Infinite Possibilities, Finite Feelings 1 Infinite Possibilities, Finite Feelings: Developing a College-Going Identity in a Transformative Afterschool Academic Space Roberto Rodriguez Saavedra Teacher Education Program Master Inquiry Project Professor J. Darby University of California, Los Angeles May 2013
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Infinite Possibilities, Finite Feelings 1
Infinite Possibilities, Finite Feelings:Developing a College-Going Identity in a Transformative
Afterschool Academic Space
Roberto Rodriguez Saavedra
Teacher Education Program Master Inquiry Project
Professor J. Darby
University of California, Los Angeles
May 2013
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Roberto Rodriguez Saavedra
SAT preparation, afterschool
11th Grade
Abstract:
A number of studies write about the inherent achievement gap that
exists between the different racial, ethnic, and socioeconomic
groups as it relates to achievement on the SAT. This qualitative
study demonstrates the consorted effort to create a
transformative, culturally relevant academic afterschool space
for students from a community that is socioeconomically
disadvantaged to receive lessons to prepare them for the SAT and
college. Based on an analysis of surveys, informal interviews,
observations, daily reflections, and diagnostic examinations, I
argue that in order for us to create the transformative academic
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spaces afterschool, we must work with students to engage and
empower them in process of creating and cultivating the space
based on their ideals. I further argue that if we seek to create
a college-going identity, then we must work to prepare them for
college by having them partake in the college experience. Lastly,
this is only possible if we work with our community, schools, and
students to make a consorted effort to create the links between
our communities and those institutions of higher learning.
Inquiry.
Para mis abuelos, Felipe Saavedra Ruiz y Ignacia Ruiz Garcia, que
me ensenaron el poder del dialogo y la historia.
Mis padres, Carmen Saavedra Ruiz y Roberto Rodriguez Ochoa, que
me entregaron una vida llena de amor y pasión; dedicación a la
familia.
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Mis hermanas, Cecilia, Carmen y Juanita, y hermano, Felipe, que
siempre creyeron en mi habilidad académica y soportaron mis
genios.
To all fellow educators who have pushed back on me and have
helped me refocus my thoughts in constructive and oppressive
manners.
Most importantly to the students who set me on this path of
learning. They ultimately have made the most lasting impact on my
development since they have been the inspiration and motivation.
Their difficulties, their love and frustrations, have kept me
constantly learning and searching for a means of supporting their
development.
Each interaction is a learning moment; each experience is a time
to grow.
I am eternally grateful for their knowledge and their enrichment
of me.
Tlazocamati
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Table of Contents
Segment I: p. 5-18
Ia. Inquiry School, Classroom Context and Emerging Question…
5-13
Ib. Funds of Knowledge, Oppression, and Resistance …
14-16
Ic. Critique and Question …16-18
Segment II: p. 19-53
IIa. Changing Site, Changing Context …19-21
IIb. Developing a Deeper Understanding …21-24
IIc. Questions …24-26
IId. Theoretical Frameworks …26-43
IIe. Action Plan …44-50
IIf. Data Collection …50-51
IIg. Subjects of Focus …51-53
Segment III: p. 54- 112
IIIa. Review: Context, Questions and Methodology …
54-65
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IIIb. Frindings: Praxis and Reflection …
65-104
1) Creating and Cultivating a High Expectation, High
Support Model…66-78
2) Supporting Students Development of a College-Going
Identity …78-92
3) Engaging and Empowering Students in the Process
…92-104
IIIc. Understanding: SAT in an Afterschool Space &
Developing a College-Going Identity
…104-106
IIId. Development as a Social Justice Educator: Working
towards Justice and Empowerment
…106-112
References: Pg. 113-116
Appendix: Pg. 117-135
Segment I
Inquiry School, Classroom Context and Emerging Question
1a. Overview
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The school where I work is located in a large, urban city in
the west coast of the United States in an increasingly
predominant first generation Latina/o population. It is located
at the border between two historically Black communities that
over the last decade have dramatically shifted in demographics
due to a large influx of Central American and third wave Mexicans
following the Illegal Immigration Reform and Immigrant
Responsibility Act of 1996 (USCIS, 1996). According to District
records, most students are low-income students that live at or
below the base poverty level. According to State records, this
community has a high volume of renters and single parent homes
with most members of the community having barely completed a high
school education. State records also show that most students
score at or below State test standards with an increasing number
of students at the school designated as having an IEP; most being
behavioral rather than academic based designations that have
caused some students to react to their designation with
negativity and pessimism. As the school enters its second year of
a new administration with an increasing rate of students
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remaining and scoring higher in state €€€€examinations, the
school is entering a new phase in its fundamental transformation.
The school, like the community, has been a constantly
shifting institution. Malcolm X Charter High School has only been
around for five years, but in that time it has already witnessed
the change of administration three times as well as a constantly
shifting group of teachers due to the stressful environment of
the school. The concentration on the state standards and
examinations intend to promote a school culture that seeks to
ready students for college. The constant reminder of a college-
going culture is promoted in the school through the displays on
its walls, within the classrooms, and in the hallways. The
attention of the school to promote a sense of “community” through
structured activities that are intended to promote tolerance and
understanding, but the response to these efforts are a mixed bag
of reactions from students and teachers who see some of the
activities as pointless or countering the intended purpose of
creating a sense of community. The school administrators’
unintended disconnect from the students and teachers, although
they intend to promote a sense of community within the school, is
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a continuity of the paradox that this large, low income,
community has historically faced.
History of the Community
This once predominantly middle class, White, and Jewish
community was promulgated to be a large “bedroom city” for the
growing western urban area in the early 1920s. Its location and
proximity to the large, developing urban center and the
increasing migration of Midwestern whites westward made the area
prime, cheap real estate that could be settled and cultivated to
fit the needs of the large migrant population. Yet, as the city
grew so did the necessity for housing since a large, Southern
Black population also mounted a large migration westward into the
large urban centers of the United States a decade earlier
(Abrams, 1966). The racial covenants and redlining that was
present in these large urban centers made this community, like
many others, restricted from acquisition by people that were not
of White descendants. The Rule of Hypodescent, also called the
1/16 rule, was written into property deeds to ensure that
communities maintained their lily-white or All-American
designation (Griffin, 1979). Therefore, it was no surprise that
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once the housing restrictions were lifted, those who could afford
to buy property in this area did. The new residents were subject
to abuse, harassment, and even death, but the opportunity of
living in these restricted areas was worth the risk for many of
the people who found entry into these communities (Griffin,
1979).
Public policy and attempts to contain the spread of the
Black and Mexican populations to other communities lead to the
development and expansion of much of the wartime public housing
and/or urban housing developments, suburbs, and freeways: this
was the beginning of the “white flight” that transpired
throughout most of the large urban centers of the United States.
Although public housing, like much throughout the United States,
was originally intended for the War effort and designated to last
no longer than 50 years, these localities still remain and are
designated as semi-permanent residences. The continued
designation of this community as being a semi-permanent area of
residence has become normalized considering the constantly
shifting population within the community and the popular belief
of a lack of civic structure that requires constant police
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surveillance, creating a hyper-criminal environment due to the
large, omnipresent police force that patrols the community.
Although the era of segregation has long passed, the
community has continued to face chronic marginalization due to
the minimal resources available to the community at large. It has
made the normalized perspective of this large, low-income urban
community as a “ghetto” without acknowledging that the
designations imposed upon this community are a result of the
state imposing an ideological framework that has designated this
community as such as a direct result of public policy and private
enterprise devaluing the community’s wealth (Abrams, 1966).
This community has a history of resistance and advocacy.
Although this resistance is near the core of this large western
urban city, it remains at the margins of sociopolitical
influence. This community has a number of community-based
organizations that intend to provide services to the community
at-large. Even with the recent cutbacks to social empowerment
programs and services dedicated to providing training for the
large impoverished community, the unrelenting spirit of
perseverance remains intact even through all the negativity
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present. The community, although it is constantly shifting, is
constantly changing to fit the conditions present. Community-
based advocacy remains key to maintaining the community’s
development. Yet, the response to change in the community is a
touchy subject that leads to variation of reactions and responses
that stem (much like the response to community builders within
the school setting) from an unintended disconnect of the
administrators of the community and the community itself. Yet,
Blauner (1969) would note that the communities much like this one
are subject to the continuation of internal colonization model
and the continued subjection of the people within the community
to conditions that systematically devalue their culture, their
fundamental existence.
History of the School
Malcolm X Charter High School is a part of a cluster of
charter schools that are a means of transforming the educational
outlook in the community. Malcolm X Charter High School was
originally at a different site, with another small charter
school, before it moved to its own site to allow for a growing
school population. Now, in its fifth year of existence, Malcolm X
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has grown to have over 500 students with a class size average of
26 students. The school population is a reflection of the
community, with over 70% being Latina/o. Yet, that large Latina/o
percentage erases the identity of the students who identify and
actually are of Belizean or of mixed descendancy (parents of
Latina/o and Black descedancy), and therefore their self-
identification varies from the district identification. Concepts
of race and ethnic identification vary on the students’
experience, and therefore the generalization of the student
population as being a dichotomy of a Latina/o and or a Black
identification experience is inaccurate (Tafoya, 2007). Yet, this
essential dichotomization of the student population has
historically caused issues with the perception of the students in
the school as being Black or Latina/o issues rather than academic
issues that affect a diverse group of students.
As I have previously noted, the administration at the campus
has changed a number of times and so have the teachers present at
the school site. Part of this charter company’s plan to transform
the educational outlook in the community was to hold schools
accountable in maintaining the academic rigor and providing the
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sufficient support to ensure success. The state examination data
demonstrates the intent to ensure academic success has marginally
succeeded with an increase in scores and graduation rates. Yet
this has meant that the academic program at the campus is limited
in regards to the number of AP, Honors, and Elective courses that
are provided at the campus due to the manner in which the courses
and how students are selected to be a part of these courses.
Students course “choices” are highly based on test scores rather
than the students’ interest. Few of the courses offer the
students the choice to take alternatives to fit their needs and
desires. Malcolm X chooses its courses based on standardized
testing scores and benchmark scores of students based on state
standards. The emphasis on testing and teaching students
according to the standards and testing rigor causes a
conflagration of the priority to teach students critical
comprehension and an inquiry-based curriculum. Due to this
essential contradiction between the ideals and the reality of the
school model, there is a fundamental revolt, from not only
students but also teachers, whose ideals become difficult to
conform to the school model, creating a tense school community.
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For example, students and teachers feel that the constant test
environment does not really help promote learning outside of the
test environment resulting in “pointless” lessons.
The attempts to change the school to the transformative
space it could be have had its growing pains. Currently it is in
its second year of transformation under an authoritative
principal who since his entry into the school has driven a hard
line to bring the school and its environment in line with the
“college-driven” school model. This has meant many essential
changes to the manner in which the school runs with an additional
Counselor, Special Education teacher, and Vice Principal to help
in the coordination of the school. The school is decorated with
reminders of the expectation to go to college but also to display
the work of the student and their successes. The record of their
previous attendance and standardized testing scores are on
display on the walls, along with the expectations for students to
exceed the previous records. Yet, these displays of previous and
current “successes” for some of the student population appear as
“bullshit cuz they only show the best.” The students have the
capability to do rigorous work; yet the fact that their grades
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are largely based on their ability to score well on examinations
serve as a deterrent for some students to do homework and
classwork since “it don’t make sense for me to do work if they
only care if I pass the test.”
Malcolm X Charter High School and the cluster of schools
that have come into the community present a possibility to
transform the educational outlook of the community. In its time
in the community, the school’s emphasis to graduate students at a
higher rate with more resources and possibilities to excel has
been met. In its success, there have remained some of the issues
before “The Transformation”: high administrative and teacher
turnover resulting in an unstable school environment that is
inconsistent and needs to rebuild every year. The lack of
consistency and routine in the school coupled with the feeling of
essential revolt in the school have resulted in a students’
expectation of the school that counters the intended high
expectation, high support model the school intends to cultivate
(Gibbons, 2009). The idea of success becomes a seeming
contradiction for some students since the school’s model of
success differs from the perspective of some of the students’
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perspective of the same ideal. Creating the communal drive
towards a similar perspective of success within the students is a
part of the fundamental transformation of the educational outlook
of the community; yet in order to cultivate the fundamental
cultural shift there needs to be a clear understanding of the
students’ plethora of perspectives.
The History of the Students
The students of Malcolm X Charter High School are leaders in
their own right. Yet, the history passed down by the
administrations and teachers who have been there reflect badly on
the students. The students are self-defeating, even reactionary,
in instances. However, it is not due to them, honest to heart,
not caring for their future but it is a response to the
conditions that they find in the school (Solorzano & Bernal,
2001). The students are very cognizant of what is going on in the
campus, and they seek to know what to do to ensure that they get
the most of their education, but when the school environment is
unstable, their confidence in the school structure becomes
questionable. Their ability to trust and respect the authority
that is intended to impose upon them becomes a matter of placing
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a belief on someone, something, who they do not feel can last or
that they sense does not want to be there. Why would anyone seek
support and create a relationship with anyone whom they sense
will go away? Students seek those supports to success and those
spaces to be able to grow, but when they cannot feel they can
receive reciprocity, a mutual trust and respect, why would they
bother to give the same?
The students of Malcolm X Charter High School are trying to
counter the conditions that they find in their school and their
community. The students are well aware the expectations and know
what they need to do, but for most, their ability to develop the
relationship with school is difficult due to the feeling of non-
ownership that most students feel. They cannot wait to go home
and leave the school premises not because they do not like the
school but because there are very few spaces for them to interact
freely, to do the work that they know has to be finished.
Students seek a sanctuary for them to be able to eat and do work
afterschool that allows them to let loose with friends, a space
they can call their own. They seek a space to grow, learn, and
develop; yet there are few spaces to do so.
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There is an afterschool program at the school. This program
has had limits imposed upon it because of the transformation
under this new administration. The community-based afterschool
program, which has been a part of the school since its inception,
is in its last year of its contract. Earlier this school year, a
student led drive for the school to keep its grant with the
organization caused the principal to lock down the afterschool
program because of the attempt for students to walkout to protest
the ending of the contract. The results of the students’ protest
have lead the afterschool space to become almost non-existent
because the students know that the afterschool program is under
the control of the principal, not of the community anymore. The
perceived control of the afterschool program by the school’s
administration has changed the afterschool space from a sanctuary
to a depressive space that few students are willing to stay in
due to a lack of security and comfort that they had established.
The changing power dynamics of the afterschool spaces has
led to a change in the perspective of the students. The students
often times reciprocate the feelings of those whom they associate
with, and acknowledging the feelings of the other, they feel that
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the trust for the afterschool program that they have grown to
love is tainted. They recognize that if the afterschool program
tries to support another student led revolt against the school
authority, they might lose something that for some of the
students has become a part of their association to family. A
number of students commented to afterschool staff how, “I trust
you guys more than my mom or dad, “You are like my dad,” “If you
weren’t here I don’t know where I would be by now.” Their ties to
one another are still there; yet there is a sense of a lack of
stability and routine that the students desire of their space.
Therefore, the students have gone off to seek those spaces that
they can call their own. They have found teachers, others homes,
but some of the students have returned to the streets that they
once left behind. Numerous students that once were into lives of
gangs and crime were able to find a guidance and sanctuary
afterschool, but little by little, the students moved away from
the space. The afterschool program has been the place where they
have been able to grow and develop a sense of self with
supportive adults that try to be responsive to the needs of the
students. Although the grossly underfunded program serves over a
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hundred students daily, the resources it has at its disposal have
come to mean a lot for students who have very little themselves.
The students have the potential to create transformative
spaces and cultivate the learning communities that we seek to
create for them. At Malcolm X Charter High School, these
students’ act of defiance was a call out for the administration
to recognize that they are willing to work with them to create
the transformation that they seek. Yet, instead of making it a
powerful moment of transformational resistance, it turned into an
act of defiance that has lead students to see their effort to
organize as a futile pursuit that had no reason, no purpose. Yet,
the students are cognizant of their potential and recognize the
power they have, but without the support from other adults who
they trust and respect, they became deactivated, detached from
their potential to create and cultivate transformative spaces.
The afterschool program has come to use what Tyrone Howard notes
as being effective teaching techniques for African American
students: they are teachers who have established family,
community, and home-like characteristics (to the best of their
ability); culturally connected caring relationships with
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students; and used certain types of verbal communications and
affirmations (Howard, 2002).
1b. Funds of Knowledge, Oppression and Resistance
The students of Malcolm X Charter High School have a wealth
of talents and knowledge that come from rich experiences growing
up in this community as well as others. This school is on the
border, as I have mentioned before, between two historically
black communities, and therefore there is a diffusion of culture
between the Black and Latina/o students of the school that often
times bring them together rather than separate them. Although
they acknowledge the shared struggle to survive, it is often
times a repressed knowledge due to a desire to maintain their
ideal of not needing help from anyone else. Yet, within their
cliques, they find those fellow students that can help them with
work and ask those questions that for some are difficult to ask
because they “don’t want to seem dumb.” They have strong social
ties to one another within and outside the classroom setting;
they are very critical of one another that for some has proven to
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be “unwanted drama” and for others “allowing their homies to
keeping them real.” Holding each other accountable and being the
support for each other like family are traits that many of the
afterschool students share.
They are cognizant of what they need to do to achieve
academic success. However, the fact that their community has such
a negative perception makes the students’ possibility to progress
a marginal possibility. Thus, education becomes fundamentally
devalued. While some of the students can adjust to the realities
of their life, some opt to try to escape them in positive forms.
During afterschool, they can opt to go to teacher office hours,
be a part of APEX credit recovery, do tutoring, do one of the
afterschool activities (nonacademic), or simply relax and hang
out with friends. A large number of students have increasingly
opted to go home rather than stay afterschool. Many of the
students that chose to stay around were those who have a strong
tie to the program and the staff. The afterschool program
maintained its business as usual attitude with the students to
attempt to cultivate the family culture they have after school.
They did a Dia de Los Muertos event as well as Thanksgiving
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festivity with the help of the students to try to maintain the
family atmosphere. Little by little, these efforts have gone on
to bring back some of the power to the afterschool program and
show students the continued effort to maintain the afterschool
space open for them. Yet the shift in the power dynamics have
made some doubtful of the program and others detached since they
know that the program will not be back next year.
The students are what make the afterschool program what it
is. They have the power to create what they wish in the space. If
it is an artwork, a piece of music, an event for fellow students,
or create a group, they have the license to do so as long as it
creates trust and respect among them. They create their cliques,
share work, have fun, and are there for one another even when the
situations in their lives get tough. They are critical thinkers,
and they enjoy the challenge of a deep conversation that makes
them think deeply about a topic. Often times they can verbalize a
very critical response, but when it comes to writing a response
of the same nature, it is difficult. When working on them with
writing responses, we often have to brainstorm ideas before
outlining due to the amount of information that they have within
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their knowledge pool. Therefore, I spend much of the tutoring
time scaffolding responses and teaching them critical
comprehension techniques like the CATCH method or doing say,
mean, matter charts to create a written reflection of the
critical verbal responses they give me.
Math, on the other hand, is a struggle for most students due
to the overall sentiment that their teachers are not properly
teaching them. They have difficulty following systematic response
orders, but once they figure the response structure for Math
problems, they find “shortcuts” to the response, which as long as
they understand the process are perfectly fine. The students want
to know; yet they often maintain that feeling that they cannot
get help by anyone. I have found that sitting down with them and
trying to work to the root of the issue often leads to a non-
school related problem that has them emotionally detached or
“caught up” to the point where the afterschool space becomes a
place of healing and a place of comfort. For those students who
can overcome these feelings, they employ their ability to help
their fellow student out to the best of their ability, sometimes
with helping them with their work.
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History and Science are subjects that students seldom seek
help in even though they know that I can help them. For History,
the issue is on creating a critical response to a reading:
getting the main ideas from an extensive reading and applying the
knowledge to DBQ style short essay and response structures.
Students have been better in employing different methods from
class and from one-on-one tutoring. Although most students still
require the ability to infer and correlate responses with deeper
concepts, Science, usually Chemistry, the issues with fractions
and decimals becomes a constant theme that students eventually
get a hang of after reviewing these math concepts. For physics,
plugging into the equations and being able to visualize these
problem, is difficult for most students. They use the GUESS
method to try to understand the problems, but what they are
figuring is that the method does not help all of them. They are
being able to correlate this method with DBQ questions since it
allows them to be able to analyze some documents that do not make
sense to them in particular on why the reading is important to
understand the historical event they are trying to understand and
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how this historical event correlates to their understanding of
history.
1c. Critique and Question
As a Chicano, heterosexual male from a working-class,
Catholic family from a community very much like the students I
work with, I have a distinct asset due to my seemingly close
association to the students and their daily struggle. My
experience has some common experiences that have connected with
some of the students. I have come to identify very closely to a
number of students due to my background, but this does not mean
that all students have come to accept me as part of their
community. They acknowledge my commitment to them and their
success; however, they come to define success in their lives. My
relation to them as a warm demander has made me a parental figure
to some of the students because they know that I am constantly
monitoring their grades and how they are doing. They have come to
know my background and my dedication to their perseverance over
the conditions in their community and in their lives. I offer
them one-on-one tutoring as well as mentorship to the best of my
ability. In return, they offer me their invaluable perspective
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and knowledge that allows us to learn from one another in good
and bad times.
