Pink Lemonade

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Pink Lemonade

Written by Rand F. Al-Fayez

Dedication

To my family and friends...

To Barack Obama

To every person who lived, is alive and will live a life...

Contents

Contents ...........................................................................................................................................7

People, thoughts and life ..................................................................................................................1

Positive is healthy ............................................................................................................................3

Early judgments ...............................................................................................................................4

Your role in life ................................................................................................................................5

Tremendous potentials .....................................................................................................................6

Life disorders ...................................................................................................................................9

Season's disorder ........................................................................................................................... 12

Balanced journey ........................................................................................................................... 14

Point zero ....................................................................................................................................... 16

Wake up! ........................................................................................................................................ 17

Lost in life ...................................................................................................................................... 19

We're all teachers .......................................................................................................................... 21

Positive memory ............................................................................................................................. 22

You're unique ................................................................................................................................. 23

Successful motivation ..................................................................................................................... 25

Flexibility and adaption ................................................................................................................. 27

Illusions about time ........................................................................................................................ 28

Turning tables ................................................................................................................................ 30

Massive knowledge ........................................................................................................................ 31

The challenge of changing ............................................................................................................. 32

Thoughts, feelings and beliefs ........................................................................................................ 34

Our comfort zone ........................................................................................................................... 36

The story ........................................................................................................................................ 37

Heart Beat ...................................................................................................................................... 41

Unconditional Love ........................................................................................................................ 42

All is yours ..................................................................................................................................... 43

Happiness ...................................................................................................................................... 44

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People, thoughts and life

ts usually a beautiful sunny day, when most people start

talking about life in a positive optimistic way, talk to the same

people later at night, or at a different time when the light is

gone and only hurt and harmful memories are found, they will give

you a different view of life, they'll start talking about tragedies and

their worst experiences, how hard life is.. Especially if youre young

and theyre older than you, youll be shocked.

In any community people usually live wearing a lot of faces,

personalities, emotions , having chaotic and staggered opinions that

they usually don't like and dont want or have to and they're fully

aware it doesn't make them happy or satisfied but they keep holding

on it till the end.

This attitude of doing what the community tells you to do and

controlling people actions became a habit, a tradition, a way to live

that I don't really appreciate, what I go with is when it comes to

anyone, he should do whatever makes him happy and when it comes

to family or friends do whatever makes them happy with everyone's

right preserved simultaneously.

Theres always a way to make all parts happy or at least satisfied the

biggest and most precious inheritance that a person can have from

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his family is the thoughts and tradition that really make a good

healthy life, in my opinion thats the most important legacy a person

can ever ask for.

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Positive is healthy

n life there's optimistic and there's pessimistic people, for me I

can be both; it actually depends on the life am living, not who I

am. I am simply a girl that of course been through a lot but Im

also a little Pollyannaish, full of hope and faith and expects the best

of all possible worlds, all happening events and all offered chances.

I have a believe that even when living in a distressing ,

heartbreaking or a sad event you can only overcome it with love to

get out of the situation in a healthy way , you will live it anyway ,but

it will be hard to people who deal with it by being gloomy and

despondent ; it will be harder , itll break them internally and they

might never be the same person again if they dealt with it in a

repulsive , dispiriting way that only shows hate and disgraceful

thoughts in life that only leads to negativity and kills the joy of life,

so every time you face a problem keep in mind the classic rhyme,

April showers bring May flowers.

There's always a new hope to live a new life, find happiness, you can

change the word misery into joy.

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Early judgments

ronic we will be judged before we die, instantly, at the

present time, if we are bad we will not live for long and vice

versa. Maybe that is how life should be lived; every second of

your life you will have a chance to balance your actions and see the

result of your actions instantly to know what and how exactly you

need to do.

Well fear is the key, what if there's a monster that's always here

with you, his job is to grow as your bad deeds increases and warn

you whenever you needed to be warned.

Life will be more fair and better if we start believing that this

monster actually does exist! The good deeds are not in any ones list

nowadays and if it is then it's at the very bottom.

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Your role in life

y fear we make this world a better place for the next

generation, maybe it's time to change our traditions that

are driving us to the wrong road, life has changed so has

the generation, time is going faster, theres no space to sit alone by

yourself and start asking reasonable questions as normal people, if

we let our kids learn by themselves its a disaster and if we teach

them things that will only complicate and waste their lives it's even

worse!

