, that there is a

different reality from which our own is projected, and that

developing this idea in the realm of pure thought, and then using it

as the platform by which one can observe and analyze, is the key

to being able to see for a moment, and then again. One must be

able to see the interactions of the Petty Tyrants in our lives, the

Predators who prey on us in the Theological Reality. And then, one

must be willing to act. It is only after action that the true nature of

the Predator reveals itself just as the Vampire reacts with violence

to being exposed by the presence of a mirror. Because, it must be

kept always in mind that there ARE predators who are predators by

choice – even if that choice is made at some level, in some part of

themselves that is not available to even their own conscious

awareness. They, too, are part of the Matrix, and they wouldn’t be

able to play their roles if they were not consciously convinced that

they are right, that they are “good,” that they are righteous and

long-suffering.”

As I was diving deeper into Esoteric Science coming across Gurdjieff’s 4th Way

Teachings as well as Boris Mouravieff’s “Gnosis”, it all seemed to confirm in

many ways what I’ve encountered throughout my life in the process of

awakening and in relation to my inner state and to outer circumstances, people

and the world at large, from “moral bankruptcy”, the death of the

“personality”, to struggle with forces trying to keep me from advancing/waking

up, to seeing the light and forming the “magnetic center”. All of which is still a

process and much work is still to be done. We are all works in progress in our

own ways.

“The Way is the ensemble of practices which, carried out properly

according to the principles of esoteric science, will allow man to

evolve.”

– Boris Mouravieff, Gnosis I

As mentioned before, every once in a while a book or teaching presents itself,

which acts like a “guide”, appearing sat just the right moment in time, helping

and showing me that I’m “on track”, describing things I’ve been through and

hinting at where it is all leading to and what one must do or not do in order to

awaken.

What follows are some insights into Esoteric Science as transmitted by Boris

Mouravieff in his trilogy “Gnosis”. Maybe some of you can recognize yourselves

in these words as well. For some these writings may strike home, touching

something deep within beyond the personality of the false “I”. For others it may

sound very foreign and complex. This also relates to what Ra said about

Wanderers having a disposition towards esoteric work or other souled

individuals who have the seed that can sprout and grow, activating the higher

centers. This work is not for everyone. As Mouravieff said in his introduction

to “Gnosis”:

“Some people complain that the subject of the fundamentals of

esotericism is not simple. Others have said that it leads to great

clarity. This apparent contradiction is explained by the fact that

esotericism is addressed to readers who are predisposed to

esoteric culture by their nature, formation or personal experience.”

We also know that no steps can be skipped, the lessons need to be learned and

that starting with the right foundation is imperative so one doesn’t over-

estimate one’s level of Being at the start of the journey. I know out of personal

experience that I was grasping certain esoteric ideas intellectually at first, but

it wasn’t matched up with my Being and Understanding to truly apply the

Knowledge I gained. In other words I didn’t embody it. It’s the fine balance

between Knowledge, Being and Understanding A false foundation can also

result if one gets hooked by a false teaching for example, mistaking lies for

truth or having “sacred cows”, which are beliefs one is identified with, hence

taking any challenge to ones beliefs as a personal attack (Identification with a

nation/country is a good example for that). As the Cs said: “Gaining false

Knowledge is more dangerous than gaining no Knowledge.” Gurdjieff

makes this point in Ouspenky’s “In Search of the Miraculous”:

“In the history of humanity there are known many examples when

entire civilizations have perished because knowledge outweighed

being or being outweighed knowledge. “What are the results of the

development of the line of knowledge without being, or the

development of the line of being without knowledge?” someone

asked during a talk upon this subject.

“The development of the line of knowledge without the line

of being gives a weak yogi,” said G., “that is to say, a man

who knows a great deal but can do nothing, a man who

does not understand” (he emphasized these words) “what

he knows, a man without appreciation, that is, a man for

whom there is no difference between one kind of

knowledge and another.

And the development of the line of being without

knowledge gives a stupid saint, that is, a man who can do

a great deal but who does not know what to do or with

what object; and if he does anything he acts in obedience

to his subjective feelings which may lead him greatly

astray and cause him to commit grave mistakes, that is,

actually to do the opposite of what he wants. In either case

both the weak yogi and the stupid saint are brought to a

standstill.

Neither the one nor the other can develop further.

In order to understand this and, in general, the nature of

knowledge and the nature of being, as well as their interrelation, it

is necessary to understand the relation of knowledge and being to

‘understanding.’

Knowledge is one thing, understanding is another thing.

People often confuse these concepts and do not clearly grasp what

is the difference between them. Knowledge by itself does not give

understanding. Nor is understanding increased by an increase of

knowledge alone. Understanding depends upon the relation

of knowledge to being. Understanding is the resultant of

knowledge and being. And knowledge and being must not diverge

too far, otherwise understanding will prove to be far removed from

either. At the same time the relation of knowledge to being does

not change with a mere growth of knowledge. It changes only

when being grows simultaneously with knowledge. In other

words, understanding grows only with the growth of being.

In ordinary thinking, people do not distinguish understanding from

knowledge. They think that greater understanding depends on

greater knowledge. Therefore they accumulate knowledge, or that

which they call knowledge, but they do not know how to

accumulate understanding and do not bother about it.”