I have worked with these students, who are predominantly
Latina/o fe/male, in the struggle to maintain a transformative,
supportive space where they can grow academically, and
emotionally; thereby, to counter the oppressive norms that they
have come to accept as an inevitable reality of their school and
community is my intent. Yet, I have come to realize that this
work is a lifelong struggle that I will always work for. The
resources and means to cultivate the dream that I hope to provide
is part of a long process that will require some grants and
supportive staff. In this inquiry I will only begin to collect
the data and define the structure that will be most beneficial
for students in the community. I will look at the students’
academic profiles and cultivate a tutor-mentor relationship that
can serve as a means of developing a transformative community
space that will be beneficial following the transition of the
afterschool program to one ran by the charter. The question I
pose is how can I work with students independently and communally
to preserve the community space that they have come to
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acknowledge as their own? What can we do collectively to create
the high expectation, high support school model that can ensure
that the students feel they are being supported academically,
emotionally, and culturally to achieve their best? Which tools
and resources can be brought in to support this transformative,
community space? How can students help in establishing,
implementing, and cultivating this space?
I recognize that my inquiry and its results will vary
according to the constantly changing conditions within the
school, the afterschool program, the students, the community, and
my life as well. The work that I am choosing to enter is intended
to counter many of the preconceived notions, and there was
pushback already in regards to getting students active in
organizing. I know that much of the work I do is perceived as
being antagonizing, the attempt now grounded on teaching students
how to come together around academic work and becoming supportive
entities for one another as they continue their journey through
high school. The students of Malcolm X Charter High School know
what it takes to succeed; now they need to apply it as
effectively as possible.
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Segment II
IIa. Changing Sites, Changing Context
The love for the community and the students of Malcolm X
Charter High School pushed me to search for a position where I
could gain the knowledge, tools, and resources that could help me
be able to provide the students of Malcolm X more concrete
academic support as they enter the next phase of their high
school experience. I chose to work as an SAT tutor in order to
get a better grasp of what an effective SAT preparation program
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looks like and how to implement this type of program in an
afterschool setting.
The SAT prep program, Crossover, is a program that has been
around for a couple of years providing service to a number of
charter schools in nearby areas; areas that, like the site of
Malcolm X, are located in neighborhoods that are socially
constructed as historically socioeconomically disadvantaged
communities of predominantly Latina/o and Black populations. Yet,
these school sites vary from Malcolm X in that their school
cultures are far more established and refined due to long
standing administrations, and teachers, who have created
communities of learners that feel a sense of ownership of their
academic space. The high challenge, high support model present at
these sites places upon the students the agency to create and
cultivate the positive relationships that they seek on their path
to entering a university (Gibbons, 2009). The scale of the
Crossover SAT prep program has increased this year; yet the
purpose of the program remains to provide the best possible SAT
prep program for students from communities that are
socioeconomically disadvantaged.
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I decided to work at four different sites within the range
of Malcolm X Charter High School because I wanted to maintain an
emphasis on working in communities very similar to that of
Malcolm X. Three of the sites (Frederick Douglass, W.E.B. Dubois,
and Ida B. Wells) are during school and a part of the mandatory
curriculum while the last site, Angela Davis Academy, is
afterschool and a mandatory part of their college preparation.
Douglass, Dubois, and Wells are schools that have been in
existence for over 5 years while Davis has only been present 3
years. They all employ small school models that use exams to
establish baselines to measure students’ comprehension of
standards-based learning. They all employ strict dress and
behavior policies that intend to create “a sense of unity and
community responsibility.” Although these sites have very similar
institutional structures, the sense of community present at these
sites vary in the manner of support and management of the
Crossover SAT prep
The Crossover SAT prep program is a well-structured,
academic program that at times leaves certain students out. The
intent of the SAT prep program is to provide the most effective
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SAT prep program with a limited amount of time. We are provided
with the following materials by Crossover SAT prep: 1) A lesson
plan book that has all the materials we will need for each
lesson. 2) A copy of the student handbook in order to see and
practice problems students might cover during the lesson. 3) Our
own SAT prep book so we go over the questions that we will cover
with the students and effectively plan for any questions that
might arise from their practice. Before we began, we receive a
daylong training to prepare us for our first lessons. The
emphasis was around best tutoring practices for the different SAT
sections. Although our lessons are given to us, we are asked to
prepare according to the needs of our students. We receive
whiteboards and markers in case we need to have students model
their responses, we need to clarify any questions they have, or
to check for understanding. Due to the time crunch, tutors rush
sometimes to complete the required lessons in time. Yet, as
tutors, we plan accordingly before each lesson in order to ensure
that the students are able to cover the necessary material in
time. This often leads to direct teaching which for some students
is effective, while other students who require more scaffolding
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in regards to breaking down concepts and ideas (even with the
break downs already provided and create for each lesson) often
requires more hands on approaches to these concepts. I have
observed that the program ultimately is structured more as a
program within a structured school time and space rather than an
afterschool program. The methods that work during the school day
do not seem to transcend as effectively in the afterschool space
due to a number of factors.
IIb. Developing A Deeper Understanding
The intense academic model of Crossover SAT prep is
effectively disrupted by the lack of an effective structure in
the afterschool school space. The high challenge, high support
model (Gibbons, 2009) that is present during school is negated
afterschool by lack of a supportive administrative school staff
that works to ensure that the program runs effectively
afterschool. Mr. Nebula, a chemistry teacher at the school site,
does everything in his power to provide the support and guidance
Crossover tutors need to implement the program; yet there remains
the fact that he is a lone dedicated teacher with six passionate
tutors seeking to provide this service. He works to have
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materials ready and present for us to use when we need them as
well as providing us with any additional information (academic,
personal) that might help us be able to engage students that
require that extra scaffold or wait time. Yet, his dedication is
not enough when there is a lack of resources available for
students to use since they are not trusted to keep their SAT prep
book. We provide the students handbooks and packets that are
necessary for the program, but there have been a number of times
students do not have their handbooks or their packets which has
us (Mr. Nebula and the tutors) modifying the lesson to fit the
needs of the students.
The ultimate factor that causes issues with the program is
the time and the infrequency of the SAT prep program. While
Douglass, Dubois, and Wells run every week on a particular day
during school, Davis runs on Tuesday and Thursday from 4-6pm. The
afterschool schedule often conflicts with the students’ schedule
especially if they are a part of other school organizations or
have family issues to tend to that students prioritize over SAT
preparation, coupled with the grouping of the students that
attend every other week on either Tuesday or Thursday. The
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inability to establish a routine and maintain a high challenge,
high support model results in an SAT program that is inconsistent
with the needs of the students it intends to serve.
The students of Angela Davis Academy have demonstrated to me
a spirit very much like those of the students of Malcolm X and
are by far in closer proximity to the same living conditions.
Their relentless spirit pushes these students to strive towards
their goals recognizing that this is an opportunity that some of
their family members never received. They are the first to have
the opportunity to not only finish high school but also go to a
university. Some of the students know each other well while
others have never been in the same classes. Some know and
acknowledge their academic prowess while others are barely
beginning to believe in their intellectual ability. Not every
student sees a university as a future, but they all work to
completing their coursework to at least get their high school
diploma. Yet, this is a perception based upon the observation of
a fraction of the whole group of students who have the
opportunity to take part in Crossover SAT Prep Program. With low
attendance, the ability to have a consistent group of students
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and to build a rapport with them becomes a difficult task.
Therefore, it is also important in understanding the support that
an individual student might need and modifications that are
required in order to ensure s/he gets the same understanding from
the lesson as the rest of the students in the group. These
planned changes need to be done ahead of time; yet I, as well as
other tutors, cannot effectively plan without getting to know the
students. The necessity for me to be able to connect and engage
with students becomes important in creating the academic space
where the students feel comfortable with me.
The time that I have been here, I have had the opportunity
to observe the students and their interactions. They tend to be
very close to one another; yet there are the few who give a
critical eye to the mentors who are providing the SAT prep.
Students recognize me due to a few things: I am the only Chicano,
male tutor; I attend a well-known university that some of them
dream of going to; and I come from a similar background to
theirs. The other tutors, although they are mostly white, middle
class women, strive to provide the best possible SAT prep
sessions as possible with the given tools and resources. They
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work hard to make the SAT as relevant as possible to the
students. I use Spanish when necessary in order to connect to
them and frequently try to tie in cultural references into the
lessons although this is not always possible since the SAT is
structured around cultural references that some students might
not be able to grasp. Fellow tutors try to do the same though
with differing levels of success. Often times there are uses of
language that requires extra scaffolding for students to reach
the critical comprehension that is necessary for students to
contextualize the questions, passages, provided which students
respond to at varying levels of success.
The heavy emphasis for students to pass standardized tests
has not allowed students to develop fully analytical test-taking
habits that are more applicable to the SAT. When a school culture
focuses on standardized testing and answering every question, the
logic of the SAT to leave questions unanswered becomes counter-
intuitive. I literally had a student ask me 5 times, “So I can
leave questions unanswered in some sections of the test?” I
responded with a yes and an explanation of why, and he could not
believe me: “This test is about knowing what and when to answer.
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Coming to a logical conclusion based on concepts that you have
learned, or are suppose to learn.” I tried to evaluate their
academic strengths and weakness early on based on their
examinations; yet time and again the students told me, “I really
didn’t try”; “I didn’t get it so I put whatever”; “I just wanted
to get over with it.” Although Angela Davis Academy is not alone
in these kinds of responses to the examination, overall their SAT
scores were below those of the other schools. Compared to the
other schools, their cumulative SAT score is 100 pts below that
of the school. How can a school very much like the others have
scores that have an average that low? What conditions are present
at the schools that do not empower students to perform at their
full potential?
IIc. Questions
As a result of what I have observed in Angela Davis Academy
with Crossover SAT prep, my questions return to those that I
asked at Malcolm X Charter High School:
1. What tools, resources, and methods can be brought in to
support this transformative afterschool academic space to help
develop a college-going identity?
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This question is based on observing the students disconnect
from the plausibility of entering an institution of higher
learning, seeing the institution of higher learning as an
impossibility that is far from the expectations they have come to
identify with. Their fundamental disconnect from the SAT, from
what I have observed, has been based on the idea that they do not
see the basis for the examination if their expectation is not to
attend a university. “Why should I waste my time taking an exam
or prepare for it if I am not only destined to fail but if I do
not plan to go to a university?”
2. What can we do collectively (Crossover SAT Prep, Angela
Davis Academy, Mr. Nebula) to create and cultivate the high
expectation, high support school model that can preserve the
students’ feeling of being supported academically, emotionally,
and culturally to achieve their best?
The students disconnect from the mentors, and lack of
accountability has been prevalent in the first few sessions of
the Crossover SAT prep program has lead to inconsistency with the
students. Based on the cultural disconnect of some of the
students from the SAT and the possibility of attending a
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university, I feel it an imperative for me to work to create an
academic space for students to feel welcomed to explore their
full potential and attain a level of success they can feel proud
of. If the intent is to have students strive to attain their
academic best, then it is imperative that the academic space
provides a space where they feel empowered to learn.
3. How can students help in establishing, implementing, and
cultivating this academic space?
Students have commented that there are few spaces or
opportunities for them to be able to do things on their own. They
have few teachers who give them the time and space for them to be
able to do activities that they can demonstrate skills and
potential outside of the academic activities they already do. I
see within them the potential to be able to create a lasting
change in the school if they can come together to not only attend
but also support one another in the process. The program seeks to
provide them the tools and resources for them to prepare for the
SAT but also for college; my intention is to go further and
support them in developing those leadership skills that I see
developing within each of the students.
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The first question is my primary inquiry question. Yet, in
order to respond to the needs of the students, I require the
investigation and implementation of an inquiry that intends to
address issues that I have observed transpiring at an
institutional, school, and student level. Therefore, in order for
me to develop my approach to systemic issues, I must be willing
to address issues at each level for me to truly address the
pervasive problem of students being culturally disconnected from
the university and this examination. In a school that has a high
challenge, low support model, the examination has some students
feeling frustrated, impotent, due to a gap in the expectation
versus their internalized potential.
IId. Theoretical Framework
Understanding the Institution(s):
In order to counter the institutional racism that is
omnipresent in the community and in the school, I have to be free
to speak truth to power. The conditions in the community are that
it has had a contemporary negative connotation due to the
normalization of the idea that it is a “ghetto”: a socio-
politically marginalized community of historically
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disenfranchised people. This idea becomes normal within members
of the community that they speak of it as a character trait
rather than a form of institutional oppression. Most students at
Angela Davis Academy, as well as the other sites, are cognizant
of the negative connotation of their community and the lowering
of academic expectations of them because of their experience.
Ruiz and Moll (2002) note Valenzuela’s (1999) idea of Subtractive
Schooling creating:
A social distance between the students and the world of
school knowledge…that one’s language and knowledge are
inadequate because they are not privileged (formalized
and accorded special status) by the school. This mind-
set (the superiority of the other and the inferiority
of one’s own) is accepted as “natural,” as just the way
things are. (p. 365)
Repeatedly I have heard this idea spoken out by students at
the different school sites, sometimes in jest, others in the
upmost seriousness. The idea that they are not up to par with
other (White) students reproduces within them the negative
connotations that they have come to internalize as being truth.
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The idea that schools serves as a means of socializing students
to fit within a sector of society is not a new concept at all.
Bowles and Gintis (2012) wrote about the idea that the social
interactions at school correspond with the social interactions at
the work place. Schools prepare students for adult work roles by
socializing people to function well, and without complaint, in
the hierarchical structure of the modern corporation. Schools
perpetuate or reproduce the social relationships and attitudes
needed to sustain the existing dominate economic and class
relations of the larger society (pp. 265-288). It is not news
that our capitalistic society works to maintain a sector of our
society limited to the needs of the society. By labeling the
students from early on to fit particular sets of behavioral
trait, as Rist (1977) wrote, “Labels are applied to individuals
which fundamentally shift their definitions of self and which
further reinforce the behavior which had initially prompted the
social reaction” (p. 58). Students have come to internalize these
labels as truths to their definition of self. Students come to
identify with the labels given, therefore becoming normalized
notions of their identity. These labels become difficult norms to
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counter due to their incessant reproduction and dissemination not
only within popular culture but also within the community. How
can a student counter a perceived negative notion of self if this
idea is presented to her/ him every day?
Rogoff (2003) via Tyrone Howard (2010) notes that:
1. Cultural processes occur through everyday activities
2. Understanding one’s own cultural heritage requires
understanding multiple, contrasting perspectives and
perceptions that differentiate significance of
everyday activities.
3. Cultural processes are multifaceted relations that
function through the use of numerous aspects of
community.
4. Culture and the communities that shape culture are
in a state of continual transformation
5. There is no “right way” to engage human behavior nor
cultural practices. (p. 60)
Students develop a sense of self through their lived experience;
within each individual, there is an infinite amount of
possibilities to their development as human beings. Each student
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has had a life and educational experience that has been unique to
his or her development. Therefore, it is imperative to see the
students as individuals with unique experiences. There are
commonalities and common threads of thought that have been
expressed which although they sound familiar must not be thought
of as normal because we, like the different forms of
(c) conformist resistance, and (d) transformational
resistance. These different types of oppositional
behavior are depicted in Figure 1 and are based on an
adaptation of Henry Giroux’s (1983a, 1983b) notion that
resistance has the following two intersecting
dimensions: (a) Students must have a critique of social
oppression, and (b) students must be motivated by an
interest in justice. The distinction between the four
behaviors is not static or rigid, and neither are these
behaviors inclusive of all types of oppositional
behavior. In addition, the quadrants should not be seen
as discrete and static entities; but rather, within
each quadrant is a range of a student’s critique of
social oppression and motivation for social justice. We
also acknowledge that the manifestations of these four
categories may be different among females and males.
(pp. 316-7)
In this article, Solórzano and Bernal (2001) work to identify how
Chicana and Chicano students resist social oppression within the
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educational setting through four types of resistance that are
meant to be seen as being fluid behaviors that are motivated by
an interest in social justice. Their critique of social
oppression ranges within each behavior, but ultimately the intent
is to have students become transformational agents no matter
their race, class, gender, and sexuality. The expression of
transformational resistance is an internal and external
expression that reflects non-conformity to institutional or
cultural norms and expressions. As Solorzano and Bernal (2001)
note:
Internal resistance. The behavior of internal
transformational resistance appears to conform to
institutional or cultural norms and expectations,
however individuals are consciously engaged in a
critique of oppression. Students maintain both criteria
of transformational resistance, yet their behavior is
subtle or even silent and might go unnamed as
transformational resistance. (p. 324)
External resistance. Individuals who engage in external
transformational resistance also hold both criteria of
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transformational resistance. In addition, external
transformational resistance involves a more conspicuous
and overt type of behavior and the behavior does not
conform to institutional or cultural norms and
expectations. (p. 325)
I have seen students express the spectrum of resistant behaviors
within the SAT prep program though I have experienced their
genuine connection to me and my experience in the brief time that
we have spent in the program. This does not mean that they have
not been resistant to material that we have covered in the SAT
prep program. As Mehan, Villanueva, L., and Lintz (1996), cited
by Ruiz and Moll (2002), note, “Just as important, both students
and teachers developed a ‘critical consciousness’ about race,
class, and school politics and about resistance to the innovation
as manifested either in or out of school” (pp. 368-69). Although
my connection with students has come with relative ease, my
fellow mentors have had “issues” working with the students. Part
of the learning process for students and mentors is becoming
aware of what the work of getting ready for the SAT entails and
trying to develop working relationships between students and
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mentors. The mentors come from a very prestigious university that
many students wish to attend due to its recognition and close
proximity. My fellow mentors, relatively closer in age to the
students than I am, come from backgrounds that are much different
than most of the students; yet, as I have noted previously, they
work to make sure that the students get the most out of the
lesson. For some students, it is a welcomed form of instruction
working collaboratively; for others, they become easily
disengaged with the mentors and the lesson. All students who have
shown up seek to learn. However, the engagement into the lesson,
based on the subject matter covered, becomes a factor in the
students’ engagement since their confidence in the subject matter
might not be the best, thereby, creating resistant behavior from
the student and leaving mentors at a loss on how to reengage
students in the lesson.
Framing My Approach
As an educator my intent has been based on allowing them to
feel comfortable with their form of expression as long as we work
together to ensure that we learn. Working on the SAT in an
afterschool setting with students that have been tracked based on
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their test scores has been one that has required inculcating in
them the idea that working together and practicing for the SAT
will help them get a better score on the SAT. The reality is that
compared to the other schools where I am working (Frederick
Douglass, W.E.B. Dubois, and Ida B. Wells), the cumulative SAT
scores of Angela Davis Academy are nearly 100 points lower than
the next school.1 From the first lessons that we have had, the
students have demonstrated (at least to me) a drive to achieve
their best on this examination.
I established with my groups a set of expectations and
agreements to reciprocate our mutual agreement although some of
my students were not present for these initial lessons. It will
have to be my purpose to establish rapport with the students who,
at this point, have shown me the upmost mutual respect because I
have approached the students in a manner that allows them to feel
comfortable with their form of interactions. As Nieto (1999)
describes in her book, Light in their Eyes:
1 Observation based on their SAT diagnostic 3 scores as a school. This information will be one of my quantitative observations that I will note on inmy final analysis regarding seeing improvement with the students as a whole and as individuals.
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1. Students’ identification with, and maintenance
of, their native culture and language can have a
positive influence on learning.
2. The role of the teacher as cultural accommodator
and mediator is fundamental; we cannot distinguish from
the school setting. (p. 70-71)
My role as an educator is to create an academic environment
that is open for them to learn using their native cultural
practices and use of language. It is my work to lower the
students’ “affective filter” by creating a safe academic space
where students feel more comfortable, and confident, interacting
with each other and the work provided. Delpit (2002) observes,
“The less stress and the more fun connected to the process, the
more easily it (language acquisition) is accomplished” (p. 40). A
safe academic space is very important for me to create since the
intense academic language found in the SAT for most students has
been difficult for them to decipher since there is a gap between
the knowledge required for the exam versus the knowledge the
students have received. In order to bridge the gap, particularly
regarding language, between the one that has been learned
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academically versus the one they have learned culturally, here
have been instances of intentional code switching that I have
incorporated into the lesson. As Martinez (2010) notes in his
article regarding language, “[Code Switching] is not caused by
insufficient competence in one of the two languages, but rather
reflects, at least, the same level of grammatical competence as
that reflected in the speech of monolinguals” (p. 126). I have
presented the idea to the students that their ability to decipher
words by using their knowledge of particular Spanish words is
helpful in their ability to contextualize some of the words on
the SAT. By presenting them the power of their home language, I
have already begun the work of establishing identity and
reaffirming community ties with the students by using their
language as a tool rather than an a impediment to their learning.
Delpit (2002) notes that, “The more determined we are to rid the
school of children’s home language, the more determined they are
to preserve it” (p. 47). In the academic space I chose to counter
the notion that their language is a crutch which Martinez (2010)
notes presents the idea that there are “gaps in vocabulary, lack
of education, improper control of language, and/or lack of
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proficiency” (p.126). This is why it is important for me to use
their language as a means of connection because it helps
establish identity and reaffirms community ties.
As an educator, I have to be cognizant of how my approach
with the students can have implications to their learning. Geneva
Gay (2000), cited by Tyrone Howard (2010), notes: “The
fundamental aim of culturally responsive pedagogy is to empower
ethnically diverse students through academic success, cultural
affiliation, and personal efficacy” (p. 111). From my educational
experience the teachers that made the most impact in my
development were those who held me accountable to attain my best
and who presented to me the drive to ensure that I succeed.
