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I= 32 uncrecedented d i s c l a y o f c r e a t i v i t y and c o l o u r , t h e c e l e b r a t i o n o f t h e Win te r S o l - s t i c e t r a n s f o r m e d t h e h a l l s o f Carneg ie i n t o a v i s i o n o f hope amid p e a l s o f l a u g h t e r . Begin- n i n g qn t h e t h i r d f l o o r , t h e p e a g e a n t named "Main S t r e e t Rhapsody" blossomed u n t i l v i r - t u a l l y eve ryone i n t h e C e n t r e was i n v o l v e d .

Beauty , e n t r a n c e d w i t h h e r own image, i s wooed by t h e Motley Fool b u t he soon e n - c o u n t e r e d a r i v a l intthe S i n g - i n g Cowboy. Sweep, broom i n hand and wise i n words, e n t - i c e d o n l o o k e r s t o become p a r t o f t h e p r o c e s s i o n down t h e s p i r a l s t o n e s t a i r c a s e . "There ' s fooood down t h e r e . "

On t h e second f l o o r , t h e Old Woman accused t h e Motley Fool o f f a t h e r i n g a misbe- g o t t e n w a i f , f a l s e hope , u g l y beyond words. The hope o f t h e Fool seemed t o be l o s t . The S i n g i n g Cowboy a g a i n t o o k t h e arm o f Beauty and t h e growing p r o c e s s i o n advanced t o t h e f i r s t f l o o r .

Angels and a t t e n d a n t s p i r i t s would n o t a c c e p t t h e seeming

round gnd t h r o u g h a l l p a r t s of t h e main f l o o r w i t h l o u d s h o u t s and l a u g h t e r t o f r i g h t - en and c o n f u s e t h e demons o f d a r k n e s s . The l o n g e s t n i g h t i s t h e peak o f d a r k n e s s , and l i g h t grows s t r o n g e r t o a s - sume command of t h e day .

I n t o t h e T h e a t r e came a l l and s u n d r y , t h e Motley Fool a g a i n a s u p p l i c a n t t o t h e f o r c e o f l i g h t , Beauty . The e v i l d a r k f o r c e s were p r e p a r e d and e n t e r e d t h e s c e n e i n a h o r d e . Only t h e Motley F o o l , t h e hopes and dreams o f human- k i n d , c o u l d s t o p t h e i r v i c t o r y o v e r L i g h t . He c h a l l e n g e d t h e P r i n c e o f Darkness t o a d u e l .

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The ob icu r i ty of p o v e r t y i s q haven f o r e s c a p e e s from r e - s p o n s i b i l i t y . Sound f a m i l i a r ? Not s u c c e e d i n g i s n o t h a v i n g money i s n o t competing i s n o t making your c o n t r i b u t i o n t o s o c i e t y i s n o t conforming t o t h e g e n e r a l l y a c c e p t e d norms and mores o f everybody e l s e ! And on ... and on. . . a n d o n . . .

The uneven d i s t r i b u t i o n o f w e a l t h and r e s o u r c e s i s making an e v e r 1 a r g e r number n f ynung p e o p l e n o t t a k e p a r t i n t h e c o m p e t i t i o n o f w e s t / e a s t . But t h o s e on t h e downside on t h e s k i d s a r e n o t t o b e admired f o r b e i n g t h e r e ( o r h e r e ) . L i v i n g on w e l f a r e a s an i n t e - g r a l p a r t o f your p e r s o n a l p h i l o s o p h y i s d e f e n d a b l e o n l y i n a b a r . Everyone l i s t e n i n g i s j u s t a s drunk a s you and deep t h i n k i n g i s n o t e x p e c t e d .

A f t e r a p e r i o d o f t i m e , d i f - f e r e n t f o r e a c h o f u s b u t d e f - i n i t e f o r a l l who a r e w a i t i n g , t h e l i f e s t y l e p a r a l l e l w i t h l i v i n g on handou t s p a l l s ; t h e g u t t e r s m e l l becomes a p p a r e n t .

I d e a t i o n i s e s s e n t i a l f o r m a i n t a i n i n g s p i r i t u a l p r a c t - i c e , y e t l i v i n g day-by-day w i t h a s few h a b i t s and s t a t i c i n t a k e a s p o s s i b l e - t h e round of f r e e p l a c e s can f i l l your g u t s i x o r seven t i m e s a day b u t t h e r e must b e more t o l i f e t h a n e a t i n g and c o f f e e o r t e a ?

The p r i n c i p l e s o f A l c o h o l i c s Anonymous , framed and under g l a s s , a r e s o s i m p l e : " F i r s t t h i n g s f i r s t , " ; "Live and l e t l i v e . " ; "Take i t easy . " ;

" ~ h i n k , t h i n k , t h i n k . " App l i ed common s e n s e i s p e r -

f e c t i n h i n d s i g h t and t h e words t a k e n from one o f Kurt Vonnegut ' s n o v e l s a r e a p r o p o s :

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o t h e r s ' r u l e s w i t h o u t know- i n g t h e r i g h t n e s s o f them; c a n ' t g i v e l o y a l i t y upward and downward w i t h o u t t h e r e a -

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t i c e b e i n g s t u p i d .