“…..A man must first of all understand certain things. He has

thousands of false ideas and false conceptions, chiefly about

himself, and he must get rid of some of them before beginning to

acquire anything new. Otherwise the new will be built on a wrong

foundation and the result will be worse than before. To speak the

truth is the most difficult thing in the world; one must study a

great deal and for a long time in order to speak the truth. The wish

alone is not enough. To speak the truth one must know what

the truth is and what a lie is, and first of all in oneself. And

this nobody wants to know.“

The path toward “Ascension”, to rise above this world (Being in this world but

not of it), The Way of esoteric work is also told in stories in form of symbols.

The clues are everywhere for the Initiated to see. It relates to seeing the

unseen. There are ‘B’ influences, not of this world which are conscious in their

origin and have been created consciously outside life by conscious people for a

definite purpose. These influences are the “soul” of any culture and they are

embodied in the form of religious systems and teachings, philosophical

doctrines, art, etc., as opposed to ‘A’ influences ( such as race, nation, country,

pop culture, family, profession, entertainment, current ideas, customs and so

on) which relate to “The General Law” and “Law of Accident”, keeping man

asleep at the mercy of the external world, lost in the wilderness of everyday

life. Discernment between those two is vital for the wanderer, esoteric student

and seeker, separating truth from lies.

A and B influences have been mixed throughout history. Many spiritual inclined

people tend to mistake A for B influences. Much of the popular New Age

material with its superficial and vague spirituality falls into that category. We

can see millions of well intentioned people in our world wanting to change the

world for “the better” through voting or pseudo new age spirituality a la “The

Secret”, wanting to”create” a new reality. However, most of them don’t

confront their interior but stay in the “wilderness” of ‘A’ influences, the lies that

are the basis of the Illusion/Matrix. And so instead of breaking out of the prison,

they re-enforce it through the distortion of their conditioned personality and

wishful thinking, enhancing their false “I” instead of strengthening their

essence. In many ways what we see in today’s popular spiritual concepts and

self-help books is the opposite of what the ancient esoteric traditions have

taught. People can be very successful within the matrix of A influences, make a

lot of money, have a successful career, become famous, etc. but not have

progressed esoterically/spiritually one bit. From Mouravieff’s Gnosis:

“If man spends his life without distinguishing between ‘A’ and ‘B’

influences, he will end it as he started, one could say

mechanically, driven by the Law of Accident. However, according

to the nature and the intensity of the resultant forces to

which he is subjected, it can happen to him to make a

brilliant career, in the meaning the world gives to this

expression. Yet he will come to the end of his days without

having either learned or understood anything of Reality.”

“Man can delude himself and, believing he is absorbing ‘B’

influences and making the necessary selection all the

while, he in fact absorbs ‘A’ influences.This will put him

into contact with people who possess magnetic centres of

the same nature: who are themselves duped or who dupe

others, and who have no direct or indirect link with the

esoteric Centre. What guarantee can man have that he will not

dupe himself and that he will not fall into the latter situation? The

answer is simple. The purity of the magnetic centre must be

scrupulously maintained from the start and all through his

evolution.”

One can see now very clearly that much of the New Age and pop-spirituality is

in actuality ‘A’ influences packaged in a ‘B’ wrapping. Truth mixed with lies,

which can divert the seeker from his real “I” and true awakening. An example

would be the whole abstract new age bits of “sending love and light into the

world”, focusing just on “good” thoughts, visualizing the “light body” as a

means of ascension, or just “being open”, avoiding anything “bad” or

“negative”, ignoring the “unpleasant” and just focus on manifesting one’s

desires, etc …

As long as one has not established the purity of the magnetic center through

deep self-work and conscious suffering one just acts in STS, putting the false

personality’s (ego’s) subjective will on to the world which only fuels entropy

and feeding dynamics, strengthening the STS polarity while lying to oneself

about one’s state of being and awareness.

In that sense much New Age material is just like fundamental Religion. It works

on blind belief, wishful thinking, not Knowledge and Truth. And so many seekers

are developing a false magnetic center, a false foundation, “who are

themselves duped or who dupe others, and who have no direct or

indirect link with the esoteric Centre.” That’s also how wanderers can be

duped and being vectored away from the mission they came to accomplish.

Furthermore, the one’s promoting just to focus on “love and light” (without

understanding the true meaning of these words) and ignoring the

“bad/negative” the loudest are the ones most heavily duped, more duped than

the average sleeping man, because the former actually thinks he has

awakened and can “see” now…….little does he know that he’s going in circles

vectored by ‘A’ influences and staying in the “wilderness”, dreaming to be

awake.

On that note, there is nothing “wrong” with desires of the ego/personality and

just creating reality based on unquestioned desires of the “I”, nothing “wrong”

with shutting off anything “bad” and “unpleasant” and keep living in a

subjective tunnel vision and wishful thinking based on Service to Self (STS).

Enjoy! It’s a free will universe. Everyone can do as they want to, be it you, me,

Bush, Obama or anyone else. However, what needs to be kept in mind is that

this approach has nothing to do with conscious spiritual evolution or the “path

of ascension”. It is the reason why the world and its people are on a course to

self-destruction. It’s not a spiral upward but a spiral downward that grinds itself

into an abyss. Humanity has evolved technologically, but not

spiritually/consciously really at all and man is still mostly driven by his lower

centers and mechanical personality.

“What strikes us from the very beginning is that man confuses

moral progress with technical progress, so that the development of

science continues in dangerous isolation. The brilliant progress

that has come from technology has changed nothing essential in

the human condition, and will change nothing, because it operates

only in the field of everyday events. For this reason it touches the

inner life of man only superficially.”