Gloria Ladson-Billings (1994) explains there is a fundamental
difference between teachers who are sympathetic versus those who
are empathetic. Teachers who are empathetic:
1. Hold students accountable despite difficult
circumstances
2. See promise and possibilities in students
3. See assets in students
4. Become active problem solvers
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5. Develop critical and complex teaching practices to
engage students
6. Listen and learn from students’ experiences to
inform teaching
7. View learning as a reciprocal process between
teacher and student (pp. 48-9)
Although I am cognizant of the conditions that may affect
the students’ learning, as a social justice educator, have to
actively work to ensure that the students are provided the
opportunities to succeed by actively working to create “the high
challenge, high support” classrooms that are present in the
programs that take place during school. According to Gibbons
(2009):
From the perspective of the learner, a high challenge
classroom with low levels of support creates
frustration and anxiety and may lead to learners giving
up and ultimately opting out of school. Low challenge
and low support is likely to lead to boredom, with
similar resistance to school. Low challenge and high
support allows learners to work in their “comfort
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zone,” but not a lot of learning will take place, and
neither will learners develop autonomy and independence
in their learning… the combination of high challenge
and high support allows learners to be stretched to
reach their potential and to successfully engage with
new learning. (pp. 15-16)
The idea is to have students strive to achieve their best
academically on the SAT. Yet, currently there are fluctuations of
the academic rigor presented to the students based on the lessons
we have done. The engagement of students within the lesson has
been present; yet the question that has continuously come about
is whether the students are learning or simply doing. I must work
to hold them accountable while at the same time I must work to
make the material culturally relevant.
As an educator, I have to work to continuously inform my
practice with paying attention to their experiences. Luis Moll’s
(1998) work on understanding students’ funds of knowledge is the
idea that students have social and cultural resources present in
their lived experiences that help enable their academic
development. My role as an educator is to understand these
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resources to inform my pedagogy through the interactions and
surveys that I do with students. It is essential that I do as
much as I can to not only understand but also do something to
have students see the academic potential within them. According
to Luis Moll (1998):
They (teachers) are learning, as ethnographers would,
directly from interviews and other first-hand
experiences. Our claim is that these qualitative
methods of study can become the “tools” necessary for
the teachers’ development of the theoretical knowledge
and language that, in turn, help them formulate a
pedagogy specific to their situations and that builds
strategically on the social relations and cultural
resources of their school’s community. (p. 6)
This requires me to acknowledge that not all students have
the same level of academic development, but that I have to work
to provide the students the space and support to help in their
development. Vygotsky (1978) recognized this as The Zone of
Proximal Development:
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It is the distance between the actual development as
determined by independent problem solving and the level
of potential development as determined through problem
solving under adult guidance or in collaboration with
more capable peers (p. 86)
Each lesson I have tried to do my best to have them apply the
methods that we cover particularly when it comes to language and
reading sections of the SAT. Due to limits on time, the
independent problem solving time is often taken up by the
required explanation of methods they can employ for the
examination leaving some students still lost at the way to tackle
the SAT. Mercer (2000) calls for the use of the Intermental Zone
of Development: “Negotiation through an activity by teacher and
learner…The IDZ [Intermental Zone of Development] is a continuing
event of contextualized joint activity, whose quality is
dependent on the existing knowledge, capabilities and motivations
of both the learner and teacher” (p. 141). Therefore, I will
employ strategies for Mercer’s Intermental Zone of Development:
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1. They used question-and-answer sequences not just to
test knowledge, but also guide the development of
understanding.
2. They are taught not just “subject content,” but also
procedures for solving problems and making sense of
experience.
3. They treat learning as a social, communicative
process (p.160)
“Interthinking” is Mercer’s idea that, “Language allows for
thinking together; a joint creation of knowledge and
understanding” (pp.170-72). By working with the students for them
to be able to co-create knowledge with each other, I plan not
only develop content knowledge but also to be able to develop a
communal academic identity within the learning process. As Wenger
(1998) notes:
Communities of Practice are everywhere. They are our
constantly changing group associations where we learn
through social means. These communities of practice
informally act upon our semi-conscious dynamic
articulation of meaning and identity. Whether we are at
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the core or the periphery, we learn through our
experience within a given community. (p. 5)
The Students of Angela Davis Academy have had a number of
different academic and personal experiences that have developed
within them a unique identity. Their educational experience has
been one that appears to me to have made most of them see
themselves as not being “prepared” or “fit” to be within a
collegiate, academic setting. There have been those students who
have a clear vision of their near future while others remain
unsure of what is next for them. Therefore, I will strive to
create what Rogoff (1994) recognized as a “community of learners”
where, “Children and adults collaborate in learning endeavors,
with adults responsible for guiding the process and children
learning to participate in the management of their own learning”
(p. 71). As part of this joint academic venture:
1. Adults serve as leaders and facilitators for
students and each other, not as authority figures
2. Emphasis is on the process of learning (rather than
finished products).
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3. Inherent interest and motivation is fostered along
with learning responsibility for one’s choices
4. Evaluation of student progress occurs through
working with the child and observing.
5. Cooperative learning occurs through the whole
program with children working in collaboration with
other children and adults. (p. 70)
As an educator my emphasis is to create a transformative
academic space where students can feel confident that they will
not be judged for being “wrong.” Rather, they will work together
to understand the process of getting the right responses. In an
article by Blumenfeld, Puro, and Mergendoller (1992), they
recognize that, “The process of learning and taking risks to
acquire knowledge in the content base is the most important task
rather than concentrating on achievement after intervention” (pp.
209-211). Therefore, my emphasis is not based solely on seeing
their quantitative improvement on the examination; rather, my
emphasis revolves around the development of their academic,
college-going identity. Graham (1990) writes about how teachers’
reactions ascribe within the students a level ability or effort,
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and this affects students’ perceived, self-ascribed notions of
expectations and achievement:
Attributional inferences about students lead to
particular teacher reactions toward the pupil, such as
pity or anger, praise or blame, or help or neglect…The
inferred attribution of the teacher then influences
self-perceptions of ability or effort…Particular self-
ascriptions lead to specific consequences related to
expectancy and achievement. (p.18)
I have to be cognizant of how I interact with students since
my reactions and perceptions can become misconstrued by students.
I have to make sure that within groups I differentiate
instruction to help all students learn, not only to selectively
scaffold instruction for a select group of students. Within
groups there are students who have more knowledge in certain
content areas than others, and this is why I have to work to
incorporate their individual strengths into the lessons. The
numbers on the exam do not necessarily demonstrate what Gobbo and
Chi (1986) noted as being expert and novice students. I have seen
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certain students show their expertise in areas that in the
examination they demonstrated a “low score.”
As I have observed, the reality is that students self-
ascribed notion of low ability and low expectation, therefore,
leads to low achievement. Solorzano and Bernal (2001) in their
analysis of transformative resistance explain that it is not that
the students cannot achieve, nor is it that they do not care,
rather they are responding to the conditions all around them
through behavior that is reflective of their experience. Students
are conscious of what is transpiring, but the language to speak
truth to power, and the tools to deconstruct negative perceptions
that become integral to their academic development are missing.
The students’ resistant behavior is very much a reflection of the
frustration resulting from feeling as though they are questioning
their very identity: Their cultural identity is at odds with the
institutional identity causing the double consciousness that
W.E.B. Dubois once wrote about. As Freire (1987) once wrote:
The process of learning, through which historically we
have discovered that teaching is a task not only
inherent to the learning process but also characterized
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by it, can set off in the learner an ever-increasing
creative curiosity …epistemological curiosity… an
intimate critical connection that must be submitted to
methodical and rigorous analysis. (p. 48)
My duty as an educator is to engage students in the pursuit
of attaining knowledge that will serve for them to persevere
beyond the lowered expectations. The program provides the
students the tools to be able to do well in an inherently
counter-cultural examination. By engaging the students in the
collective work of attaining not only individual but also
collective success, I intend to help the students develop not
only an individual but also a group identity that is centered on
being college-going students. With their help, we will develop an
afterschool academic space that is not only centered their
academic development but also their personal development.
IIe. Action Plan
I will institute my action plan at the Angela Davis
Academy’s Crossover SAT prep program that runs every Tuesday and
Thursday from 4-6pm. Although I only work with four groups of
three to five students each time (due to low attendance,
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sometimes it is one-on-one with a student who is not even part of
my groups), the planned changes are geared to the whole program
since the emphasis of my study has group as well as individual
group ramifications.
My action plan will begin with a pre-survey on February 26,
2013, that will be given to all the students present for the
meeting. I will provide pre-surveys throughout the two-week
cycle, and from these surveys, I will not only be able to qualify
their responses but also quantify the number of participants in
the study. The pre-surveys will have students rate their view of
the Crossover SAT prep program; their school and if they feel it
prepares them for college; and the plausibility of their
university and career aspirations. These surveys will be taken
once again to gauge whether the students’ perspective of the
program, their school, and the aspirations have improved,
remained the same, or decayed during the term of the program.
In addition, I plan to create a board with the Crossover
schedule with the lesson subjects (College, Writing, Reading,
Math) being covered in the program for the two weeks. This board
will serve to remind students of the program visually to go along
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with the auditory reminders that are given during their daily
Advisory class, a class which I plan to habitually go to as a
physical reminder of their need to attend Crossover SAT prep.
Although their teachers, according to students that I have asked,
already provide them with schedules, I plan to create
individualized schedules for the students to remind them when
they are to attend the lessons. With these schedules will be a
personal letter providing the students, and their family a reason
why Crossover SAT prep is important to the success of their
child/family member and my personal contact information if they
want to contact me regarding their child/family member. From
prior experience as a program coordinator in an afterschool
program, I believe these forms of accountability and outreach
serve to provide a sense of love and dedication to the student
and their community. I intend to reach out to them from a deep-
seated love in working collaboratively to bring them into the
space. The board will eventually serve as not only a schedule but
a space for them to share their questions, comments, concerns,
issues with Crossover SAT prep reminder of their hard work and
dedication.
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The intent is have more students enter the space and have
those students work to develop the space into something they can
call their own: creating a community of learners dedicated to a
common cause is grounded on building relationships with each
other as much as with us (Rogoff, 1994). Using the curriculum I
have, I will make the necessary adjustments to ensure that my
students are not only engaged but actively inquiring during the
lesson; I will apply more checks for understanding and wait time
to ensure that the students grasp the major concepts of the
lesson. Before each break, I will have them note three things
that they learned or clarified; two questions they have of the
lesson; and anything they need me to review. These exit slips
will serve to check for understanding and analysis if the
students meet the lesson objective. I recognize that for some of
the students this might have to be a verbal checking for
understanding due to their IEP, but I plan for them to record
their responses to analyze if they understood the lesson
objective. Checks for understanding done individually and
collectively intend to have them feel comfortable providing me
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feedback and clarifications that we collectively work on
understanding.
Ultimately, I want to organize a trip to bring the ideals of
Crossover SAT prep program to a college campus. From the
discussion, I have had with many students at this site the belief
that they will go to college is grounded more in theory than
reality. They see college as an unfamiliar institution with
unfamiliar people. For nearly half of the students in my groups,
their dreams of attending a four-year institution are barely
developing and that is why the last part of my project involves
organizing a trip to nearby college. UC Raza will be holding an
inclusive youth empowerment conference grounded on providing
students the tools and resources to make their college
aspirations a more feasible reality. I intend to demonstrate to
students that there are people of color within our top
universities that strive not only to succeed but also to give
back to their community. I intend to demonstrate there are plenty
of successful individuals who rise from neighborhoods that are
socioeconomically disadvantaged to attain a college degree, and
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there are spaces for people of color at universities to maintain
a sense of familia within academic institutions.
The plan of action for helping establish this transformative
afterschool space is one that will require several shifts in the
structure and the implementation of the Crossover SAT preparation
program. These shifts, with authorization from my supervisors,
will include:
Structure
o Creating a Crossover board with a schedule and lesson
themes covered in the program for the two weeks.
o Providing students schedules of when they are to appear
for Crossover SAT prep.
Outreach
o An announcement from us (the mentors) to the students
to remind them of the program and creating a personal
letter to give to the parents regarding the Crossover
SAT prep program.
o Being present on Tuesday and Thursday to be a physical
reminder of the Crossover SAT Prep program and develop
rapport with students that are currently in the program
as well as those not attending by having informal
interviews.
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o Organizing a trip to a nearby university or taking them
to youth empowerment conference to show them how
college is a possibility.
Group Support
o Pre-Survey regarding their view of Crossover; their
school and if they feel it prepares them for college;
and their university and career aspirations. The survey
given at the end of the program is to measure how their
perceptions have changed in the course of the program.
o Assessing prior knowledge on a topic before we enter
the lesson using blended learning to integrate students
with IEP’s
o Having them write down or verbalize three things that
they learned, 2 questions that might have, and a
section from the lesson they still might need
clarification on exit slips.
The following diagram is intended to demonstrate my action steps
for the following weeks as well as the objectives for each lesson
as given by Crossover SAT prep:
Week Date Lesson Themes & Topics Covered
Action Steps
1-2 February 25-March 8
Hour 1:Passage Based Reading IStudents will learn and apply theStrategies for the Three Methods of Answering PBR
-Conduct a Pre- Survey with all participants-Create a schedule board-Give students
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Questions (Literal Comprehension, Vocabulary inContext, Extended Reasoning)by using the SAT prep book to review and practice questions.
Students will complete a categorizing question types worksheet to identify the different types of PBR Questions as well as the 3-2-1 exit slip to check for understanding.
schedule with personalized letter.-Visit school every Tuesday and Thursday to announce program; conductinformal (conversational)interviews regarding their community, school, program,themselves.-Integrate Unityclap and informal assessments at the beginning oflesson to accessprior knowledge.-Use 3-2-1 exit slips to check for understanding for each learning segment.
Hour 2Algebra Part IStudents will apply their knowledge of Functions, Simplifying Algebraic Expressions & Absolute Values using an SAT prep worksheet and their SAT prepbook to review and practiceproblems; will complete a 3-
DATA COLLECTION Pre Survey Informal
Interviews Informal
Assessments 3-2-1 Exit
Slips Field Notes
and
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2-1- exit slip to check for understanding.
Reflective Journal
3-4 March 11-March 22
Hour 1Algebra Part IIIStudent will engage the lesson by using a SAT prep app to answer random questions on proportions, variables on Number Lines, and Algebraic Word Problems.
Students will practice theirknowledge of Proportions, Variables on Number Lines, Algebraic Word Problems using the SAT prep book and a worksheet; will check for understanding using a 3-2-1 exit slip.
Students will be given a Spring Break SAT practice packet to continue applying the knowledge of what has been covered up to this point.
ACTION STEPS-Update scheduleboard with new subject theme; post scholarshipopportunities- Visit on Tuesday and Thursday; conduct informal(conversational)interviews regarding grades, colleges, and career aspirations.-Use 3-2-1 exit slips to check for understanding for each learning segment.-Provide students a practice packet to do during Spring Break
Hour 2Majors & CareersFunding CollegeStudents will complete a Holland’s Personality Test, pair-share, and use their coding to look over majors they want to or might want
DATA COLLECTION Holland’s
PersonalityTest
Informal Interviews
Informal Assessments
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to study using a college major sheet.
Students will search for scholarships using differentscholarship search engines, share one scholarship they found for themselves, and discuss how to apply for thescholarship.
3-2-1 Exit Slip
Spring Break SAT practice
Field Notesand Reflective Journal
5 March 25-March 29
SPRING BREAK
6-7 April 1-April 12
Hour 1Multiple Choice Writing IIStudents will engage the lesson using an SAT prep appto answer random questions on Wordiness, Identifying Sentence Errors, and Parallelism.
Students will learn and apply their knowledge of Wordiness, Identifying Sentence Errors, and Parallelism using the SAT prep book; will check for understanding using 3-2-1 exit slip.
ACTION STEPS-Update scheduleboard with new subject theme; post scholarshipopportunities- Visit on Tuesday and Thursday; conduct informal(conversational)interviews regarding who goes to college,traits of a college-going student.-Use 3-2-1 exit slips to check for understanding for each learning segment.
Hour 2Passage Based Reading IIStudents will review
DATA COLLECTION Informal
Interviews
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Categorizing Question Types,Extended metaphors, and the 5 Types of PBR Questions using their diagnostic exam,whiteboards, and their student handbooks to practice how to rationalize through their responses; will check for understandingusing the 3-2-1 exit slip.
Informal Assessments
3-2-1 Exit Slips
Field Notesand Reflective Journal
8-9 April 15-April 26
Hour 1Geometry Part IStudents will review and apply their knowledge of Line Relationships, Pythagoras Theorem, Circles,Triangles, and Rectangles using their SAT prep book and a worksheet; will check for understanding using the 3-2-1 exit slip.
ACTION STEPS-Conduct an Ending Survey with all participants-Update scheduleboard with new subject theme; post scholarshipopportunities- Visit on Tuesday and Thursday; conduct informal(conversational)interviews regarding their view of themselves.-Use 3-2-1 exit slips to check for understanding for each learning segment.
Hour 2Data, Statistics, and Probability Part I
DATA COLLECTION Final
Survey
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Students will review and apply their knowledge of Mean, Median, Mode, and Average Formula using their SAT prep book and a worksheet; will check for understanding using the 3-2-1 exit slip.
Informal Interviews
Informal Assessments
3-2-1 Exit Slips
Field Notesand Reflective Journal
IIf. Data Collection
My field notes and reflective journal will serve to write
down observations, questions, ideas, and quotes of students’
thoughts of the lessons. My field notes will be taken during the
lesson and right after the lesson in order to jot down the most
striking observations and inferences made during and after the
lesson. My reflective journal will serve as a means of working
through my thought process during and after the lesson and a
means of developing necessary changes or modifications to the
lessons to be able to better engage the students in the learning
process. From my experience engagement does not necessarily
transfer into understanding, so I must be very cognizant that I
maintain a critical eye to the work being done by the students,
and if they are working to respond to the question, rather than
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waiting for a response. I will work to provide them the proper
scaffolding and differentiation necessary for them to be able to
respond to the work provided.
Alongside my field notes and reflective journal, I will have
my surveys, my 3-2-1 exit slips, interviews with fellow students,
mentors, and Mr. Nebula, as well as SAT diagnostic exam scores
(#3 and #4) to see whether student scores improved. While field
notes and reflective journals will serve to critique my first
hand thoughts and opinions of what I observe, the surveys and
interviews will serve to check my perceptions and will provide me
bountiful data regarding the fellow students, mentors, and Mr.
Nebula’s insights into the effectiveness of the changes to
afterschool academic space. The Exit slips will serve to track
the effectiveness of the lessons with the SAT diagnostic
examinations serving as a gauge of how effectively students are
applying their knowledge. These forms of qualitative and
quantitative data will serve to provide part of the picture of
how students grow into a community of learners that develop a
communal college-going identity; they will serve to provide
evidence of how effective the structural shift, outreaching, and
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individual group support affected the creation, implementation,
and cultivation of this academic space. Due to the number of
variables present in my inquiry, I am cognizant that there might
be a number of variables that might adversely affect the data in
my inquiry. My attempt is provide multiple data entries to be
able to better substantiate a focal point to continue refining
this SAT prep afterschool program in order to be as effective as
it could possibly be.
IIg. Subjects of Focus
Since I have four groups which I work with at Angela Davis
Academy, will chose one student from each group who has
demonstrated, at least to this point, different perceptions of
the possibility of attending college, and who, although she/he
wants to go to college, her/his path towards college appears
either existent, developing, or non-existent.
Group 1: Andres2 is a highly engaged student who works hard
to understand the material though he acknowledges that English is
not his preferred language. He works hard to attain as much
knowledge as possible during the lesson though there are times
2 The names of the students, the schools and the program are all pseudonyms.
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where I have felt that he wants to ask me something but does not
know how to address the question. He likes to work
collaboratively rather than individually because he feels he
learns more when he can “talk it out.” He wants to go to college
but has told me that he is unsure if he will be able to go since
he is the oldest, and his parents want him to stay close to help
out the family by working and attending school nearby.
Group 2: Xochitl is another highly motivated student that
sees herself attending college even though her grades are not
good. During the session, she is usually quiet but pays close
attention. She has demonstrated drive and commitment that
counters the image presented by her GPA. She has told me that she
wants to learn because, “College is the only way I know I will be
able to get what I want.” Her goals and objectives are clear
though I have yet to understand what the reason for her drive is.
Group 3: This has been the group that I have had a
difficulty bringing to the program, and as a result, I have been
unable to get to know them. Each student has only attended one
lesson on non-corresponding days, but though outreaching to them
and working to have them come to the lessons, I intend to
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understand who they are and choose one of them to look at her/his
development.
Group 4: Katrina does not see herself going to college
because she believes she is “too dumb” to go. During the lesson
she has had difficulty engaging in the lesson because she feels,
“she doesn’t get it.” She does attend the lessons and tries her
best to understand because she wants to go to a college to do
forensic anthropology. Her primary language, much like Andres, is
Spanish, and she is very family oriented. She strives to succeed
because her older brothers and sister have not been able to
finish high school. For her, it appears that just finishing high
school is important, but I see in her a dream of going to college
and making her family proud.
In all the students there is a potential to attain success.
Within each one of them there are strengths that are often
difficult to measure and to decipher behind the layers of social
and cultural nuances. Within each student, there is possibility
to go against preconceived notions of expectation and
achievement. Within each student there is potential: Potential
that, if constantly commoditized and devalued to fit a particular
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ideological framework, negates the students of their ability to
develop beyond the myopia that they have come to believe. My role
as an educator is to provide that critical support to counter
that limited framework and to create within the students the
desire to go to college as a means of having them think more of
the school to academia pipeline rather than the school to prison
pipeline. As an educator, I have these major goals: working to
create within students, and with each other, a partnership of
success and joint work to succeed for their individual and
collective goals, and developing an individual and group identity
grounded on being college-oriented, college-ready, college-going
students.
