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PPPPPararararart It It It It I
Chapter IChapter IChapter IChapter IChapter IWho I Who I Who I
Who I Who I WWWWWas and as and as and as and as and Who SWho SWho
SWho SWho She he he he he WWWWWasasasasas
OOOOOHHHHH, , , , , WHILEWHILEWHILEWHILEWHILE SHESHESHESHESHE
ISISISISIS STILLSTILLSTILLSTILLSTILL HEREHEREHEREHEREHERE, it is
still all right; I go up and, it is still all right; I go up and,
it is still all right; I go up and, it is still all right; I go up
and, it is still all right; I go up and
look at her evlook at her evlook at her evlook at her evlook at
her evererererery minute; but tomorry minute; but tomorry minute;
but tomorry minute; but tomorry minute; but tomorrooooow they will
take herw they will take herw they will take herw they will take
herw they will take her
away and hoaway and hoaway and hoaway and hoaway and how shall I
be left alone? Nw shall I be left alone? Nw shall I be left alone?
Nw shall I be left alone? Nw shall I be left alone? Nooooow she is
on thew she is on thew she is on thew she is on thew she is on
the
table in the drawing-rtable in the drawing-rtable in the
drawing-rtable in the drawing-rtable in the drawing-room, they put
two caroom, they put two caroom, they put two caroom, they put two
caroom, they put two card tables to-d tables to-d tables to-d
tables to-d tables to-
gethergethergethergethergether, the coffin will be her, the
coffin will be her, the coffin will be her, the coffin will be her,
the coffin will be here tomorre tomorre tomorre tomorre
tomorrooooow white, purw white, purw white, purw white, purw white,
pureeeee
white white white white white grgrgrgrgros de Nos de Nos de Nos
de Nos de Naplesaplesaplesaplesaples but that but that but that but
that but thats not it s not it s not it s not it s not it
I keep walking about, tr I keep walking about, tr I keep walking
about, tr I keep walking about, tr I keep walking about, trying to
explain it to myselfying to explain it to myselfying to explain it
to myselfying to explain it to myselfying to explain it to myself.
I. I. I. I. I
havhavhavhavhave been tre been tre been tre been tre been trying
for the last six hours to get it clearying for the last six hours
to get it clearying for the last six hours to get it clearying for
the last six hours to get it clearying for the last six hours to
get it clear, but, but, but, but, but
still I canstill I canstill I canstill I canstill I cant think
of it all as a whole.t think of it all as a whole.t think of it all
as a whole.t think of it all as a whole.t think of it all as a
whole.
The fact is I walk to and frThe fact is I walk to and frThe fact
is I walk to and frThe fact is I walk to and frThe fact is I walk
to and fro, and to and fro, and to and fro, and to and fro, and to
and fro, and to and frooooo.....
This is hoThis is hoThis is hoThis is hoThis is how it was. I
will simply tell it in orw it was. I will simply tell it in orw it
was. I will simply tell it in orw it was. I will simply tell it in
orw it was. I will simply tell it in orderderderderder. (O. (O. (O.
(O. (Orrrrrder!)der!)der!)der!)der!)
G G G G Gentlemen, I am far frentlemen, I am far frentlemen, I
am far frentlemen, I am far frentlemen, I am far from being a
literarom being a literarom being a literarom being a literarom
being a literary man and yy man and yy man and yy man and yy man
and yououououou
will see that; but no matterwill see that; but no matterwill see
that; but no matterwill see that; but no matterwill see that; but
no matter, I, I, I, I, Ill tell it as I understand itll tell it as
I understand itll tell it as I understand itll tell it as I
understand itll tell it as I understand it
myselfmyselfmyselfmyselfmyself. . . . . The horrThe horrThe
horrThe horrThe horror of it for me is that I understand it all!or
of it for me is that I understand it all!or of it for me is that I
understand it all!or of it for me is that I understand it all!or of
it for me is that I understand it all!
I I I I It was, if yt was, if yt was, if yt was, if yt was, if
you carou carou carou carou care to knoe to knoe to knoe to knoe to
knowwwww, that is to take it fr, that is to take it fr, that is to
take it fr, that is to take it fr, that is to take it from theom
theom theom theom the
beginning, that she used to come to me simply to pawnbeginning,
that she used to come to me simply to pawnbeginning, that she used
to come to me simply to pawnbeginning, that she used to come to me
simply to pawnbeginning, that she used to come to me simply to
pawn
things, to pay for advthings, to pay for advthings, to pay for
advthings, to pay for advthings, to pay for advererererertising in
the tising in the tising in the tising in the tising in the
vvvvvoiceoiceoiceoiceoice to the effect that to the effect that to
the effect that to the effect that to the effect that
a goa goa goa goa govvvvverness was quite willing to traverness
was quite willing to traverness was quite willing to traverness was
quite willing to traverness was quite willing to travel, to givel,
to givel, to givel, to givel, to give lessons ate lessons ate
lessons ate lessons ate lessons at
home, and so on, and so on. home, and so on, and so on. home,
and so on, and so on. home, and so on, and so on. home, and so on,
and so on. That was at the vThat was at the vThat was at the vThat
was at the vThat was at the vererererery begin-y begin-y begin-y
begin-y begin-
ning, and I, of course, made no differning, and I, of course,
made no differning, and I, of course, made no differning, and I, of
course, made no differning, and I, of course, made no difference
betwence betwence betwence betwence between her andeen her andeen
her andeen her andeen her and
the others: Sthe others: Sthe others: Sthe others: Sthe others:
She comes, I thought, like any one else,he comes, I thought, like
any one else,he comes, I thought, like any one else,he comes, I
thought, like any one else,he comes, I thought, like any one
else,
and so on.and so on.and so on.and so on.and so on.
B B B B But afterut afterut afterut afterut
afterwarwarwarwarwards I began to see a differds I began to see a
differds I began to see a differds I began to see a differds I
began to see a difference. Sence. Sence. Sence. Sence. She was
suchhe was suchhe was suchhe was suchhe was such
a slendera slendera slendera slendera slender, fair little
thing, rather tall, always a little awk-, fair little thing, rather
tall, always a little awk-, fair little thing, rather tall, always
a little awk-, fair little thing, rather tall, always a little
awk-, fair little thing, rather tall, always a little awk-
warwarwarwarward with me, as though embarrassed (I fancy she was
thed with me, as though embarrassed (I fancy she was thed with me,
as though embarrassed (I fancy she was thed with me, as though
embarrassed (I fancy she was thed with me, as though embarrassed (I
fancy she was the
same with all strangers, and in her eysame with all strangers,
and in her eysame with all strangers, and in her eysame with all
strangers, and in her eysame with all strangers, and in her eyes,
of course, I wases, of course, I wases, of course, I wases, of
course, I wases, of course, I was
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exactly like anybody else that is, not as a pawnbrexactly like
anybody else that is, not as a pawnbrexactly like anybody else that
is, not as a pawnbrexactly like anybody else that is, not as a
pawnbrexactly like anybody else that is, not as a
pawnbrokerokerokerokeroker
but as a man).but as a man).but as a man).but as a man).but as a
man).
As soon as she r As soon as she r As soon as she r As soon as
she r As soon as she receiveceiveceiveceiveceived the money she
would turn red the money she would turn red the money she would
turn red the money she would turn red the money she would turn
roundoundoundoundound
at once and go awayat once and go awayat once and go awayat once
and go awayat once and go away. And always in silence. O. And
always in silence. O. And always in silence. O. And always in
silence. O. And always in silence. Other womenther womenther
womenther womenther women
argue so, entrargue so, entrargue so, entrargue so, entrargue
so, entreat, haggle for me to giveat, haggle for me to giveat,
haggle for me to giveat, haggle for me to giveat, haggle for me to
give them more them more them more them more them more; thise;
thise; thise; thise; this
one did not ask for morone did not ask for morone did not ask
for morone did not ask for morone did not ask for more .e .e .e .e
.
I believ I believ I believ I believ I believe I am muddling it
upe I am muddling it upe I am muddling it upe I am muddling it upe
I am muddling it up.....
YYYYYes; I was stres; I was stres; I was stres; I was stres; I
was struck first of all buck first of all buck first of all buck
first of all buck first of all by the things she bry the things she
bry the things she bry the things she bry the things she
brought:ought:ought:ought:ought:
poor little silvpoor little silvpoor little silvpoor little
silvpoor little silver gilt earrings, a trashy little locket,
thingser gilt earrings, a trashy little locket, thingser gilt
earrings, a trashy little locket, thingser gilt earrings, a trashy
little locket, thingser gilt earrings, a trashy little locket,
things
not wornot wornot wornot wornot worth sixpence. Sth sixpence.
Sth sixpence. Sth sixpence. Sth sixpence. She knehe knehe knehe
knehe knew herself that they ww herself that they ww herself that
they ww herself that they ww herself that they wererererere wore
wore wore wore worththththth
next to nothing, but I could see frnext to nothing, but I could
see frnext to nothing, but I could see frnext to nothing, but I
could see frnext to nothing, but I could see from her face that
theyom her face that theyom her face that theyom her face that
theyom her face that they
wwwwwererererere tre tre tre tre treasureasureasureasureasures
to heres to heres to heres to heres to her, and I found out after,
and I found out after, and I found out after, and I found out
after, and I found out afterwarwarwarwarwards as a factds as a
factds as a factds as a factds as a fact
that they wthat they wthat they wthat they wthat they
wererererere all that was left her belonging to her fathere all
that was left her belonging to her fathere all that was left her
belonging to her fathere all that was left her belonging to her
fathere all that was left her belonging to her father
and motherand motherand motherand motherand mother.....