– Mouravieff, Gnosis

Life on Earth as we know it, this 3rd density experience is based on STS,

Service to Self. STO, Service to Others, is something man can aspire to through

conscious evolution. During this Time of Transformation the choice to be made

is really between STO and STS and truly understanding what that means,

differentiating between A and B influences, separating lies from truth, inside

oneself and outside in the world. This is the age of awakening but also the age

of deceit and deception, not only through the obvious political circus, but

through corrupted spiritual teachings as well, be it dogmatic religion or New

Age hype.

“The next is manipulation of spiritual values and tendencies.It is no

accident that in the last four years that we’ve seen in new religious

thought the religion of acquiescence and passivity: trusting in the

process; whatever happens is what needs to happen; everyone is

right where they need to be;… you don’t resist; you acquiesce; to

resist is to be negative, is to be fearful, is to be unconscious. A

great prescription for convincing the natives to give over the keys

to the kingdom, a very good, clever form of manipulation.”

– M. V. Summers

It’s like taking the red or blue pill (as in the film “The Matrix”), truth or illusion,

waking up or staying asleep. There is no “right” or “wrong” choice. There is

only choice, as it is, respecting free will. However, most people do not even

know that there is a choice to be made in this time of transition and are in the

dark about what is happening on this planet, manipulated through

hyperdimensional STS forces working through themselves, government,

religion, official culture, corrupted new age teachings, channeled material,

etc… .

Interestingly, one can also see how the mystery teachings were also describing

a “Hyperdimensional Control System”, the “General Law” in esoteric terms,

acting on man, keeping him in line with mechanical unconscious behavior to be

“Food for the Moon”. In order to escape the Matrix/General Law man needs to

align oneself with “The Law of Exception”, engaging in esoteric work with

conscious effort. There is a threshold to be crossed, a void, which puts the

seeker on The Way. The process and necessity of moral bankruptcy ,which

initiates the seeker into “The Way” of esoteric work, is described in more detail

in Boris Mouravieff’s “Gnosis”. This also relates to the idea of wanderers and

their initiation/awakening process.

“This void, which can only be crossed at the cost of considerable

effort or even of super-efforts, operates selectively. The character

and the quantity of effort necessary differs for each

person, depending upon the nature and degree of

deformation of the mind of each exterior man; an

individual factor…

Man was compared to a cell of organic life on Earth. Because he

belongs to this organism, man is subject to the General Law,

and it is only when he has escaped it that he is elevated to

the Law of Exception.We are not aware of how much we are

bound by the action of the General Law. Acting on us as it does on

our cells, this law immobilizes us or constantly tends to bring us

back to our place. Its strength leaves us little freedom of action

outside the limits of its direction and scope. It acts in various

ways. One can say that if man lives ‘like everyone else’, if

he doesnot venture off the beaten track, he will never

perceive the existence of thisforce, or rather this force will

ignore him.“

We can see this very clearly in our world. Everyone who is just going along with

the masses and the accepted reality of official culture has not much struggle in

the world. Birth, school, choose a career, get a job, buy a TV, consume,

reproduce, entertain, be nationalistic or religious, follow your desires and

impulses unexamined, etc… Not knowing himself, but a slave to the outside

world, fully asleep, dreaming to be awake under the control of the General

Law/Matrix, the common man has no free will, although he thinks he does.

However, whenever someone awakens, steps up and tries to “escape” the

General Law/Matrix by speaking up and seeking truth, forces are put on to him

to put him back in line, back to sleep. They will be ridiculed or even silenced

(Gandhi, MLK, John Lennon and many other truth seekers most people haven’t

even heard about), depending on their impact. Anything that is not a threat to

the MCS (Matrix Control System) or General Law will be ignored or even

promoted heavily, be it dogmatic religion, politics, entertainment or new age

fluff which works in favor of the PTB (powers that be).

“But if his enterprises are out of the ordinary, no matter

what field they are in, but especially in esotericism, this

force begins to act, and stirs up all sorts of obstacles in

order to bring him back to the point where — according to

the General Law — he must reside. Even without knowing this

force, we have an intuition of its existence and of the many forms

which clothe it. The Holy Scripture sspeak of it more than once,

especially where esoteric work is concerned.

Thus, if this conservative force, which is the servant of the

General Law, does not succeed in ‘calming’ man by acting

directly upon him, it tries to reach him indirectly through

the people of hishousehold, either through the feelings

they invoke or the coolness and contempt they openly

show him. As long as it is not mastered, the force of

illusion keeps each one of us in his place, obliging him

most often to mistake the false for the true.

Submerged in unreality, instead of advancing, man marks time;

one step forward and two steps backwards; two steps forward and

one step backwards, and so on.We generally agree to recognize

the existence of the danger of Illusion, but rather theoretically;

most often, we see its action on those round about us, but not on

ourselves. We continue to live day by day in the same old way, so

that the power we know as the Devil still triumphs. Whatever

name we give it, it remains ever-present.

We live in an artificial, illusory world. The power of illusion

which chains us exerts its action individually on each one

of us, as well as collectively. Each mind is falsified in a way

peculiar to it. What can be the outcome of such a situation? If we

keep quietly to our place, human careers open to us … just as long

as we stay far away fromt he void. We may have a happy or

unhappy life; a family life; a life of loves; we may make

discoveries, travel, write. Then comes the end. Our reasoning

starts to become more realistic if our attention is concentrated on

this end. Everything can happen to us in life; or nothing. Our

aspirations can be fulfilled or unfulfilled, but there is a sure end,

which is death.”