"One who h a s no i n t e l l i g e n c e i s an i d i o t . One who h a s i n t e l l i g e n c e b u t

d o e s n ' t u s e i t i s s t u p i d . One who h a s i n t e l l i g e n c e b u t

misuses i t i s a f o o l . "

What must b e k e p t c l o s e t o o u r e v e r y a c t i o n and t h o u g h t i s a s p i r i t o f b e i n g s p e c i a l and open, t h a t S p i r i t i s t h e s o u r c e o f o u r e v e r y move, i d e a , a m b i t i o n and g o a l . There w i l l be no a c c e p t a b l e changes u n l e s s your c a r i n g o r s t r o n g f e e l i n g s i n s p i r e you - t o work w i t h l i k e - m i n d e d groups o f p e o p l e and push f o r changes t h a t w i l l h e l p . Chantges happen: changes t h a t someone pushes f o r .

S t r u g g l e i s t h e e s s e n c e o f l i f e .

PAUL TAYLOR

Try ing t o a c c e p t o f a u l t s i s h a r d a t t i m e s . I1*m n o t p e r f e c t , b u t i t r e a l l y b o t h e r s me t o have t o l i s t e n t o a woman scream and c r y f o r t h e s o l e r e a s o n o f g e t t i n g a t - t e n t i o n t h a t o t h e r s p r e s e n t a r e n o t g i v i n g e x c l u s i v e l y t o h e r when s h e wants i t .

I f n o t h i n g e l s e , t h e s t a f f o r d e r s t o be q u i e t o r more o f t e n s i t s down,and s o o t h e s , c l ams , g i v e s a t t e n t i o n ; w h i l e h a v i n g t o l e t e v e r y t h i n g e l s e go t o h e l l u n t i l t h e r e i s some q u i e t and a r e t u r n t o normal i s e v i d e n t .

That t h i s woman i s a l lowed t o p r a c t i c e t h i s b u l l s h i t c o n t i n u o u s l y i s making m a t t e r s worse . Any c o n v e r s a t i o n , any mee t ing , any work o r program i n t h i s C e n t r e must come t o a h a l t when s h e d e c i d e s t o p l a y h e r game and g e t a t t e n - t i o n o r scream and c r y .

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Anyone who may have t a k e n some s u c c e s s f u l p i c t u r e s o f t h e Win te r S o l s t i c e C e l e b r a - t i o n : P l e a s e l e a v e a n o t e a t t h e F r o n t Desk o r c a l l

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Our Cub Scou t group had a wonderfu l t i m e camping o u t i n t h e w i l d e r n e s s o v e r on t h e s u n s h i n e c o a s t . To g e t t h e r e , we had t o c a t c h t h e f e r r y a t Horshoe Bay, and a f t e r boa rd - i n g we were t o l d i t would t a k e 4 5 min. t o g e t t h e r e .

On r e a c h i n g Gibson, we went by v e h i c l e t o t h e w i l d e r n e s s c a m p s i t e . The f i r s t c h o r e d i d was t o make a cosy f i r e i n t h e l o d g e 1 s f i r e p l a c e . We s a n g songs and had a bedt ime snack .

Our camp was based on a n a t i v e theme, making u s e o f n a t u r e h i k e s and c r e a t i n g d i f - f e r e n t c r a f t s t o go a l o n g w i t h t h i s . We were i n t r o d u c e d t o an e i g h t y y e a r - o l d man who comes up h e r e e v e r y summer t o h e l p c l e a r t h e w i l d e r n e s s t r a i l s . He l a b e l s t h e t r e e s - - 3 - 1 -----I.- - - I - : - - 24. ---: -- d l ~ u 3111 U U ~ -): ~ ~ ~ A L I L Y I L. G ~ ~ I G L

f o r a l l o f u s t o i d e n t i f y them a s we walked. The cooks were e x c e l l e n t i n p r e p a r i n g t h e mea l s , i n c l u d i n g r o a s t t u r k e y w i t h a l l t h e t r immings .

The Beachcomber e p i s o d e s were f i l m e d a t ou r c a m p s i t e l a s t summer, b u t when we d r o v e p a s t M o l l y ' s Reach where t h i s was done , i t was a l l boa rded up f o r t h e w i n t e r . We came home v e r y t i r e d and b a d l y i n need o f a b a t h and c l e a n c l o t h e s .

By WAYNE JOSEPH SCHMIDT

R'ecipes for Security

The s i g n s a i d , "Want t o Make Money?", and was c a l l i n g f o r a l l i n t e r e s t e d i n f u n d - r a i s i n g t o a t t e n d a workshop a t t h e Carnegi.e on Dec. 9 and Dec. 11.

L a r r y Duckworth, who o rgan ; i z e d and r a i s e d s u p p o r t f o r t h e Walk-a-Thon For L i t e r a c y , t a l k e d abou t p l a n n i n g t h e a p - p roach and what might be ex - p e c t e d i n t h i s t y p e o f work.

Companies and c o r p o r a t i o n s a r e c a l l e d r e g u l a r l y by p e r - sons phoning "on b e h a l f o f . . " by t h e s c o r e a s k i n g o r p l e a d - i n g f o r f r e e goods and s e r v i c e Consequent ly t h e y a r e c a r e f u l t o r e spond even when t h e r e - q u e s t i s v a l i d and s i n c e r e .