This project calls for me to have, as Duncan-Andrade (2010)
would call, “Critical Hope.” I have to work “to build up the
strength in their neck”: work with them to see the capacity to go
beyond the limitations placed upon them. They have the agency to
counter the norms and against the conditions that intend to limit
their ability to persevere beyond limited expectations. I have to
be critical and cognizant of the different factors that might
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affect the course of my inquiry, yet I have to work to keep
pushing to have students excel. There is no other way.
Segment III
IIIa. Review: Context, Questions and Action Plan
Overview
The focus of my inquiry began not far from Angela Davis
Academy at nearby Malcolm X Charter High School, where I worked
in an afterschool setting to create a transformative academic
space where students could work with their fellow classmates,
staff, teachers, and administrators to develop the ideal college-
going culture. A transformative academic space calls for us to
work with students to engage and empower them in process of
creating and cultivating the space based on their ideals
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making a consorted effort in providing the necessary support for
them not only to identify but see themselves as being college-
ready. This community that is historically socioeconomically
disadvantaged is in a large, urban city in the west coast of the
United States with a predominantly first generation Latina/o
population. I tried to work with all members of the community,
within and outside of the school space, to develop a plan of
action to further develop the afterschool space to align with the
school’s ideal of developing a college-going community. Yet, the
lack of effective communication between all parties at the campus
worked against the intent, and instead of working to create a
more receptive space, the administration made it a more
restrictive space that closed off ideas that were not from the
top-down. Although my focus remained to prepare students to go to
college, my inquiry focus changed to provide students the tools
and resources to help them enter the universities that they have
worked hard to enter even with the omnipresent oppressive
conditions that they feel inhibit their ability to push beyond
the lowered expectations. If we seek to create a transformative
academic space, we must work with all parties to create and
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cultivate a space that supports students academically,
emotionally and culturally to achieve their best.
The love for the community and the students of Malcolm X
Charter High School pushed me to search for a position where I
could gain the knowledge, tools, and resources that could help me
be able to provide the students of Malcolm X more concrete
academic support as they enter the next phase of their high
school experience. I chose to work as an SAT tutor in order to
get a better grasp of what an effective SAT preparation program
looks like and how to implement this type of program in an
afterschool setting. I chose to concentrate my focus in Angela
Davis Academy because this was the only site where I would work
in an afterschool space providing SAT preparation at a school and
community very much like the one at Malcolm X Charter High
School. The SAT preparation provider, Crossover, is in the
business of providing its services during the regular day, so
this venture into the afterschool space is as new as the entry
into this school site. Yet, from work at the other established
campuses, Crossover SAT prep has a reputation of demonstrating
lasting results from its high challenge, high support model
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(Gibbons, 2009). Its curriculum provides students the tools and
resources to prepare them not only for the SAT but also the
college-going process. The curriculum called for us to provide
students the adequate instruction for them to achieve in the
examination. However, as I went through the lessons I discovered
that the intent was not met through the highly structured
curriculum. The cultural relevance of the SAT to the students’
dreams and aspirations became associated with their previous
experiences with examinations. The achievement gap present at the
school site reflected the existence a fundamental disconnect of
the students from the academic work provided due to the
fundamental inequality of their educational experience (Berlak,
2009).
As a result of what I observed in Angela Davis Academy with
Crossover, my questions returned back to those that I asked at
Malcolm X Charter High School:
1) What tools and resources can be brought in to support this
transformative afterschool academic space to help develop a
college-going identity?
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2) What can we do collectively (Crossover, Angela Davis
Academy, Mr. Nebula) to create and cultivate the high
expectation, high support school model that can preserve the
students’ feeling of being supported academically,
emotionally, and culturally to achieve their best?
3) How can students help in establishing, implementing, and
cultivating this academic space?
The first question is my primary inquiry question. However,
in order to respond to the needs of the students I required the
investigation and implementation of an inquiry that intends to
address issues that I have observed transpiring at an
institutional, school, and student level. Therefore, in order for
me to develop my approach to systemic issues, I must be willing
to address issues at each level for me to truly address the
pervasive problem of students being culturally disconnected from
the university and this examination. In a school that has a high
challenge, low support model, this examination has some students
feeling frustrated, impotent, due to a gap in the expectation
versus their internalized potential.
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By working to create a community that strives towards a
collective goal of attaining success to counter preconceived
notions of academic ineptitude and lowered expectations, my
intent is develop within students the expectation that they can
be college-going students. As an educator from a community very
much like the students, my role calls for me to provide students
the critical support to counter limited expectations and develop
within the individual and group identity an internalization of
the ideal of being college-oriented, college-ready, college-going
students.
Methodology
My 9-week action plan described in Segment II (which
includes a one-week Spring Break mid-way) consists of providing
students the tools and resources for them to not only develop a
better understanding of the examination but also work
collectively to develop the SAT preparation as an opportunity for
students to develop a college-going identity. The intent is to
make this space into something that the students feel they can
enter and feel supported academically, emotionally, and
culturally to achieve their best. At the same time, another goal
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is giving students the support to make this academic space
something they can call their own by empowering them to see
themselves as the creators of their own possibilities.
I intend to give a general overview of the different groups
and the program’s progress as they relate to the students’
development, not only in their development of a college-going
identity but also in their ability to develop confidence to
taking the SAT. As mentioned in Segment II, Andres, Xochitl, and
Katrina are the students of focus with an added student from
Group 2, Huracan. Group 3, as I mentioned in Segment II, has been
the group that has proven difficult to bring to SAT preparation
lessons, so my analysis of that group is holistic rather than on
one student. All these students, and groups, represent varying
levels of academic ability and interests that have students
attending the lessons due to varying expectations of themselves
and the examination. Although in their initial SAT diagnostic
score group, students could be a part of any group and could come
to any group session as long as they complete at least one group
session every two weeks.
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Group 1: Andres3 is a highly engaged student who works hard
to understand the material though he acknowledges that English is
not his preferred language. He works hard to attain as much
knowledge as possible during the lessons though there are times
where I have felt that he wants to ask me something but does not
know how to address the question. He likes to work
collaboratively rather than individually because he feels he
learns more when he can “talk it out.” He wants to go to college
but has told me that he is unsure if he will be able to go since
he is the oldest, and his parents want him to stay close to help
out the family by working and attending school nearby.
Group 2: Xochitl is another highly motivated student that
sees herself attending college even though her grades are not
good. During the session, she is usually quiet but pays close
attention. She has demonstrated drive and commitment that
counters the image presented by her GPA. She has told me that she
wants to learn because, “College is the only way I know I will be
able to get what I want.” Her goals and objectives are clear,
driven by a desire to be a strong influence to her younger
3 The names of the students, the schools and the program are all pseudonyms.
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siblings. She works to support her family and has to balance a
heavy course-load with her already busy life at home.
Huracan is a very intense, high-energy student that can be a
source of connection or disruption based on how engaged he is
with material being covered. This student is usually in other
groups rather than his own but has come to sessions consistently
based on his availability since he lives very far from the school
and has to travel on train to get home. He sees his academic
abilities as a student. As “a very social person,” he rarely
acknowledges that many students trust and respect him because of
his fearless attitude and willingness to speak the truth to what
he feels and sees. He knows he is going to college on some days,
but then some days he says, “College ain’t for me.”
Group 3: Due to a lack of consistent attendance to their
group session, I will not use any student from this group but
will mention members of the group when necessary in regards to
the knowledge they shared with me through their incorporation
into other groups. Their fluidity demonstrated to me the power of
socialization and sociocultural connections that students make
outside of perceived similarity based on scores. All groups are
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based on their initial SAT diagnostic scores that have changed,
for some dramatically, and have resulted in groups being mixed in
regards to personality and academic ability.
Group 4: Katrina does not see herself going to college
because she believes she is “too dumb” to go. During the lesson
she has had difficulty engaging in the lesson because she feels,
“she doesn’t get it.” She does attend the lessons and tries her
best to understand because she wants to go to a college to do
forensic anthropology. Her primary language, much like Andres, is
Spanish and she is very family oriented. She strives to succeed
because her older brothers and sister have not been able to
finish high school. For her, it appears that just finishing high
school is important, but I see in her a dream of going to college
and making her family proud.
The data collection for this inquiry consisted of
quantitative and qualitative data and occurred between February
and April of 2013. Two surveys were planned to be given
throughout the action plan. They were planned for the beginning
and the end of the program to see the students changing
development from the beginning to the end of the program relating
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to whom they saw as the supports to their academic development
and ability to not only go but be ready to attend a university.
Originally, I had intended to provide them afterschool before
breaking off into groups, but the school provided me access to
conduct the surveys in class, during school. I did the initial
survey twice in order to ensure that the responses provided were
legitimated claims and to ensure that they were not one-time
opinions.
As part of my inquiry, as I explained in Segment II, I took
notes about the students and their perspectives throughout the
process via informal interviews, field notes, and a reflective
journal that served to write down observations, questions, ideas,
and direct quotes of students’ thoughts of the lessons. From my
experience, engagement does not necessarily transfer into
understanding, so I must be very cognizant that I maintain a
critical eye to the work being done by the students and seeing if
they are working to respond to the question rather than waiting
for a response. Having students be critical rather than me
reviewing ideas on their behalf is very important to me. Along
the process, I did informal interviews with students, mentors,
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Mr. Nebula, my supervisor, Ms. Gompers, and the principal, Mr.
Queens. I also checked the improvement of the students’ scores
from Diagnostic #3 to Diagnostic #4 as a means of gauging of how
effectively students applied their knowledge from the SAT
preparation sessions.
The pre-survey happened on February 28, 2013; the second
survey happened on March 14th, 2013. After the two surveys, I
decided to modify the final survey in order to understand in-
depth their perceptions of their ability to go to college and
what they believe is necessary currently and in the future to be
able to go to college. This final survey was on the final session
date of April 25, 2013. The students that were able to attend the
youth empowerment conference on April 27, 2013 received a survey
as well to inquire on whether their confidence of being able to
go to college improved by their attendance to the conference.
These forms of qualitative and quantitative data served to
provide part of the picture of how students grow into a community
of learners that develop a communal college-going identity.
Different forms of data serve to provide evidence of how
effective the structural shift, outreaching, and individual group
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support affected the creation, implementation, and cultivation of
this academic space. By doing a consorted effort to shift the
structure and implementation of the Crossover SAT preparation
program to make it into a transformative academic space, I
acknowledged the potential impact this program has through its
engagement and empowerment of students.
Shifts in Structure, Outreach, and Implementation
With the support of my supervisors and school staff, I was
able to implement every aspect of my action plan with varying
degrees of success. Changes in structure, outreach, and group
support worked for the most part to have all members of the space
feel a sense of ownership of the space. Most of the shifts made
were in order to support students in becoming part of the space
and ultimately having them recognize the possibility of
cultivating the academic space beyond the time of the program.
All changes were done in a timely manner in order to ensure that
the students were able to see a clear, consorted effort on the
part of the school and Crossover SAT prep to have them take part
in the program. I acted as the agent to push for the change
since, as I explained to the students, I recognized the
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importance of working to achieve success; success not only for
ourselves but for the community as the school does based on its
purpose.
My action plan began February 26 with a couple of my
structural changes. I created a Crossover SAT prep board with a
schedule and lesson themes being covered until the end of the
program. Originally, I had thought of doing an interactive board,
but as I looked around there was limited space for that to occur
since most of our work was limited to our books. Therefore, the
individual students’ schedules and announcements, done by
teachers, and myself, became important in reminding students and
having students be prepared for the afternoon lessons. My
supervisor provided me all the copies I needed to give each
student: an individual schedule, my personalized letter, and the
pre-survey that were given out on February 28. February 28th was
also the day when I provided my introductory announcements to
students.
On February 28, students learned of the planned changes and
of my research. Angela Davis Academy had Advisory courses for
students to get prepared for college: 9th grade students prepare
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for the CALLI exit examination, 10th graders for the ACT, and the
11th graders for the SAT. Each class had a lead teacher who
oriented students on activities that help prepare students not
only for the examinations but to be prepared academically by
teaching students different study methods that students can use
in different academic courses. As I entered the different
classes, students who had already grown to know me where
surprised to see me there early; students who did not know me
were indifferent or intrigued by my presence. As I began, I
presented myself formally: my name, the program I work for, the
university I attend, and my area of study. From my introduction,
I went on to explain my purpose for my visit, “I am here to get
all you to work with us to come to SAT prep.” It was at this
point when I asked a student to pass out the program schedule and
my personal letter. I explained what was being passed out,
students looked at me, others read what was given, while one or
two would raise their hand to ask me question of why I was giving
out this letter to them since it was directed at parents in
English and Spanish. It was at this point when I gave my personal
anecdote to taking the SAT. I explained to them that this program
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was honestly one of a kind and served to benefit them since I
only had a month to prepare for my SAT4. I explained to them how
fortunate they were to have an opportunity to be able to really
practice an examination that we, as people of color from a
community that is historically socioeconomically disadvantaged,
to be able to compete at a nation-wide level.
From class to class to class, after my brief introduction of
the reasons why I had come, I provided them the pre-survey. As I
explained to them, “This survey is regarding your point of view
of Crossover SAT prep; your community; your school and if you
feel prepared for college. I want you to be honest with me. These
surveys are anonymous. 1 means that you strongly disagree and 5
means you strongly agree with the statement made.” Students in
two of the classes asked what Neutral meant and my response was,
“You sort of agree but sort of don’t agree or you are unsure of
how you feel about the statement.” Most students responded
quickly to most statements though I saw that some went back and
forth on a few responses particularly two of my students of
4 Looking back at it, I actually had less than a month from the moment my counselor gave me the SAT prep book that I worked on a few times before I took the examination.
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focus, Andres and Katrina. I do not know if this indecision was
based over the meaning of the statements or an internal debate
over how they felt about the statements that were given in the
survey.
The review of the first pre-survey created some surprising
results that raised within me questions of whether the results
were accurate. The pre-survey results provided the following
results:
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Pre-survey Responses
# of
Stu
dent
s
(Appendix)
1. Students are split on the idea that their community supports
their development as students (Question 1).
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2. Yet, students are very confident that their families,
school, teachers support their development as students
(Questions 2, 3,4) but are unsure if fellow students support
their development as students (Question 5).
3. As for the SAT program and mentors, they see them as
supporting their development as students (Questions 6, 7)
4. Although students feel the school supports their development
as students, students’ confidence that the school helps
prepare them for college falls significantly (Question 8);
the statement that teachers prepare students to go to
college remains aligned with their response to most teachers
supporting the students’ development as students (Question
9).
5. The students’ perspective of the SAT program and its mentors
preparing them for college (Question 10, 11) are almost
aligned with their response to the aforementioned helping
their development as students.
6. The students’ confidence in having the skills and knowledge
to go to college and being prepared for college (Question
12, 13) reflect an uncertainty about their preparation to
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attend college. Although the majority acknowledges the
strength in their knowledge and skill sets, this number
decreases in the following question about college
preparedness.
After the pre-survey, I felt that I needed to do the pre-
survey again because I wanted to make sure that the responses
were statistically significant. I felt that all the things I
brought in had overwhelmed the students. I felt I had not given
enough time for students to respond adequately to the pre-survey.
I had not taken into consideration students with IEP’s or the
number of English language learners who may have needed extra
time to understand the information or, as I learned later, may
have difficulty listening to instruction or seeing the
information provided. Therefore, I re-did the pre-survey to
ensure the accurateness of the information students provided.
With this began my action plan and the process of critical praxis
continued\action for social justice, but it also involves
continued reflection on the actions necessary to deal effectively
with the problems that have been identified” (p. 13). I
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recognized that I had not taken into consideration some of the
students, and in order to give justice to their ideas, I felt
obligated to give the pre-survey once more.
Throughout this process it became vital for me to do
critical reflection and self assessment since according to Schon
(1983) via Tyron Howard (2010), “one’s ability to seek deeper
levels of self-knowledge and to acknowledge how one’s own
worldview shapes one’s perspective and beliefs about oneself as
well as one’s students, their families and their communities”
(p.114). Throughout this process I had to be cognizant of my
position as an educator, an activist, and recognize that their
perspective was the basis for my analysis not only my own ideas.
They were, as I, sources of communal knowledge to be the change
we wanted to see in the world around us.
IIIb. Findings: Praxis and Reflection
This inquiry revealed three major themes that within each
theme hold bodies of knowledge that are applicable in other
themes, thereby, creating an interconnected system of thoughts
and ideas that were reflective of an experience that was intended
in promoting an understanding of the interrelation of systemic
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issues that ultimately affect the students’ notion of self within
the institutions of socialization (Rist, 1977). My inquiry
intended to affect students in a number of ways: in creating and
cultivating a high expectation, high support model; supporting
students’ development of a college-going identity; and engaging
and empowering students in the process of creating this
transformative academic space. Along the way I learned plenty
from the students, as I wish they learned from me, in working to
advocate what they want to see in the world.
1.Creating and Cultivating a High Expectation, High Support
Model:
As I mentioned before, the changes that were made to the
program began with shifts to the structure, outreach, and
implementation of the program to have students feel welcomed to
the afterschool academic space. These shifts intended to empower
students to take part in the learning process, but a noticeable
rise for students to the afterschool space did not mean that
students would be engaged in the content covered. Therefore, I
worked to make the lessons as engaging as possible for students
to engage in the learning process.
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I modified each lesson theme in order to try to address the
possible needs of the students. These lessons (see Appendix)
maintained most parts of the material asked by the program to
cover during the lesson time. I made a consorted effort during
each lesson to have students do guided-practice, group practice,
and finally individual practice; systematically taking away
scaffolding from students at the same time developing a routine
to my lessons that were in line with the demands of the Crossover
SAT program. Each lesson presented its own set of difficulties
and presented its own set of learned lessons, and after lessons I
learned much from what students, fellow mentors, and other staff
noticed. My reflections for the lessons are as follows.
1a.Passage-Based Reading I & Algebra I Unit
This unit took place between February 26 and March 7, 2013.
These lessons taught students the methods to tackle the passage-
based reading section and practice algebra questions from the
examination. Each lesson was structured to be 50-55 minutes long
and provided step-by-step questions for students to be able to
engage the lesson. However, the lesson did not figure into two
things: students with IEP’s or those who were ELL’s as well as
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scaffolds for students whose basic math (addition, subtraction,
multiplication, division) might not be good and require a
calculator. Each group provided their own set of issues that I
had to work to address which resulted in me having to speed
through the algebra lesson in three of the four groups resulting
in a mixed response from students regarding their understanding
of the lesson objectives.
Group 1 had three students for the day that included Andres
and Huracan. Mr. Nebula, before we entered the class, quickly
pulled me aside and told me that Ricky had an IEP: “He is hard of
hearing and has a audio-visual impairment therefore you will have
to have to have him write down notes, color-code them, and check
for understanding constantly. Just don’t make it obvious that you
are modifying the lesson just for him.” Remembering that best
teaching methods are applicable to all students, I modified the
lesson to have the students write down notes and work together to
inquire and develop responses together. Since the passage-based
reading lesson already required me to teach them how to
categorize the different question types, the lesson provided the
students an opportunity to learn and apply methods as we learned
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them. This process took longer than expected though since I had
to model the note structure and had to provide added wait time
for the students to read and respond to questions. Yet, the added
time for students to grasp the content allowed the students to
better grasp the methods and apply them. Throughout the process,
I recognized that the students had difficulty remaining engaged
since the work in the beginning was more tedious note taking than
application of learned ideas. Therefore, for the rest of the
groups I worked to have them do more applied practice of learned
knowledge with an improved engagement of students in the learning
process. However, their ability to respond correctly to questions
provided in the passage-based reading sessions revealed a
relatively low correct answer percentage for all groups.
1b.Algebra III & Majors, Careers, and Funding College Unit
Due to the limited time we had in the previous unit to cover
algebra, I decided to cover algebraic concepts overall for all
groups I worked with to go along with the college lesson planned.
This unit proved a bit more difficult. We only had two days to
provide the unit to four groups of students, well over 60
students. I learned from the students, and confirmed by Mr.
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Nebula, that the Crossover SAT preparation program and students
attendance was mandatory and part of the students’ graduation
requirement as well as their advisory grade. Therefore, it was an
imperative for students to attend. Yet, with limited days for
students to attend this unit, the group sessions became
essentially more styled like a workshop than the small group
sessions that fellow mentors, and students had become accustomed
to be a part of during our sessions.
The first session of the unit, March 14, saw each mentor
have full groups of four and five students attend the session.
Since all students in the group were taking either Algebra 2 or
Geometry, the students’ knowledge of the subject, I believed,
were strong yet the initial guided practice demonstrated the
difficulty that Katrina, as well as two other students, had in
recalling the information to use in answering two-step algebraic
functions. Yet, as we moved through the lesson and provided
systematic clarifications of the process to answering the
algebraic questions, students’ confidence to respond to questions
grew even as the relative difficulty of the questions grew.
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The second session reflected a similar initial outcome and
the necessity to modify the lesson in order for students to be
able to apply their knowledge in a way that helped them answer
the question properly. The second group differed substantially
from my first group since my group was 13 students due to the
following: it was the last session for that unit, three of the
mentors were not present for the session due to Spring Break at
their college, and Crossover SAT prep was not able to get any
other mentors to cover their session. Therefore, this lesson
maintained essentially the same process of guided practice, group
practice, and individual practice, which worked for most students
although the large group dynamic allowed some students to become
distracted, like Huracan. Yet, I was able to use his excitement
as a tool to engage others in the lesson by having him and
another student, Leticia, help me in helping their fellow student
if they had difficulty with a question when we did small group
work. This made other students begin to check their responses
with other students who were not Leticia or Huracan that proved
effective once we did independent practice. Students felt
comfortable enough knowing they were not correct and learning
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from getting an answer wrong since we worked to clarify why the
answer was wrong.