O O O O Only once I allonly once I allonly once I allonly once I
allonly once I allowwwwwed myself to scoff at her things. ed myself
to scoff at her things. ed myself to scoff at her things. ed myself
to scoff at her things. ed myself to scoff at her things.
YYYYYououououou
see I nevsee I nevsee I nevsee I nevsee I never alloer alloer
alloer alloer allow myself to behavw myself to behavw myself to
behavw myself to behavw myself to behave like that. I keep up ae
like that. I keep up ae like that. I keep up ae like that. I keep
up ae like that. I keep up a
gentlemanly tone with my clients: fegentlemanly tone with my
clients: fegentlemanly tone with my clients: fegentlemanly tone
with my clients: fegentlemanly tone with my clients: few worw worw
worw worw words, politenessds, politenessds, politenessds,
politenessds, politeness
and sevand sevand sevand sevand severityerityerityerityerity. S.
S. S. S. Seveveveveverityerityerityerityerity, sev, sev, sev, sev,
severity!erity!erity!erity!erity!
B B B B But once she vut once she vut once she vut once she vut
once she venturenturenturenturentured to bring her last rag, that
is, liter-ed to bring her last rag, that is, liter-ed to bring her
last rag, that is, liter-ed to bring her last rag, that is,
liter-ed to bring her last rag, that is, liter-
ally the rally the rally the rally the rally the remains of an
old haremains of an old haremains of an old haremains of an old
haremains of an old hareskin jacket, and I could noteskin jacket,
and I could noteskin jacket, and I could noteskin jacket, and I
could noteskin jacket, and I could not
rrrrresist saying something besist saying something besist
saying something besist saying something besist saying something by
way of a joke. My way of a joke. My way of a joke. My way of a
joke. My way of a joke. My goodness!y goodness!y goodness!y
goodness!y goodness!
hohohohohow she flarw she flarw she flarw she flarw she flared
up! Hed up! Hed up! Hed up! Hed up! Her eyer eyer eyer eyer eyes
wes wes wes wes wererererere large, blue and dre large, blue and
dre large, blue and dre large, blue and dre large, blue and
dreamyeamyeamyeamyeamy
but hobut hobut hobut hobut how they blazw they blazw they blazw
they blazw they blazed. Bed. Bed. Bed. Bed. But she did not drut
she did not drut she did not drut she did not drut she did not drop
one worop one worop one worop one worop one word;d;d;d;d;
picking up her picking up her picking up her picking up her
picking up her ragsragsragsragsrags she walked out. she walked out.
she walked out. she walked out. she walked out.
I I I I It was then for the first time I noticed her part was
then for the first time I noticed her part was then for the first
time I noticed her part was then for the first time I noticed her
part was then for the first time I noticed her
particularlyticularlyticularlyticularlyticularly,,,,,
and thought something of the kind about her that it,and thought
something of the kind about her that it,and thought something of
the kind about her that it,and thought something of the kind about
her that it,and thought something of the kind about her that
it,
something of a parsomething of a parsomething of a parsomething
of a parsomething of a particular kind. ticular kind. ticular kind.
ticular kind. ticular kind. YYYYYes, I res, I res, I res, I res, I
remember anotheremember anotheremember anotheremember
anotheremember another
imprimprimprimprimpression that is, if yession that is, if
yession that is, if yession that is, if yession that is, if you
will havou will havou will havou will havou will have it, perhaps
the chiefe it, perhaps the chiefe it, perhaps the chiefe it,
perhaps the chiefe it, perhaps the chief
imprimprimprimprimpression, that summed up evession, that summed
up evession, that summed up evession, that summed up evession, that
summed up everererererything. Iything. Iything. Iything. Iything.
It was that shet was that shet was that shet was that shet was that
she
was terribly ywas terribly ywas terribly ywas terribly ywas
terribly young, so young, so young, so young, so young, so young
that she looked just fouroung that she looked just fouroung that
she looked just fouroung that she looked just fouroung that she
looked just fourteen.teen.teen.teen.teen.
And yAnd yAnd yAnd yAnd yet she was within thret she was within
thret she was within thret she was within thret she was within
three months of sixteen. I didnee months of sixteen. I didnee
months of sixteen. I didnee months of sixteen. I didnee months of
sixteen. I didnttttt
mean that, though, that wasnmean that, though, that wasnmean
that, though, that wasnmean that, though, that wasnmean that,
though, that wasnt what summed it all upt what summed it all upt
what summed it all upt what summed it all upt what summed it all
up. N. N. N. N. Nextextextextext
day she came again. I found out later that she had been today
she came again. I found out later that she had been today she came
again. I found out later that she had been today she came again. I
found out later that she had been today she came again. I found out
later that she had been to
DDDDDobranravobranravobranravobranravobranravooooovvvvvs and to
Ms and to Ms and to Ms and to Ms and to Mozozozozozererererers with
that jacket, but theys with that jacket, but theys with that
jacket, but theys with that jacket, but theys with that jacket, but
they
take nothing but gold and would havtake nothing but gold and
would havtake nothing but gold and would havtake nothing but gold
and would havtake nothing but gold and would have nothing to say to
it.e nothing to say to it.e nothing to say to it.e nothing to say
to it.e nothing to say to it.
I once took some stones frI once took some stones frI once took
some stones frI once took some stones frI once took some stones
from her (rom her (rom her (rom her (rom her (rubbishy little
ones)ubbishy little ones)ubbishy little ones)ubbishy little
ones)ubbishy little ones)
and, thinking it oand, thinking it oand, thinking it oand,
thinking it oand, thinking it ovvvvver afterer afterer afterer
afterer afterwarwarwarwarwards, I wonderds, I wonderds, I wonderds,
I wonderds, I wondered: I, too, onlyed: I, too, onlyed: I, too,
onlyed: I, too, onlyed: I, too, only
lend on gold and silvlend on gold and silvlend on gold and
silvlend on gold and silvlend on gold and silvererererer, y, y, y,
y, yet fret fret fret fret from her I accepted stones.om her I
accepted stones.om her I accepted stones.om her I accepted
stones.om her I accepted stones.
That was my second thought about her then; that I rThat was my
second thought about her then; that I rThat was my second thought
about her then; that I rThat was my second thought about her then;
that I rThat was my second thought about her then; that I
re-e-e-e-e-
membermembermembermembermember. . . . . That time, that is when
she came frThat time, that is when she came frThat time, that is
when she came frThat time, that is when she came frThat time, that
is when she came from Mom Mom Mom Mom
Mozozozozozererererers,s,s,s,s,
she brshe brshe brshe brshe brought an amber cigar-holderought
an amber cigar-holderought an amber cigar-holderought an amber
cigar-holderought an amber cigar-holder. I. I. I. I. It was a
connoisseurt was a connoisseurt was a connoisseurt was a
connoisseurt was a connoisseursssss
arararararticle, not bad, but again, of no vticle, not bad, but
again, of no vticle, not bad, but again, of no vticle, not bad, but
again, of no vticle, not bad, but again, of no value to us, because
walue to us, because walue to us, because walue to us, because
walue to us, because weeeee
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only deal in gold. As it was the day after her only deal in
gold. As it was the day after her only deal in gold. As it was the
day after her only deal in gold. As it was the day after her only
deal in gold. As it was the day after her
mutinymutinymutinymutinymutiny, I, I, I, I, I
rrrrreceiveceiveceiveceiveceived her sternlyed her sternlyed her
sternlyed her sternlyed her sternly. S. S. S. S. Sternness with me
takes the form ofternness with me takes the form ofternness with me
takes the form ofternness with me takes the form ofternness with me
takes the form of
drdrdrdrdryness. As I gavyness. As I gavyness. As I gavyness. As
I gavyness. As I gave her two re her two re her two re her two re
her two roubles, hooubles, hooubles, hooubles, hooubles,
howwwwwevevevevevererererer, I could not, I could not, I could not,
I could not, I could not
rrrrresist saying, with a ceresist saying, with a ceresist
saying, with a ceresist saying, with a ceresist saying, with a
certain irritation, I only do it for ytain irritation, I only do it
for ytain irritation, I only do it for ytain irritation, I only do
it for ytain irritation, I only do it for you,ou,ou,ou,ou,
of course; Mof course; Mof course; Mof course; Mof course;
Mozozozozozer wouldner wouldner wouldner wouldner wouldnt take such
a thing.t take such a thing.t take such a thing.t take such a
thing.t take such a thing.
The worThe worThe worThe worThe word d d d d for yfor yfor yfor
yfor yououououou I emphasised par I emphasised par I emphasised par
I emphasised par I emphasised
particularlyticularlyticularlyticularlyticularly, and with, and
with, and with, and with, and with
a para para para para particular implication.ticular
implication.ticular implication.ticular implication.ticular
implication.
I was spiteful. S I was spiteful. S I was spiteful. S I was
spiteful. S I was spiteful. She flushed up again when she hearhe
flushed up again when she hearhe flushed up again when she hearhe
flushed up again when she hearhe flushed up again when she heard
thatd thatd thatd thatd that
for yfor yfor yfor yfor you, but she did not say a worou, but
she did not say a worou, but she did not say a worou, but she did
not say a worou, but she did not say a word, she did not rd, she
did not rd, she did not rd, she did not rd, she did not
refuseefuseefuseefuseefuse
the moneythe moneythe moneythe moneythe money, she took it that
is po, she took it that is po, she took it that is po, she took it
that is po, she took it that is povvvvverererererty! Bty! Bty! Bty!