If you want to be a parent, be a good one, its a job and you have to

read about it you have to educate yourself , if you want to live a life

live it correctly, and yes there are wrong ways for living a life and

most people are wasting their life by drinking, gambling, studying,

cleaning , etc.

You have to live it all, God didnt say choose a role in this life, God

left you the whole universe so you can play any role in any time you

want, so play right in the right time. You have to put your life in

order.

We are all full of potentials, but they're not being used, they're being

ignored, wasted, and not consumed! Your life is your potentials, you

are simply your potentials, if you use them then you're having a

useful life, if you dont, you're wasting a life.

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Tremendous potentials

ou cannot just live complaining about life and die! You

have to create one, you are given a chance to do

tremendous things to build your dream life, you just have

to focus and use your potentials! People born with a golden spoon in

their mouth are not happy! They will feel useless if they keep using

daddy's money, what have they done in their life except spending

money, unless they start making their own or starts helping other

people chase their dreams or if they simply use the potentials they

have.

You are always full of potentials, all the time! But you are not

motivated, mostly not at any time, but who needs motivation! It is

your life; you are going to be successful! You are going to feel

satisfied! You did something remarkable to yourself, your family, the

world and life!

We must find the perfect version of ourselves and start having an

impact on the world in a good civilized way. You are nothing, not a

remarkable human being to this life, there have been billions of

nations before you in this world who lived and made changes in life,

you will be history as all the humans are and will be.

To people it looks like destiny is controlling my life but the truth is

that I have my life plan tightly controlled. God is with me thats

why am strong and happy.

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Death and immortality

e humans were born weak, life up to this moment didnt

witness immortality! All people die eventually, no

matter how strong, wealthy, popular or powerful a

person is, he will die.

So knowing that should affect our lives, that we're meeting God after

living this life, you can't trust yourself when it comes to life and death,

because you might die any moment now without knowing. You need a

great source to assure you about life and death which is the creator

God.

Most people look at death as a sad event, well I say it depends on your

point of view, you might be sad because someone has died but the dead

person maybe wanted to die and was looking forward to be relieved,

sometimes life is not what a person want; hence comes committing

suicide which is growing very fast, and here comes places like The

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline which provides free and

confidential emotional support to people in suicidal crisis or emotional

distress 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.

No matter what are your beliefs, you will die, so I have one word for

you, be prepared.

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Life cycle

hen you were a baby , you loved your parents , they

used to feed you, walk you, play and laugh with you,

you have nothing in mind but being around with them ,

pleased by them surrounding you, and when they leave you with

someone else you feel sad and start crying.

Things have changed a little since you were a child; you now you want

more than being around with your parents, you want things from the

store, candies, games, toys etc.

And if they dont give it to you, you immediately start crying and

shouting, well this is just the start of it. As the human grows up his

demands increase, and usually becomes an ungrateful person.

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Life disorders

ow will you know how to live your life other than watching

how others are living it, or by reading books either

ordinary or religious ones? Such a strange thing it is

looking for the right path; the one you want, you might take the wrong

one , and the wrong one again and again , or you might take the right

one , then a wrong one , etc, means that you can't be one hundred

percent positive of what choice might be the correct one.

This is life, its a risky one! It's full of disorders; we have talked about

the disorders within one's self, imagine how much disordered it will be

when one starts socializing and gets different relationships.

Love is the main character of this disordered life! You can be either

extremely happy or crash and be extremely miserable. And the problem

is that you dont find it, it finds you whenever it suits him, you never

know yourself until you meet him, and yes it's true there is what is

called "the love of your life", but again you dont seek him, he finds you.

And when he does, and by "he" I refer to the love of your life no matter

if you were a he or she. You'll instantly fall for it and it will be hard, so

be prepared, it either breaks you or makes you stronger.

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Life disorder is a disease that every person will have at some level in his

life, he can't ignore or come around it, its a meant to be, you just have

to work it out and try balance your life from time to time.

Being always balanced is not normal, there are always ups and downs

and you have to face both, its the nature of life over the past and

coming years.

There are situations only having faith in God will help you through

them, when you feel lonely, desperate, and self-defeated, you are being

miss-guided in life, and all you need is the light of God, which is having

a solid faith in him.

When you're being miss-treated and oppressed by a powerful person,

know that God will help you thru, and that this man's power is just a

curse that will haunt him the rest of his life.

Life is not needed to be taken seriously if you thought deeply,

everything is gone, even yourself, your body, your soul, your money,

you family, everything is gone, it's just a matter of time, and you'll

notice that what matters are your deeds.