This dynamic change followed through into the college lesson
that I will provide a full analysis of in the following overall
theme of my inquiry. At the culmination of this unit, the
students went into Spring Break with much having transpired in
the way we saw ourselves, each other.
1c. Second Survey
On March 14, 2013, after one unit had already passed, and I
had already established a routine of going to their classes, I
returned to administer a second survey to students. After making
my announcement regarding the lessons for the week, I gave out
the second survey. The teachers were very helpful in helping
administer the second survey and collecting them as I went from
one class to another. The first time students had between 5-7
minutes to complete the survey, this time they had double the
time to complete it. I reminded them, “This survey is regarding
your point of view of Crossover SAT prep; your community; your
school and if you feel prepared for college. I want you to be
honest with me. These surveys are anonymous. 1 means that you
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strongly disagree and 5 means you strongly agree with the
statement made. 3 means that you are split or unsure of how you
feel about the statement.”
The second survey generated nearly a replication of the
conclusions made in the first administration of the pre-survey
with some notable changes:
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5
10
15
20
25
30
35
Second Survey Responses
# of Students
(Appendix)
1. The students remained split on the idea that their community
supports their development as students (Question 1).
2. Yet, students remained confident that their families,
school, teachers support their development as students
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(Questions 2, 3,4) but are unsure if fellow students support
their development as students (Question 5). This time there
was a notable critical shift in the students’ perspective of
their families, school, teachers, and fellow students but
maintained the same overall perspective.
3. As for the SAT program and mentors, they see them as
supporting their development as students (Questions 6, 7)
though there were significant shifts of perspective that
were more critical of the program and its mentors. Mentors
had noted to me how students would be “easily distracted” or
would “not do anything” during lessons. Some students had
begun to change their mentor or demonstrated interest
towards another mentor.
4. The students’ responses to the statement that the school and
most teachers prepare them to go college (Question 8, 9)
aligned with their response with their perspective of the
school and most of the teachers supporting their development
as students from the previous survey.
5. The students’ perspective of the SAT program and its mentors
preparing them for college (Question 10, 11) are almost
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aligned with their response to the aforementioned helping
their development as students. Students are dubious about
how much their mentors help them prepare for college since
they already have a feeling that they are “sort of being”
helped to develop as students by their mentors.
6. The students’ confidence in having the skills and knowledge
to go to college and being prepared for college (Question
12, 13) reflect an uncertainty about their preparation to
attend college. Although the majority acknowledges the
strength in their knowledge and skill sets, this number
decreases in the following question about college
preparedness. Yet, there is a significant shift of students
from the standpoint that they do not have the knowledge,
skills, or college preparedness to attend college.
The added time provided students with more time to analyze
and comment on the statements and provide a more accurate
reflection of the different supports of their academic
experience. The added time and increased confidence in
maintaining the anonymity of their responses resulted in students
giving a more accurate reflection of the uncertainty in academic
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supports provided, including the SAT program and its mentors. The
students’ view of their ability to attend college grew
considerably away from thoughts of not being able to. Students
presented a positive shift away from deficit views of themselves.
Therefore, the imperative to provide students the tools,
resources, and methods to have a stronger confidence in being
able to attend college was important. Taking students to the
conference and making the college, careers, and funding unit a
constant in the program became a necessary shift to make students
feel more confident about their ability to attend college.
1d.Multiple Choice Writing II & Passage Based Reading II Unit
The results from the second survey pushed me to make a
consorted effort in making the academic space for all students
feel more open for them by putting an added emphasis to
incorporate mentors into the critical reflection and self-
assessment process. Since most were from white, privileged
backgrounds that as one mentor put it, “Even where I am from I
have never had to think of how to get to college since it is
expected of you since elementary.” Since the beginning of the
program, it was my routine to pick up three of the mentors and
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converse about how to address issues within the lessons and make
the content more relevant to students, but this next step would
require me to begin asking critical questions to my fellow
mentors on how they addressed students and their needs.
This unit took place between April 2 and April 11, 2013, and
required me to cover passage-based reading and multiple-choice
writing questions for the SAT. During Spring Break, I looked over
the lessons and planned to use more inquiry-based teaching
methods to make students reflect upon their thought process as
they provided a response. Since the lesson required that we go
over essentially everything we did in the first lesson for
Passage-based Reading and multiple-choice Writing, I took it upon
myself to modify the lesson by having students do more in
relation to explaining the reason why they chose a particular
answer and work to rationalize through their responses. From the
first time I did the lessons, I learned that students had spent
most of the lesson following my instruction rather than reasoning
through their responses. Therefore, this lesson required more of
them doing independent practice and coming to a conclusion based
on evidence they found for each response. Students in one
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session, Group 3, which included Xochilt, had students group
themselves according to expert-novice relationships that they
identified (Gobbo & Chi, 1986). They used interthinking (Mercer,
2000) after their independent practice to check if they had been
correct not in checking the response (which they could have done
so) but in the manner in which they came to their response. As a
result, the students were much better at being able to answer a
passage-based reading or a multiple-choice writing question,
answering with more accuracy and confidence.
The mentors relayed information back to me on how the
modification had fared with their groups and students engagement
in the learning process. The lesson had worked for most students
although there was still noticeable difficulty for students to
remain engaged throughout the lesson due to, as one mentor said,
“Students were just having difficulty connecting to the questions
and answering.” One mentor spoke of how when she asked a student
why he had chosen his answer, his response was simply, “I don’t
know. It sounds right.” She went on to mention that, “He just
seemed tired during the lesson.” The question of the time of the
lessons and the students’ ability to remain focused and engaged
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on the lesson remained a recurring theme brought up by students,
mentors, and even staff.
1e.Geometry I & Data, Statistics, and Probability I
We entered this last unit with heavy hearts but with great
expectations. As part of the lesson, we were to do a 30-minute
farewell with students to accompany this lesson that, based upon
my planning, was intended to not take longer than an hour due to
the overall emphasis on geometry (40% of the SAT) on the
examination versus data, statistics, and probability questions
(10-15%). The lesson provided access to prior knowledge of the
students but did little to push deeper mathematical connections
and provide sufficient practice. Once we had accessed prior
knowledge through guided practice, we went on to go into
independent practice. Each student received a question of medium
level, asked to respond to it, and provided their fellow students
an explanation of the manner in which they responded to the
question. Since all students had taken or were are in Geometry,
the work proved easy to respond to for most students. Katrina and
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Andres, who had difficulty answering questions in the Algebra
lesson had a much easier time, getting right responses though
their ability to explain their answer was difficult for them.
During the session with his group, Huracan demonstrated his
expertise by leading the group in discussing their responses,
taking away from me the role of teacher, and transferring it to
the group as being partners in learning. The other mentors
received the same type of response from students, a communal
sense of knowing, and a confidence in the work they were doing
where they felt they could answer questions without the need of
their mentor since the information was relatively fresh in their
minds. Students were receptive to the mentors throughout each
lesson, but one thing that did happen more often this week were
the number of students who had to leave early due to family
business or needing to get home. In one session, after 30
minutes, I was left with no students due to the student’s ride
home arriving early to pick her and her cousin, who attends the
same school. I later learned that the reason was primarily due to
health reasons. Yet, in the brief time I spent with the students
during this session, these students provided me with valuable
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information regarding their learning of an academic subject they
had little knowledge about due to their prior academic
experience. These students differentiated their public education
from charter education as having different “choices” as it
regards courses and expectations.
The farewell part of this lesson was our culminating words
of expressions of love towards the students. I include this part
of the lesson in the theme of supporting students’ development of
a college-going identity because it is in this brief time period
where students demonstrate a level of love and care that was
surprising to the fellow mentors as well as me. This response was
surprising not only due to the comments made but the questions
they asked in a manner that demonstrated a mutual love and
respect for one another a comradeship between them and us that
in the brief time together grew exponentially.
1f. Reflection: Improvement with plenty of space to grow
The students’ scores like our relationship grew
significantly in the time we were there. Between their second
Diagnostic and third Diagnostic examination (the time before and
a month and a half following our entry into the afterschool
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space) the students’ scores as a school improved from a combined
average of 949 to 1022. My groups fared much better than the
school in this initial phase improving from 1096 to 1245. This
relatively low score was due to the students’ impulse to answer
every question even if they know they are not required to do so.
As I had mentioned in Segment II, one student (who is Huracan
from Group 2), did not believe me when I told him that you were
not required to answer all questions on the SAT. This sentiment,
even following weeks of practice, remained an idea that some
students could not come to terms with. One student, Grace from
Group 2, told me, “We have become so use to answer everything
it’s hard not to try to answer a question even when we are not
sure it is correct.” This sentiment was held by a number of
students whom I asked from my groups as well as others. They have
become so accustomed in responding to each question that they
feel obligated to answer even if they are unsure of their
response.
As the lessons progressed, I made a consorted effort to have
students internalize the idea of not having to answer a question
if they were not sure of it. Yet, the curriculum and lessons call
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for students to provide a response. The choice for students to
not answer a question becomes counter to the lesson objectives
although some students, particularly in the passage-based reading
lesson, were quick to employ one of the methods the SAT
preparation program taught which noted, “If you can’t get your
answer choices down to two responses then you leave it alone.”
For Xochitl, as well as other students, this idea was wonderful
since it meant that if they could not figure out a response, they
would simply negate answering the question.
At the time of this publication, I learned that the groups
under my direction had their overall score drop from 1245 to
1217. Although their ability to answer questions marginally
increased so did their incorrect responses. I must note that I
have yet to receive the overall school report as of the time of
this publication. The shifts in structure, outreach, and
implementation of the Crossover SAT preparation program garnered
improved attendance but, as of now, lack the statistical data to
show improved scores, at least from my students. The shifts in
structure, outreach, and implementation generated from the
students a heightened expectation of the curriculum and its
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mentors. There is considerable work to do in regards of having
students remain engaged in the academic lessons. As I learned
from their final surveys, the top three reasons why students did
not come were the following: they had other business to attend
(family, personal), did not want to attend (homework, hungry,
lazy, boring, too long), or due to transportation/ time
conflicts.
By far the recurring statement made by students relates to
family being a priority over their SAT session. One student from
my Group 3, Yaya, wrote in Spanish about how she has to care for
her mother afterschool and sometimes has to take her to therapy.
Another student explained how she babysits her siblings then
works to support her family by working late night at a fast food
place nearby. Five students simply put it as they have family
issues/ business they have to tend to afterschool. Usually the
students wrote in their responses that they had personal
business, or they had meetings related to school or
extracurricular activities.
Some students wrote that they just do not want to attend or
wrote they did not want to attend due to their homework, being
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hungry, lazy, the sessions being too long, boring. There were
three students who wrote about students being or perceiving not
being prepared, and therefore they saw the sessions as being
unimportant which coincides with the responses provided by a few
students who did not see the sessions as being important or who
prioritized other activities over the SAT preparation. For those
who came to every session, they suggested ideas like, “Maybe they
don’t care,” or “fear of failure.” How can I support students who
fear failure have the audacious hope to counter their deficit
thoughts of themselves (HarvardEducation, 2010)?
Yet, one thing that I learned from students, sessions, and
the survey was the fact that transportation and the time of the
SAT preparation conflicted with the time students could get home.
The session ran from 4pm until 6pm and, as one student simply put
it, “don’t have a ride back home.” As I learned from one of my
students from Group 3, her parents arrive at 4:30pm to get her to
drop her off at home before they enter work at 6pm at a nearby
factory. She seldom came to sessions, but in the brief time she
spent here, she collected work that she could do on her own to
make sure she received the necessary practice for her to continue
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to get better at the SAT. Her case, like some of the other
students, was the lack of reliable resources, including public
transportation to get home. How can I expect her to stay if she
cannot honestly stay? How can I provide the material hope to
ensure she receives the most out of her academic experience
(HarvardEducation, 2010)?
In order to create and cultivate a high expectation, high
support model, I must be cognizant of the needs of the students.
Crossover SAT prep and the school did little to provide the
critical hope that Jeff Duncan-Andrade speaks about in his
lecture to the Harvard School of Education (2010). We provided a
space for growth and demonstrated potential outside of limited
expectations; yet the fact remains that students have human needs
that require more. As the Maslow Hierarchy of Needs demonstrates
(see Appendix), if one lacks the necessities of life, it becomes
very difficult for one to dream outside the realm of what the
next day brings. For many students, their family was their source
of power and energy; they were the rationalizing source of
priority over the individual will of the student. As I will cover
in the next theme, the implications of creating a college-going
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identity is a process of self-discovery and will against
perceived limited possibilities; a partnership between the
teacher and students grounded in supporting each other’s dreams
and aspirations to attain success. If I intend to create a
lasting change, I must work to create the possibilities for
change based upon the needs of the students by any means
necessary.
2. Supporting Students Development of a College Going Identity:
As I wrote in Segment II, the majority of the students’ view
of themselves is dubious of the possibility for them to be able
to attend a college because of an educational experience where
their abilities have been questioned. From the pre-survey, I
learned that they had a mixed response to their community as
being supportive in their development as students as they did
regarding about fellow students. The second survey verified the
conclusions made from the pre-survey. Therefore, the way I framed
my approach used Rogoff’s (1994) idea of “community of learners”
and used Blumenfeld, Puro, and Mergendoller (1992) idea of having
students partake in the process of learning not only about the
content but about themselves as developing individuals in a
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process of growth (Graham, 1990). As the previous themes covered
extensively, we had to work to modify our very notions,
reactions, perceptions in order to better fit the needs of the
students we worked with in order to create an academic space
where students felt welcomed to be a part of. I had to make a
consorted effort to include the rest of the mentors in the
process of making the curriculum and the lessons culturally
relevant (Ladson-Billings, 1994) for students to feel confident
in accessing their funds of knowledge (Ruiz & Moll, 2002) and
working in groups that were organically demonstrative of expert-
novice relationships (Gobbo & Chi, 1986) to eventually be
comfortable to interthink (Mercer, 2000) not only with me but
with one another through problems. As I mentioned in Segment II,
the reality that I observed early on in SAT preparation sessions
were students’ self-ascribed notions of low ability and low
expectation that lead to them to perceive low achievement.
Internalized notions of inefficacy are a result of the student
responses to the conditions all around them through behavior
reflective of their experience. Their sometimes resistant
behavior (Solorzano & Bernal, 2001) was a response to an
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experience that questioned their ability and learned knowledge, a
response to oppressive conditions.
Therefore, in order to create the supportive, transformative
academic space, I had to work to employ the aspect of their life
that most students saw as an overwhelming support in their
development, their familia. Based on the pre and second survey,
their family, for a majority of students, was a source of support
in their development as students. They saw the school and most
teachers as part of that process, but it is important to
acknowledge that the academic institutions, and those who work
within, create that socialization by design (Parsons, 1959). Yet,
as a program that came in as a supportive service afterschool,
our association with the students differs in that we are part of
the academic institution with a degree of uncertainty in our
relation to the purpose of the school and our relationship to the
students. Therefore, the results from the pre-survey and the
second survey reflected the process of sociocultural association
based upon our interactions with students. For some, we served as
mentors, partners, in their academic pursuits; others as
appendages of the academic institution that made the SAT
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preparation mandatory; others as teachers with set expectations
and agreements; still others were unsure of how we were to relate
due to our minimal understanding of one another.
As I noted in Segment II, I was a visible difference for
students being the only Latino5 who tutored in the SAT
preparation. For them to see me taking the time to remind them of
sessions and visiting their classes to answer any questions they
might have proved to be an empowering experience, one I did not
plan or expect. Over time, students as well as teachers began to
see me as a source of empowerment to the students due to my
dedication to providing the best possible support to their
development as students, human beings. Yet this growth in
relating to students was a process all in itself that I will
cover in depth in the next theme of engaging and empowering
students.
2a. College Dialogue
As part of the Crossover SAT prep curriculum, we were
provided one opportunity during my action plan to engage students
5 I personally ascribe myself as Chicano yet for students I was a Latino due to the popularized ethnic identity of the community of people of Mesoamerican,Caribbean, and South American descent.
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in the work of planning for college. The lesson called for us to
go over college requirements and the students’ availability to
attend certain universities based upon their academic profiles
that included their GPA, diagnostic SAT scores, and the Holland’s
Personality Test to think about majors based upon their
personality traits. From that point, we would go into learning
about scholarships and funding for college. Yet, as I mentioned
in the previous theme, we only had two days to do this unit for
over 60 students with limited support to do the lesson to its
full potential, which included having computer access to have
students, and mentors access online sources. Therefore, after the
first lesson, as mentors we had already decided to make the next
session a college workshop concentrating on the process of
applying to college since we had relatively little time to go
into detail regarding funding and scholarships.
For the second lesson, we decided to have all of our
students do the college lesson together and have a dialogue
regarding college and the choices present at the institution. We
first asked students to list their name, college of choice, and
major they would like to study. Each group had a group-appointed
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scribe to collect and write down the information for each group.
As students saw their choices and others, they saw shared goals
and common career paths that had not been visible before or had
never mentioned to one another. We allowed them time to share
their reasons why they wanted to go to a particular college or
major in a particular field. As they dialogued, within their eyes
we saw high expectations marred by a sense of incapacity based on
their academic experience. As Katrina had noted in the previous
college lesson, “I want to but I don’t know if I can,” a
perceived reality that a number of students held based upon their
responses on pre-survey and the second survey. As a result of the
students’ responses, the next activity, the Holland’s Personality
Test proved to be important for the students’ conceptualization
of their college aspirations and identity. Instead of framing the
personality test as a definitive reflection of their expected
career path and identity, we decided to frame the test as
reflection of their different possibilities and areas of
strength. As I noted in Segment II, Freire (1987) once wrote:
The process of learning, through which historically we
have discovered that teaching is a task not only
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inherent to the learning process but also characterized
by it, can set off in the learner an ever-increasing
creative curiosity…epistemological curiosity…an
intimate critical connection that must be submitted to
methodical and rigorous analysis (p. 48).
We intended in having students analyze their results and come to
an understanding that this test serves to demonstrate all their
potential, potential that for some does not come even during
college but through lived experiences.
The students took the test, provided their top three
responses, and from those responses they inquired about the
possible fields of study they could enter. Some were pleasantly
surprised, others were intrigued, some seemed confused that
coming to terms with their aspirations were a possibility based
upon this simplistic test. As we reviewed the requirements for
different college institutions, private and public universities,
and shared our (Mentors and I) experiences applying to these
institutions, some students remained transfixed on their
different choices available to them. I explained to them how I
changed majors during my undergraduate study twice because of
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what I was learning. Another mentor stepped in and explained her
experience of going from studying Chemistry to Journalism because
of learning her passion. As another mentor mentioned, “College is
not like high school where there is someone to tell you what to
do, you do or you don’t and that’s it!” Some students laughed
nervously as we briefly reviewed with them different forms of
funding that are available for students. I asked students to
provide me their email, and I told them that I would be sending
them an email that contained some scholarships they could look
into and apply. The students grew excited as we explained to them
that we have to apply to college without a fear of rejection
since if we do not try, we are denying the possibility of being
able to enter a college and striving for our goals.
Following this unit, I became fervently active in making the
trip to the Youth Empowerment Conference at UC Raza possible. I
felt that the only way in which I could ensure that students
could really get a sense of being able to attend a university was
by taking them to a conference that has been dedicated to
empowering students of color to attend college for nearly a
quarter of a century. I will speak further about the experience
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of making the trip possible in the following theme, but in the
following weeks I made more of a consorted effort to answer
students questions not only within one class but make the
discussions from one class a part of the shared information into
another class. Since my intent was to demonstrate to students a
common struggle to understand the college going process, I made
sure to relay information from class to class in order to
establish within this community of practice a shared body of
knowledge that was constantly dialoguing not only about preparing
for the SAT but to go to college. With it, I would include my
progress on making the trip happen. Once I was ensured that the
trip to the Youth Empowerment Conference would happen, the
teachers and I were relentless in having students partake in the
opportunity. Out of the over 60 students who could attend, only
38 would sign up; only 28 would end up going with us to the trip.
The final lesson and the final survey would serve to reflect the
students’ changing perspective of them and us.
2b. The Farewell
The final lesson, the farewell, became a moment where the
mentors and I were able to share our college experience more
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freely and in turn provide students an opportunity to ask us
further about our college experience. I had thought about the
best way I could say goodbye to them. When the day came I decided
to share with them some of my poetry I had written during high
school along, with a more critical view of my life growing up in
a community much like theirs, and my experience overcoming the
obstacles that were once put in place as a result of my decisions
and choices. I asked a fellow mentor to share her poetry as well
since I had learned of her story of overcoming deficit thinking.
I did this with the intent to demonstrate to students that our
work for them, and the community, is grounded in creating the
support that is necessary to counter preconceived notions of
limited potential. I shared with them the mixed perspective they
share of their community but their shared perspective of the
school, teachers, and most importantly familia that makes them
work to succeed. I shared with them the thought that their fellow
classmates, even if they sometimes act as they don’t care, have
much more going on that if we are willing to understand we can
support their development. Group III, that had been inconsistent
throughout the program, appeared on the last lesson to be the
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source of a critical dialogue about countering ideas of hatred of
oneself and the community. I explained to them that we must learn
to love ourselves for who we are, not who other people want us to
be, for the moment that we neglect who we are, we neglect
ourselves. I explained to them how I tried to change to fit in
but eventually realized that my unique experience has made me who
I am. It was a [partial] conclusion that I figured out in college
through my experiences there, away from the familiar. I explained
that wherever we go, we are unique in that we have persevered
beyond what was expected of us, and we are making from our
success the possibility for others like us to follow. The fellow
mentors shared the idea that if college is expected, then the
trend is that there will be no question in them attending since
it will be the norm. The students’ response to the final lessons
was a sense of love and admiration for us, and a dedication to
their education that was far beyond the meager monetary payment
we received. The students sensed our love for them and in turn
returned the same sentiment to us in working to attain what we
expected of them, a college education.