Fund r a i s i n g i s a n ongoing f u n c t i o n t h a t many o r g a n i s a - t i o n s hi 're p r o f e s s i o n a l s t o do f o r them. T h i s h a s i t s d a r k s i d e though.' A c a s e i n p o i n t : I n t h e lower ma in land a n a t h - l e t i c group needed f i f t y t o s i x t y thousand d o l l a r s and h i r e d such a p r o f e s s i o n a l com- pany t o conduc t t h e phone cam- p a i g n . The c o n t r a c t f o r t h e t h r e e week p e r i o d s t a t e d t h a t i f t h e g o a l was r e a c h e d , t h e - company would keep %I00 of what +L--- --- - 1 c l l G y ~ d i s e 1 1 w-Fitl 'r t h i s ~ n ~ i . 1 t h e t h r e e weeks were up. T h i s seemed f a i r , a s t h e group f e l t t h a t i f h a l f o f t h e money was r a i s e d t h e y would be v e r y l u c k y . However, t h e p r o s made - t h e s i x t y g rand i n j u s t o v e r a week and c o n t i n u e d t o b l i t z by phone u s i n g t h e a t h l e t i c ' s . name and p o l i t i c a l e n d o r s e - ments t o l i n e t h e i r own pock- e t s . The group f i n a l l y had t o go t o V i c t o r i a ' t o g e t t h e con- t r a c t c a n c e l l e d .

Muggs S i g u r g e i r s o n t o l d of h e r e f f o r t s t o s o l i c i t s u p - p o r t mee t ing w i t h t h e word "No", f i n d i n g t h a t f u n d i n g might b e a v a i l a b l e f o r a p r o - j e c t o r program b u t n o t f o r t h e Carneg ie A s s o c i a t i o n a s a whole. "People w i l l n o t fund a n e n t i r e c e n t r e . "

A number o f p e o p l e from t h b Lea rn ing C e n t r e a t t e n d e d t o f i n d o u t ways t o g e t b a s i c s u p p l i e s l i k e p a p e r and pens and p o s s i b l y a VCR. I t ' s l u d i c r o u s t h a t such a v i t a l s e r v i c e a s e d u c a t i o n h a s n ' t g o t e s s e n t i a l b a s i c s .

L a r r y l i s t e d some e v e n t s

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Between Chr i s tmas and New Year , many p e o p l e a r e a l o n e l y h e a r t s i n l i t t l e rooms;who w i t h o u t a f a m i l y , and a t t h i s know t h e s t r e e t s , who s t a n d i n t ime more t h a n any o t h e r , emo- l i n e u p s o r l i v e i n v a c a n t l o t s t i o n a l c r i s i s can occllr - frez scaveng ing b c t t l e s h--- - - - - - ~ a i l > - S z p r e s s i n g t h o u g h t s abou t t h e - smoking - - b u t t s , s l e e p i n g under

I s t a t e o f t h e h e a r t . . a b o u t fam- i l e and f r i e n d s b roken u p . . n o t b e i n g t o g e t h e r . . t h e human fam- i l y d e s t r o y i n g i t s e l f t h r o u g h war and a l l t h e c r i m e s c o m i t - t e d i n t h e wor ld .

Death i s o f t e n v e r y c l o s e t o t h o s e a l o n e a t Chr i s tmas - and something happens between Xmas and N.Y.Day t h a t b r i n g s d e a t h and r e b i r t h o u t o f f a i r y t a l e s and myths i n t o t h e s t r e e t s o f t h e c i t y a s d i r e c t e x p e r i e n c e .

The d a r k e s t l e s s o n s o f C h r i - s tmas a r e d e e p l y f e l t i n l o n e -

b r i d g e s . . . Sometimes your h e a r t i s op-

ened up a t t h e end o f t h e l i n e - i n t h e d a r k n i g h t o f t h e s o u l - t e a r s f l o w - wounds h e a l - t r a n s g r e s s i o n s a r e f o r - g i v e n . Sometimes l i f e i s r e - bo rn i n t h e l a s t few days o f t h e y e a r . M i r a c l e s c a n happen t h a t h e l p u s l e a v e p a s t p r o - blems behind and b e g i n a g a i n i n t h e new y e a r w i t h e n e r g y 4 hope f o r t h e f u t u r e .

By TORA

While t h e words h i t h a r d a t f i r s t , I f e l t i t was a b o u t , a s u s u a l , a h a r l o t . L a t e r on my e y e s were opened - g r e a t e r i n s i g h t i n t o what was b e i n g s t r e s s e d .

The song i s r e f e r r i n g t o e v e r y t h i n g - t h e wor ld , i t s governments , s o c i e t y . The h a r l o t may change h e r p r i c e s f o r s e r v i c e s r e n d e r e d and s o does s o c i e t y . The wor ld gov- P r C m e C r , ~ z r e t h e c n r - n + * r

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t h e e l i t e . A t f i r s t e v e r y t h i n g was

f i n e ; s u d d e n l y g r e e d , d e c e i t - f u l n e s s and e v i l come i n t o f o c u s . The p r i c e s had gone up s o s h e c o u l d be recom- pensed . Now t h e b i t c h h a s gone t o o f a r . Unable t o t u r n t h e c l o c k back o r s t o p , s h e s t a r t s t o p r o s t i t u t e h e r s e l f . Her r u l e o f thumb ( f o r a l l o f U S ) , "DO a s I s a y o r e l s e , n o t a s 1 do." S e l f - c e n t e r e d egomania i s h e r t r u e c o l o u r . She i s u n a b l e t o c u r b o r con- t r o l h e r own i n s i d i o u s a c t i o n

The p a r a d e o f f o o l s p a s s i n f r o n t o f h e r d a i l y and s h e comes e v e r c l o s e r t o h e r dem- i s e , caugh t i n h e r own wab o f h a r l o t r y . Unable t o shake t h e s t i g m a s h e becomes a l o s t c h i l d - c r y i n g , f i g h t i n g , c u r s i n g ... Hurt a s s h e may seem, s h e c a l l s o u t t o h e r f a i t h f u l c o n t a c t s , l i v i n g w i t h o u t r e g a r d o r r e s p e c t f o r o t h e r s c r o s s i n g h e r p a t h .