Your deeds make your reputation which lives longer than you do,

People always remember dead people, and if they want to set an

example and you were in it, they will do, no matter what is your

condition, alive or dead, what mattes to them is the idea they want to

clear to their kids or the person they're talking to.

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So if you're a good person, your reputation will be good, but if you were

a horrible person, so will your reputation, once it's out, no one can take

it back.

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Season's disorder

e have also if I may say season's disorder; summer and

winter, spring and autumn, day and night, it's basically

about the sun, but each has a story in your life.

It is estimated that most people are negatively affected by the changing

seasons and darkening of the summer light. They feel depressed,

irritable, and tired. Their activity levels decrease and they find

themselves in bed more often. This depression disorder not only affects

their health, but it also affects their everyday life, including their job

performance and friendships.

Summer is a period of fruition, fulfillment, happiness, or beauty and it's

a full of parties, social occasions season, where people are more

enthusiastic, more active, full of energy, feels the sun, love the day and

night, there's nothing to stop them, the weather is perfect to be busy all

the time, friends, work, family, everything keeps us busy at summer,

everybody love summer time, where not only you go wild, but

everyone around you.

Winter is a period of time characterized by coldness, misery,

barrenness, or death, the beautiful colors of the autumn leaves have

disappeared and have been replaced by barren tree limbs and icicles

sharp and brittle. The harsh winds rattle the window frames and the

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cold air seems to sing a cruel song that frightens away birds to warmer

climates.

The daytime gives way to the moon, and darkness sets in way before

supper. it's a season that not so much full of activities, people's actions

are held back by the weather conditions, nothing goes the way you

want, you might get stuck in traffic , you might not be able to leave

your home, you might also get cold, flu and be sick for a period of time,

not very encouraging.

Spring is most calm people's favorite season; people here are not very

wild, nor very tranquil, in between.

Autumn is also a depressing season , people feel sadness, they lack of

interest in things and have no desire to implement activities, they won't

be able to sleep, or might sleep too much, having also eating disorders

and recurrent thoughts of suicide.

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Balanced journey

ou'll meet a lot of people, but do you know what you should

do? You should balance yourself, I said yourself not your

mind or your body, yourself, because its the part of you that

will be mostly affected by people coming and going in and out of your

life.

Balance is what keeps you moving in this life, its a journey and you

have to be prepared.

I would give you an advice , you have to pick your music right , because

it'll give you the meaning of life, I wish if there was a guide book for life

to tell you what to do , what to listen to, what to eat , what to watch ,

but that cannot be ! Everybody has his own different situation and

various circumstances, so it's up to you to live and guide your own life,

which is fun! But you have to choose right.

Timing is different as well! People who didnt have electricity at their

time were not living as we are living today, wasting an hour as a kid is

not the same as wasting an hour as an adult ! Time is a critical matter

that most people dont see how they compromise it in their life.

If there's nothing you can buy in this life , its time , because It's

priceless , once it's gone , you can't take it back, its a memory, your

whole life will be a memory so dont rush up.

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Selfish universe

n many different stations of life your attitude will be smart and

clever and in others will be completely silly and stupid, you will

learn how to balance from the experience you had in life.

People will hurt you, and people will flirt with you, it's normal, you will

deal with a zillion different kinds of people with different cultures and

different languages, etc.

And what you gain is what matters, your hunch and your experience in

life, and then you'll be better in dealing with other problems and

situation you might face in life.

You will know after all, that you are all what matters to yourself, and

this doesnt mean that you're a selfish ugly person which reminds me of

another advice to give you; everything in this universe is selfish, so

being selfless is an abnormal thing.

And the word selfish is not as ugly as most people think! It just means

that you have to love yourself more than the others to live the life you

want with no harm to anybody.

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Point zero

y being a healthy person the world will be better; the amount

of awareness will be high, which leads to a better generation!

All the psychological problems people suffer from is repeated

along with time, which means the cause is also being repeated, to help

stop this repetition, people need to start thinking how to decrease the

amount of sick people who cause bad impacts on their lives.

And that starts by studying the behavior of the human being his entire

life and finding ways to prevent him from getting weak and be prepared

to be stronger than ever.

Well that needs time and motivated scientists, but if every single

person want to live his own experience and not learn from others , well

, we're back to point zero! All of this depends on the person himself.