“The Threshold” to be crossed out of the wilderness which grants the access to

the “The Way” and staircase to transcend the Matrix/General Law is described

in esoteric parables:

Lost in a forest full of wild beasts, moved by confused but deep

feelings, a bewilderedman searches for the way. Exhausted after

running the gauntlet of a thousand dangers, he emerges at the

edge. Spread out before him is a view which fills him with

admiration mixed with fear: agreat castle of primitive beauty is on

the other side of a large moat filled with clearand living water.

Behind the castle a happy valley opens out, lit by the last rays of

thesun. To the left, a dark reddish horizon warns of a coming

storm. Marveling, and seized by a passionate desire to reach the

castle, he forgets the dangers and fatigue to which he has been

exposed.

– ‘How do I get there?’ He asks himself.

Suddenly he hears a Voice speaking to him from his inmost heart.

’The moat’, it says, ‘can only be crossed by swimming… the

current is strong and the water icy.

‘In spite of this, the man feels a surge of new strength mounting

within him. Committed, he throws himself into the moat. The cold

paralyses his breathing, but by an extreme effort of will he reaches

the other side in a few strokes and jumps onto the first step of the

stairs, where he gets a foothold. Three more immensegranite steps

tower above him. They lead to a large stage in the form of a

semicircle, defended by two towers. Two closed doors give access

to them. A roaring sound comes to his ears. The man turns. At the

place where he stoodonly instants before, a pack of wolves paw at

the ground.The day is coming to an end. In the dusk he can still

distinguish the blazing eyes ofthe hungry beasts. Again he hears

the Voice telling him:

– ‘All in all, the risk was not that great. If you had refused, you

would have beentorn to shreds by the wolves.’

Terrified by his escape from that danger, the man estimates the

difficulties that will accompany his climb.He had hardly started to

climb the second step when a deluge of rain falls, making the

stones slippery and obstructing his movement — yet he ends by

getting a foothold. The storm passes and the rain diminishes. His

face and clothes drip heavilyonto the stone.

– ‘Little does it matter,’ says the Voice, ‘you had already got wet

crossing themoat’

The man regains his breath again and starts climbing. Night falls,

and the crescentof the new moon appears pale and golden on his

right, towards the setting sun.

– ‘A good sign,’ he hears within himself. The man smiles. Now he

clings to a tiny ledge, reaching for the third step. He reaches it,

hands and legs stained with blood. No sooner had he stood up

than a gustof glacial wind almost throws him off again. Clinging to

the ground, he climbs up to the wall forming the fourth step, and

finds shelter there.

– ‘That is not all,’ says the Voice. Do not waste time taking shelter.

The step cansplit, and then the earth will swallow you up.’

His resistance to the storm, instead of exhausting him, redoubles

his strength. Now he climbs the fourth step with little difficulty,

although it is as high as the preceding ones. Standing, he hears an

alarm trumpet like thunder. Suddenly, a scorching windstrikes him

in the face. He lifts his eyes. In the obscurity of the night, a shining

figure stands to attention before him: It is the Guardian, clad in

armor and shining helmet, arms outstretched, a blazing sword in

his hand and pointed towards the man.

– ‘Who are you, pilgrim?’ he asks. ‘To what end and in whose name

have youpassed these obstacles and climbed the steps of

paradise?’

Overcome by a surge of ineffable joy, the man repeats in a loud

voice the words he has just heard in the depth of his heart. He

feels as if they are now his, and answers the Guardian with

courage.

– ‘I am the Soul in search of divine happiness; a particle aspiring to

unite with the Creative Principle I’

– ‘Your answer is correct’, replies the Guardian.

The door to the tower on the right opens. The sword returns to its

sheath. The Guardian takes the man by the hand and leads him

across the threshold of the opendoor…Dawn gilds the eastern sky.

Precursor of the Sun, the morning Star shines above the happy

Valley.

Here is another one of these fragments, taken from classical literature: a

passage from Turgenev:

I see a great building, one enormous mass. In the front wall is a

narrow arch withopen doors; behind them, dark mists. In front of

the high threshold there is a young girl… a pretty Russian girl.

A breeze comes from the dark and icy mists, a current of freezing

air, bringingwith it from the depths of the building the sound of a

slow and muffled voice.

– ‘You who aspire to cross this threshold, do you know what awaits

you here?

– ‘I know,’ answers the young girl. – ‘Cold, hunger, hate, mockery,

scorn, injustice, prison, illness and even death?’

– ‘I know it. ‘- ‘Do you expect to be shunned by everyone? Do you

expect to be totally alone?’

– ‘I am ready. I know it. I shall bear all the suffering and all the

blows’. - ‘Even if they do not come from enemies, but from

parents, from friends?’ – ‘Yes… even from those…’

– ‘Good. Do you accept the sacrifice?’ – ‘Yes’. - ‘An anonymous

sacrifice? You will perish and nobody… but nobody will evenknow

whose memory to honor?’

– ‘I have no use for recognition and pity. I have no use for a name.’

– ‘Are you ready for crime?’ The young girl bowed her head. –

‘Even for crime.’

The voice which was questioning her did not continue right away.

At last it started again: — ‘Do you know that one day you will

believe no more in what you believe innow, and come to think that

you have been a dupe and that it was for nothing thatyou have

lost your young life?’ — ‘That too I know. Well though I know it, I

wish to enter.’ The young girl crossed the threshold.

A heavy curtain fell.Gritting his teeth, someone uttered behind her:

– ‘A foolish girl!’

At which, from another place, a voice replied: – ‘A saint!’