2c. Final Survey
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As I reviewed the information regarding the initial survey
and the second survey, I realized that I wanted to receive more
information regarding the students’ thoughts about their
possibility of going to college and what they perceived as
characteristics of college-going students. In addition, I wanted
to figure out the reasons why they, or others, had not been able
to attend the afterschool SAT preparation sessions (Covered in
Theme 1). One question raised from the first survey was also if
they felt prepared to attend a university since there was a
significant amount of students who did not know if they were
ready to go to college. Therefore, in the final I asked students:
1) Do you see yourself going to college? Why or why not?
2) What are traits or characteristics that you think are
important for going to college?
3) What are reasons why you or others have been unable to
attend the SAT preparation sessions afterschool? (Covered in
detail in Theme 1: Creating and cultivating a High
Expectation, High Support model)
4) How can your academic experience be improved to be ready for
college?
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There were a variety of answers to the questions provided to
the students. There were 62 respondents in all and their
responses, like the students, varied in interpretation due to a
variation of their experiences. Their responses reflected a more
in depth analysis of their ideas as it relates to being students
who are developing a college-going identity (See Appendix).
1) Do you see yourself going to college?
Only five students did not really themselves going to
college. They based their response because of their academic
experience as one student put it, “I don’t feel confident with
everything I have done in high school.” There were six students
who want to go to college but, they see community college as
their better option; out of these four of the students made the
distinction of community college as if they do not consider the
community college route a college setting. Of these 11 students,
six of them began their analysis with the comment, “I don’t
know,” and as one student put it, “it’s difficult to with all
these homeworks from classes and many issues.” These students
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clearly recognized college as a possibility but a decision that
appears too early to consider in light of their academic
experience in high school. As one student noted, “No because I
have all C’s.” This student was discouraged by his grades as was
the previous student due to the “homeworks” and issues. They see
it as a possibility but their abilities have come into question
and, as a result, their social allocation pushes away from
entering academia into entering other social capacities. For
three students who saw college as a possibility, they are quick
to switch their social capacity into other work. For two of the
students, they plan to enter the military first before going to
college while another student plans to travel in order to get a
better idea of the world. They see their potential but understand
there are other options in the world that can help them develop
further.
The majority of the students (48 of the 62 students) saw
themselves as being college-going students. Thirty-two of the
students framed their response around career and life choices
that will lead them to better lives. They see entering a
university as an opportunity in becoming something, as space of
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further development. As eight of the students responded, they saw
higher education as an opportunity to further develop their
intellectual skills. They also see the university setting as a
space to develop the skills necessary for them to be able to go
further on into the careers and the better lives they envision
for themselves. The students consistently wrote of working hard
to accomplish their goals and striving for this “better life.”
They saw college as a pathway towards a future that was now, for
six of the students, determined by their decision to attend the
university. They saw the university as a beacon of hope for
themselves.
Eight of the students intend to go to college in order to
support their families financially. Their family serves as the
main motivator in their intend to go to the university. As one
student put it, “Yes because I want to be the first from my
family to graduate. I want to make my old man proud showing him
that I can do it.” One student noted that the reason why they
were “discipline and compatible” with going to college was a
direct result of his family. He felt that his family, along with
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his school, had given him the skills to be able to succeed in a
university setting.
Based on the responses provided by the students, I was able
to see a slight clarification of the students’ perceptions of
being able to attend college and the thoughts that were running
through their mind as they enter the next stage in their life.
The students’ perception of being able to attend college has
increased, and their future goals for some have become clarified
to the point where they are now trying to figure college choices
and funding. For one student, the reason why s/he believed s/he
might not be able to go is due to funding concerns. Yet, the
overall trend of the students is seeing themselves as college-
going students with many options for their future. The increased
confidence in the students’ perception that they will attend a
college institution demonstrates an internalization of the ideal
of a college-going identity and presents an overall growth in the
students’ college going-identity.
2)What are traits or characteristics that you think are important
for going to college?
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The responses of students ranged from characteristics,
skills sets, and their perceptions of the college-going
experience. From the responses that students provided, few were
able to give responses that included the reason why they
acknowledged a certain characteristic, skill set, or perception
of the college going experience (8 out of 62). Yet, in their
single word and fragment sentences they provided me a critical
analysis of their perception of college. Their responses were
short, but within the words they used they provided a glimpse of
their elaborate conceptions of higher education.
The top characteristics that students noted as being
necessary for going to college were responsibility, motivation,
dedication, hard working (working hard), independence, and being
social/ outgoing. These characteristics were similar between
students who saw themselves as going to college or not. Their
reasoning for these characteristics as being important ranged
from, “Being responsible, never giving up” to “Perseverance-being
on top of the things no matter what anyone says.”
Often times the students’ responses were with particular
skills that a college a student needs to have to be in a
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university setting. The particular traits that students
identified as important were critical thinking, being organized,
having study skills, time management, and setting goals. Most of
these responses where after giving a characteristic that is
necessary for going to college for example, “1) Potential/
motivation 2) Organization.” Yet, it is important to note that
for students the ability to be organized or managing time was a
characteristic that they thought was vital in their ability to
become college graduates. They thought of traits as skills sets
that are necessary in order to succeed; “having people skills” or
“organized-to keep track of dates and times.”
Some of the students’ responses were related to the
students’ perceived notions of the college going experience.
Ideas of growing up/ maturing, doing things on their own
(studying, working), and having to learn quickly became topics
that were addressed in direct and indirect manner through the
words used by students. For example, “Initiative-because I have
to be responsible for my things seriously,” or “Determination:
have to be determined and push yourself to want education.”
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The students’ responses, according to my understanding,
ranged from characteristics, skill sets, and their perceptions of
the college-going experience. From what I analyzed, the students
of the school have developed a deeper understanding of what it
takes to go to college in terms of ideals; however, within these
ideals were still some fundamental discrepancies in regards to
actual learned experiences of college and the process that
students must go through once they are there. The students see
their potential to attend a college institution far better than
in the beginning of this process with the strengthening of these
ideals; I wonder if the supports exist within to withstand the
growing load upon them. Do they feel they have the support not
only around them but also within to withstand the pressures of
this new stage in their life?
How can your academic experience be improved to be ready for
college?
The responses of students ranged from: having classes be
more like college, having more time to study and do work, and
having better organization and motivation. Seven students did not
respond to this question. Three simply did not have an idea of
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what could improve in their academic experience to be ready for
college. Twenty-one students believed that they require more time
and skill to study. Seventeen students believed that they
required more organization and motivation. Sixteen students
called for more courses that prepared students for college.
The students that did not have any suggestion in how their
academic experience could be improved to be ready for college was
not due to not wanting to attend college; it was due to not
having anything to note. All these students see college as a
possibility, and appear to have their future in mind though they
show that they had difficulty attending the SAT preparation
sessions due to their responses to question three. They all
demonstrated a desire to move forward on to the next part of
their life.
The students who desire more time and skills to study all
indicated a desire to continue their education mostly for the
reason of attaining a better life for themselves. One student
noted:
“I can read more books, books with a whole new vocab.
that I don’t know anything of, ask other adults outside
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of school about things I don’t understand like in geo,
history, English, etc. even my peers and have study
sessions with my friends on the weekend or on school
nights”
Most responses were reflective of things they felt they had not
done during their time in high school as one student wrote, “If I
follow the 3 step traits I have in Question number 2 (i.e.
‘1)Keep my grades up and work hard 2)Study a lot so I can
understand everything 3) No more Laziness’)”.
For the students that believed they required more
organization or dedication, their train of thought was similar to
the aforementioned in regards to being critical of their academic
integrity. As one student wrote, “Focus more on school work, plan
out your daily life.” Alternatively, another student who
acknowledged, “Doing my work better and not letting others
thoughts get to me.”
As for the students who called for more courses that
prepared them for college, they demonstrated a particular
criticism of the academic institutions. As one student wrote, “I
think that if it [Schools] were set more like college it would
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help. It would help to have a college readiness session.” Another
student wrote, “There can be more college level experiences, not
just high school,” which brings forth the argument of a lack of
AP courses available at the school for students. These students
demonstrate recognition of an education they feel is subpar to an
education at other academic institutions as well as other
students do. Yet, this is an internalized critique for most
students.
Overall students desire an education that they feel has
prepared them to tackle the rigors of college but acknowledge
that this development has to be a mutual partnership of attaining
the knowledge and skills to be prepared by having the schools
provide the time and space to generate the critical development
students desire. Students acknowledge their faults but, in turn,
the academic institutions must recognize their own. If we seek to
have students prepared for college, we must make a consorted
effort to offer them the opportunity to develop that knowledge
and skills they seek.
2d. Reflection: Expectations Internalized yet not Realized
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The implication of creating a college-going identity is a
process of self-discovery and will: a partnership grounded in
supporting each other’s dreams and aspirations. Based on their
final surveys, students realized that the expectation for them to
go to college has always been present just that the knowledge and
desire to attend has been in question. This process of self-
discovery sought for students to see areas for improvement within
and to acknowledge the strengths they have within. Rather than
critique them, I choose to work with them to attain the knowledge
and skills to access the information they think necessary to
attain their goals. Based on their final surveys, their
individual will calls for them to work harder to attain success.
Yet, success for one is the failure of another. This is why it
was important to demonstrate to students that there exists plenty
of choices other than the four-year public and private academic
institutions; it was important to demonstrate to students that
the discourse of attending college was more complex but not a
far-fetched idea outside their realm of possibility. Although we
strived to inculcate and provide students as much information as
possible to prepare for college and the upcoming college
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application process, one student at another school site said it
best, “We can try to prepare for everything but ultimately we can
never be prepared completely.” The students’ view of themselves
and their confidence in going to college grew, but there looms
plenty of questions that will be answered in due time. They see
their potential far better now than a few weeks ago, but I guess
that is what happens when we are given the ideological tools to
conceptualize our future. The Crossover SAT prep program as well
as the school did what it could to provide the tools to have
students see the possibility to attend college. However,
ultimately, as I mentioned in the previous theme, this effort
must have the critical hope and resources to support the
transformative academic space through not only ideas but also
materiality. If we seek to have our students to see themselves in
college, we must have models for them to look towards for
guidance in this process. I tried to be that source of
empowerment and engagement as I will cover in the next theme, but
as I learned, this must come from more than just one source, one
entity.
3) Engaging and Empowering Students in the Process
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In order for us to speak truth to power, we must be willing
to analyze it and counter is ideological framework from the very
root of its distortion. As Stuart Hall (2003) explains:
First, ideologies do not consist of isolated and
separate concepts, but in the articulation of different
elements into a distinctive set or chain of meaning…
Second, ideological statements are made by individuals;
but ideologies are not the product of individual
consciousness or intention. Rather we formulate our
intentions within ideologies…Third, ideologies “work”
by constructing for their subjects (individual and
collective) positions of identification and knowledge
which allows them to “utter” ideological truths as if
they were their authentic authors. (pp. 89-90)
In order to have students become engaged and empowered to work to
create a transformative space that was of their own ideas, I had
to work to create the space of possibility by systematically
disrupting the ideological framework that in their experience has
seen few if any member of their family go to college. Students
themselves acknowledge the community in a negative perspective
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not because of negative experiences, for the most part, but due
in a part to the collective internalized perspective that their
community is not a place of empowerment, especially academic due
to the notion of the members of the community being “ghetto.”
Because of this constant negative perception of self and
community, the ideological statements, as Hall notes, reflect the
idea of them being “ghetto” although this idea is lacking of any
validity. Yet, this idea makes sense when our individual
perspective is reflective of the collective identity although
within we might be conscious of other ideological truths that
exist. As Allan Johnson (2006) writes that we choose the paths of
least resistance in order to fit in because we are afraid of
being outcast, out of place, even if we might be conscious of the
truth. He notes that although it is the path of least resistance,
it is not the easy way by any means. As the students have taught
me, they want to remain relevant with their peers yet want to
strive to attain their individual goals. Towards the end of the
program, I saw how students grew closer together and more driven
to push each other to attend afterschool especially if they could
work together. It was a clear difference from the beginning when
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they felt they could not group up with their fellow classmates
who, for most, were a system of support emotionally rather than
academically.
In order to make them be able to see the possibility, there
must be a consorted effort to counter ideological frameworks that
intend to encapsulate students within a given ideology. Break
them off into another realm of possibility, for this project, was
the idea of going to college and empowering them to continue the
academic space after the Crossover SAT prep program has left.
Yet, the idea that within nine weeks I could counter an ideology
that had, for some students, become so deeply internalized is too
advantageous to consider; yet, the seed was planted and began to
sow within them and their peers. To make them see the ability to
counter limited possibilities, I had to work to model what is
possible with the use of cultural wealth (Yosso, 2005). I had to
apply different forms of cultural capital to make the trip to the
Youth Conference possible. This process began with informing my
supervisors and Angela Davis Academy of my intent. The message
was positively received by both but then the question came about
how will the trip be paid. From previous experiences I had
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learned that in order to make something happen, we must be
willing to put into the pot what we have; in my case I had 100
dollars. I spoke to my partner, and she was willing to help me
out as well by matching my donation. With this money, I went into
a meeting with my supervisor and the principal to provide
information of the trip and its intent. Ms. Gompers and Mr.
Queens were both from communities much like those of the
students. They both loved the idea that I was grounding my trip
around providing them an opportunity to understand college more
in-depth. They both shared their academic experiences with me and
how they were rarely provided an opportunity to attend a
university before going to a university. I explained to them that
I had already collected 200 dollars and was willing to fundraise
more if necessary. They accepted my idea.
The students received the trip slips to take them on the
trip. Students had a week to bring the trip slips back signed.
Since the trip was Saturday, some students openly said they would
not go. I helped in the effort to inform students, but ultimately
the school counselor, Ms. Concepcion, and the teachers were the
source of empowering students to go. They shared their college
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experience with students the days I went to their classes since
they felt they had to demonstrate how rare an opportunity this
experience was. In one class, the teacher, Ms. Rioja, asked me to
clarify the idea that education is not a right, it is a
privilege. I gave them the case of Rodriguez v. San Antonio
Unified School District to explain to them what the Supreme Court
thought of education as well as the current events in Detroit
where schools are being shut down. Some students who had their
laptops open quickly searched my facts to check if I was telling
the truth. Sure enough, they found I was telling them the truth.
As I told them, “Our education and ability to attend colleges has
been a recent development that for a long time was limited due to
outright discrimination, racism.”
I was informed with two weeks left for the trip of the need
for me to fundraise 400 dollars for the trip. I quickly turned to
UC Raza to find more funding for the trip. Most organizations
explained their lack of funds because of other planned activities
as well as monetarily supporting the Youth Empowerment
Conference. It was then when I turned to a Vice Chancellor of the
university to support my plan. Yet, this was only possible on the
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week of the trip. My experience with this Vice-Chancellor had
been a complicated relationship during my undergraduate career
since I was active in organizing for students’ rights. Plenty of
times, we sat across the table of possibility primarily over use
of university funds, but now I had to work with him to provide my
students the possibility to attend this trip. I planned my
talking points and reasons why he should support my plans, but
ultimately this was not necessary. It was like if I was talking
to an old friend that missed our discussions. A few years had
made him and me see more and more the same vision for education:
a limited opportunity for “diverse” students. He recognized that
the ideas I had presented many years before were far more real
than when I attended the university. My continued commitment to
students’ rights even after leaving school became “a beckon of
hope that is rarely seen in the current educational system.” We
spoke of creating working relations between universities and
schools that are in communities that are historically
socioeconomically disadvantaged and creating partnership between
the institutions to counter the school to prison pipeline. As I
explained to him, the students’ desires to go to universities yet
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rarely have an opportunity to work alongside university students
of color. Therefore, opportunities like these where they have the
opportunity to meet and interact with students of color at a
university provide them a motivation to enter higher education
since the idea is no longer a dream but a possibility. The Vice-
Chancellor offered to cover the cost of the trip. As I left his
office, I felt a huge weight become lifted from my shoulders.
Part of my deal in bringing the students to the university
included providing students with mentors for the day that also
included me recruiting students from the university. Since I had
remained close with the university and a number of organizations,
this was quick work. I sat down with my partner and some of her
friends to help me in this aspect of my plan. Later on, after
sitting down with the Vice-Chancellor, I sat down with a couple
of university students from another organization to recruit them
to help me for the day. They all were more than happy to help me
with the plan. In one day, using my cultural capital, I was able
to make the trip possible. With the students signed up and the
mentors ready for the day, which included one from Crossover SAT
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preparation, we were ready for the trip to the Youth Empowerment
Conference.
3a.The Youth Empowerment Conference and the Conference Survey
As I mentioned previously, out of the 38 students who
planned to go to the Youth Empowerment Conference, 28 went on to
go to the youth empowerment conference. Andres, Xochitl, Katrina,
and Huracan were all able to make the trip even after Huracan had
repeatedly joked around that he needed a ride; each time I
responded with, “If you need to pick me up you have my number.” I
felt this was his check of my authenticity or to see how I would
respond. All students were energized and ready to go as soon as
we were ready to go early in the morning on April 27, 2013. One
student had asked me to talk to her mother the day before in
order for her to attend the Youth Empowerment Conference; yet, by
the time we were set to go on the trip the student failed to
appear. As I looked upon the students and their excitement, I
reminisced upon my first experience going to a university on my
own accord. Upon their eyes I saw uncertainty of what awaited
them yet a calm that what lay before them was an experience they
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would learn much from. The students sat clustered together in the
bus with them leaving a seat open for me to sit with them. During
the ride to the Youth Empowerment Conference, students took
pictures, conversed, listened to music, and asked me questions of
UC Raza and my collegiate experience. As we drove into the rising
sun, I reminisced about my first drive over to the university and
entering this unknown academic space where I found a piece of my
soul. Perhaps the students would receive the same from this
experience.
When we arrived, I instructed students to break up into
groups of 4 or 5 to have someone who they are comfortable with.
As they grouped together, three students from the university
arrived to present themselves to the students. The university
students wore their organizations letters upon their chest as
they provided their name, major, year of study, and city of
origin. These students were the first set of university students
that the students of Angela Davis Academy would encounter on this
day. As walked towards the sign in table, students looked around
as I pointed out certain buildings and their significance for me
and other fellow students. As we arrived to sign in, more
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university students promptly greeted us, we received some
breakfast snacks and we received folders with information
regarding the conference. While I explained to the students, the
information provided within the folders and gave them the
conference survey, other students who I knew personally arrived
to present themselves to the students and provide them with kind
words of their experience to the students. We hurried to see the
conference keynote speaker. It was there where students began
their journey of learning. It was there where they began their
journey of self-discovery as they entered the 500-seat auditorium
where my collegiate experience once began.
By the Youth Empowerment Conference’s end, the students
lively spirits remained, their bodies tired by their journey but
with a newfound hope within their souls. The conference surveys I
provided them from the beginning were returned to me with a
newfound understanding of themselves. The questions that I
provided them were the following:
1) What did you find valuable about the Youth Conference? Why?
2) What would you take from this Youth Conference and share
back with fellow students?
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3) What would you like to know more about?
4) After this experience do you feel more confident about going
to college? Why or why not?
There were different responses to the questions provided to
the students. The responses, like the students, varied in their
response due to a variation in their experiences. Yet, their
responses reflected a glimpse into their shared experience of
going to the Youth Empowerment Conference; receiving from this
experience a deeper understanding of their capability to attend a
college in their near future (See Appendix).
1)What did you find valuable about the Youth Conference? Why?
The overall experience of the students at the conference was
a positive motivator on their journey to higher education. For
some, the keynote speaker, a notable female judge of a state in
the Southwest of the United States, and her story of success
against discrimination, lowered expectation due her ethnicity and
gender, and outright difficulty due to limited support from
family hit very close to home. One student wrote, “Something
valuable that I found out about the Youth Conference is our [the
judge and my] stories were very much alike. The judge went
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through a tough time & made me realize that I can make it too.”
During her speech, she gave them 10 lessons she learned to
succeed which I will share in the next section since that
information was valuable for many of the students.
For some students they found the caring relationships began
with students from the university, not only the ones I presented
to them but others. The students felt very welcomed to UC Raza,
and their positive experiences with students of the university
served to motivate students since they felt a level of support at
the university that made them analyze themselves. For one
student, the willingness of university students to take the time
to provide them advice and tips for college made them realize
that college was a possibility. For another student, it motivates
him or her to consider applying there feeling that UC Raza was
the college that fit his or her particular vision of a college
experience.
For some of the students the information regarding the
application, funding, and college majors and careers served as
the most valuable experience they had during the day. Information
like the mandatory A-G, College requirement session following the
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keynote speaker where students receive a detailed breakdown of
college options available in the state as well as difference
forms of funding available served as valuable information since I
knew that Crossover SAT prep and the school had done little to
inform students of those possibilities. Although I had provided
students with a list of scholarships available to them via email
when we did the College workshop, to learn of more funding
options served as an important source of information for
students. The career workshop that happened after lunch also
provided plenty of information regarding majors and possible
career options based upon their major decisions. For one student
this workshop clarified to him his career option and provided him
with the idea that you have to love what you do.
The overall trend of their thoughts was the idea of
motivation to attend college. As one student wrote, “they really
want Chicanos to go to college because not many people do that.”
Students learned in special interest workshops about empowering
Latina/os, Chicana/os; about empowering the Mujer; about the
power of the Spoken Word; about the different choices available
at the university. From this conference, students received not
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only workshops but also a tour of the university provided by the
university students. From their experience during the day, they
received so many messages of support to seek the path going to a
college.