Bty! But hout hout hout hout how hotlyw hotlyw hotlyw hotlyw
hotly
she flushed! I saw I had stung hershe flushed! I saw I had stung
hershe flushed! I saw I had stung hershe flushed! I saw I had stung
hershe flushed! I saw I had stung her. And when she had gone. And
when she had gone. And when she had gone. And when she had gone.
And when she had gone
out, I suddenly asked myself whether my triumph oout, I suddenly
asked myself whether my triumph oout, I suddenly asked myself
whether my triumph oout, I suddenly asked myself whether my triumph
oout, I suddenly asked myself whether my triumph
ovvvvvererererer
her was worher was worher was worher was worher was worth two
rth two rth two rth two rth two roubles. Houbles. Houbles. Houbles.
Houbles. He! He! He! He! He! He!! He!! He!! He!! He!! He!!! I re!!!
I re!!! I re!!! I re!!! I remember Iemember Iemember Iemember
Iemember I
put that question to myself twice oput that question to myself
twice oput that question to myself twice oput that question to
myself twice oput that question to myself twice ovvvvvererererer, ,
, , , was is worwas is worwas is worwas is worwas is worth it?th
it?th it?th it?th it?
was it worwas it worwas it worwas it worwas it worth it?th it?th
it?th it?th it?
And, laughing, I inwar And, laughing, I inwar And, laughing, I
inwar And, laughing, I inwar And, laughing, I inwardly answdly
answdly answdly answdly answererererered it in theed it in theed it
in theed it in theed it in the
affirmativaffirmativaffirmativaffirmativaffirmative. And I felt
ve. And I felt ve. And I felt ve. And I felt ve. And I felt
vererererery much elated. By much elated. By much elated. By much
elated. By much elated. But that was notut that was notut that was
notut that was notut that was not
an evil feeling; I said it with design, with a motivan evil
feeling; I said it with design, with a motivan evil feeling; I said
it with design, with a motivan evil feeling; I said it with design,
with a motivan evil feeling; I said it with design, with a motive;
I wantede; I wantede; I wantede; I wantede; I wanted
to test herto test herto test herto test herto test her, because
cer, because cer, because cer, because cer, because certain ideas
with rtain ideas with rtain ideas with rtain ideas with rtain ideas
with regaregaregaregaregard to her hadd to her hadd to her hadd to
her hadd to her had
suddenly come into my mind. suddenly come into my mind. suddenly
come into my mind. suddenly come into my mind. suddenly come into
my mind. That was the thirThat was the thirThat was the thirThat
was the thirThat was the third thing Id thing Id thing Id thing Id
thing I
thought parthought parthought parthought parthought particularly
about her . ticularly about her . ticularly about her . ticularly
about her . ticularly about her . WWWWWell, it was frell, it was
frell, it was frell, it was frell, it was from thatom thatom thatom
thatom that
time it all began. Otime it all began. Otime it all began. Otime
it all began. Otime it all began. Of course, I tried at once to
find out allf course, I tried at once to find out allf course, I
tried at once to find out allf course, I tried at once to find out
allf course, I tried at once to find out all
her cirher cirher cirher cirher circumstances indircumstances
indircumstances indircumstances indircumstances
indirectlyectlyectlyectlyectly, and awaited her coming with, and
awaited her coming with, and awaited her coming with, and awaited
her coming with, and awaited her coming with
a special impatience. I had a pra special impatience. I had a
pra special impatience. I had a pra special impatience. I had a pra
special impatience. I had a presentiment that she wouldesentiment
that she wouldesentiment that she wouldesentiment that she
wouldesentiment that she would
come soon. come soon. come soon. come soon. come soon. When she
came, I enterWhen she came, I enterWhen she came, I enterWhen she
came, I enterWhen she came, I entered into affable conved into
affable conved into affable conved into affable conved into affable
conver-er-er-er-er-
sation with hersation with hersation with hersation with
hersation with her, speaking with unusual politeness. I hav,
speaking with unusual politeness. I hav, speaking with unusual
politeness. I hav, speaking with unusual politeness. I hav,
speaking with unusual politeness. I haveeeee
not been badly brnot been badly brnot been badly brnot been
badly brnot been badly brought up and havought up and havought up
and havought up and havought up and have manners. He manners. He
manners. He manners. He manners. Hm. Im. Im. Im. Im. It wast wast
wast wast was
then I guessed that she was soft-hearthen I guessed that she was
soft-hearthen I guessed that she was soft-hearthen I guessed that
she was soft-hearthen I guessed that she was soft-hearted and
gentle.ted and gentle.ted and gentle.ted and gentle.ted and
gentle.
The gentle and soft-hearThe gentle and soft-hearThe gentle and
soft-hearThe gentle and soft-hearThe gentle and soft-hearted do not
rted do not rted do not rted do not rted do not resist long,
andesist long, andesist long, andesist long, andesist long, and
though they arthough they arthough they arthough they arthough
they are be be be be by no means vy no means vy no means vy no
means vy no means vererererery ry ry ry ry ready to ready to ready
to ready to ready to reveveveveveal them-eal them-eal them-eal
them-eal them-
selvselvselvselvselves, they do not knoes, they do not knoes,
they do not knoes, they do not knoes, they do not know how how how
how how to escape frw to escape frw to escape frw to escape frw to
escape from a convom a convom a convom a convom a
conversa-ersa-ersa-ersa-ersa-
tion; they artion; they artion; they artion; they artion; they
are niggare niggare niggare niggare niggardly in their answdly in
their answdly in their answdly in their answdly in their answers,
but they do an-ers, but they do an-ers, but they do an-ers, but
they do an-ers, but they do an-
swswswswswererererer, and the mor, and the mor, and the mor, and
the mor, and the more re re re re readily the longer yeadily the
longer yeadily the longer yeadily the longer yeadily the longer you
go on. Oou go on. Oou go on. Oou go on. Oou go on.
Onlynlynlynlynly, on, on, on, on, on
yyyyyour side your side your side your side your side you must
not flag, if you must not flag, if you must not flag, if you must
not flag, if you must not flag, if you want them to talk. Iou want
them to talk. Iou want them to talk. Iou want them to talk. Iou
want them to talk. I
need harneed harneed harneed harneed hardly say that she did not
explain anything to medly say that she did not explain anything to
medly say that she did not explain anything to medly say that she
did not explain anything to medly say that she did not explain
anything to me
then. Athen. Athen. Athen. Athen. About the bout the bout the
bout the bout the VVVVVoice and all that I found out afteroice and
all that I found out afteroice and all that I found out afteroice
and all that I found out afteroice and all that I found out
afterwarwarwarwarwards.ds.ds.ds.ds.
SSSSShe was at that time spending her last farhe was at that
time spending her last farhe was at that time spending her last
farhe was at that time spending her last farhe was at that time
spending her last farthing on advthing on advthing on advthing on
advthing on advererererertis-tis-tis-tis-tis-
ing, haughtily at first, of course. ing, haughtily at first, of
course. ing, haughtily at first, of course. ing, haughtily at
first, of course. ing, haughtily at first, of course. A goA goA goA
goA govvvvverness prerness prerness prerness prerness
prepareparepareparepared toed toed toed toed to
travtravtravtravtravel and will send terms on application, but,
later on:el and will send terms on application, but, later on:el
and will send terms on application, but, later on:el and will send
terms on application, but, later on:el and will send terms on
application, but, later on:
willing to do anything, to teach, to be a companion, towilling
to do anything, to teach, to be a companion, towilling to do
anything, to teach, to be a companion, towilling to do anything, to
teach, to be a companion, towilling to do anything, to teach, to be
a companion, to
be a housekeeperbe a housekeeperbe a housekeeperbe a
housekeeperbe a housekeeper, to wait on an inv, to wait on an inv,
to wait on an inv, to wait on an inv, to wait on an invalid, plain
sealid, plain sealid, plain sealid, plain sealid, plain sewing,
andwing, andwing, andwing, andwing, and
so on, and so onso on, and so onso on, and so onso on, and so
onso on, and so on, the usual thing! O, the usual thing! O, the
usual thing! O, the usual thing! O, the usual thing! Of course, all
this wasf course, all this wasf course, all this wasf course, all
this wasf course, all this was
A Gentle Spirit - Dostoevsky
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added to the advadded to the advadded to the advadded to the
advadded to the advererererertisement a bit at a time and
finallytisement a bit at a time and finallytisement a bit at a time
and finallytisement a bit at a time and finallytisement a bit at a
time and finally,,,,,
when she was rwhen she was rwhen she was rwhen she was rwhen she
was reduced to despaireduced to despaireduced to despaireduced to
despaireduced to despair, it came to: , it came to: , it came to: ,
it came to: , it came to: without sal-without sal-without
sal-without sal-without sal-
ararararary in ry in ry in ry in ry in return for boareturn for
boareturn for boareturn for boareturn for board. Nd. Nd. Nd. Nd.
No, she could not find a situa-o, she could not find a situa-o, she
could not find a situa-o, she could not find a situa-o, she could
not find a situa-
tion. I made up my mind then to test her for the last time.tion.
I made up my mind then to test her for the last time.tion. I made
up my mind then to test her for the last time.tion. I made up my
mind then to test her for the last time.tion. I made up my mind
then to test her for the last time.
I suddenly took up the I suddenly took up the I suddenly took up
the I suddenly took up the I suddenly took up the VVVVVoice of the
day and shooice of the day and shooice of the day and shooice of
the day and shooice of the day and showwwwwed her aned her aned her
aned her aned her an
advadvadvadvadvererererertisement. tisement. tisement. tisement.
tisement. A yA yA yA yA young person, without friends and roung
person, without friends and roung person, without friends and roung
person, without friends and roung person, without friends and
rela-ela-ela-ela-ela-
tions, seeks a situation as a gotions, seeks a situation as a
gotions, seeks a situation as a gotions, seeks a situation as a
gotions, seeks a situation as a govvvvverness to yerness to yerness
to yerness to yerness to young childroung childroung childroung
childroung children,en,en,en,en,
prprprprpreferably in the family of a middle-aged widoeferably
in the family of a middle-aged widoeferably in the family of a
middle-aged widoeferably in the family of a middle-aged
widoeferably in the family of a middle-aged widowwwwwererererer. M.