Such a p i t y ; t h i s h a r l o t and t h e governments ( f e d e r a l , p r o v i n c i a l , m u n i c i p a l ) , h e r f r i e n d s ( h i g h s o c i e t y , f e d -

e r a l c o u r t , t h e r a n k i n g judge -

and l awyers who choose t o f o l l o w i n s t r i d e ) , h e r p r o t e c t o r ( t h e mighty m i l i t a r y , t h e p o l i c e f o r c e ) , and l a s t b u t n o t l e a s t t h e b e a u t i f u l one who t a k e s c a r e of h e r f i n a n c e ( t h e t a x d e p a r t m e n t ) . Her

p a r a d e of f o o l s a r e no b e t t e r o f f . Her p i c k i n g s a r e t h e c h o i c e s t , h e r s e a t i n g i s i n r .--A I . . , . , n.lc ovT3,, P a T I 0 1 1 ~ t.aIvva?a - - in S P C -

u l a r g r a n d e u r ) and h e r mess- e n g e r s a r e t h e l i t t l e known f a c t s o f bygone days - t h e media f o r e v e r r emind ing u s o f what happens t o t h o s e who wish t o u p s e t h e r .

What can one s a y e x c e p t t h i s i s a s i n c u r a b l e a s c a n c e r ; i

c a r r y on a s s h o l e s - may you r o a s t i n h a d e s !

By FRANK H . PARKER

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Phi losophy i s f i n e f o r , a r m c h a i r t a l k , b u t when a s i t u a t i o n o c c u r s where i t must t e s t e d , t h e f l o w e r y p h r a s e s and h i g h i d e a l s , a r e e i t h e r l i v e d up t o o r r e j e c t e d i n t h e few s e c - onds t h a t a r e a v a i l a b l e f o r any t h o u g h t .

Being n o n - v i o l e n t i s an i d e a l t h a t i s v e r y d i f f i - c u l t t o h o n e s t l y m a i n t a i n The p r i n c i p l e o f n o t do- i n g harm t o anyone' i n t h o u g h t , word o r deed i s a f i n e base f o r psychic d e v e l o p m e n t . . a c c e p t i n g humanitv a s f a m i l y . . t h a t humanity i s one and i n d i - v i s i b l e -

rhe s p e c t r e o f be ing a v i c t i m o f v i o l e n c e i s e v e r - p r e s e n t i n t n e down- town e a s t s i d e . The i n - c r e a s i n g P r e s s u r e s o f p o v e r t y . . a l m o s t a lwavs hav ing any a t t e m p t t o make n n r c n n m 1 n v - m u - - - r - A -.v.LUI U ~ L e > > Stoi ie - w a l l e d . . p e o p l e on t h e downside o f t h e sys t em l a s n o u t a t t h e t i r s t a v - a i l a b l e p e r s o n .

Knives a r e a h i g h - r i s k weapon and h a v i n g one molds your t h i n k i n g p a t - t e r n s i n t o r e l y i n g on i t : t o a c t a s u l t i m a t e a r b - i t e r i n d i s p u t e s ; t o be t h e sword o f a :Knight i n S h i n i n g Armor"; t o j u s t be t h e p o i n t o f p e r s u a - s i o n t o f o r c e a n o t h e r ' s w i l l t o bend t o y o u r s .

I t i s s a d t h a t t h e v i c - t i m o f v i o l e n c e i s u s u a l - ' l y t h e one who c a n ' t f i g h t back . S e n i o r c i t - i z e n s . h a n d i c a p ~ e d , i n - t o x i c a t e d o r j u s t weaker-

t h e f e a r oi- t h e damage t h a t may r e s u l t f rom r i g h t i n g o r s t r u g g l i n g w l t h an a t t a c k e r To e s c a p e from r e s p o n s i - b i l i t y f o r o u r own s a t e t y i s a h y p o c r i t - i c a l way o u t . To p r o f e s s n o n - v i o l e n c e a s a way o f l i f e i s t o s a y t h a t you f o r g i v e any a t r o c i t y o r v i c i o u s a t t a c k committed a g a i n s t you; t h a t t h e o f f e n d e r i s working o u t t h e i r own d e s t i n y ; t h a t t h e y w i l l pay i n t h e end i f what t h e y have done i s wrong; t h a t t h e y may b e a 1 1 1 ! ~ 3 i I . I I J I ! W ! ~ Q: k91y-

B u l l s h i t ! Never i n i t i a t e t o r c e

a g a i n s t anyone; T h i s s n o u l s be t h e u n d e r l y i n g p r i n c i p l e o t your l i f e . But i f someone does v i o - l e n c e t o you, you s h o u l d r e t a l i a t e w i t h o u t h e s i - t a t i o n , w i t h o u t r e s e r v - a t i o n , w i t h o u t q u a r t e r - u n t i l you a r e s u r e t h a t he w i l l neve r wish t o harm o r be c a p a b l e o f harming you o r y o u r s a g a i n .