2)What would you take from this Youth Conference and share back
with fellow students?
The words of the keynote speaker and those in different
workshops helped students greatly in thinking of what is next.
Many of the students were particularly impressed by the words
provided the Keynote Speaker, the Chicano empowerment, and La
Mujer workshops as well as the information they receive from the
College Student Panel. From the Keynote speaker they receive the
10 lessons of attaining success:
10) Having a Purpose: knowing what you want
9) Forgiving yourself and others: moving forward rather than
living in the past
8) Working hard: not giving up even when things get tough
7) Courage: Willing to accept failure as a necessary
experience
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6) Help others, help each other out: Be willing to support
each other rather than put them down
5) Live your life to the fullest: recognize your limits and
the importance of living life
4) Curiosity: Be willing to learn everyday from everything
you do
3) Life is not fair: Sometimes there will be times you feel
cheated but remember to do 9.
2) Have support in your life: Family and friends help a lot
when we feel alone.
1) Have joy in your life: Motivation in life comes from
positive experiences
Many of these same themes carried through in the presentation of
other workshops that helped in connecting the theme of the
conference, which was ¡Órale Raza! La Educación es Para Todos—
Levántate y Lucha: My People! Education is for everyone-Get up
and Fight. From the Chicano Empowerment workshop, they got the
thought of, “Chicanos are capable to get an education, but they
just need to have ganas (motivation, drive, passion).” From the
La Mujer workshop, they receive the message: “You have to be
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confident,” and “Everything is possible you just have to give it
your best.” As for the students’ panel, they received the idea
that, “Once you are in college you’re alone and you got to be
more responsibility to take care of” and “The emphasis of hard
work and time balancing.” One student’s response encapsulates the
overall idea that the students will share with their fellow
students: “The knowledge that I gained from it will forever
change me in realizing that I can make it & apply it in school &
make others realize it too.” The experience in its totality was
what they felt their fellow students need to know: The different
experiences and possibilities present at universities. As one
student wrote, “That you have a lot of options towards what you
want to be and for now just concentrate and push yourself to a
higher level.”
What would you like to know more about?
Overall students wanted more details regarding specific
major and college requirements as a path towards particular
careers. These sentiments shared with me, especially following
the career workshop, since they were able to interact with
professionals in their particular field of study. As they learned
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more of options, they realized they would require more
information regarding general education requirements as well as
specific major requirements that demonstrates a move from just
the application process to striving towards a deeper
understanding of the college experience. Yet, this experience
sparked within a few students possibly replicating two of the
workshops at Angela Davis Academy, La Mujer and the Poetry
workshop. One student wrote, “The thing I would like to know more
about is the empowering Chicana/Latina Women. VIVA LA MUJER!” The
students felt empowered to take action and felt confident that
they have the capability to do so since they have other students
with like-minded ideals ingrained in them. Their shared
experience demonstrated to them a shared vision of possibility to
not only go to college but also begin to work to create the
college-going culture at their school grounded on a shared ideal
of empowering each other with valuable information that could
help support the dreams of others.
After this experience do you feel more confident about going to
college? Why or why not?
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The overall sentiment of the students was a resounding
“Yes.” They felt the possibility to attend college was far easier
to attain especially following an experience where many of their
questions were answered. Although this lead to other questions
about their ability to attend based upon their academic records,
they felt that college was more within their reach since they had
a clearer vision of expectations not only to attend but also to
succeed in college and life. Their experience at the Youth
Empowerment conference was for them what it was intended in
doing; empowering students of color learn of requirements to
enter college and empowering change within themselves and their
community for the uplifting of all Raza (People). For one student
this experience lead for her to state, “In particular this
college is the example for what a college should be.” Another
student wrote, “It just seems just more real.” While another
student said, “It really opened my eyes about college and I’m not
scared anymore.” The mutual feeling of nervousness or fear for
many dissipated, making their dream possible. They saw that
college was possible and not just an ideal that was given without
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the possibility of attaining it, as one student wrote, “Not
everyone is perfect but with a little push, you can do it.”
3b.Reflection: Going to college and breaking away from “limited”
potential.
The trip home was a moment of delight. As we pulled in to
the school, I looked at the gay faces of the students and was
overwhelmed with a moment of deep connection with them. I asked
them to group together one more time to share a few more words
with them. As they came around me, I shared with them my final
words, “Never give up! Even if people turn their back on you or
try to bring you down, get up and keep working towards whatever
you do. Only you can make the decision in your life just make
sure that they are the best in the long run.” As I saw their
faces, I shed tears of happiness, and they did the same knowing
that the work we had done was for the communal good; it was
grounded in a mutual love and respect with one another that could
not be questioned. As they shared their gratitude with me, they
thanked me for giving them the opportunity to go beyond what they
expected. They thanked me for believing in their potential to go
to college and for sharing my love for the community with them.
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As they left one student said, “Im going to miss you guys, I
really will. No lie. I love you guys.” His face as well as other
students shared the same unspoken sentiment. As I drove away, I
realized that in them I had not only sown a seed of hope but also
watered the land that for long had been denied, forgotten.
The process of having students go on this trip made me go
beyond what was required of me to make the plan a possibility. I
had to advocate on the students’ behalf and use all my sources of
cultural capital. One professor was willing to help me in this
process if my advocacy at UC Raza had not been successful. The
professor’s donation ended up helping to provide students some
snacks to eat on the way to the Youth Empowerment Conference.
This advocacy on my part worked to provide this unique
opportunity and activated some students to begin to help work to
transform the ideology of the school. They do not only see their
potential in attending college but have come to understand that
this process is not only an individual drive but also a communal
effort. As they saw at the Youth Empowerment Conference, the
resources necessary to make an event like the conference possible
requires a consorted effort on the behalf of many to make the
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opportunity possible. Their dreams and aspirations are not only
theirs but are also reflective of the dreams and aspirations of
others.
IIIc. Understanding: SAT in an afterschool space and developing a
college-going identity
My 9-week action plan was carried to a certain level of
success. Although the students still demonstrate, at least within
my groups, a difficulty to compete at the national level on the
SAT, they have demonstrated the most important thing, developing
a college-going identity. As individuals and as community of
learners they have begun to realize the necessity to work to
support one another in the process of going to college. The tools
and resources that ultimately were brought in to support their
development of a college-going identity was the Crossover SAT
program and the trip to the Youth Empowerment Conference. These
two experiences provided a number of students a lasting
experience that has influenced them to think of college as more
of a possibility than they once believed. The shifts to the
structure, outreach, and implementation of the Crossover SAT
program allowed for slight increases in attendance although the
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scores did not demonstrate the same since there were still a
number of students who did not feel welcomed to the space nor
engaged with the academic material provided. Family
responsibilities for many of the students became a priority for
students. Although I modified lessons to help students engage in
the material and did all I could to remind them to come,
ultimately the students’ individual choices dictated whether they
would attend. Therefore, I could not really work to create and
cultivate the afterschool academic space to an ideal within the
time I was there. From the Youth Empowerment Conference, students
learned that they could be the creators of transformation within
their community; an idea that based on the pre-survey and second
survey is necessary for them to support each other in the
development as students.
From the students valuable insights and ideas they have pushed
me to understand a couple of necessary things for there to occur
at the school to support the cultivation of the transformative
afterschool space:
1. Students desire a space where they can go, where they can be
able to get more skills that are academic and knowledge that
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they can apply in their work. They want to know not just a
part but understand more in-depth ideas that they feel that
within school time are limited, therefore not challenging
and preparing them for college.
2. Students want more college-oriented courses that work to
prepare them for college. They want to attain an academic
curriculum that does more to have them become engaged in
learning about ideas that require higher-level thinking.
3. They want their community, fellow students, to share a
common ideal of going to college and working to attain
success. They want more support from the school, family, and
teachers to ensure that their academic experiences help
support their life goals, objectives.
For these students, the experience was life changing in that
it provided a clearer picture of the possibilities that exist
within their school and in college. As Tupac Shakur once wrote,
“I might not change the World, but I do believe I will spark the
mind that does” (HarvardEducation, 2010). From this experience, I
learned from the students that all I can do is remain committed,
unconditionally to supporting their goals, objectives. I have to
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work tirelessly to help them figure out their world. I could make
them do nothing they did not want to do on their own. I did not
work to make the space their ideal; I based it on my own and as a
result, some did while others did not accept the space as being
their own. Although lasting relationships were made with the
students, much work remained to ensure that the space was
maintained. It’s the students turn to create their vision of what
a transformative academic afterschool space is.
IIId. Development as a Social Justice Educator: Working towards
Justice & Empowerment
This process returns me back to what we conceive as success.
The success of one student might be the failure for another. As
so, the students might not see what we might conceive as being a
noticeable improvement. As we learn from sociocultural theory,
our development is the integration of social and cultural
practices, experiences, into the academic setting: identity
matters. The teacher creates a space where the teacher and the
students are able to collaborate in a manner that intends to
deconstruct preconceived notions of power and privilege into
topics that are accessible to all the participants. Yet, in my
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educational experience, seldom did teachers intend to create
dialogue that allowed for instruction where student and teacher
were able to connect within and outside of the formalities of the
classroom. Those teachers who were able to connect to me beyond
the classroom setting remain to me as examples of transformative
education: teachers whose passion and dedication was teaching.
They, as Freire (1987) noted, allowed us to see ourselves as part
of the learning experience. Through applying knowledge of
ourselves into a formal academic setting, we were able to have a
better grasp of not only our world but the language of the world
that we live in (p. 35). Yet, how is it that I was able to
“succeed” while other people I knew did not? What were the
differences between my experience and theirs?
The aforementioned teachers were few and far in between.
They gave us the tools to learn what was necessary to achieve
academically but how could we apply this knowledge in our world?
This debate continues with some of my current afterschool
students and their feeling of disconnect from the content they
are learning. The contradiction between the views of themselves
in respects to their world they live in compared to the view of
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themselves in an academic setting. Throughout this process, I was
able to interact with students and ask of their academic
experience and was given some negative experiences. Their
educational experience within a classroom is marred by deficit
thinking. As a result, as an educator, I want to ensure that I
take into consideration the students, their point of view, and
create a space where they are able to see themselves in a
perspective that reflects their personal idea of themselves. How
can we create a space where the ideas of students and the teacher
synthesize into a working, communal initiative?
The class, according to Rogoff (1994), must become a
“community of learners” in order to better facilitate the
collaboration between students and teacher.
In a community of learners, children and adults
together are active in structuring the inquiry, though
usually with asymmetry of roles. Children and adults
collaborate in learning endeavours, with adults
responsible for guiding the process and children
learning to participate in the management of their own
learning (p.71).
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This approach calls for reciprocity between all participants: a
form of apprenticeship defined by shared decision-making. By
establishing this initial distinction, we are able to begin to
define the terms to this working-reciprocal relationship. I was
unable to create this working relationship with students and the
fellow mentors, and therefore the strength of our shared vision
could not be completely attained. One of the fundamental
relations created by this reciprocal relationship is cognitive
apprenticeship, where teachers learn as much of the students as
the students learn from the teachers. This process entails:
The development and externalization of a producer-
critic dialogue that students can gradually
internalize. This development and externalization are
accomplished through discussion, alternation of teacher
and learner roles, and group problem solving (Collins,
Brown, & Newman, 1989).
Therefore, what this type of class advocates for is the active
participation of all parties in constantly changing roles that
allows for the all members of the class to grow communally. Yet,
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how will I make sure that all participants are able and available
to partake in this type of learning community?
We must first work towards defining the world in which we
live in and develop the space based upon our common experiences.
As part of this initial inquiry is the self-discovery, the self-
definition. This process though must be a discovery that helps
students acknowledge the wealth of their experiences rather than
their deficits. As Moll (1998) explains, the “funds of knowledge
represent potentially important cultural resources for teaching,”
by “creating community” within and outside the classroom that are
intended to “mediate and personalize” the intellectual work of
schooling (p. 3). The incorporation of the students’ experiences
into the curriculum is important in the sense that it allows for
“a more dynamic, procedural, or practice interpretations of
culture” that is based on the personal rather than the
generalities of not only the teacher but the students (p. 2). It
generates critical praxis (Duncan-Andrade & Morrell, 2008). But
how can students of varying levels work within a space where
simple and complex ideas are going around and there are varying
levels of English Language comprehension?
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We must acknowledge the zone of proximal development of the
individual student and how this intramental process relates to
the intermental activity of teaching and learning. The Zone of
Proximal Development (ZPD) (Vygotsky, 1978) is defined as:
The distance between the actual developmental as
determined by independent problem solving and the level
of potential development as determined through problem
solving under adult guidance or collaboration with more
capable peers (p. 86).
Mercer takes Vygotsky’s ZPD and applies more importance to the
social process of development, the Intermental Development Zone
(IDZ). As Mercer (2000) notes in his study, the IZD works to
understand the manner in which intermental (social) activities
can help develop new abilities and understanding that goes beyond
the established capabilities (pp.83-84). This is not possible
though if the teacher does not properly “scaffold” activities to
maintain minds mutually attuned. Therefore, a teacher-learner
relationship must be cognizant of the varying levels of language
comprehension and acquisition of students because if a teacher-
learner does not take into consideration every student within the
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class, the idea of a community of learners begins to fall apart.
How can teachers and students work towards making sure that
everyone is part of the learning process?
Language and its effective scaffolding and modeling through
varying mediums are the key to bridging gaps of knowledge. As
Gibbons (2009) notes in her book, “Language plays a central role
in any intellectual activity, and using it effectively in
reading, writing, and speaking is central to learning and to
demonstrating learning” (p. 29). Language and its varying forms
of demonstrations create connections not only with the subject
matter but also with the teachers. Gibbons continues by noting
that students must create a “metalanguage,” a language to talk
about language in a classroom setting in order for students and
teacher alike to be able to communicate ideas about readings,
writings, and dialogues that might occur in a classroom setting
(p. 29). This is important because the students are able to voice
their ideas and concerns, but more than that, it allows for a
connection that is grounded on a mutual understanding of a
particular language. Just as they do on a daily basis in their
particular communities of practice, a class that allows the
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students to develop a communal sense of language allows their
learning to continue (Wenger, 1998). As part of this process, we
must be a sociocultural, sociohistoric mediator that understands
that language must be a process of analysis, synthesis, growth,
and understanding (Diaz & Flores, 2001). As a mediator, we
understand that the language is vital to the manner in which the
students conceive of themselves as a part of society. Their daily
usage (Experience) and application (Practice) of language creates
a sense of their identity within and outside the classroom
(Social Structure). Our attempts to bank and neglect part of
their language usage in a class setting can affect the manner in
which they interact since this might make part of what they
consider valuable (Funds of Knowledge) invaluable and, therefore,
neglect a part of themselves (Wenger, 1998). As a result, we must
be constantly cognizant of our position within the classroom and
recognize that the process of creating a community of learners is
not a idealized creation but a communal, genuine creation that is
constantly evolving to have the Intermental Development Zone
necessary for students to feel a part of the creation of the
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aforementioned space. So why don’t some students succeed in
schools while others do?
Ultimately, creating a community of learners within and
outside an educational experience is necessary for a student to
succeed. Students must be able to depend on themselves as much as
anyone else because the manner in which the educational
experience is structured. Students seemingly spend as much time
with their peers and teachers as they do with other aqauintances
and family members. Creating a sense of community and a common
experience through recognizing and understanding a common
perception, ideal, objective shapes the psyche as much as any
formal, institutionalized perception, but the difficulty is to
create this sense of community. It is a convuluted process that
requires passion and dedication; time becomes of the essence only
if you the intent is to prepare students rather than cultivate
students. One of Freire’s principals is Love, and I feel that a
genuine Love for what you do can be felt by a student. It becomes
a source of support that can go beyond the classroom setting and
become a part of a student’s concept of community. Students that
succeed ultimately succeed if they are able to use what is
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learned in the class and apply it in their lives, and if they are
able to facilitate working relationships and apply critical
analysis and understanding in their own words. As long as they
understand that it is vital for them to recognize the importance
of being able to continue learning and growing and never feel as
if they lack the ability to do anything, and that they have the
ability to access any possibility through informed analysis,
synthesis, growth and understanding, I believe students will
succeed. Ultimately, they are the ones who reap the benefit of
their work, not I. They are the ones who make the space, not I.
They are the ones who drive the change we want to see in our
schools, not us, and therefore we must do everything in our power
to ensure that the students can share in the process of creating
the academic spaces they envision by woking with us. Without
students, our work is pointless. Without a humanizing pedagogy,
we are creating automatons. If we seek to change the society and
its core values, we must be willing to work with our students to
create the transformative academic spaces we have idealized but
not realized.
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Appendix
Pre-survey Survey
Question Strongly Agree
Agree
Neutral
Disagree
Strongly Disagree
total
1. My community supports my development as a student
8 17 19 12 3 59
2. My family supports my development as a student
38 15 6 0 1 60
3. My school supports my development as a student.
27 23 8 0 2 60
4. Most of my teachers support my development as a student
29 24 4 3 0 60
5. Most of my peers support my development as a student.
14 21 18 5 1 59
6. This SAT programsupports my development as a student.
23 24 9 3 1 60
7. The SAT mentors support my development as a student.
30 20 7 3 0 60
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8. My school prepares me to go tocollege.
29 18 5 9 0 60
9. Most of my teachers prepare meto go to college.
26 26 4 3 1 60
10. This SAT programprepares me to go to college.
27 23 6 2 2 60
11. The SAT mentors prepare me to go to college.
27 22 5 3 2 59
12. I have the knowledge and skills to go to college.
18 21 12 7 1 59
13. I have prepared myself to go to college.
13 23 13 7 4 60
Survey responses were given out of 60 responders. Questions 1, 5, 11, and 12 had one no response.
Second Survey
Question Strongly Agree
Agree
Neutral
Disagree
Strongly Disagree
Total
1. My community 8 10 22 11 3 56
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supports my development as a student
2. My family supports my development as a student
33 12 5 6 0 56
3. My school supports my development as a student.
23 22 4 5 2 56
4. Most of my teachers support my development as a student
24 19 6 4 3 56
5. Most of my peers support my development as a student.
11 14 20 9 2 56
6. This SAT programsupports my development as a student.
17 23 10 4 2 56
7. The SAT mentors support my development as a student.
22 20 6 6 2 56
8. My school prepares me to go tocollege.
26 13 8 5 3 55
9. Most of my teachers prepare meto go to college.
26 19 6 3 2 56
10. This SAT programprepares me to go to college.
23 19 5 6 3 56
11. The SAT mentors prepare me to go to college.
22 18 10 4 2 56
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12. I have the knowledge and skills to go to college.
16 22 15 2 1 56
13. I have prepared myself to go to college.
14 24 19 2 2 56
Survey responses were given out of 56 responders. Question 8 had one no response.
Your Name: Roberto Rodriguez SaavedraDate and Time of Lesson: Tuesday and Thursday, 4-6pm
Title: SAT Passage-Based Reading Grade Level:11th Grade
Number of Students: 2-5Standards6:
Objectives7
Students will learn and apply the strategies for the Three Methods of Answering PBR Questions (Literal Comprehension, Vocabulary in Context, Extended Reasoning) by using the SAT prep book to review and practice questions.
6Include both the number and wording of the standard.7 Identify what students will know (Informational Knowledge) and be able to do(Procedural Knowledge) as a result of this lesson.
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Assessment 8 Formative Assessments:
How confident are you with reading from 1 to 5: 1 being it’s hard for me, 5 being super confident
Co-Creating Methods to working through Passage-Based Reading Guided Practice through a Passage-Based Reading 3 things you learned, 2 questions you have, 1 thing you need
clarification onSummative Assessments:
Practice Passage-Based Reading and go through responses
Strategies for English Language Learners and Learners with Special NeedsStudents will write down as well as verbalize the methods to contextualizing passage-based reading questions in the SAT. I will model the structure they should write their methods in and work with them to put the methods in their words. Students will have guided practice in order to facilitate how to apply learned methods in a practical manner that will help them get a comparative analysis of how to work through a response.Materials and ResourcesSAT Prep Blue BookWhiteboard & MarkersSheet of Lined-PaperInstructional Sequence (strategies and learning tasks) 9 Consider the following as applicable:
Introduction, hook and explanation for students of the purpose ofthe lesson (_3_ minutes): Set up the notes and the material we will cover.
Accessing prior knowledge/building on previous learning (_7_ minutes): Check the level of confidence on the subject and if they know any methods to tackling these form of questions.
8 (Formative, summative, formal, informal). At one or more points during the lesson, and at the end of the lesson, how will you know that students have achieved the learning objective(s)?9 The sequence will vary and should be flexible.
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over the methods collectively and co-constructing how to approachpassage-based reading. After students independently practice passage based reading, we will discuss our responses and how we came to our conclusion providing additional methods to tackling these types of questions and the reading.
Active student involvement (exploration, guided practice, discussion, cooperative learning, etc) (__25_ minutes) Cooperatively learn to use the methods in guidedpractice then independently practice the use of the methods. We will discuss our responses and how we understood the passage and the question.
Grouping during each phase of the lesson (independent, partner, small group)
Closure10 (_5_ minutes) 3-2-1 exit slips to assess learning and discuss any clarifications they might still need.Monitoring and responding to student learning/understanding 11 As we go through the methods to tackling passage-based reading, Iwill gauge the students understanding of the method by having them put into their own words the method and having them co-create their responses.As we do guided practice, I will provide them additional methods to use in their reading in order get a better understanding of what they read; the intent is to give them more tools to help construct a deeper analysis of the text.After they do independent practice, we will go over responses andcollectively understand why we chose our responses and work to understand how to use our learned methods to tackle the questions.321 exit slips will work to gauge what they learned from the lesson and see what they require as it relates to clarifying parts of the lesson for them. This section might be difficult due to the low reading comprehension that students are perceived to have and so I will have to scaffold much of the reading for them to access the logicof reading and use critical comprehension to access not only the reading but the questions provided.