M. M. M. Mightightightightight
be a comforbe a comforbe a comforbe a comforbe a comfort in the
home.t in the home.t in the home.t in the home.t in the home.
Look her Look her Look her Look her Look here hoe hoe hoe hoe
how this lady has advw this lady has advw this lady has advw this
lady has advw this lady has advererererertised this morning,tised
this morning,tised this morning,tised this morning,tised this
morning,
and band band band band by the evy the evy the evy the evy the
evening she will cerening she will cerening she will cerening she
will cerening she will certainly havtainly havtainly havtainly
havtainly have found a situa-e found a situa-e found a situa-e
found a situa-e found a situa-
tion. tion. tion. tion. tion. ThatThatThatThatThats the way to
advs the way to advs the way to advs the way to advs the way to
advererererertise.tise.tise.tise.tise.
Again she flushed crimson and her ey Again she flushed crimson
and her ey Again she flushed crimson and her ey Again she flushed
crimson and her ey Again she flushed crimson and her eyes blazes
blazes blazes blazes blazed, she turneded, she turneded, she
turneded, she turneded, she turned
rrrrround and wound and wound and wound and wound and went
straight out. I was vent straight out. I was vent straight out. I
was vent straight out. I was vent straight out. I was vererererery
much pleased,y much pleased,y much pleased,y much pleased,y much
pleased,
though bthough bthough bthough bthough by that time I felt sury
that time I felt sury that time I felt sury that time I felt sury
that time I felt sure of eve of eve of eve of eve of
everererererything and had noything and had noything and had
noything and had noything and had no
apprapprapprapprapprehensions; nobody will take her
cigar-holders, Iehensions; nobody will take her cigar-holders,
Iehensions; nobody will take her cigar-holders, Iehensions; nobody
will take her cigar-holders, Iehensions; nobody will take her
cigar-holders, I
thought. Bthought. Bthought. Bthought. Bthought. Besides, she
has got rid of them all. And so itesides, she has got rid of them
all. And so itesides, she has got rid of them all. And so itesides,
she has got rid of them all. And so itesides, she has got rid of
them all. And so it
was, two days laterwas, two days laterwas, two days laterwas,
two days laterwas, two days later, she came in again, such a pale
little, she came in again, such a pale little, she came in again,
such a pale little, she came in again, such a pale little, she came
in again, such a pale little
crcrcrcrcreatureatureatureatureature, all agitation I saw that
something had hap-e, all agitation I saw that something had hap-e,
all agitation I saw that something had hap-e, all agitation I saw
that something had hap-e, all agitation I saw that something had
hap-
pened to her at home, and something rpened to her at home, and
something rpened to her at home, and something rpened to her at
home, and something rpened to her at home, and something really
had. I willeally had. I willeally had. I willeally had. I willeally
had. I will
explain direxplain direxplain direxplain direxplain directly
what had happened, but noectly what had happened, but noectly what
had happened, but noectly what had happened, but noectly what had
happened, but now I only wantw I only wantw I only wantw I only
wantw I only want
to rto rto rto rto recall hoecall hoecall hoecall hoecall how I
did something chic, and rw I did something chic, and rw I did
something chic, and rw I did something chic, and rw I did something
chic, and rose in her opin-ose in her opin-ose in her opin-ose in
her opin-ose in her opin-
ion. I suddenly decided to do it. ion. I suddenly decided to do
it. ion. I suddenly decided to do it. ion. I suddenly decided to do
it. ion. I suddenly decided to do it. The fact is she was pawn-The
fact is she was pawn-The fact is she was pawn-The fact is she was
pawn-The fact is she was pawn-
ing the ikon (she had bring the ikon (she had bring the ikon
(she had bring the ikon (she had bring the ikon (she had brought
herself to pawn it!) . Ah!ought herself to pawn it!) . Ah!ought
herself to pawn it!) . Ah!ought herself to pawn it!) . Ah!ought
herself to pawn it!) . Ah!
listen! listen! listen! listen! listen! listen! listen! listen!
listen! listen! This is the beginning noThis is the beginning
noThis is the beginning noThis is the beginning noThis is the
beginning nowwwww, I, I, I, I, Ivvvvve been in ae been in ae been
in ae been in ae been in a
muddle. muddle. muddle. muddle. muddle. YYYYYou see I want to
rou see I want to rou see I want to rou see I want to rou see I
want to recall all this, evecall all this, evecall all this,
evecall all this, evecall all this, evererererery detail, evy
detail, evy detail, evy detail, evy detail, everererereryyyyy
little point. I want to bring them all together and look
atlittle point. I want to bring them all together and look atlittle
point. I want to bring them all together and look atlittle point. I
want to bring them all together and look atlittle point. I want to
bring them all together and look at
them as a whole and I cannot . Ithem as a whole and I cannot .
Ithem as a whole and I cannot . Ithem as a whole and I cannot .
Ithem as a whole and I cannot . Ittttts these little things,s these
little things,s these little things,s these little things,s these
little things,
these little things . Ithese little things . Ithese little
things . Ithese little things . Ithese little things . It was an
ikon of the Mt was an ikon of the Mt was an ikon of the Mt was an
ikon of the Mt was an ikon of the Madonna. Aadonna. Aadonna.
Aadonna. Aadonna. A
MMMMMadonna with the Badonna with the Badonna with the Badonna
with the Badonna with the Babe, and old-fashioned, homely one,abe,
and old-fashioned, homely one,abe, and old-fashioned, homely
one,abe, and old-fashioned, homely one,abe, and old-fashioned,
homely one,
and the setting was silvand the setting was silvand the setting
was silvand the setting was silvand the setting was silver gilt,
worer gilt, worer gilt, worer gilt, worer gilt, worth wth wth wth
wth well, six rell, six rell, six rell, six rell, six
roublesoublesoublesoublesoubles
perhaps. I could see the ikon was prperhaps. I could see the
ikon was prperhaps. I could see the ikon was prperhaps. I could see
the ikon was prperhaps. I could see the ikon was precious to her;
she wasecious to her; she wasecious to her; she wasecious to her;
she wasecious to her; she was
pawning it whole, not taking it out of the setting. I said
topawning it whole, not taking it out of the setting. I said
topawning it whole, not taking it out of the setting. I said
topawning it whole, not taking it out of the setting. I said
topawning it whole, not taking it out of the setting. I said to
her her her her her
YYYYYou had better take it out of the setting, and take theou
had better take it out of the setting, and take theou had better
take it out of the setting, and take theou had better take it out
of the setting, and take theou had better take it out of the
setting, and take the
ikon home; for itikon home; for itikon home; for itikon home;
for itikon home; for its not the thing to pawn.s not the thing to
pawn.s not the thing to pawn.s not the thing to pawn.s not the
thing to pawn.
WhyWhyWhyWhyWhy, ar, ar, ar, ar, are ye ye ye ye you forbidden
to take them?ou forbidden to take them?ou forbidden to take them?ou
forbidden to take them?ou forbidden to take them?
N N N N No, ito, ito, ito, ito, its not that ws not that ws not
that ws not that ws not that we are are are are are forbidden, but
ye forbidden, but ye forbidden, but ye forbidden, but ye forbidden,
but you might, per-ou might, per-ou might, per-ou might, per-ou
might, per-
haps, yhaps, yhaps, yhaps, yhaps, yourself ourself ourself
ourself ourself
WWWWWell, take it out.ell, take it out.ell, take it out.ell,
take it out.ell, take it out.
I tell y I tell y I tell y I tell y I tell you what. I will not
take it out, but Iou what. I will not take it out, but Iou what. I
will not take it out, but Iou what. I will not take it out, but Iou
what. I will not take it out, but Ill set it herll set it herll set
it herll set it herll set it hereeeee
in the shrine with the other ikons, I said, on rin the shrine
with the other ikons, I said, on rin the shrine with the other
ikons, I said, on rin the shrine with the other ikons, I said, on
rin the shrine with the other ikons, I said, on
reflection.eflection.eflection.eflection.eflection.
A Gentle Spirit - Dostoevsky
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UUUUUnder the little lampnder the little lampnder the little
lampnder the little lampnder the little lamp (I always had the lamp
burning as (I always had the lamp burning as (I always had the lamp
burning as (I always had the lamp burning as (I always had the lamp
burning as
soon as the shop was opened), soon as the shop was opened), soon
as the shop was opened), soon as the shop was opened), soon as the
shop was opened), and yand yand yand yand you simply take tenou
simply take tenou simply take tenou simply take tenou simply take
ten
rrrrroubles.oubles.oubles.oubles.oubles.
D D D D Dononononont givt givt givt givt give me ten re me ten
re me ten re me ten re me ten roubles. I only want fivoubles. I
only want fivoubles. I only want fivoubles. I only want fivoubles.
I only want five; I shall cer-e; I shall cer-e; I shall cer-e; I
shall cer-e; I shall cer-
tainly rtainly rtainly rtainly rtainly redeem it.edeem it.edeem
it.edeem it.edeem it.
YYYYYou donou donou donou donou dont want ten? t want ten? t
want ten? t want ten? t want ten? The ikonThe ikonThe ikonThe
ikonThe ikons wors wors wors wors worth it, I added no-th it, I
added no-th it, I added no-th it, I added no-th it, I added no-
ticing that her eyticing that her eyticing that her eyticing
that her eyticing that her eyes flashed again.es flashed again.es
flashed again.es flashed again.es flashed again.