By PAUL TAYLOR

Ar. a v e r a g e day i n P a r a d i s e t h i s t i m e o f y e a r t a k e s me back t o t h ~ Andes i n Pe ru a l o n g w i t h t h e i r f e s t i v a l s . My f r i e n d , Pamela, a German b l u e - e y e d b lond and mysel f had been t r a v - e l l i n g t h e Andes f o r a few week and needed a h a r d e a r n e d r e s t .

I n liu_auay we c a u g h t a r i d e w i t h t e n o t h e r s and baggage i n a s i x - s e a t e r van (normal) and went t o a p l a c e c a l l e d San Miguel d e l Quacar - by a r i v e r , o u t o f t h e c i t y and no t o u r i s t s p l e a s e . Upon a r r i v i n g I f e l t l i k e i t was a s e t t i n g f o r an 01 Span i sh movie: c o b b l e s t o n e , o l d c o l o n i a l b u i l d i n g s and no h o t e l

We found a s m a l l r e s t a u r a n t n e a r t h e Zocalo , o r l o c a l s q u a r e w i t h t h e f a m i l y r u n n i n g i t i n back w i t h mucho r u g r a t s . Pam h i t i t o f f w i t h them a t once and I t e s t e d t h e " p i s c o w , t h e l o c a l l y produced b e e r , and s t a r t e d s t rumminl my s i x s t r i n g .

Four h o u r s l a t e r we'd met 1 h a l f o f t h e 600 p e o p l e , a l l r e - Q l a t e d , and I was shown how s u - g a r cane becomes brew.

The d i s t i l l e r y was a hand b e a t e n copper p o t , 3 0 f t h i g h , b u i l t sometime i n t h e 1 7 t h Cen. A song from t h e s i x t i e s k e p t r u n n i n g t h r o u g h my head : llUp on C r i p p l e Creek" and t h e l i n e "A d r u n k a r d ' s dream i f I e v e r d i d s e e one!"

For t h e n e x t two weeks, I was making it and my p a t r o n was ,

s e l l i n g i t i n t h e j u n g l e - i n f o r t y - f i v e g a l l o n b a r r e l s c o a t - ed w i t h c o a l t a r t o p r e s e r v e t h e " , s p i r i t s .

I n t h e two months t h e r e , we saw a number o f r e l i g i o u s h o b i d a y s . . p r o c e s s i o n s , l i g h t s , c o s t u m e s . . i t l ooked a l o t l i k e t h e Winter S o l s t i c e we had h e r e r e c e n t l y . They b u i l t an i n c r e - d i b l e f i r e w o r k s tower t h r e e s t o r i e s t a l l o u t o f bamboo, t h e

e l e c t r i c i t y was s h u t o f f , and f i r i n g t h e f u s e made t h e wheel s p i n and s h o o t f l a m e s and e x - p l o s i o n s i n e v e r y d i r e c t i o n ! The f i n a l e was t h e t o p beeom- i n g a roman c a n d l e - t h e l o g -

i s t i c s o f t h e whole c o n s t - r u c t i o n made me p i t y any m i l - i t a r y f o r c e who might t r y t o t a k e o v e r t h e s e p e o p l e who had made t h e t h i n g from s c r a t c h

A t midn igh t on t h e eve o f my b i r t h d a y , my l o v e and I were i n o u r m a t r i m o n i a l Qaxaca hammock t h e s e c a t s j u s t ba rged i n and w i t h " c o u p l e ' ANNOS" (happy b i r t h d a y ) gave me a c o u p l e o f h o t s h o t s . and l aughed a s t h i s f i r s t r u n from t h e s t i l l burn - ed i t s way down, making my e y e s w a t e r and l i t e r a l l y t a k i n g my b r e a t h away . ( l50 P r o o f ! )

I was d ragged o u t and my b i r t h d a y p a r t y began. Here t h e way i s t o s t a n d up and d r i n k a s l i t t l e o r a s much a s you want , b u t you must d r i n k : No wimps a l lowed . The food wasGuinea p i g s t ewed i n sweet b e e r and whenever I s t a r t e d t o f l a g , I r r n r ..lr,,n C r r C L r r + w a a t a n ~ l r LU L ~ L G able aiid "-I" L U A U

t o E a t , p e r i o d . Here you d r i n k t o o much and

you d i e ; t h e r e f r i e n d s t a k e c a r e o f you and you s u r v i v e . A t l e a s t l o n g enough t o w r i t e a n o t h e r s t o r y - shaky t o s a y t h e l e a s t - b u t " i n d e r e . " Happy New Year!

By ROBERT LEMIEUX

JA jewel of honesty

Clash i s good! I f e v e r y t h i n g i s going w e l l , no c o n f l i c t am- ong t h o s e whom each s i t u a t i o n f o r c e s c o n t a c t w i t h , how l o n g can i t go on b e f o r e you f r e a k o u t f o r l a c k of p r o g r e s s ?