Mouravieff explains the meaning of those parables:

“These two fragments, both of esoteric origin, give some idea of

the access to the Way. The further our studies progress, the better

we will decipher their meaning, as everything they say is

significant. For now, we draw the attention of the reader

particularly to the first clue, the most important for him: the way

is a one-way street. Meaning that whoever begins to walk it is

forbidden to turn back. This is not because of some kind of

external imperative, but due to the fact that each step

forward on the Way irrevocably modifies the content of

whoever has started walking it. It follows that he will

become more and more of a stranger to his surroundings;

that he will lose more and more interest in exterior life, in

which only yesterday he participated fully. The appearance

of things, and especially of beings, undergoes a deep

change in his eyes. He will one day be surprised to

constate that certain faces which only yesterday he found

very beautiful now reveal to him marks of bestiality behind

their features: not all, but many of them!”

“The more man progresses on the Way, the more his feeling of

being a stranger is intensified. Soon he will become boring: later

still he will become unbearable, and finally, odious. That is why

‘the prophet is despised in his country, among his close

relations and in his own house.‘ That indication is precise and

leaves no room for doubt. He who wants to start esoteric studies is

invited to think it over twice, and weigh it all, before he rushes to

cross the moat-threshold. We repeat that it will not be

possible for him to return to exterior life and to find his

place, his pleasures and his satisfaction there as in the

past. However, as well as the difficulties which are the first results

of his evolution, such a man will receive comforting impressions,

especially in his human relations. He will be surprised to

perceive one day that certain faces which only yesterday

appeared to him ordinary, today shine in his eyes with a

bright beauty. It is because his sight, sharpened by

esoteric work, has acquired the faculty of penetrating

beyond the external crust. It is amongst these brighter

beings that he will find his new friends. Their society will

welcome him as one of their own. He will be understood

among them, and their community of common aims and

interests will be a stimulus and a help for all.“

Looking back at my life I can certainly relate to this and maybe others who are

in the same process of seeking truth and starting esoteric self-work can see

this in their lives and associations as well. Literally all the friends I thought I

had showed dis-contempt toward the things I was getting into and was talking

about, be it through ridicule or making fun of me or even attacking me for

daring to question their beliefs.

As I was coming to terms with my own predator, programming and mechanical

behaviors I saw it even more in others. I saw the feeding and the lies people

were telling themselves. Not only that, but I realized that I have been feeding

on others myself and they were feeding off me. It seemed something else was

in control of humanity and working through us.

‘Think for a moment, and tell me how you would explain the

contradiction between the intelligence of man the engineer and

the stupidity of his systems of beliefs, or the stupidity of his

contradictory behavior. Sorcerers believe that the predators

have given us our systems of beliefs, our ideas of good and

evil, our social mores. They are the ones who set up our

hopes and expectations and dreams of success or failure.

They have given us covetousness, greed and cowardice. It

is the predators who make us complacent, routinary, and

egomaniacal. ‘…

In order to keep us obedient and meek and weak, the predators

engaged themselves in a stupendous maneuver – stupendous, of

course, from the point of view of a fighting strategist. A horrendous

maneuver from the point of view of those who suffer it. They gave

us their mind! Do you hear me? The predators give us their

mind, which becomes our mind. The predators’ mind is baroque,

contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any

minute now…. ”

Through the mind, which, after all, is their mind, the

predators inject into the lives of human beings whatever is

convenient for them. And they ensure, in this manner, a degree

of security to act as a buffer against their fear.”

– Don Juan Matus, The Active Side of Infinity (Carlos Castaneda)

“There are a thousand things which prevent a man from

awakening, which keep him in the power of his dreams. In order to

act consciously with the intention of awakening, it is necessary to

know the nature of the forces which keep man in a state of sleep.

First of all it must be realized that the sleep in which man exists is

not normal but hypnotic sleep. Man is hypnotized and this hypnotic

state is continually maintained and strengthened in him. One

would think that there are forces for whom it is useful and

profitable to keep man in a hypnotic state and prevent him

from seeing the truth and understanding his position.”

– G. I. Gurdjieff

I was living a lie based on my false “I”, dreaming to be awake. I also realized

that all the talk and notions about love and happiness were buffers and illusion

people tell themselves for self-calming and had nothing to do with real love. I

mistook many things for love myself. During my “dark night of the soul” and

“moral bankruptcy” I had intense periods of deep despair and depression,

sometimes not being able to get out of bed, but lying in fetal position and

crying a lot. As I mentioned before I was even contemplating suicide a lot back

then. It was emotionally and physically intense as if something within me was

dying.

Later on as I gained more knowledge about the process I was going through

esoterically and psychologically, I realized that my depression was actually a

stepping stone towards becoming my true self.

Kazimierz Dabrowski is a Polish psychiatrist and psychologist who developed

the Theory of Positive Disintegration (TPD). The Theory of Positive

Disintegration is a novel approach to personality development and relates to

“depression as a stepping stone”.

What is very interesting about this model is how it is similar in ways to certain

esoteric teachings, such as Gurdjeff’s Fourth Way, Mouravieff’s Gnosis or

Shamanism as transmitted through Don Juan Matus. It sees crisis such as

depression or maladjustment to social norms as important stepping stones and

potential for personality development.

Contrary to mainstream psychology, which tries to adjust the individual to

society and its norms (sometimes through anti-depressants or any other mood-

influencing pharmaceuticals), the Theory of Positive Disintegration sees it as a

“good” sign if one is getting maladjusted to society, seeing it as potential for

higher integration and values (non ego-centric). Certain generic New Age

teachings also merely avoid the aspect of positive Disintegration through

denial and a distorted understanding of negative emotions (such as just focus

on the “positive”, avoid anything “negative”, meditate on “peace”, etc….).