S S S S She was silent. I brhe was silent. I brhe was silent. I
brhe was silent. I brhe was silent. I brought out fivought out
fivought out fivought out fivought out five re re re re
roubles.oubles.oubles.oubles.oubles.
D D D D Dononononont despise any one; It despise any one; It
despise any one; It despise any one; It despise any one; Ivvvvve
been in such straits myself;e been in such straits myself;e been in
such straits myself;e been in such straits myself;e been in such
straits myself;
and worse too, and that yand worse too, and that yand worse too,
and that yand worse too, and that yand worse too, and that you see
me herou see me herou see me herou see me herou see me here in this
businesse in this businesse in this businesse in this businesse in
this business
is o is o is o is o is owing to what Iwing to what Iwing to what
Iwing to what Iwing to what Ivvvvve been thre been thre been thre
been thre been through in the past .ough in the past .ough in the
past .ough in the past .ough in the past .
YYYYYououououourrrrre re re re re revevevevevenging yenging
yenging yenging yenging yourself on the world? ourself on the
world? ourself on the world? ourself on the world? ourself on the
world? YYYYYes? she inter-es? she inter-es? she inter-es? she
inter-es? she inter-
rrrrrupted suddenly with rather sarupted suddenly with rather
sarupted suddenly with rather sarupted suddenly with rather
sarupted suddenly with rather sarcastic mockercastic mockercastic
mockercastic mockercastic mockeryyyyy, which, ho, which, ho, which,
ho, which, ho, which, how-w-w-w-w-
evevevevevererererer, was to a gr, was to a gr, was to a gr, was
to a gr, was to a great extent innocent (that is, it was
general,eat extent innocent (that is, it was general,eat extent
innocent (that is, it was general,eat extent innocent (that is, it
was general,eat extent innocent (that is, it was general,
because cerbecause cerbecause cerbecause cerbecause certainly at
that time she did not distinguish metainly at that time she did not
distinguish metainly at that time she did not distinguish metainly
at that time she did not distinguish metainly at that time she did
not distinguish me
frfrfrfrfrom others, so that she said it almost without
malice).om others, so that she said it almost without malice).om
others, so that she said it almost without malice).om others, so
that she said it almost without malice).om others, so that she said
it almost without malice).
Aha, thought I; Aha, thought I; Aha, thought I; Aha, thought I;
Aha, thought I; so thatso thatso thatso thatso thats what ys what
ys what ys what ys what yououououourrrrre like. e like. e like. e
like. e like. YYYYYouououououvvvvve gote gote gote gote got
character; ycharacter; ycharacter; ycharacter; ycharacter; you
belong to the neou belong to the neou belong to the neou belong to
the neou belong to the new mow mow mow mow
movvvvvement.ement.ement.ement.ement.
YYYYYou see! I rou see! I rou see! I rou see! I rou see! I
remaremaremaremaremarked at once, half-jestinglyked at once,
half-jestinglyked at once, half-jestinglyked at once,
half-jestinglyked at once, half-jestingly, half-mys-, half-mys-,
half-mys-, half-mys-, half-mys-
teriouslyteriouslyteriouslyteriouslyteriously, I am par, I am
par, I am par, I am par, I am part of that part of that part of
that part of that part of that part of the t of the t of the t of
the t of the Whole that seeks toWhole that seeks toWhole that seeks
toWhole that seeks toWhole that seeks to
do ill, but does good .do ill, but does good .do ill, but does
good .do ill, but does good .do ill, but does good .
Q Q Q Q Quickly and with gruickly and with gruickly and with
gruickly and with gruickly and with great curiosityeat curiosityeat
curiosityeat curiosityeat curiosity, in which , ho, in which , ho,
in which , ho, in which , ho, in which ,
howwwwwevevevevevererererer,,,,,
thertherthertherthere was something ve was something ve was
something ve was something ve was something vererererery childlike,
she looked at me.y childlike, she looked at me.y childlike, she
looked at me.y childlike, she looked at me.y childlike, she looked
at me.
S S S S Stay whattay whattay whattay whattay whats that idea? s
that idea? s that idea? s that idea? s that idea?
WherWherWherWherWhere does it come fre does it come fre does it
come fre does it come fre does it come from? Iom? Iom? Iom? Iom?
Ivvvvveeeee
hearhearhearhearheard it somed it somed it somed it somed it
somewherwherwherwherwhere e e e e
D D D D Dononononont rack yt rack yt rack yt rack yt rack your
brains. Iour brains. Iour brains. Iour brains. Iour brains. In
those worn those worn those worn those worn those words Mds Mds Mds
Mds
Mephistophelesephistophelesephistophelesephistophelesephistopheles
intrintrintrintrintroduces himself to Foduces himself to Foduces
himself to Foduces himself to Foduces himself to Faust. Haust.
Haust. Haust. Haust. Havavavavave ye ye ye ye you rou rou rou rou
read Fead Fead Fead Fead Faust?aust?aust?aust?aust?
N N N N Not not attentivot not attentivot not attentivot not
attentivot not attentivelyelyelyelyely.....
That is, yThat is, yThat is, yThat is, yThat is, you havou havou
havou havou have not re not re not re not re not read it at all.
ead it at all. ead it at all. ead it at all. ead it at all. YYYYYou
must rou must rou must rou must rou must read it.ead it.ead it.ead
it.ead it.
BBBBBut I see an irut I see an irut I see an irut I see an irut
I see an ironical look in yonical look in yonical look in yonical
look in yonical look in your face again. Pour face again. Pour face
again. Pour face again. Pour face again. Please donlease donlease
donlease donlease donttttt
imagine that Iimagine that Iimagine that Iimagine that Iimagine
that Ivvvvve so l ittle taste as to tre so l ittle taste as to tre
so l ittle taste as to tre so l ittle taste as to tre so l ittle
taste as to try to usey to usey to usey to usey to use
MMMMMephistopheles to commend myself to yephistopheles to
commend myself to yephistopheles to commend myself to
yephistopheles to commend myself to yephistopheles to commend
myself to you and grace theou and grace theou and grace theou and
grace theou and grace the
rrrrrole of pawnbrole of pawnbrole of pawnbrole of pawnbrole of
pawnbrokerokerokerokeroker. A pawnbr. A pawnbr. A pawnbr. A pawnbr.
A pawnbroker will still be a pawnbroker will still be a pawnbroker
will still be a pawnbroker will still be a pawnbroker will still be
a pawnbro-o-o-o-o-
kerkerkerkerker. . . . . WWWWWe knoe knoe knoe knoe
knowwwww.....
YYYYYououououourrrrre so strange I didne so strange I didne so
strange I didne so strange I didne so strange I didnt mean to say
anything oft mean to say anything oft mean to say anything oft mean
to say anything oft mean to say anything of
that sorthat sorthat sorthat sorthat sort.t.t.t.t.
S S S S She meant to say: I didnhe meant to say: I didnhe meant
to say: I didnhe meant to say: I didnhe meant to say: I didnt
expect to find yt expect to find yt expect to find yt expect to
find yt expect to find you wou wou wou wou wererererere ane ane ane
ane an
educated maneducated maneducated maneducated maneducated man;
but she didn; but she didn; but she didn; but she didn; but she
didnt say it; I knet say it; I knet say it; I knet say it; I knet
say it; I knewwwww, though, that, though, that, though, that,
though, that, though, that
she thought that. I had pleased her vshe thought that. I had
pleased her vshe thought that. I had pleased her vshe thought that.
I had pleased her vshe thought that. I had pleased her vererererery
much.y much.y much.y much.y much.
YYYYYou see, I obserou see, I obserou see, I obserou see, I
obserou see, I observvvvved, Oed, Oed, Oed, Oed, One may do good in
any callingne may do good in any callingne may do good in any
callingne may do good in any callingne may do good in any
calling
I I I I Im not speaking of myselfm not speaking of myselfm not
speaking of myselfm not speaking of myselfm not speaking of myself,
of course. Let us grant that, of course. Let us grant that, of
course. Let us grant that, of course. Let us grant that, of course.
Let us grant that
IIIIIm doing nothing but harm, ym doing nothing but harm, ym
doing nothing but harm, ym doing nothing but harm, ym doing nothing
but harm, yet et et et et
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O O O O Of course, one can do good in evf course, one can do
good in evf course, one can do good in evf course, one can do good
in evf course, one can do good in evererererery position, she
said,y position, she said,y position, she said,y position, she
said,y position, she said,
glancing at me with a rapid, prglancing at me with a rapid,
prglancing at me with a rapid, prglancing at me with a rapid,
prglancing at me with a rapid, profound look. ofound look. ofound
look. ofound look. ofound look. YYYYYes, in anyes, in anyes, in
anyes, in anyes, in any
position, she added suddenlyposition, she added
suddenlyposition, she added suddenlyposition, she added
suddenlyposition, she added suddenly.....