P h y s i c a l c l a s h i s t h e found- d a t i o n o f e v o l u t i o n : Cosmic Mind c r u d i f i e d i n t o i n o r g a n i c m a t t e r - u n i t mind e v o l v i n g from t h i s s t a t e v i a p h y s i c a l c l a s h , p s y c h i c c l a s h and a t t - r a c t i o n o f t h e G r e a t . When a human v e h i c l e becomes n e c e s s - a r y f o r f u r t h e r growth , each e n t i t y moves c l o s e r t o t h e I n f i n i t e w i t h more s u b t i l e x - p r e s s i o n s o f i t s n a t u r e . The l i n k a g e w i t h Cosmic Mind i s t h e f i r s t "I" i n t h e s e n t e n c e " I know t h a t I e x i s t . " T h i s i s t h e dominate f o r c e govern - i n g t h e "I" t h a t does - t h a t pe r fo rms a c t i o n . The ' d o e r - I ' i n t u r n , r u l e s o v e r t h e c r u - .

i a \ i ~ e i . i i,: i t-l&iiii&ii&I i 6 - e n t i t y , t h e c o n s c i o u s mind. To advance i n s p i r i t u a l e v o l - u t i o n t h e f a s t e s t way i s t o meet t h e Pr imary Clash!

I n t u i t i o n i s f a r s t r o n g e r and t r u e r t h a n i n t e l l e c t , needs no i n d u l g e n c e i n i n t e l l e c t u a l e x - '

t r a v a g a n z a f o r e x p r e s s i o n , and a c t i o n based on i t s i l l u m i n a - t i o n n e v e r d e g e n e r a t e s i n t o t a l l t a l k . A s u n i t mind e v o l - v e s t h r o u g h b e i n g c r u d e , s u b t i l s u b l i m i n a l and s u b l i m e t o a t t - une w i t h c a u s a l , d e a l i n g w i t h i n t e n s i f y i n g c l a s h must b e t a k -

c o n t . ~ P.14 -

Prescription for a new Life My name i s Frank , and I 'm an

a l c o h o l i c and d rug a d d i c t . How d i d A.A. h e l p me - I f i r s t had t o h e l p myse l f b e f o r e A.A. c o u l d e v e r r e a l l y work f o r me. A s a m a t t e r o f f a c t A.A. does n o t do a n y t h i n g f o r you. I f you wish t o g e t on w i t h your l i f e , i t ' s up t o you t o make t h e f i r s t move - A.A. d o e s n ' t do t h e t h i n k i n g f o r you. I s t a r t e d d r i n k i n g a s a c h i l d . r.7. - lnough I walk around now p r o - f e s s i n g t h a t I e b s t a i n from a l c o h o l , l e t me t e l l you , i t ' s s u r e a s h e l l rough. I ' v e more t h a n enough s h a r e s i n m i s e r y . . i t ' s no d i f f e r e n t t h a n b e f o r e I became a s o b e r p e r s o n b u t now I ' m f a c i n g r e a l i t y a s I s h o u l d have been do ing i n t h e f i r s t p l a c e s o b e r .

Why i s i t d i f f e r e n t now? Let me t e l l you a g a i n - i t ' s n o t - b u t I ' m s o b e r , n o t drunk. Even now, I ' m i n t h e mood t o t a k e t h i s avenue o f e s c a p e once more b u t I 'm s i c k of t h e b u l l -

s h i t . I c a n ' t though. There i s someone o u t t h e r e who r e a l l y l o v e s me, my f o s t e r Mom. I d o n ' t i n t e n d t o b r e a k h e r h e a r t a g a i n .

Like a n y t h i n g e l s e , a s George H a r r i s o n s a n g , " A l l t h i n g s must p a s s . " No m a t t e r how l o n g one may be i n any o r g a n i z a t i o n , pow- e r goes t o t h e heads o f f o o l s . I w a i t i t o u t b u t i f t h e r e i s no change , I l e a v e . T h a t ' s why I ' m n o t g o i n g t o m e e t i n g s e v e r y d a y : , I ! ve no n e e 6 o f ga rbage from them..my l i f e i s my own and n o t t o be e x p l o i t e d by a s s h o l e s who t h i n k t h e y know e v e r y t h i n g .

I know one t h i n g f o r s u r e : it i s how much money I ' v e g o t a t any g i v e n t i m e . A.A. i s a f e l l - owship, a g a t h e r i n g o f a s e l e c t body of members, and t h a t v s i t .

I ' v e a l m o s t f i f t e e n y e a r s o f s o b r i e t y . A.A. h a s been p e a c e - f u l t h e l a s t two months a s I ' v e s t e p p e d down ., I f i n d t h a t I can s t a n d on my own two f e e t a l o n e and s t i l l n o t d r i n k .

By FRANK H. PARKER

THE NEWSLETTER I S A PUBLICATION OF THE CARNEGIE COMMUNITY CENTRE ASSOCIATION

A r t i c l e s represent t h e views of individual 1 cont r ibu to rs and not of the Associatian.

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When you walk i n t h e door t h e f i r s t q u e s t i o n asked i 9 "Do you know how t o u se ? 1 1

I f you answer "Oh, s u r e , " you may be a l i t t l e shaken when Kel Baker s a y s , "You d o n ' t know any th ing . "

As t h e most exper ienced and knowledgable pe rson t h e r e , Kel does t h i s a s a m a t t e r o f cou r se . The s a f e t y o f t h e peop le and p rope r use o f t h e c u t t i n g and shap ing machines a r e h i s main concern / respon- s i b i l i t y - t o en su re t h a t t h o s e u s i n g t h e shop l e a v e a s whole a s t hey were coming i n .