You, family, friends, colleagues, coworkers and the people you know

from life are part of a big community, so by taking the right path, you

will help them and they will follow your lead.

You could be the straw that saves all the people drowning around you!

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Wake up!

ou should know that inspiration is a much more effective

motivator than competition; this means that youd be more

likely to experience success if you got inspired by other

peoples victories instead of wasting time finding faults in them.

You might go blind your entire life or you might just look into a small

circle of life, wake up! The sooner you get awake, the sooner you realize

that life is not all about you! It's not! Life is way bigger than you and

me.

But since we're never mature enough we might die blind , not knowing

that life is a test from God, you'll always feel uncomfortable , fearful,

confused and lost if you live upon pleasing yourself or the people you

live with in an ignorant way.

You will only feel secured, rested, balanced and devout when you

remember that you have a God who created you and knows how to

comfort you, and when you know that you will start to pray, to remind

God that you always need him and to remind yourself that there's a

God that will always protect you and make this life easier for you.

No matter what you do, you can travel around the world , you can

drink yourself up and get tipsy, you can get high , listen to music , pop

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in a Jacuzzi or a fancy hot tub , get a hot stone massage, and you can do

yoga , but I guarantee you if you dont pray , you will not be relieved .

God will never disappoint you, trust him, he knows you better than

yourself, and he sees you crystal clear.

Believe me you'll be happy on a daily basis.

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Lost in life

n life you have to be strong , patient , persistent and anything

that keeps you ahead in developing and creating your path,

because someday when you feel weak, depressed as hell you will

try let go of your life, but dont because it's not friends, family or the

people living in this life created you, and it's not them who will judge

you , you live because of God , and he will never hurt you , you just

have to stand up again and continue this journey by the blessing of

God, who will help and guide you , your entire life.

You'll also be ignorant at some point in your life, you are and will

always be an ignorant in life, but what I mean, you will get lost before

you find God.

And may mercy be upon you, because its the worst feeling you'll ever

have, being far away, lost in this life, never actually sure of what's

wrong and what's right.

Dont get attached to people more than you're attached to the lord, it's

hard to explain but after all you'll get hurt if you do, try being a little

ascetic, never get attached to anything.

Have something to share with others, try something permanent to help

the kids for example, or write something about yourself, to help your

kids know you better, a picture specially taken with a special person in

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a special occasion, and explain behind the picture how happy you were

how you exactly felt.

Make yourself remarkable in any sweet way.

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We're all teachers

ost people you meet in your life will teach you somehow

a thing, an attitude, an idea, it can be good or bad, and it

depends on you if you take it or leave it.

What I want to say is that you also will teach others something in this

life, and you better teach them something good, because it will affects

theirs.

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Positive memory

ime goes by slowly , when you're a sad , depressed, self-

defeated person, to overcome that feeling be creative, dream

, write , read , dance , sing , just dont set around thinking

and generating negative ideas, there's a lot of them that we can't

actually count them up, and for zero USD also, nobody needs them.

Your life is a bunch of ideas you collect from different sources, you will

know a lot of them, but what you record is what matters, try to have

only the positive ones recorded only.

The negativity will only change your perspective to life in a depressing

way, try to avoid that by letting them go as soon as you hear or read

them.

It also depends on your memory, helping you to keep info in the long

term as you may need them any minute of you day, it might also

deceive you and leave you thoughtlessly in a blank state.

So you take care of your memory so it can do its role.

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You're unique

ive your day, and live your night, dont all people do that? No,

not all of them, some people wake up late so they skip the

morning out of their life, and some sleep early, so they dont

know what the night looks like under the light of the moon.

Dont just set in a room and do nothing, the whole world is waiting for

you out there, do something, be proud of yourself, dont help in

breaching your trust and confidence, you can change the world; you

just have to believe in yourself.

You also have to believe that you're unique, everyone is unique to some

other person, everyone is non-repeatable; knowing that each of us has a

set of fingerprints that are unique; no one else can possibly have the

same set as you are having.

Besides your fingerprint there's something called the DNA which is a

combination of DNA from a father and a mother, at some point in

Human history, the same mother/father combination has never

occurred before, and in all likelihood will never occur again. Your

DNA, has never been a person in the past, and will never be a person in

the future.

Besides all that each of us was born at a moment in time and at a

location in Geography. The steps each one of us has taken, takes, and

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will take, will never again be repeated in any way. Your memories,

emotions, actions and reactions, what you are physically and

intellectually will never occur again.