O O O O Oh, I rh, I rh, I rh, I rh, I
rememberememberememberememberemember, I r, I r, I r, I r, I
remember all those moments! And Iemember all those moments! And
Iemember all those moments! And Iemember all those moments! And
Iemember all those moments! And I
want to add, too, that when such ywant to add, too, that when
such ywant to add, too, that when such ywant to add, too, that when
such ywant to add, too, that when such young croung croung croung
croung creatureatureatureatureatures, suches, suches, suches,
suches, such
swswswswsweet yeet yeet yeet yeet young croung croung croung
croung creatureatureatureatureatures want to say something so
cleves want to say something so cleves want to say something so
cleves want to say something so cleves want to say something so
clever ander ander ander ander and
prprprprprofound, they shoofound, they shoofound, they
shoofound, they shoofound, they show at once so trw at once so trw
at once so trw at once so trw at once so truthfully and
naivuthfully and naivuthfully and naivuthfully and naivuthfully and
naively inely inely inely inely in
their faces, Htheir faces, Htheir faces, Htheir faces, Htheir
faces, Hererererere I am saying something cleve I am saying
something cleve I am saying something cleve I am saying something
cleve I am saying something clever and prer and prer and prer and
prer and pro-o-o-o-o-
found nofound nofound nofound nofound nowwwww and that is not fr
and that is not fr and that is not fr and that is not fr and that
is not from vom vom vom vom vanityanityanityanityanity, as it is
with any, as it is with any, as it is with any, as it is with any,
as it is with any
one like me, but one sees that she approne like me, but one sees
that she approne like me, but one sees that she approne like me,
but one sees that she approne like me, but one sees that she
appreciates it awfullyeciates it awfullyeciates it awfullyeciates
it awfullyeciates it awfully
herselfherselfherselfherselfherself, and believ, and believ, and
believ, and believ, and believes in it, and thinks a lot of it, and
imag-es in it, and thinks a lot of it, and imag-es in it, and
thinks a lot of it, and imag-es in it, and thinks a lot of it, and
imag-es in it, and thinks a lot of it, and imag-
ines that yines that yines that yines that yines that you think
a lot of all that, just as she does. Oou think a lot of all that,
just as she does. Oou think a lot of all that, just as she does.
Oou think a lot of all that, just as she does. Oou think a lot of
all that, just as she does. Oh,h,h,h,h,
trtrtrtrtruthfulness! ituthfulness! ituthfulness! ituthfulness!
ituthfulness! its bs bs bs bs by that they conquer us. Hy that they
conquer us. Hy that they conquer us. Hy that they conquer us. Hy
that they conquer us. Hooooow exw exw exw exw exquisite itquisite
itquisite itquisite itquisite it
was in her!was in her!was in her!was in her!was in her!
I r I r I r I r I remember it, I havemember it, I havemember it,
I havemember it, I havemember it, I have forgotten nothing! As soon
as shee forgotten nothing! As soon as shee forgotten nothing! As
soon as shee forgotten nothing! As soon as shee forgotten nothing!
As soon as she
had gone, I made up my mind. had gone, I made up my mind. had
gone, I made up my mind. had gone, I made up my mind. had gone, I
made up my mind. That same day I made myThat same day I made myThat
same day I made myThat same day I made myThat same day I made
my
last invlast invlast invlast invlast investigations and found
out evestigations and found out evestigations and found out
evestigations and found out evestigations and found out
evererererery detail of her posi-y detail of her posi-y detail of
her posi-y detail of her posi-y detail of her posi-
tion at the moment; evtion at the moment; evtion at the moment;
evtion at the moment; evtion at the moment; evererererery detail of
her past I had learnedy detail of her past I had learnedy detail of
her past I had learnedy detail of her past I had learnedy detail of
her past I had learned
alralralralralready fready fready fready fready from Lom Lom Lom
Lom Lukerukerukerukerukerya, at that time a serya, at that time a
serya, at that time a serya, at that time a serya, at that time a
servvvvvant in the familyant in the familyant in the familyant in
the familyant in the family,,,,,
whom I had bribed a fewhom I had bribed a fewhom I had bribed a
fewhom I had bribed a fewhom I had bribed a few days beforw days
beforw days beforw days beforw days before. e. e. e. e. This
position was soThis position was soThis position was soThis
position was soThis position was so
awful that I canawful that I canawful that I canawful that I
canawful that I cant understand hot understand hot understand hot
understand hot understand how she could laugh as shew she could
laugh as shew she could laugh as shew she could laugh as shew she
could laugh as she
had done that day and feel interhad done that day and feel
interhad done that day and feel interhad done that day and feel
interhad done that day and feel interest in the worest in the
worest in the worest in the worest in the words ofds ofds ofds ofds
of
MMMMMephistopheles, when she was in such horrible straits.
Bephistopheles, when she was in such horrible straits.
Bephistopheles, when she was in such horrible straits.
Bephistopheles, when she was in such horrible straits.
Bephistopheles, when she was in such horrible straits.
Bututututut
that that that that thats ys ys ys ys youth! outh! outh! outh!
outh! That is just what I thought about her atThat is just what I
thought about her atThat is just what I thought about her atThat is
just what I thought about her atThat is just what I thought about
her at
the time with pride and jothe time with pride and jothe time
with pride and jothe time with pride and jothe time with pride and
joy; fory; fory; fory; fory; for, y, y, y, y, you knoou knoou knoou
knoou knowwwww, ther, ther, ther, ther, thereeeees a grs a grs a
grs a grs a great-eat-eat-eat-eat-
ness of soul in it to be able to sayness of soul in it to be
able to sayness of soul in it to be able to sayness of soul in it
to be able to sayness of soul in it to be able to say, , , , ,
Though I am on theThough I am on theThough I am on theThough I am
on theThough I am on the
edge of the abedge of the abedge of the abedge of the abedge of
the abyss, yyss, yyss, yyss, yyss, yet Get Get Get Get
Goetheoetheoetheoetheoethes grand wors grand wors grand wors grand
wors grand words ards ards ards ards are radiant withe radiant
withe radiant withe radiant withe radiant with
light. light. light. light. light. YYYYYouth always has some
grouth always has some grouth always has some grouth always has
some grouth always has some greatness of soul, if its onlyeatness
of soul, if its onlyeatness of soul, if its onlyeatness of soul, if
its onlyeatness of soul, if its only
a spara spara spara spara spark and that distork and that
distork and that distork and that distork and that distorted. ted.
ted. ted. ted. Though itThough itThough itThough itThough its of
her I am speak-s of her I am speak-s of her I am speak-s of her I
am speak-s of her I am speak-
ing, of her alone. And, aboing, of her alone. And, aboing, of
her alone. And, aboing, of her alone. And, aboing, of her alone.
And, abovvvvve all, I looked upon her then ase all, I looked upon
her then ase all, I looked upon her then ase all, I looked upon her
then ase all, I looked upon her then as
mine and did not doubt of my pomine and did not doubt of my
pomine and did not doubt of my pomine and did not doubt of my
pomine and did not doubt of my powwwwwererererer. . . . . YYYYYou
knoou knoou knoou knoou knowwwww, that, that, that, that, thats as
as as as a
vvvvvoluptuous idea when yoluptuous idea when yoluptuous idea
when yoluptuous idea when yoluptuous idea when you feel no doubt of
it.ou feel no doubt of it.ou feel no doubt of it.ou feel no doubt
of it.ou feel no doubt of it.
B B B B But what is the matter with me? Iut what is the matter
with me? Iut what is the matter with me? Iut what is the matter
with me? Iut what is the matter with me? If I go on like this,f I
go on like this,f I go on like this,f I go on like this,f I go on
like this,
when shall I put it all together and look at it as a whole.
Iwhen shall I put it all together and look at it as a whole. Iwhen
shall I put it all together and look at it as a whole. Iwhen shall
I put it all together and look at it as a whole. Iwhen shall I put
it all together and look at it as a whole. I
must make haste, make haste that is not what matters,must make
haste, make haste that is not what matters,must make haste, make
haste that is not what matters,must make haste, make haste that is
not what matters,must make haste, make haste that is not what
matters,
oh, my Goh, my Goh, my Goh, my Goh, my God!od!od!od!od!
Chapter IIChapter IIChapter IIChapter IIChapter IIThe OThe OThe
OThe OThe Offer of Mffer of Mffer of Mffer of Mffer of
Marriagearriagearriagearriagearriage
TTTTTHEHEHEHEHE DETDETDETDETDETAILSAILSAILSAILSAILS I I I I I
LEARNEDLEARNEDLEARNEDLEARNEDLEARNED ABOUTABOUTABOUTABOUTABOUT
HERHERHERHERHER I will tell in one wor I will tell in one wor I
will tell in one wor I will tell in one wor I will tell in one
word:d:d:d:d:
her father and mother wher father and mother wher father and
mother wher father and mother wher father and mother wererererere
dead, they had died thre dead, they had died thre dead, they had
died thre dead, they had died thre dead, they had died three yee
yee yee yee yearsearsearsearsears
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beforbeforbeforbeforbefore, and she had been left with two
disre, and she had been left with two disre, and she had been left
with two disre, and she had been left with two disre, and she had
been left with two disreputable aunts:eputable aunts:eputable
aunts:eputable aunts:eputable aunts:
though it is saying too little to call them disrthough it is
saying too little to call them disrthough it is saying too little
to call them disrthough it is saying too little to call them
disrthough it is saying too little to call them disreputable.