10 Identify how you will conclude this segment of the lesson.11 How will you adjust the lesson if necessary?
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Procedural Sequence 12 1. Set up Notes for Passage-Based Reading2. Checking for Prior Knowledge on Passage-Based Reading3. Methods for Tackling Passage-based Reading4. Guided practice5. Independent Practice6. Review and Discuss Responses7. 3-2-1 Exit Slip
Reflection after the lesson 13
Your Name: Roberto Rodriguez Saavedra Date and Time of Lesson:Tuesday and Thursday 4-6pm Title: SAT Algebra I Grade Level: 11th Grade Number of Students: 2-5
Standards14:
Objectives15
Students will apply their knowledge of Functions, Simplifying Algebraic Expressions & Absolute Values using an SAT prep worksheet and their SAT prep book to review and practice problems; will complete a 3-2-1- exit slip to check for understanding.
Assessment 16 12 Consider your strategies for: transitions, distributing and collecting materials, selecting groups, ensuring equity when calling on students, etc.13 Consider teaching and student learning with respect to both content and academic language development. What is working? What is not? For whom? Why?How does this reflection inform what you plan to do in the next lesson? 14Include both the number and wording of the standard.15 Identify what students will know (Informational Knowledge) and be able to do (Procedural Knowledge) as a result of this lesson.16 (Formative, summative, formal, informal). At one or more points during thelesson, and at the end of the lesson, how will you know that students have achieved the learning objective(s)?
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Formative Assessments: How confident are you with algebra from 1 to 5:
1 being it’s hard for me, 5 being super confident Review responses and discuss methods to doing the problems 3-2-1 Exit Slip
Summative Assessments: Independent practice on SAT Worksheet Independent practice on SAT Blue Book
Strategies for English Language Learners and Learners with Special NeedsWe will review problems as group and work them out using whiteboards; students will explain their responses to their fellow students.
Materials and ResourcesStudent WorksheetsSAT prep bookWhiteboards and Markers
Instructional Sequence (strategies and learning tasks) 17 Consider the following as applicable:
Introduction, hook and explanation for students of the purpose ofthe lesson (_3_ minutes)
Accessing prior knowledge/building on previous learning (_7_ minutes) Independent Practice of Problems
Teacher involvement (modeling, demonstration, explanation, facilitating discussion, conferencing, etc) (_15_ minutes) Reviewand Discuss Problems and the method to approach the response
Active student involvement (exploration, guided practice, discussion, cooperative learning, etc) (__25_ minutes) Practice, Review and Discuss Problems. Independent Practice in SAT prep book
Grouping during each phase of the lesson (independent, partner, small group)
Closure18 (_5_ minutes)
17 The sequence will vary and should be flexible. 18 Identify how you will conclude this segment of the lesson.
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Monitoring and responding to student learning/understanding 19 As the students do independent practice, I will monitor how they respond to the questions and work through the responses. I will use this as a means of gauging how confident they are in responding to increasingly harder responses. As we review our responses, I will have students correct their responses and copy the step by step process of answering the questions provided. The321 exit slip will check how they understood the lesson and will work to clarify anything that students had difficulty understanding. For most students, math is not seen as a strength so I will have to work with them to create the space where they feel confident in trying problems and making mistakes.
Procedural Sequence 20 1. Assessing Understanding of Algebra2. Independent Practice using an SAT worksheet3. Review and Discuss Answers4. Independent Practice using SAT prep book5. Review and Discuss Answers
Reflection after the lesson 21
Your Name: Roberto Rodriguez SaavedraDate and Time of Lesson: Tuesday and Thursday, 4-6pm
Title: SAT Algebra III Grade Level: 11th Grade Number of Students: 2-5 StudentsStandards22
Objectives23
19 How will you adjust the lesson if necessary? 20 Consider your strategies for: transitions, distributing and collecting materials, selecting groups, ensuring equity when calling on students, etc.21 Consider teaching and student learning with respect to both content and academic language development. What is working? What is not? For whom? Why?How does this reflection inform what you plan to do in the next lesson? 22Include both the number and wording of the standard.23 Identify what students will know (Informational Knowledge) and be able to do (Procedural Knowledge) as a result of this lesson.
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Students will apply their knowledge of Functions, Simplifying Algebraic Expressions & Absolute Values using an SAT prep worksheet and their SAT prep book to review and practice problems.Students will practice their knowledge of Proportions, Variables on Number Lines, Algebraic Word Problems using the SAT prep book and a worksheet to review and practice problems.
Assessment 24 Summative Assessments:
How confident are you with Math, particularly Algebra from 1 to 5:1 being it’s hard for me, 5 being I’m super confident
Review responses and discuss methods to doing problems Exit Slip: What was the biggest take away you got from today’s
lesson? Do you have any questions or clarifications regarding thelesson?Formative Assessments:
Independent practice on SAT Worksheet Independent practice on SAT Blue Book
Strategies for English Language Learners and Learners with Special NeedsWe will review problems as a group and work them out using whiteboards; students will explain their responses to their fellow students.
Materials and ResourcesStudent WorksheetsSAT prep bookWhiteboards and Markers
Instructional Sequence (strategies and learning tasks) 25 Consider the following as applicable:
24 (Formative, summative, formal, informal). At one or more points during thelesson, and at the end of the lesson, how will you know that students have achieved the learning objective(s)?25 The sequence will vary and should be flexible.
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Introduction, hook and explanation for students of the purpose ofthe lesson (_3_ minutes)
Accessing prior knowledge/building on previous learning (_7_ minutes) Independent Practice of Problems
Teacher involvement (modeling, demonstration, explanation, facilitating discussion, conferencing, etc) (_15_ minutes) Reviewand Discuss Problems and the method to approach the response
Active student involvement (exploration, guided practice, discussion, cooperative learning, etc) (_25_ minutes) Practice, Review and Discuss Problems. IndependentPractice in SAT prep book
Grouping during each phase of the lesson (independent, partner, small group)
Closure26 (_5_ minutes)
Monitoring and responding to student learning/understanding 27 As the students do independent practice, I will monitor how they respond to the questions and work through the responses. I will use this as a means of gauging how confident they are in responding to increasingly harder responses. As we review our responses, I will have students correct their responses and copy the step by step process of answering the questions provided. The321 exit slip will check how they understood the lesson and will work to clarify anything that students had difficulty understanding. From the previous lesson, I learned that students do not like math, not because of the difficulty of it, but due more to their negative experience with it and the frustration they felt when they could not develop a proper response. Many of my students are barely in Geometry since they took Algebra I in 9th and Algebra II in 10th so learning that algebra is a big part of the exam provides some confidence for the students.
Procedural Sequence 28 6. Assessing Understanding of Algebra7. Independent Practice using an SAT worksheet
26 Identify how you will conclude this segment of the lesson.27 How will you adjust the lesson if necessary? 28 Consider your strategies for: transitions, distributing and collecting materials, selecting groups, ensuring equity when calling on students, etc.
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8. Review and Discuss Answers9. Independent Practice using SAT prep book10. Review and Discuss Answers
Reflection after the lesson 29
Your Name: Roberto Rodriguez SaavedraDate and Time of Lesson: Tuesday and Thursday, 4-6pm
Title: College Majors, Careers and Funding Grade Level:11th Grade
Number of Students: 2-5 StudentsStandards30
Objectives31
Students will complete a Holland’s Personality Test, pair-share, and use their coding to look over majors they want to or might want to study using a college major sheet.Students will search for scholarships using different scholarshipsearch engines, share one scholarship they found for themselves, and discuss how to apply for the scholarship.
Assessment 32 Summative:
What college would you like to attend? What would you like to study? Why would you like to study that and why that college in particular? If you don’t know, what are some reasons that you feel you don’t know?
Review Personality Test and discuss the possible majors they might want and be able to study based on the Test. Does the Test reflect the student’s initial career orientation and preference?
Exit Slip:
29 Consider teaching and student learning with respect to both content and academic language development. What is working? What is not? For whom? Why?How does this reflection inform what you plan to do in the next lesson? 30Include both the number and wording of the standard.31 Identify what students will know (Informational Knowledge) and be able to do (Procedural Knowledge) as a result of this lesson.32 (Formative, summative, formal, informal). At one or more points during thelesson, and at the end of the lesson, how will you know that students have achieved the learning objective(s)?
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Formative: Holland’s Personality Test. Search for scholarships using different search engines Chose one to apply to based on their personal preference and have
them work to attain the scholarship
Strategies for English Language Learners and Learners with Special Needs
Materials and ResourcesStudent HandbooksStudent Packets with Holland’s Personality TestComputer and AndroidMALDEF Resource Packet
Instructional Sequence (strategies and learning tasks) 33 Consider the following as applicable:
Introduction, hook and explanation for students of the purpose ofthe lesson (_3_ minutes)
Accessing prior knowledge/building on previous learning (_7_ minutes)
Grouping during each phase of the lesson (independent, partner, small group)
Closure34 (_5_ minutes)
Monitoring and responding to student learning/understanding 35 As the students work on the personality test, I will review theirreaction as they circle their responses and after we review theirmajors versus those that they are being told to consider, we willdiscuss agency and how we define our goals and objectives. We will go into searching for scholarships not only for this year
33 The sequence will vary and should be flexible. 34 Identify how you will conclude this segment of the lesson.35 How will you adjust the lesson if necessary?
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but the next to prepare students to know where to search for scholarships and how to get the information necessary to get them. Their view of college is a possibility but as a foreign process due to the fact most students will be the first of their families to go to a college or university.
Procedural Sequence 36 1. Collegiate Plans and Expectations2. Holland’s Personality Test3. Possible Majors versus Preferred Majors4. Searching for Scholarships based on Preference5. Attaining a Scholarship
Reflection after the lesson 37
Your Name: Roberto Rodriguez SaavedraDate and Time of Lesson: Tuesday and Thursday, 4-6pm
Students will engage the lesson using an SAT prep app to answer random questions on Wordiness, Identifying Sentence Errors, and Parallelism.
Students will learn and apply their knowledge of Wordiness, Identifying Sentence Errors, and Parallelism using the SAT prep book; will check for understanding using 3-2-1 exit slip.Assessment 40 36 Consider your strategies for: transitions, distributing and collecting materials, selecting groups, ensuring equity when calling on students, etc.37 Consider teaching and student learning with respect to both content and academic language development. What is working? What is not? For whom? Why?How does this reflection inform what you plan to do in the next lesson? 38Include both the number and wording of the standard.39 Identify what students will know (Informational Knowledge) and be able to do (Procedural Knowledge) as a result of this lesson.40 (Formative, summative, formal, informal). At one or more points during thelesson, and at the end of the lesson, how will you know that students have achieved the learning objective(s)?
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Summative Assessments: Review the Multiple Choice writing Section (Read, Write,
Verbalize, Clarify) Look over question types and apply proper method (Group) 3-2-1 exit slip
Formative Assessments: Practice Different types of Writing section questions.
Strategies for English Language Learners and Learners with Special NeedsWe will write down the methods for each question type. We will goover the structure of the question types to be able to see how these questions are written. Then, we will apply the proper method to the particular question type first as a group then independently. Materials and ResourcesWhiteboard and MarkersPassage Based reading posterSAT Prep bookInstructional Sequence (strategies and learning tasks) 41 Consider the following as applicable:
Introduction, hook and explanation for students of the purpose ofthe lesson (_3_ minutes)
Accessing prior knowledge/building on previous learning (_7_ minutes)
Grouping during each phase of the lesson (independent, partner, small group)
Closure42 (_3_ minutes)
Monitoring and responding to student learning/understanding 43 Based on difficulties with reading comprehension, I have added the point of reading out the sentence for students to be able to
41 The sequence will vary and should be flexible. 42 Identify how you will conclude this segment of the lesson.43 How will you adjust the lesson if necessary?
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hear the mistakes in sentences and also be able to identify the reasoning behind mistakes in sentences. By having guided practicefollowed by independent practice, I intend for them to apply learned methods to their independent practice and review their responses for them to support each others’ academic development. I will use the passage-based poster to connect methods applied inthe writing section with those in the passage based reading questions. The intent is to demonstrate to students that there are methods that can applied not only in this section with these sets of questions but also with those in the Passage based questions.Procedural Sequence 44
1. Accessing knowledge of multiple-choice writing section2. Going over each type of question: Sentence Errors, Parallelism,
and Wordiness:a. Guided Practiceb. Method for each type of questionc. Guided Practiced. Independent Practicee. Review3. Review of Multiple-Choice Writing Section4. 3-2-1 Exit Slip
Reflection after the lesson 45
44 Consider your strategies for: transitions, distributing and collecting materials, selecting groups, ensuring equity when calling on students, etc.45 Consider teaching and student learning with respect to both content and academic language development. What is working? What is not? For whom? Why?How does this reflection inform what you plan to do in the next lesson?
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Your Name: Roberto Rodriguez SaavedraDate and Time of Lesson: Tuesday and Thursday, 4-6pm
Title: Passage Based Reading I Grade Level: 11th Grade
Number of Students: 2-5 StudentsStandards46
Objectives47
Students will review Categorizing Question Types and the 5 Types of PBR Questions using their SAT Prep books and their student handbooks to practice how to rationalize through their responses;will check for understanding using the 3-2-1 exitAssessment 48 Summative Assessments:
Formative Assessments:Strategies for English Language Learners and Learners with Special NeedsWe will write down the methods for each question type. We will goover the structure of the question types to be able to see how these questions are written. Then, we will apply the proper method to the particular question type first as a group then independently.
Materials and ResourcesWhiteboard and MarkersPoster paper and MarkersSAT prep bookStudent handbooksInstructional Sequence (strategies and learning tasks) 49 Consider the following as applicable:
46Include both the number and wording of the standard.47 Identify what students will know (Informational Knowledge) and be able to do (Procedural Knowledge) as a result of this lesson.48 (Formative, summative, formal, informal). At one or more points during thelesson, and at the end of the lesson, how will you know that students have achieved the learning objective(s)?49 The sequence will vary and should be flexible.
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Introduction, hook and explanation for students of the purpose ofthe lesson (_3_ minutes)
Accessing prior knowledge/building on previous learning (_7_ minutes)
Grouping during each phase of the lesson (independent, partner, small group)
Closure50 (_3_ minutes)
Monitoring and responding to student learning/understanding 51 Since the point of the lesson is for students to be able to develop a cognitive connection between the 5 types of questions and methods to use for each type of question, I will monitor the students’ ability to correctly categorize each type of question and then properly respond to the question. The intent is for students to develop confidence in deciphering the kind of question and applying learned logic to their responses. This is intended in developing the critical comprehension that some students have a difficulty accessing due to the limited ask and response method they are use to. My goal is for students to be able to provide me the reasoning behind their response by the endof the lesson.Procedural Sequence 52
1. Accessing Knowledge of Passage-Based Reading2. 5 types of PBR Questions: Categorization Activity3. PBR Question Golden Line Activity4. Categorization Guided Practice5. Application Guided Practice6. Independent Categorization and Application Independent Practice7. Review and Discuss Responses
50 Identify how you will conclude this segment of the lesson.51 How will you adjust the lesson if necessary? 52 Consider your strategies for: transitions, distributing and collecting materials, selecting groups, ensuring equity when calling on students, etc.
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8. 3-2-1 Exit SlipReflection after the lesson 53
Your Name: Roberto Rodriguez SaavedraDate and Time of Lesson: Tuesday and Thursday, 4-6pm
Title: Geometry Grade Level: 11th Grade Number of Students:2-6 studentsStandards54
Objectives55
Students will review and apply their knowledge of Line Relationships, Pythagoras Theorem, Circles, Triangles, and Rectangles using their SAT prep book and a worksheet; will check for understanding using the 3-2-1 exit slip.
Assessment 56 Formative:-Geometry Worksheet: As a group we will go over what the Geometrysection entails through the use of a worksheet and have them workon the given problems individually and review as a group.-Review what the Geometry section entails.Summative:-Practice and Explain Problem: Student will be given a problem and will have to explain the problem to her/his fellow group matesStrategies for English Language Learners and Learners with Special NeedsStudents will be provided white boards and different color markers to explain problems. We will use the learned methods of GUESS and DOGS to practice systematically working on problems by 53 Consider teaching and student learning with respect to both content and academic language development. What is working? What is not? For whom? Why?How does this reflection inform what you plan to do in the next lesson? 54Include both the number and wording of the standard.55 Identify what students will know (Informational Knowledge) and be able to do (Procedural Knowledge) as a result of this lesson.56 (Formative, summative, formal, informal). At one or more points during thelesson, and at the end of the lesson, how will you know that students have achieved the learning objective(s)?
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applying a step by step scaffolded instruction. By working collaboratively, I will apply novice, expert metacognitive group work to have students access each other’s strengths and use theirproblem solving skills to support each others work. Materials and ResourcesWhiteboards and MarkersSAT prep booksGeometry Handout
Instructional Sequence (strategies and learning tasks) 57 Consider the following as applicable:
Introduction, hook and explanation for students of the purpose ofthe lesson (_3_ minutes)
Accessing prior knowledge/building on previous learning (_7_ minutes)
Grouping during each phase of the lesson (independent, partner, small group)
Closure58 (_10_ minutes)
Monitoring and responding to student learning/understanding 59 As the students work on the problems I will observe how they tackle the problems and observe the methods they use to get theirresponse. I will observe how they work to respond to my questionsand their ability to explain their responses. If they have difficulty providing a response, I will give wait time for students to develop a response to provide their fellow group mates. The point of the lesson is to be able to apply the proper methods and critical comprehension of the problems in this section to carry into their examination. This section might be difficult for some students due to them barely taking some of
57 The sequence will vary and should be flexible. 58 Identify how you will conclude this segment of the lesson.59 How will you adjust the lesson if necessary?
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these concepts in their courses as well as the facvt that many students do not feel particularly confident with mathematics.Procedural Sequence 60
1. Overview: How comfortable are you with Geometrya. 1: it’s easy, 5: it’s super hard2. Geometry Worksheet (Guided Practice)3. Practice and Explain Problem (Independent Practice)4. Review Geometry
Reflection after the lesson 61
Your Name: Roberto Rodriguez SaavedraDate and Time of Lesson: Tuesday and Thursday, 4-6pm
Title: Data, Statistics, and Probability Grade Level: 11th Grade Number of Students: 2-6 studentsStandards62
Objectives63
Students will review and apply their knowledge of Mean, Median, Mode, and Average Formula using their SAT prep book and a worksheet; will check for understanding using the 3-2-1 exit slip.
Assessment 64 Formative:Overview and Review what the Data, Statistics, and Probability section entail.Data, Statistics, and Probability Worksheet: We will review the sheet as a group, work on the problems individually, and review our responses as a group.60 Consider your strategies for: transitions, distributing and collecting materials, selecting groups, ensuring equity when calling on students, etc.61 Consider teaching and student learning with respect to both content and academic language development. What is working? What is not? For whom? Why?How does this reflection inform what you plan to do in the next lesson? 62Include both the number and wording of the standard.63 Identify what students will know (Informational Knowledge) and be able to do (Procedural Knowledge) as a result of this lesson.64 (Formative, summative, formal, informal). At one or more points during thelesson, and at the end of the lesson, how will you know that students have achieved the learning objective(s)?
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Summative:Practice and Explain: Students will be given a problem and will explain their response to their fellow group matesStrategies for English Language Learners and Learners with Special Needs
Materials and Resources
Instructional Sequence (strategies and learning tasks) 65 Consider the following as applicable:
Introduction, hook and explanation for students of the purpose ofthe lesson (_3__ minutes)
Accessing prior knowledge/building on previous learning (_7__ minutes)
Grouping during each phase of the lesson (independent, partner, small group)
Closure66 (_10_ minutes)
Monitoring and responding to student learning/understanding 67 As the students work on the problems I will observe how they tackle the problems and observe the methods they use to get theirresponse. I will observe how they work to respond to my questionsand their ability to explain their responses. If they have difficulty providing a response, I will give wait time for students to develop a response to provide their fellow group mates. The point of the lesson is to be able to apply the proper methods and critical comprehension of the problems in this section to carry into their examination. This section requires students to apply plenty of logic that is not usually taught in
65 The sequence will vary and should be flexible. 66 Identify how you will conclude this segment of the lesson.67 How will you adjust the lesson if necessary?
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their curriculum so this section might be difficult for some students especially those who lack confidence in math.
Procedural Sequence 68 1. Overview: what is Data, Statistics, and Probability2. Data, Statistics, and Probability Worksheet (Guided Practice)3. Practice and Explain Problems (Independent Practice)4. Review & Farewell
Reflection after the lesson 69
Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs
68 Consider your strategies for: transitions, distributing and collecting materials, selecting groups, ensuring equity when calling on students, etc.69 Consider teaching and student learning with respect to both content and academic language development. What is working? What is not? For whom? Why?How does this reflection inform what you plan to do in the next lesson?
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Final Survey
Instructions: Please respond to these statements anonymously:Write on the back or a separate sheet of paper if necessary
1) Do you see yourself going to college? Why or why not
2) What are traits or characteristics that you think are important for going to college? List up to 3 and why1)
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3) What are reasons why you or others have been unable to attend the SAT preparation sessions afterschool? List up to 3 reasons1)
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4) How can your academic experience be improved to be ready for college?
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Conference Survey
What did you find valuable about the Youth Conference? Why?
What would you take from this Youth Conference and share back with fellow students?
What would you like to know more about?
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After this experience do you feel more confident about going to college? Why or why not?