This and much more will assure you that you're a very unique person,

only you have to make it worth it, break this physical uniqueness and

be super unique by having a positive impact on the world.

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Successful motivation

rom where should we start? What to do? Frankly it's your

job, my only advice to you is do it while you can, once you're

capable of doing it then dont hesitate.

Do what is besides your learning and working because those are just

tools to help you improve to finally be something remarkable, if you

dont then you will be as the rest of the people who live just to pass

time.

Find ways to motivate yourself. Find ways to not see this situation as

actually affecting you even though it obviously does. Deal in todays

problems not in tomorrows possible ones.

Do a Brainstorming exercise, know what you are good at, know what

you want, find what motivates you, you can run daily and do in the

mornings to get more motivated.

You might have a certain genre of music that helps motivating you as

well. You can't just give up so easily. You can also self-talk. This is

your moment. Stay focused. Get stuff done. Work through issues and

problems.

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And if none of that works, always look at the target as its finished,

imagine , dream , and chase your dreams , work on your future, once

you have the time , ability and resources, dont postpone anything.

The sooner you finish your goals, the more achievements you have, the

more creative experienced person you'll get and all that is just the

beginning of your remarkable outstanding life.

You're your thoughts, if you think you can do this thing, you will do it,

if you think you dont have the courage then you're a coward because

you think you are! And so on.

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Flexibility and adaption

ou have to adapt in life, the more flexible you are, the more

intelligent and happy you will be, be prepared for all the

possibilities in life , always have a backup plan, be optimistic

because life's hard and mostly all people become pessimistic after a

certain age or if they had enough troubles and tragedies in life.

Adaption is important , and being neutral when it comes to situations

you can't control and make you sad is important as well, we all suffered

, we all lost someone dear, we all have hit the ground more than one

time, it's all about getting up and fighting back, and believe me it worth

the chance to be stronger than ever.

When I say stronger I dont mean heartless, just be strong, so can

other people can rely on you, trust you know that there's hope after all.

Count on God to help you , it's you , your will and God whom only are

capable of helping you, so trust God and yourself and start the mission

of creating your own future .

Dont look around and compare yourself with others, you're not in their

shoes to judge or envy them for what they are or what they have, you

just focus on yourself, because other than that you're just wasting your

time.

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Illusions about time

ime and aging, these two are connected to each other, as the

years pass by, your age increases, and so is your experience,

each passing year converts some of this experience you had

into automatic routine which you hardly note at all, the days and the

weeks smooth themselves out in recollection to content less units, and

the years grow fast, you will be old in no time.

Dont despair. I am happy to tell you that the apparent velocity of time

is a big fat cognitive illusion and happy to say there may be a way to

slow the velocity of our later lives.

Other, non-age-related factors influence our perception of time. There

are a lot of factors that may affect the speed of time, for example

emotions affect our perception of time. Our emotional state when we're

in fear makes the time pass more slowly.

Attention and memory play a part in our perception of time. To

accurately gauge the passage of time required to accomplish a given

task, you have to be able to focus and remember a sequence of

information.

Thats partly why someone with attention-deficit hyperactivity

disorder has trouble judging time intervals and grows impatient with

what seems like the slow passage of time.

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When, as an adult, you look back at your childhood experiences, they

appear to unfold in slow motion probably because the sheer number of

them gives you the impression that they must have taken forever to

acquire.

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Turning tables

ife is full of surprises, you may love someone to death, and as

time passes by you hate him more than anything, and the

other way around is possible.

Your heart has to be broken to be stronger , to be conscious and aware

of everything thats happening, people will make your life seem harder ,

dont listen to them and be rational when making decisions , there's no

way back once you made them.

Take advices from old people , it will not make sense to you once you

hear it, but as time passes by you'll know they were right, because they

know better, try not to mock them , life is all about turning tables,

you'll be in their shoes someday.

Dont regret anything, because if you were wrong , you'll have had an

experience and life is moving on so you can learn from it, and if you

were right , this adds the to the success list you have in life.

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Massive knowledge

ont be like a horse , looking only at what is in front of you,

sees only what's around you, learn about other countries,

learn their history, languages , traditions , its a lot of fun,

you'll be surprised from other nations.

Know about the tremendous amount of sea animals, desert plants,

weird animals all around the world, there are a lot of facts that you'll be

amazed by the creativity in this world.