The levels of development as defined by Dabrowski can be compared to the

staircase of esoteric evolution and the moral bankruptcy man experiences

when his old conditioned self conflicts with the emerging individuality.

Like Gurdjieff, Dabrowski saw the “average” man as mechanical robot-like

beings (Level I) who simply exist on lower impulses as dictated by society and

“official culture”, living in a reactionary state of external stimuli and influences.

No true individuality can be formed on that level.

Certain people who experience so-called overexcitability (OE)

(“Supersensitivities” in terms of Psychomotor, Sensual, Emotional, Intellectual,

and Imaginational) have the potential to grow out of the lower levels and

integrate their being into the higher ones. However, just as explained in the

aforementioned esoteric teachings, Darbrowski also points out that this process

requires conscious work and it doesn’t happen by itself. In other words, if one

does not use the “shocks” to further one’s evolution and does “the work” to

gain self-awareness, one will stay at the lower level where most of humanity

exists, mechanically and reactionary, feeding one’s little “I’s” based on

conditioning and programming. In light if what we’ve explored so far, one can

see how OE (especially in children) could also be an indication that one may be

a wanderer. I certainly can relate to Darbowski’s TPD and see how it applies to

my upbringing and personality development.

From “A very brief sketch of Dabrowski’s theory of Positive Disintegrstion” by W.

Tillier:

Suffering, aloneness, self-doubt, sadness, inner conflict;

these are our feelings that we have not learned to live

with, that we have failed to appreciate, that we reject as

destructive and completely negative, but in fact they are

symptoms of an expanding consciousness. Dr. Kazimierz

Dabrowski has spent 45 years piecing together the complete

picture of the growth of the human psyche from primitive

integration at birth; the person with potential for development will

experience growth as a loosening of the stable psychic structure

accompanied by symptoms of psychoneuroses. Reality becomes

multileveled, the choices between higher and lower realms of

behavior occupy our thought and mark us as human. Dabrowski

called this process positive disintegration, he declares that

psychoneurosis is not an illness and he insists that

development does not come through psychotherapy but

that psychotherapy is automatic when the person is

conscious of his development...

Without intense and painful introspection and reflection,

development is unlikely.Psychoneurotic symptoms should be

embraced and transformed into anxieties about human problems

of an ever higher order. If psychoneuroses continue to be classified

as mental illness, then perhaps it is a sickness better than health.

To Dabrowski, real therapy is autopsychotherapy; it is the self

being aware of the self through a long inner investigation; a

mapping of the inner environment. There are no techniques to

eliminate symptoms because the symptoms constitute the very

psychic richness from which grow an increasing awareness of

body, mind, humanity and cosmos. Dabrowski gives birth to that

process if he can.

Initially, people who are acting on low impulses or who are

simply robotically emulating society have little self conflict.

Most conflicts are external. During development, the clash

between one’s actual behavior and environment and one’s

imagined ideals creates a great deal of internal conflict. This

conflict literally motivates the individual to resolve the situation,

ideally by inhibiting those aspects he or she considers lower and

by accentuating those aspects he or she considers higher. At the

highest levels, there is a new harmony of thought, emotion and

action that eliminates internal conflict. The individual is behaving

in accord with their own personality ideal and consciously derived

value structure and therefore feels no internal conflict. Often a

person’s external focus shifts to ‘making the world a better

place.

“Without passing through very difficult experiences and

even something like psychoneurosis and neurosis we

cannot understand human beings and we cannot realize

our multidimensional and multilevel development toward

higher and higher levels.”

– K. Dabrowski.

It is part of a necessary process and even today there are times of depression

(although not as intense anymore) as I keep working on myself and peel off the

layers of my false “I”. The work never stops, it just becomes more refined and

deeper. At the same time the moments of true love as a state of being and

consciousness increase (not dependent on anything or anyone outside myself)

as opposed to an chemical emotional experience. I feel more and more aligned

with my real “I”, making the personality/ego a vessel/instrument for the higher

self to work through and not letting the ego be in the driver’s seat. Just as

noted in the quote above, there happens a shift at one point away from pre-

occupation with oneself towards “making the world a better place.”, not

acting on mechanical self-absorbed lower impulses but conscious actions based

on the higher centers. This can also be related to a shift from STS towards STO

activating the Wanderer’s mission profile to be of service and assistance.

However, I still slip into the mechanicalness of my little “I’s” if I’m not watchful

and make the effort to stay conscious.

Despite society’s view that there is something wrong with you if you are

depressed and selling you anti-depressants, it is actually a GOOD thing. The

soul and true self is screaming for attention. As J. Krishnamurti said: “It is no

measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.”

One shouldn’t avoid it or numb it with medication, drugs or “feel good” pop-

psychology but go with it and trust that it is actually a natural process that can

be used as a catalyst for growth and esoteric development.

Laura Knight-Jadczyk talks about this process in an exchange with the Cs:

Q: (L) My experience has been, over the past couple of years, that

whenever there is a significant increase in knowledge, that it is

sort of cyclical – I go through a depression before I can assimilate –

and it is like an inner transformation from one level to another. Is

there something we can do, and if so, is it desirable, to increase or

facilitate this process in some way?

A: It is a natural process, let it be.