Th i s i s a Hobby/Do-it-Your s e l f o r i e n t e d woodworking shop, f o r women and men. Kel , a s s u p e r v i s o r , w i l l a s s i s t and i n s t r u c t u s e r s on a pe rson a 1 b a s i s . The annual member- s h i p f e e i s $15.00, bu t u n t i l t h e end o f A p r i l i s o n l y $5.U0 Non-members pay a u s e r - f e e of $2.50 an hour .

open t o members. A l l shop u s e r s must a waiver and pa s s a g e n e r a l s a f e t y a u i z b e f o r e u s i n g shop equipment.

I f you l i k e t o work w i t h wood, d rop by t h e shop o r c a l l Kel o r Mike a t 665-2222. HOURS: Mon. t o Wed. 10 - 6 --

Thurs . 2 - Y :3U F r i . l u - 6 S a t . c l o s e d Sun. 1~ - 8

' Capturing a victory Snooker i s a game of s k i l l

and s t r a t e g y . Being broke makes r e g u l a r p r a c t i c e ha rd t o ma in t a in , but t h e 'amaz- i n 1 d e a l of $5.00 a y e a r a t t h e Carnegie Pool Room i s drawing many good p l a y e r s .

Tournaments a r e now ongoing monthly w i t h an e n t r y f e e o f $2.00 and a double e l i m i n - a t i o n format . (Losing t h e f i r s t game d o e s n ' t p u t you o u t of t h e runn ing ) .

The Blake Denham ~emo;ial . Tournament was h e l d on Dec.11 w i t h l{i ctor Munroe winning, Joe Hunter coming second and A l b e r t a Will iams p l a c i n g t h i r d .

On Sa tu rday , J a n . 1 7 , t h e nex t tournament w i l l t a k e p l a c e and i t w i l l be a b i g one. P r i z e s w i l l be : F i r s t - $100.00; Second - $50.00; Th i rd - $25.00. Because of t h e s e much h i g h e r p r i z e s t h e e n t r y f e e f o r t h i s one even t w i l l be $5.00 and a member- s h i p must be v a l i d f o r a l l p l a y e r s . There w i l l be r e f - e r e e s f o r a l l games.

The bittersweet A couple of b u l l e t i n s from

t h e war zone, about peop le a l o t of you know..

Beverley-Jeanne Whitney, a Carnegie v o l u n t e e r , go t s i x months r e c e n t l y . She took a Molotov c o c k t a i l - g a s o l i n e i n a b o t t l e w i t h a wick i n it - i n t o a Red Hot v ideo s t o r e , p lann ing t o burn i t , a f t e r a fx-iend of h e r s was raped and beaten -by a man1 who had been . - ~~~~c,~i2#T ~ T 7 r l o n + " - n " VL-.A +LA-

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s p r a y - p a i n t e d J i m P a t t i s o n ' s c a r l o t nea rby , accus ing him of being a porn p e d d l e r . P a t t i s o n owns a company which d i s t r i b u t e s a d u l t magazines.

Because t h e weight o f j u s t i c e sometimes cames down ha rde r on one s c a l e t h a n ano the r - u s u a l l y when poor peop le l i k e Bev, wi thout a l awyer , a r e invo lved- t h e evidence o f h e r f r i e n d t h e v i c t i m was r u l e d inadmissab le . But t h e s c a l e s t i l t e d when a bunch of peop le wrote l e t t e r s and g o t up on t h e w i t n e s s s t a n d t o t a l k about M s . Whi tney 's work i n tL2 community, abou t h e r g u t s h e r humanity, h e r energy , t h e he lp in g hand she has extended t o many.

And i t was good, t o o , t o s e e Bever ley-Jeanne r e p r e s e n t h e r s e l f w i t h t y p i c a l toughness and i n t e g r i t y . She d i d n ' t back down, d i d n ' t a c c e p t t h e Judge ' s i n v i t a t i o n t o r e p e n t , e x p r e s s remorse. . she r e p e a t e d t h a t P a t t i s o n s e l l s t h e a d u l t magazines. Good f o r you Bev. See you soon . .

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scales of justice h e a r t , t o a guy a s b i g a s a house, who may have t aken on a b igge r f i s h t h a n P a t t i s o n - t h e bureaucracy! Wayne Delnea, sometime doorman a t Brandiz (and a g e n t l e man i f you d o n ' t h i t him f i r s t ) i s t r y i n g ve ry ha rd t o do whi t weak-kneed governments have n e i t h e r t h e gumption, energy o r savvy t o do - c r e a t e jobs" He s t a r t e d h i s People Mover < ~ r - - , r j ~ ~ nzt ~f h : ~ c-k12 r~;; - - * room, wheeled and dea l ed it i n t o a s t o r e f r o n t i n Gastown But h i s p r o j e c t needs g r a n t money. The i d e a i s s imple . He f i n d s employers who want t o h i r e peop le f o r a few hours o r a few days , and t h e jobs he f i n d go t o peop le whe need them i n ou r a r e a . I t ' s s imple and i t i s working. Bue t h e guy i s t r y i n g t o f i n a n c e t h e t h i n g o u t of h i s own . w e l f a r e cheque, r a t h e r t h a n t a k i n g a c u t of t h e employees pay. He's t r i e d f o r fund ing bu t wh i l e 'governments throw money down every c o r p o r a t e r a t - h o l e t h e y can f i n d , a guy l i k e Wayne, from t h e s t r e e t , a guy w i t h a good i d e a , c a n ' t g e t a few thou . .