Dont focus on humans only, change your direction, and be creative in a

field of the large amounts of fields in life.

Do and dont in this book is based on my humble experience in life; I

wish I can help you more than this, but I trust and believe that every

person has his own instinct in life that helps him survive all his

struggles.

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The challenge of changing

lot of things we cannot control in life, we can control only

ourselves and we fail in that sometimes, now you are here ,

but you'll never know where will you be in a year or ten from

now , what you do, with whom you'll be , you might not be alive at all.

The ability to change is essential, throughout life, people can

undoubtedly count on changes or transitional phases. Some of these

transitions are positive; a marriage, birth of a child, winning the lottery,

graduating from school.

Some transitions are negative; going through a break-up, death of a

loved one, or living with a chronic illness. One factor related to success

is that effective people are skilled at adapting to this fast paced ever

changing world. This ability to adapt to change, points people on the

path to leading a more satisfying, enriched fulfilled life.

If people are forced to change, even if unsatisfied in life, they are

entering into the world of the unknown which may be even more

anxiety provoking than the unsatisfied life.

However, the choice to change is always available, and, those who do

not have the ability to trust themselves may miss out on the

opportunity to increase their quality of life. Many people are afraid of

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change. They prefer routine and stability, and, with any kind of

transition this change disrupts self-confidence.

Fear inhibits people from taking risks. When this fear relates to a

positive change, it usually is linked to a fear of not being able to achieve

success. Some are overly concerned about not being capable enough

or of being judged, as if, dignity is only measured by the idea of success

or winning.

If people want to be able to cope well, they need to be open to the

challenge of changing and questioning thoughts, feelings and beliefs

they have in life. One way to cope with an illogical fear is to pretend

that the worse scenario happened.

With each transition people must learn new ways of coping, and, facing

this new way of being in the world can be anxiety provoking because it

tests our ability to adapt.

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Thoughts, feelings and beliefs

hallenging and changing a value or belief can be easier at

times. The problem is people have thousands of beliefs, and

can only change one at a time, so it is a process. In order to

challenge a belief, look at the evidence, examine the facts and then

change your mind about the belief.

For instance, some may assume that eating a Big Mac is somewhat of a

healthy meal. However, they have recently read many books on

nutrition and learned otherwise. They now believe that this meal is not

nutritious. They changed their mind in the face of evidence.

In comparison to changing thoughts and beliefs, challenging feelings is

extremely difficult, especially when adapting to change or a life

transition.

Feeling states built up over a lifetime of experience, and, trying to

change a feeling can feel like it is going against everything ever

believed in life. People have convinced themselves that what they feel is

reasonable and must be a necessary part of life.

We all have met people who are chronically afraid, angry or sad, and

we describe them in this way because of their constant unpleasant

mood states that can be observed in most of their behaviors.

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Negative feelings are the cumulative effects of experiences in life, and,

the fix is to accumulate new positive experiences, which offset the

negative ones. As it takes time and effort to change these feelings

people need to become open to the idea of wanting new, positive

experiences and then invite them into their lives.

Give yourself permission to allow these positive experiences to enhance

life. It is possible to change beliefs and thoughts with information and

teaching; however, it is difficult to change a feeling state without

professional assistance.

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Our comfort zone

aluable personal growth is not quantitative, but qualitative,

and you have to force yourself towards qualitative growth.

In other words, you got to stretch yourself, get

uncomfortable, get out of your comfort zone, and then keep getting out.

What prevents us from getting out of our comfort zone and the biggest

obstacle for most of us is fear of failure.

But you dont have to fear whether you will fail. Its guaranteed that

you will fail, again and again. But thats okay, because failing is the only

path to success.

Whether its the story of Lincoln or Edison or any person who

succeeded and changed the world, they will tell you that the road to

success is paved with failures.

Successful people realize it, and plunge in, knowing that pain and defeat

come on the way to victory and success.

If youre not willing to risk, not willing to try something youve never

done, you will never become more alive.

So go ahead and challenge life.

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The story

here's always a girl who was lost for quite some time in her

life, and by lost I mean not knowing what's she up to, and

that's most probably when she's facing a gap between her

childhood and maturity, all girls happens to be in this phase, I knew

one who was lost for 24 years of her life!

Always wondering what life is about, always confused about love,

which was in her opinion a feeling that people can have and havent

whenever they want, in other words a controllable passion.