People support each others’ pathologies and neediness, mistaking that for love

and their emotional and physical addictions for happiness. There are no

conscious actions, just pre-recorded patterns playing themselves out. People

are not in control of themselves, not realizing the prison they are in. I saw the

“horror of the situation” and what Gurdjieff told Ouspensky in “In Search of the

Miraculous”:

“‘What do you expect?” said G. “People are machines. Machines

have to be blind and unconscious, they cannot be otherwise, and

all their actions have to correspond to their nature. Everything

happens. No one does anything. ‘Progress’ and ‘civilization,’ in the

real meaning of these words, can appear only as the result of

conscious efforts. They cannot appear as the result of unconscious

mechanical actions. And what conscious effort can there be in

machines? And if one machine is unconscious, then a hundred

machines are unconscious, and so are a thousand machines, or a

hundred thousand, or a million. And the unconscious activity of a

million machines must necessarily result in destruction and

extermination.It is precisely in unconscious involuntary

manifestations that all evil lies. You do not yet understand

and cannot imagine all the results of this evil. But the time

will come when you will understand.…

…A considerable percentage of the people we meet on the street

are people who are empty inside, that is, they are actually already

dead. It is fortunate for us that we do not see and do not know it. If

we knew what a number of people are actually dead and what a

number of these dead people govern our lives, we should go mad

with horror.”

These were trying times since I realized I had no authentic friends, because I

hadn’t been authentic myself. I tried to wake up my friends and family, but this

just created more conflict and attacks. I still hadn’t learned the basic lesson of

esoteric work and what STO truly means: Don’t give without being asked

and be externally considerate. Free will needs to be respected, even if it is

people’s free will to stay ignorant and asleep. No one can be forced to wake up.

However, as I started to wake up and engaged in the work, letting go of my

associations and friends, new people and help came along, just as Mouravieff

wrote, fellow seekers who saw what I saw and who were struggling with the

same things. The importance of networking with like-minded and collinear

people was imperative, because alone a man can do nothing. There were not

many, but it is about quality over quantity. During that time I also spent much

time alone, not engaging in relationships or drawn to exterior life at all. I didn’t

enjoy the things I used to enjoy. Everything seemed so shallow, empty and

fake. I knew I had to disengage from certain associations and be conscious

about who and what I gave my energy to, so I didn’t slip back into the

“wilderness” where the Matrix/General Law is trying to keep man to be food for

our hyperdimensional overlords.

“When man goes in search of the Way, it generally signifies that

something within him has collapsed. Apart from exceptional cases,

this collapse is preceded by a re-assessment of moral values,

which in the searcher’s eyes lose the value he had previously

given to them.

“Interior collapse leads to certain consequences. Man starts to see

things in a different light. Two diametrically opposed effects can

result. If man is sufficiently strong and impartial, he will not lower

his eyes before implacable reality. He will have the courage to

face things directly, and to accept the constatations which

are imposed on him, no matter how disagreeable they

are. This signifies that he has firmly started on the track which

leads to the path of Access to the Way.

On the other hand, if the man is weak, this experience will weaken

him even more. The law is explicit: ‘To whosoever hath, to him

shall be given. But whosoever hath not, from him shall be taken

away even that which he hath.’ If man does not accept his

situation and, in particular, his inner state as it appears to him,

thanks to brief illuminations from the consciousness of the real

‘I’— if he is obstinate against all evidence, justifying his

Personality by protecting himself behind logic, legitimacy

and justice, he will then turn his back on the path of

Access, and thrust himself further into the wilderness.

“Nobody can reach the path of Access to the Way, without

first passing through an interior bankruptcy; a moral

collapse.”

“Economy of energies too is a must, as the walk to and on

the Way demands their total mobilization. Any unjustified

expenditure can lead in the end to failure. We must always

keep this in mind. In general, the reaction of those around

towards someone who begins to search for the Way is

negative. This negative attitude is the result of the action

of the General Law, which, as we know, tends to keep man

in his place. Not being able to do this directly by the action

of Illusion, the General Law, when it loses its dominion over

the man who ‘moves’, acts indirectly by the mediation of

those around him.“

“It is a classic situation. From his side, after having passed through

moral bankruptcy, he who seeks the Way becomes different from

men who continue to live within the limits permitted by the

General Law, and thus take mirages for reality. Due to this, he will

feel himself more and more isolated. The centre of gravity of his

interest will progressively turn to esoteric work, which will end by

absorbing him completely. But it is entirely in his interest not

to show the new attitude which he has taken towards

exterior life. The ‘World’ will be hostile to him, because its

own purposes are different; it is not in his interest to

provoke this tendency, and even less to keep it alive. The

day will come — if he remains in the same milieu — where,

apart from rare exceptions he will be openly or secretly

hated.”