Oeputable. Oeputable. Oeputable. Oeputable. Onenenenene
aunt was a widoaunt was a widoaunt was a widoaunt was a widoaunt
was a widow with a large family (six childrw with a large family
(six childrw with a large family (six childrw with a large family
(six childrw with a large family (six children, oneen, oneen,
oneen, oneen, one
smaller than another), the other a horrid old maid. Bothsmaller
than another), the other a horrid old maid. Bothsmaller than
another), the other a horrid old maid. Bothsmaller than another),
the other a horrid old maid. Bothsmaller than another), the other a
horrid old maid. Both
wwwwwererererere horrid. He horrid. He horrid. He horrid. He
horrid. Her father was in the serer father was in the serer father
was in the serer father was in the serer father was in the service,
but only as avice, but only as avice, but only as avice, but only
as avice, but only as a
copying clercopying clercopying clercopying clercopying clerk,
and was only a gentleman bk, and was only a gentleman bk, and was
only a gentleman bk, and was only a gentleman bk, and was only a
gentleman by coury coury coury coury courtesy; intesy; intesy;
intesy; intesy; in
fact, evfact, evfact, evfact, evfact, everererererything was in
my favything was in my favything was in my favything was in my
favything was in my favourourourourour. I came as though fr. I came
as though fr. I came as though fr. I came as though fr. I came as
though from aom aom aom aom a
higher world; I was anyway a rhigher world; I was anyway a
rhigher world; I was anyway a rhigher world; I was anyway a rhigher
world; I was anyway a retiretiretiretiretired lieutenant of a
bril-ed lieutenant of a bril-ed lieutenant of a bril-ed lieutenant
of a bril-ed lieutenant of a bril-
liant rliant rliant rliant rliant regiment, a gentleman
begiment, a gentleman begiment, a gentleman begiment, a gentleman
begiment, a gentleman by biry biry biry biry birth, independent and
allth, independent and allth, independent and allth, independent
and allth, independent and all
the rthe rthe rthe rthe rest of it, and as for my pawnbrest of
it, and as for my pawnbrest of it, and as for my pawnbrest of it,
and as for my pawnbrest of it, and as for my
pawnbrokerokerokerokerokers shops shops shops shops shop, her
aunts, her aunts, her aunts, her aunts, her aunts
could only havcould only havcould only havcould only havcould
only have looked on that with re looked on that with re looked on
that with re looked on that with re looked on that with respect.
Sespect. Sespect. Sespect. Sespect. She had beenhe had beenhe had
beenhe had beenhe had been
living in slavliving in slavliving in slavliving in slavliving
in slavererererery at her auntsy at her auntsy at her auntsy at her
auntsy at her aunts for those thr for those thr for those thr for
those thr for those three yee yee yee yee years: years: years:
years: years: yet sheet sheet sheet sheet she
had managed to pass an examination somehad managed to pass an
examination somehad managed to pass an examination somehad managed
to pass an examination somehad managed to pass an examination
somewherwherwherwherwhere - shee - shee - shee - shee - she
managed to pass it, she wrmanaged to pass it, she wrmanaged to
pass it, she wrmanaged to pass it, she wrmanaged to pass it, she
wrung the time for it, wung the time for it, wung the time for it,
wung the time for it, wung the time for it,
weighedeighedeighedeighedeighed
dododododown as a she was bwn as a she was bwn as a she was bwn
as a she was bwn as a she was by the pitiless bury the pitiless
bury the pitiless bury the pitiless bury the pitiless burden of
daily drden of daily drden of daily drden of daily drden of daily
drudgerudgerudgerudgerudgeryyyyy,,,,,
and that prand that prand that prand that prand that
prooooovvvvved something in the way of striving for whated
something in the way of striving for whated something in the way of
striving for whated something in the way of striving for whated
something in the way of striving for what
was higher and better on her parwas higher and better on her
parwas higher and better on her parwas higher and better on her
parwas higher and better on her part! t! t! t! t! WhyWhyWhyWhyWhy,
what made me, what made me, what made me, what made me, what made
me
want to marrwant to marrwant to marrwant to marrwant to marry
her? Ny her? Ny her? Ny her? Ny her? Nevevevevever mind me, though;
of that laterer mind me, though; of that laterer mind me, though;
of that laterer mind me, though; of that laterer mind me, though;
of that later
on As though that matteron As though that matteron As though
that matteron As though that matteron As though that mattered! Sed!
Sed! Sed! Sed! She taught her aunthe taught her aunthe taught her
aunthe taught her aunthe taught her auntsssss
childrchildrchildrchildrchildren; she made their clothes; and
toen; she made their clothes; and toen; she made their clothes; and
toen; she made their clothes; and toen; she made their clothes; and
towarwarwarwarwards the end notds the end notds the end notds the
end notds the end not
only washed the clothes, but with her wonly washed the clothes,
but with her wonly washed the clothes, but with her wonly washed
the clothes, but with her wonly washed the clothes, but with her
weak chest eveak chest eveak chest eveak chest eveak chest
evenenenenen
scrscrscrscrscrubbed the floors. ubbed the floors. ubbed the
floors. ubbed the floors. ubbed the floors. TTTTTo put it plainlyo
put it plainlyo put it plainlyo put it plainlyo put it plainly,
they used to beat her, they used to beat her, they used to beat
her, they used to beat her, they used to beat her,,,,,
and taunt her with eating their brand taunt her with eating
their brand taunt her with eating their brand taunt her with eating
their brand taunt her with eating their bread. Iead. Iead. Iead.
Iead. It ended bt ended bt ended bt ended bt ended by theiry theiry
theiry theiry their
scheming to sell herscheming to sell herscheming to sell
herscheming to sell herscheming to sell her. . . . . Tfoo! I omit
the filthy details. STfoo! I omit the filthy details. STfoo! I omit
the filthy details. STfoo! I omit the filthy details. STfoo! I omit
the filthy details. Shehehehehe
told me all about it aftertold me all about it aftertold me all
about it aftertold me all about it aftertold me all about it
afterwarwarwarwarwards.ds.ds.ds.ds.
All this had been watched for a whole y All this had been
watched for a whole y All this had been watched for a whole y All
this had been watched for a whole y All this had been watched for a
whole year bear bear bear bear by a neighboury a neighboury a
neighboury a neighboury a neighbour,,,,,
a fat shopkeepera fat shopkeepera fat shopkeepera fat
shopkeepera fat shopkeeper, and not a humble one but the o, and not
a humble one but the o, and not a humble one but the o, and not a
humble one but the o, and not a humble one but the owner ofwner
ofwner ofwner ofwner of
two grtwo grtwo grtwo grtwo grocerocerocerocerocers shops. Hs
shops. Hs shops. Hs shops. Hs shops. He had ill-tre had ill-tre had
ill-tre had ill-tre had ill-treated two wiveated two wiveated two
wiveated two wiveated two wives and noes and noes and noes and noes
and nowwwww
he was looking for a thirhe was looking for a thirhe was looking
for a thirhe was looking for a thirhe was looking for a third, and
so he cast his eyd, and so he cast his eyd, and so he cast his eyd,
and so he cast his eyd, and so he cast his eye on here on here on
here on here on her.....
SSSSShehehehehes a quiet one, he thought; s a quiet one, he
thought; s a quiet one, he thought; s a quiet one, he thought; s a
quiet one, he thought; shesheshesheshes grs grs grs grs grooooown
up in pown up in pown up in pown up in pown up in
povvvvvererererertytytytyty,,,,,
and I am marrand I am marrand I am marrand I am marrand I am
marrying for the sake of my motherless childrying for the sake of
my motherless childrying for the sake of my motherless childrying
for the sake of my motherless childrying for the sake of my
motherless children.en.en.en.en.
H H H H He re re re re really had childreally had childreally
had childreally had childreally had children. Hen. Hen. Hen. Hen.
He began tre began tre began tre began tre began trying to make
theying to make theying to make theying to make theying to make
the
match and negotiating with the aunts. Hmatch and negotiating
with the aunts. Hmatch and negotiating with the aunts. Hmatch and
negotiating with the aunts. Hmatch and negotiating with the aunts.
He was fifty ye was fifty ye was fifty ye was fifty ye was fifty
yearsearsearsearsears
old, besides. Sold, besides. Sold, besides. Sold, besides. Sold,
besides. She was aghast with horrhe was aghast with horrhe was
aghast with horrhe was aghast with horrhe was aghast with
horrororororor. I. I. I. I. It was then shet was then shet was then
shet was then shet was then she
began coming so often to me to advbegan coming so often to me to
advbegan coming so often to me to advbegan coming so often to me to
advbegan coming so often to me to advererererertise in the tise in
the tise in the tise in the tise in the VVVVVoice. Aoice. Aoice.
Aoice. Aoice. Attttt
last she began begging the aunts to givlast she began begging
the aunts to givlast she began begging the aunts to givlast she
began begging the aunts to givlast she began begging the aunts to
give her just a littlee her just a littlee her just a littlee her
just a littlee her just a little
time to think it otime to think it otime to think it otime to
think it otime to think it ovvvvvererererer. . . . . They granted
her that little time, butThey granted her that little time, butThey
granted her that little time, butThey granted her that little time,
butThey granted her that little time, but
would not let her havwould not let her havwould not let her
havwould not let her havwould not let her have more more more more
more; they we; they we; they we; they we; they wererererere always
at her: e always at her: e always at her: e always at her: e always
at her: WWWWWeeeee
dondondondondont knot knot knot knot know wherw wherw wherw
wherw where to turn to find food for ourselve to turn to find food
for ourselve to turn to find food for ourselve to turn to find food
for ourselve to turn to find food for ourselves, with-es, with-es,
with-es, with-es, with-
out an extra mouth to feed.out an extra mouth to feed.out an
extra mouth to feed.out an extra mouth to feed.out an extra mouth
to feed.
I had found all this out alr I had found all this out alr I had
found all this out alr I had found all this out alr I had found all
this out alreadyeadyeadyeadyeady, and the same day, and the same
day, and the same day, and the same day, and the same day, after,
after, after, after, after
what had happened in the morning, I made up my mind.what had
happened in the morning, I made up my mind.what had happened in the
morning, I made up my mind.what had happened in the morning, I made
up my mind.what had happened in the morning, I made up my mind.