The stories she has heard wasnt helping, the reality of the people

whom love failed them, also the outside world was not perfect, all kind

of relationships were misleading to her , so she didnt know what to

expect from people and decided not to give any chances or take any.

She was a social butterfly though and quite a perfectionist, always

setting the highest standards for herself and never expecting anything

less, loved being single, wasnt looking for any kind of a relationship,

very not expected those days.

Friends knew she has a crazy rebellious streak, but her family didn't. In

front of them she was calm,obedient and sweet, but what they didnt

know that being rebellious was deeply rooted in her genes.

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Her ultimate goal in life was the word happiness, she didn't have a

motivation to earn money and be a millionaire or marry one, but she

has a strong motivation to achieve happiness no matter what it takes,

she was insisting on finding it even in the saddest events.

Cancelling on people asking for a date was routine to her, after

university graduation she found a new hobby, which was going

completely clueless and unprepared to different job interviews whether

she wants the job or not, just to have fun, experience people, life and

then laugh about it! Even when she used to get an offer she always

declines it.

Well that went for a year, till she got herself another interview in

another company... but because the HR manager was well let's say a

charming conversationalist who made the job sounds interesting and

promising, she finally took a job !

That was 2nd of July when she met him and life started to make sense

and her new life journey started to begin; and the reason is life, destiny,

and gods beautiful plan for her entire life.

They started talking and kept talking and never got bored of texting,

that for a start was weird for her, she was enjoying his company but

things werent clear till he made it clear.

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The problem is that she had no interest in relationships, back then or

ever, but she couldn't help but notice him, she was definitelyattracted to

him, this is how it started.

She didnt know why hes so eager to hang out with her but she refused

it all, she promised she will never attach herself to someone else.

But he wasnt helping.. Every time she sees him, his eyes keep

twinkling, her hands keeps shaking and when he talks he seems sincere,

there's something about his eyes that she couldn't resist falling for him.

It was weird she kept seeing him in her dreams! And every time she

wakes up feeling happy because of it..but its stupid to fall in love with

someone because of dreams!

It was not helping her theory about love and relationships.

Relationships only hurt thats how she felt about them, so she just

wanted to be friends, but she couldnt and he couldnt, she actually

missed him and he wasnt planning on having her in his friends zone,

he said he has a lot of friends and he doesn't need a new one, and she

agreed because she was thinking the same.

She fell in love and finally found her path, and she's going to stay on it,

she was persistent on following her heart and he was persistent on

following his mind and because of this, the relationship couldnt go

further and he ruined everything.

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She's never been devastated in her entire life before, her chest hurt so

much she wanted to cry, she couldnt hold her breath any longer.

He's the only one she ever loved, and sadly he proved her theory was

right..when he left, it was like a beautiful dream and suddenly she woke

up.

She was stuck with so much remembering, and decided to move on and

leave the man she wanted to live her entire future with standing there,

alone.

But decisions were made to be broken, that what he told her once,

leaving him was a lie, she couldnt move on! She tried to but it didnt

work out at all.

That when she prayed and asked God a perfect plan for a way back,

because time has proved that he is the love of her life, she always

thought that he's unique and she couldnt picture herself with another

man.

Within a year, life brought them back! Happiness was finally achieved

and marriage sounded like a perfect idea to her now.

He is heaven and shes planning on living in it twice.

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Heart Beat

Even my heart beat knew it was you

How I know our love is true

Its a fact like knowing the sky is blue

There was always a sign

Youre always be mine

Wish life gave us much more time

But it was moving so slow

And you and I were going to blow

Which direction is right to go?

But my heart beat always followed you

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Unconditional Love

Your love is imaginary

No one else can take it

My surrender to you is voluntary

Have a beer n brag about it

My love to you is unconditional

Keeps floating timelessly around you

Do whatever it suits you

Ill be always beside you

You can be pious, you can be atheist

Ill always work things through

Seriously,

Hand me my heart

And Ill give it back to you

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All is yours

I cut my hair short

Black dress is my uniform

American accent is my favorite too

Whatever you ask... all is yours

Tried my best to let us make sense to you

So tell me what else can I do?

I became hard and cold to get to you

Iced volcano is why my heart is blue

Life is beautiful baby but you don't have a clue

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Happiness

Happiness is living a life with one Beautiful Obduracy

An Adventure Junkie

An extraordinary dad

And when you've got all of this

Youll find the point when you will finally

Exhale seventy seven times eternity sighs of relief

And that my friend was for the year

Two thousand and fourteen

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