“If we ponder this in depth, we shall understand that

psychologically this hostile attitude of the ‘World’ towards

someone who carries on esoteric work is not only a normal

phenomenon but is so to speak, a necessary one. If he who

lives in the wilderness — and is satisfied to be there, were to

approve of the attitude of one who walks on the track, it would be

equivalent to recognizing his own bankruptcy. That is why the

‘World’ considers the latter as a failure. The more he progresses

with his work, the more he becomes an object of hate. That is why

it is said that: ‘no prophet is acceptable in his own country’ and

also: ‘A prophet is not without honour, save in his own country,

among his own kin and in his own house.‘”

Let’s examine the part “If he who lives in the wilderness — and is

satisfied to be there, were to approve of the attitude of one who walks

on the track, it would be equivalent to recognizing his own

bankruptcy“ a bit closer in relation to today’s’ world and events. One can

easily refer this to people who keep denying that 9/11 was an inside Job or that

UFO’s are and have been visiting this planet for ages and human beings are

being farmed for “food”. The common man lives in the wilderness of the

General Law/Matrix and has a very conditioned/limited view of reality. If he’d

approve the truth of 9/11, the hyperdimensional manipulation of humanity or

that Psychopaths with no conscience are ruling the world, it would produce an

immense internal and psychological discomfort forcing him into moral

bankruptcy as his long held beliefs would be shattered and he would have to

face himself, confronting the illusionary existence he’s been living since birth

based on lies. The common man has much invested in his illusion,

psychologically and materialistically, his image, career, rank and status, and he

will protect it against whoever threatens it, defending the prison he is in.

As Morpheus tells us in “The Matrix”:

The Matrix is a system, Neo. That system is our enemy.

But when you’re inside, you look around, what do you see?

Businessmen, teachers, lawyers, carpenters.

The very minds of the people we are trying to save.

But until we do, these people are still a part of that system and

that makes them our enemy.

You have to understand, most of these people are not

ready to be unplugged.

And many of them are so inured, so hopelessly dependent

on the system, that they will fight to protect it.

The Matrix is everywhere. It is all around us.

You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on

your television.

You can feel it when you go to work… when you go to church…

when you pay your taxes.

It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you

from the truth.

We can see now how esoteric work with all its struggle, suffering and attacks

relate to the awakening process and initiation of the Wanderer. Super efforts

are needed to truly wake up and accomplish one’s mission, whatever it turns

out to be. There is also nothing “special” being a wanderer. The opposite, it

takes great humility, awareness and responsibility combined with sincere self-

work, gaining knowledge and learning the lessons to walk the talk and be truly

of service.

“Disillusion” is a painful process and can be prolonged, depending

on how much time the individual takes to realize he is living

artificially and that this condition is a product of his internal

dreams. Great courage is required to face reality and to destroy

the mirage of a pleasant dream.”

– John Baines, The Stellar Man

“Every time a man sets himself to learn, he has to labor as hard as

anyone can, and the limits of his learning are determined by his

own nature. Therefore, there is no point in talking about

knowledge. Fear of knowledge is natural; all of us experience it,

and there is nothing we can do about it. But no matter how

frightening learning is, it’s more terrible to think of a man without

knowledge.”

– Don Juan Matus

We live in intense times. A lot of things are happening on our planet.

Technology has advanced exponentially, yet human consciousness has not

evolved at the same rate. We are in the midst of a major transformation, the

shift of the ages, which many prophecies and mystery teachings have talked

about. It won’t be over by 12/21/2012. Far from it.

This work is also open for any souled humans, not just Wanderers. Many are

called, yet few choose to answer the call. Wanderers are not any better

than “humans”. We all are multidimensional beings who have access to the

deeper knowledge within us. We are them in the future. They may just have

come back in “time” (since time doesn’t really exist but is a 3D concept, which

doesn’t apply on higher densities) for assistance, but not to do the work for us.

There is a spiritual war happening with forces at work most people are not even

aware of. Understanding the Theological Drama behind STO/STS dynamics and

the how the matrix control system works through ourselves is crucial for the

awakening process of the wanderer and any sincere truth seeker.

“And as we have learned from Jesus, Gurdjieff and the Gnostic

Sufis, Castaneda, and the Cassiopaeans, the rules of this World in

which we live were set up and are controlled by this STS hierarchy

and have been for a very long time. Each and every time the

revelation of this Control System is attempted, the Matrix goes into

overdrive to destroy it. And it is clear that this is the present

situation….It is in “seeing the unseen” that we become

aware of higher levels of being; it is in ordinary human

interactions that we experience the “battles” between the

forces of STS and STO! And it is most definitely this factor

that the Matrix Control System vigorously attempts to

conceal!… In other words, we are not just talking about a “petty

dispute,” we are talking about a battle of forces at other

levels, manifesting – as ALWAYS – in human dynamics.”

– Laura Knight Jadczyk, “The Wave” Volume 5&6 “Petty Tyrants &

Facing the Unknown”

It takes much work and effort to anchor TRUE Love and Light, freeing ourselves

from this current STS frequency. Just as individuals who have soul potential are

called to engage in sincere self-work, making the darkness conscious and

understanding what it truly means to BE the change we want to see, so the

world needs to go through a collective “moral bankruptcy” and “dark night of

the soul” before any true shift of consciousness can occur. We are in the muck

and mire of the Kali Yuga.

“This is the hardest time to live, but it is also the greatest honor to

be alive now, and to be allowed to see this time. There is no other

time like now. We should be thankful, for creation did not make

weak spirits to live during this time. The old ones say ‘this is

the time when the strongest spirits will live through and

those who are empty shells, those who have lost the

connection will not survive.’We have become masters of

survival -we will survive- it is our prophecy to do so.”

– Tiokasin Ghosthorse

“I wish it need not have happened in my time,” said Frodo. “So do

I,” said Gandalf, “and so do all who live to see such times. But that

is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with

the time that is given us.”

– from ‘Lord of the Rings’

These are difficult times but also exciting times. There is love, help and support

out there and good things are and can happen, but it all depends on us. The

shift into 4D, the ascension and transformation into the STO vibration of Love in

Light in the deepest meaning it these words is an opportunity, a choice – not a

guarantee – for the ones answering the call. The struggle, for the most part, is

with oneself.

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