Vol. 1 July 2013
Vol. 1 July 2013
Opening Note
I’ve wanted to create a zine since I was fifteen years
old, just starting high school and quickly realizing
that I was more of an outcast than I could have ever
imagined. I’d gotten into punk rock and feminism and
started to change my worldview drastically. However, it
wasn’t until recently that I actually managed to
scrounge up enough ideas to make something that I felt
was worthwhile. While this zine does have some feminist
topics it will not educate you on the basics of
feminism (there are plenty of other zines that do that
and I will happily recommend them to you if you ask).
On that note, I hope you enjoy this zine at least half
as much as I enjoyed making it!
Courtney Love: 20 Years in the Patriarchal Spotlight
The year is 1994, teenage girls across the country
are bleaching their hair, scrounging around in their
closets for the Sunday school shoes their mothers
bought for them when they were younger, and scoring
thrift stores for torn baby doll dresses that purr
“don’t I look cute?” while the girls donning them
growl, “touch me and I’ll rip your balls off, pal.”
The year is 1994 and Courtney Love is screaming her
heart out on stages all around the world, voice whisky
and cigarettes thick, as Hole’s award-winning album,
‘Live Through This’, blasts in bedrooms reeking of teen
angst, basements housing drum kits and newly purchased
guitars, and the Walkman your mom won’t stop bringing
up whenever you take out your iPod.
Grunge has taken over and with it comes a new breed
of Queen. Long gone are the days of silent and
submissive, prim and proper women who fear men. Women
have been on the sidelines for far too long, and with
the official rise of third wave feminism comes our turn
to rule. Who better for the job than outspoken,
ambitious Courtney Love? Courtney Love, the woman who
literally wears the media’s criticisms as some sort of
scarlet letter, clever nicknames like “junkie slut”
staining her skin. Before thousands of scantily-clad
women took to the street for Slut Walks there were
women like Courtney Love who were written off as “slut
rocker bitches” as one man in an early Bikini Kill song
said, whose only support system was herself.
In the 90s when a feminist can write an anti-rape
song and have it become the anthem for idiotic rapists
everywhere and a woman can write a song titled ‘Asking
for It’ that receives no recognition for challenging
what almost every rape case comes down to: “well, was
she asking for it?” how could anyone survive – let
alone thrive - in a world like that? How is it that
Courtney receives no acknowledgement for the progress
she’s made for not just women in Rock but women in
general?
Courtney’s been fighting rape culture for years
with her band’s music, lyrics bringing rape, revenge,
motherhood, and being burned at the stake to the
forefront of our minds. But, the fuel for the fire had
to come from somewhere, right? Courtney supported
herself by stripping in Oregon where she was almost
raped by a customer and forced to run out onto the
street, screaming for someone to help. It was when
nobody came to her aid that Courtney Love’s true,
carnal rage was born and with it came the song ‘Retard
Girl’. And again in 1995 while touring for ‘Live
Through This’ Courtney dove into the audience, having
her dress ripped off her body as hundreds and thousands
of “fans” poked and prodded at her, violating her
shamelessly before a security guard could haul her back
on stage.
What makes people attack Courtney when she has such
an obvious dislike of what she refers to as “victim
energy” and refuses to cower in the corner when you
tell her to? Is it because she simultaneously plays
into a femme archetype that our society perceives as
weak while systematically destroying everything the
patriarchy has come to know and count on from it? Is it
because she’s wearing lipstick for herself and not for
every male who glances her way? Is it because she
doesn’t care whether or not the opposite gender is
comfortable with how she acts as a woman? She’s a
chain-smoking bottle blonde that hasn’t stopped kicking
and screaming since she picked up a guitar all those
years ago and chances are if anyone tries to take that
from her she’ll deck them.
Now, in 2013, I finally understand why men are so
utterly terrified and threatened by Courtney Love: she
keeps coming back. No matter what has been done to this
woman in the past she will not let anyone forget just
who the fuck she is. She’ll be around until you get
what’s yours, and chances are she’ll be the one to give
it to you. She’s a fucking force of nature and the day
she stops screaming is the day she dies.
Ew, you
don’t shave
your legs?
That’s
disgusting!
What the fuck did you just say to me, Scumbag?