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t h a t make money, b u t i n do- i n g s o c a u t i o n e d t h a t t h e p l a n might be g r e a t b u t none can be done a l o n e o r w i t h , j u s t a h a n d f u l o f p e o p l e .

One s u g g e s t i o n by Wally Bardysh was t o have a ben- i f i t done by a l o c a l Van- couver c e l e b r i t y .

However and whatever i s p roposed , many v o l u n t e e r s w i l l be needed t o make each e v e n t a s u c c e s s . I f you have an i d e a o r can h e l p , p l e a s e s e e Muggs o r a Board member.

By PAUL TAYLOR

PRE-CHRISTIAN NEW YEAR CELEBRATIONS!

Located i n Cajun, Mexico, i s a s e v e n - s t o r i e d s t e p - p y r a m i d b u i l t by t h e a n c i e n t Mayans, which h a s 365 n i c h e s b u i l t i n - t o i t s s t r u c t u r e .

A r c h a e o l o g i s t s s p e c u l a t e t h a t t h e Mayans may have p l a c - ed 365 l i g h t e d c a n d l e s i n t h e s e n i c h e s i n c e l e b r a t i o n of t h e new y e a r .

The a n c i e n t Egyp t i ans l i g h t - ed 365 c a n d l e s i n b o a t s and s a i l e d them on a s a c r e d l a k e on t h e n i g h t o f t h e a l i g n m e n t o f t h e s t a r S i r i u s w i t h t h e r i s i n g s u n , which marked t h e s t a r t o f t h e new y e a r .

Tuesday Mourning Blues

( f o r Henry)

I ' v e used a l l t h e words t h a t c o u l d e v e r e x p r e s s I n - . L_- . .LL IVIY L I U L I I S , m y l i e s , my h e a r t a t b e s t . To p a p e r I r a n w i t h i n k and pen To purge t h e g u i l t t h a t w r i t h e d w i t h i n . Cons i s t ency i s n o t my t r a d e . That w i l l come w i t h a s h o v e l and spade . Only t h e r e i n t h e e a r t h w i l l I f i n d t h e peace That was l o s t f rom my s o u l i n t i m e s o f need. I once knew a calm t h a t e n g u l f e d my s o u l . The p a s t was c l e a r . I c o u l d wish f o r no more. To once more l e a v e t h e wor ld beh ind . That i s my g i f t t o a l l mankind.

A n i t a S t e v e n s

Have you e v e r wondered why p e o p l e from d i f f e r e n t p l a c e s and d i f f e r e n t b e l i e f s g a t h e r a t 401 Main? J u s t t h e o t h e r dav I was wa lk ing down H a s t - ing5 and saw a fami l i a r s i ~ h t : p e o p l e g a t h e r i n g . And t h i s i s a l a r g e p a r t o f what t h e Car- negi@ t h i n g i s - f a m i l i a r i t y . People a r e who you p e o ~ l e i t w i t h . . a common ground.

A l o t o f p e o p l e s h u f f l e + L 1 - - - ~ m r A W U K ~ L cs ~ ~ c s s I y ; I n s e a r c h o f some thin^ o r some- where o r someone..and i f you looE around y o u ' l l s e e some h e r e ' c a r e ' , b u t i n d i f f e r e n t ways. I n f r o n t o f t h e C e n t r e , t r y i n g t o g e t a d r i n k o r smoke o r food ; i n s i d e t r y i n g t o keep it t o g e t h e r , t r y i n g t o keep t h e ange r o u t s i d e and e x e r - c i s i n g t h e mind on games o f c h e s s o r chance . We make what - e v e r p l a n s need t o be made, s o c i a l i s e , b e i n g p e o p l e .

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i n t e n s e a r e c o n s t a n t l y a t odds o v e r who has t h e u n i q u e r e v e l - a t i o n and 'True Word. '

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C lash must be s e e n and d e a l t w i t h ,on a l l l e v e l s , i n w a r d l y and o u t w a r d l y , w i t h a l l p e o p l e and i d e a s t h a t a s k t o be bowed down t o i n r e c o g n i t i o n o f t h e i r a s s - umed s u p e r i o r i t y .

Welcome t o t h e Monkey House.

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Carnegie was b e s t r e f l e c t e d i n t h e f a c e s o f c h i l d r e n a t t h e Dec.20 P a r t y w i t h San ta .

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I - f o r improving t h e l i f e o f o u r community. - - % 4 . To CO-OPERATE FREELY and HONESTLY, wi th o r g a n i s a t i o n s and

peop le w i l l i n g t o a s s i s t us . - 5 . To EXPOSE and PUBLICIZE t h e inadequac ies we d i s cove r i n t h e - - l aws , r e g u l a t i o n s and s e r v i c e s enac t ed and provided f o r u s .

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s e e s t h a t humanity i s made o f s t r o n g s p i r i t u a l s t u f f t h a t canno t be overcome by d a r k n e s s and g i v e s h e r hand i n m a r r i a g e t o t h i s S p i r i t .

A g i a n t cake , l i t w i t h c a n - d l e s p l a c e d by many members o f t h e a u d i e n c e , i s h e l d a l o f t amid c h e e r s and a p p l a u s e . he hopes and dreams o f humanity have u n i t e d w i t h t h e waxing o f L i g h t and t h e l o n g t r e k toward Love and S p r i n g i s begun!

By PAUL TAYLOR