Girl Bands for a Rebel Soul
Babes in Toyland was made up
of Kat Bjelland
(vocals/guitar), Maureen
Herman (bass), and Lori
Barbero (drums). I fell in
love with them after I heard
‘Bruise Violet’ and Kat
became my favorite guitar
player. Check out the album
‘Fontanelle’ for lines like,
“You’re dead meat
motherfucker, you don’t try
to rape a goddess!”.
Betty Blowtorch was a
Southern California band made
up of Bianca Butthole
(bass/vocals), Sharon Needles
(guitar), Blare N Bitch
(guitar, and Judy Molish
(drums). ‘Are You Man
Enough?’ is their only album;
the band broke up after their
singer died in a car
accident. ‘I Wish You’d Die’
has calmed me down more times
than I can count.
The Lunachicks were one of
the first Riot Grrrl bands
I’d ever gotten into. Made up
of Theo Kogan (vocals), Gina
Volpe (guitar), Squid (bass),
and Becky Wreck (drums) they
were at the forefront of the
90s girl band explosion.
‘Luxury Problem’ is an album
drowning in loud guitar and
Theo’s incredibly voice. I
think the song title ‘Less
Teeth, More Tits’ speaks for
itself.
Sourpuss, Brody Dalle’s first
band, drew inspiration from
both Nirvana and Hole.
Brody at thirteen still had
rough voice of a woman and
fronted this Australian band
before forming The
Distillers. ‘Oh no, I’m not
happy ‘til you go to hell’.
Don’t Fucking Touch Me
Last month I was lucky enough to score tickets to the
Courtney Love show in Jersey and be graced by the
Queen’s presence. Unluckily, when it was time for me to
enter the venue I (along with everyone else in line)
was informed that instead of playing at seven, Courtney
wouldn’t be performing until eleven… and there was no
re-entry. Waiting in line I noticed one guy who was
either drunk or high or just a little off that kept
pestering everyone else; my mom and I both hoped that
he wouldn’t come over and try talking to us. When the
doors finally opened I lost sight of him (thankfully)
and enjoyed the first band (The Obvious), but that
wasn’t the last time I saw him. I was in the middle of
speaking to a girl who had asked me about Courtney when
he came out of nowhere and decided to join the
conversation.
This 39 year old man with his rotting teeth and graying
hair tried hitting on me even after I told him I was
17. His response? “Who cares about the law, it’s just a
piece of paper.” So not only does he stick around after
I tell him I’d hoped he wouldn’t try talking to me and
that I didn’t want him touching me and that he should
go away he sticks around and starts asking my name and
cracking jokes. When I told him to go away for the
fifth time he finally got fed up with my rejection and
brings up his son. “I’ve got a son your age, but I
don’t think you’re ready for him. You need to mature
more; you’ve got too much attitude.”
I really don’t think I need to mention why it’s even
more disturbing that he’s got a son my age and has
decided that I’m not mature enough for him, but was
mature enough for him a few seconds ago.
So after this guy finally walks away after ranting
about my attitude I thought about how many other girls
my age were in attendance and how many of them would be
too afraid or too shy or too shocked even to speak up
and decided to report him to one of the security
guards. When I told her that he touched me she
immediately freaked out and assured me that she’d take
care of it before rushing off. I figured she’d talk to
him and tell him to stay away from me and that would be
it, but about fifteen minutes later she came back and
told me that the police were outside waiting to take my
statement.
At the end of it all he’d gotten thrown out and was
forbidden to step back on the property for the rest of
the night. When I told the cop about the guy’s opinion
on the law he looked so fucking pissed off. It felt
fucking great to see the guy being escorted away from
the building, too.
When someone bothers you, when someone puts their hands
on you, you fucking tell them off and then tell someone
else about what they did. I don’t care if it’s a friend
or a stranger or your mom or a police officer, just get
it out there. Talking about harassment is the only way
to end it.
About the Author
My name is Dominique and I’m a 17 year old grunge punk
trying to start an all girl Rock band in New Jersey. I
spend a lot of time screaming along to ‘Live Through
This’, playing guitar, buying new stockings, and
ranting about the patriarchy.
I have huge crushes on Heroin Bob, Ginger Fitzgerald,
and pansy boys. I wear too short dresses and am a self-
proclaimed eyebrow queen. My tumblr is nursingpunx I
beg of you to relieve me of my boredom.