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That evThat evThat evThat evThat evening the shopkeeper came,
bringing with him aening the shopkeeper came, bringing with him
aening the shopkeeper came, bringing with him aening the shopkeeper
came, bringing with him aening the shopkeeper came, bringing with
him a
pound of swpound of swpound of swpound of swpound of sweets
freets freets freets freets from the shop; she was sitting with
him,om the shop; she was sitting with him,om the shop; she was
sitting with him,om the shop; she was sitting with him,om the shop;
she was sitting with him,
and I called Land I called Land I called Land I called Land I
called Lukerukerukerukerukerya out of the kitchen and told her to
goya out of the kitchen and told her to goya out of the kitchen and
told her to goya out of the kitchen and told her to goya out of the
kitchen and told her to go
and whisper to her that I was at the gate and wanted to sayand
whisper to her that I was at the gate and wanted to sayand whisper
to her that I was at the gate and wanted to sayand whisper to her
that I was at the gate and wanted to sayand whisper to her that I
was at the gate and wanted to say
something to her without delaysomething to her without
delaysomething to her without delaysomething to her without
delaysomething to her without delay. I felt pleased with myself. I
felt pleased with myself. I felt pleased with myself. I felt
pleased with myself. I felt pleased with myself.....
And altogether I felt awfully pleased all that dayAnd altogether
I felt awfully pleased all that dayAnd altogether I felt awfully
pleased all that dayAnd altogether I felt awfully pleased all that
dayAnd altogether I felt awfully pleased all that day.....
O O O O On the spot, at the gate, in the prn the spot, at the
gate, in the prn the spot, at the gate, in the prn the spot, at the
gate, in the prn the spot, at the gate, in the presence of Lesence
of Lesence of Lesence of Lesence of
Lukerukerukerukerukerya,ya,ya,ya,ya,
beforbeforbeforbeforbefore she had re she had re she had re she
had re she had recoecoecoecoecovvvvvererererered fred fred fred
fred from her amazom her amazom her amazom her amazom her amazement
at my send-ement at my send-ement at my send-ement at my send-ement
at my send-
ing for hering for hering for hering for hering for her, I
informed her that I should look upon it as an, I informed her that
I should look upon it as an, I informed her that I should look upon
it as an, I informed her that I should look upon it as an, I
informed her that I should look upon it as an
honour and happiness telling herhonour and happiness telling
herhonour and happiness telling herhonour and happiness telling
herhonour and happiness telling her, in the next place, not, in the
next place, not, in the next place, not, in the next place, not, in
the next place, not
to be surprised at the manner of my declaration and at myto be
surprised at the manner of my declaration and at myto be surprised
at the manner of my declaration and at myto be surprised at the
manner of my declaration and at myto be surprised at the manner of
my declaration and at my
speaking at the gate, saying that I was a straightforspeaking at
the gate, saying that I was a straightforspeaking at the gate,
saying that I was a straightforspeaking at the gate, saying that I
was a straightforspeaking at the gate, saying that I was a
straightforwarwarwarwarwarddddd
man and had learned the position of affairs. And I was notman
and had learned the position of affairs. And I was notman and had
learned the position of affairs. And I was notman and had learned
the position of affairs. And I was notman and had learned the
position of affairs. And I was not
lying when I said I was straightforlying when I said I was
straightforlying when I said I was straightforlying when I said I
was straightforlying when I said I was straightforwarwarwarwarward.
d. d. d. d. WWWWWell, hang it all. Iell, hang it all. Iell, hang it
all. Iell, hang it all. Iell, hang it all. I
did not only speak with prdid not only speak with prdid not only
speak with prdid not only speak with prdid not only speak with
propriety that is, shoopriety that is, shoopriety that is,
shoopriety that is, shoopriety that is, showing I waswing I waswing
I waswing I waswing I was
a man of decent bra man of decent bra man of decent bra man of
decent bra man of decent breeding, but I spoke with originality
andeeding, but I spoke with originality andeeding, but I spoke with
originality andeeding, but I spoke with originality andeeding, but
I spoke with originality and
that was the chief thing. After all, is therthat was the chief
thing. After all, is therthat was the chief thing. After all, is
therthat was the chief thing. After all, is therthat was the chief
thing. After all, is there any harm ine any harm ine any harm ine
any harm ine any harm in
admitting it? I want to judge myself and am judging my-admitting
it? I want to judge myself and am judging my-admitting it? I want
to judge myself and am judging my-admitting it? I want to judge
myself and am judging my-admitting it? I want to judge myself and
am judging my-
selfselfselfselfself. I must speak pr. I must speak pr. I must
speak pr. I must speak pr. I must speak pro and contra, and I doo
and contra, and I doo and contra, and I doo and contra, and I doo
and contra, and I do. I r. I r. I r. I r. I
rememberememberememberememberememberededededed
afterafterafterafterafterwarwarwarwarwards with enjods with
enjods with enjods with enjods with enjoyment, though it was
stupid, that Iyment, though it was stupid, that Iyment, though it
was stupid, that Iyment, though it was stupid, that Iyment, though
it was stupid, that I
frankly declarfrankly declarfrankly declarfrankly declarfrankly
declared, without the least embarrassment, that, ined, without the
least embarrassment, that, ined, without the least embarrassment,
that, ined, without the least embarrassment, that, ined, without
the least embarrassment, that, in
the first place, I was not parthe first place, I was not parthe
first place, I was not parthe first place, I was not parthe first
place, I was not particularly talented, not particularly talented,
not particularly talented, not particularly talented, not
particularly talented, not particu-ticu-ticu-ticu-ticu-
larly intelligent, not parlarly intelligent, not parlarly
intelligent, not parlarly intelligent, not parlarly intelligent,
not particularly good-naturticularly good-naturticularly
good-naturticularly good-naturticularly good-natured, rather aed,
rather aed, rather aed, rather aed, rather a
cheap egoist (I rcheap egoist (I rcheap egoist (I rcheap egoist
(I rcheap egoist (I remember that expremember that expremember that
expremember that expremember that expression, I thought of
itession, I thought of itession, I thought of itession, I thought
of itession, I thought of it
on the way and was pleased with it) and that von the way and was
pleased with it) and that von the way and was pleased with it) and
that von the way and was pleased with it) and that von the way and
was pleased with it) and that vererererery pry pry pry pry
probablyobablyobablyobablyobably
thertherthertherthere was a gre was a gre was a gre was a gre
was a great deal that was disagreat deal that was disagreat deal
that was disagreat deal that was disagreat deal that was
disagreeable in me in othereeable in me in othereeable in me in
othereeable in me in othereeable in me in other
rrrrrespects. All this was said with a special sorespects. All
this was said with a special sorespects. All this was said with a
special sorespects. All this was said with a special sorespects.
All this was said with a special sort of pride wt of pride wt of
pride wt of pride wt of pride weeeee
all knoall knoall knoall knoall know how how how how how that
sorw that sorw that sorw that sorw that sort of thing is said. Ot
of thing is said. Ot of thing is said. Ot of thing is said. Ot of
thing is said. Of course, I hadf course, I hadf course, I hadf
course, I hadf course, I had
good taste enough not to prgood taste enough not to prgood taste
enough not to prgood taste enough not to prgood taste enough not to
proceed to enlarge on my viroceed to enlarge on my viroceed to
enlarge on my viroceed to enlarge on my viroceed to enlarge on my
virtuestuestuestuestues
after honourably enumerating my defects, not to say after
honourably enumerating my defects, not to say after honourably
enumerating my defects, not to say after honourably enumerating my
defects, not to say after honourably enumerating my defects, not to
say tototototo
make up for that I havmake up for that I havmake up for that I
havmake up for that I havmake up for that I have this and that and
the othere this and that and the othere this and that and the
othere this and that and the othere this and that and the other. I
saw. I saw. I saw. I saw. I saw
that she was still horrible frightened I purposely exagger-that
she was still horrible frightened I purposely exagger-that she was
still horrible frightened I purposely exagger-that she was still
horrible frightened I purposely exagger-that she was still horrible
frightened I purposely exagger-
ated. I told her straight out that she would havated. I told her
straight out that she would havated. I told her straight out that
she would havated. I told her straight out that she would havated.
I told her straight out that she would have enough toe enough toe
enough toe enough toe enough to
eat, but that fine clothes, theatreat, but that fine clothes,
theatreat, but that fine clothes, theatreat, but that fine clothes,
theatreat, but that fine clothes, theatres, balls she would haves,
balls she would haves, balls she would haves, balls she would
haves, balls she would haveeeee
none of, at any rate not till later on, when I had attainednone
of, at any rate not till later on, when I had attainednone of, at
any rate not till later on, when I had attainednone of, at any rate
not till later on, when I had attainednone of, at any rate not till
later on, when I had attained
my object. my object. my object. my object. my object. This
sevThis sevThis sevThis sevThis severerererere tone was a positive
tone was a positive tone was a positive tone was a positive tone
was a positive delight to me. Ie delight to me. Ie delight to me.
Ie delight to me. Ie delight to me. I
added as cursorily as possible, that in adopting such a
call-added as cursorily as possible, that in adopting such a
call-added as cursorily as possible, that in adopting such a
call-added as cursorily as possible, that in adopting such a
call-added as cursorily as possible, that in adopting such a
call-
ing that is, in keeping a pawnbring that is, in keeping a
pawnbring that is, in keeping a pawnbring that is, in keeping a
pawnbring that is, in keeping a pawnbrokerokerokerokerokers shops
shops shops shops shop, I had one, I had one, I had one, I had one,
I had one
object, hinting therobject, hinting therobject, hinting
therobject, hinting therobject, hinting there was a special cire
was a special cire was a special cire was a special cire was a
special circumstance but Icumstance but Icumstance but Icumstance
but Icumstance but I
rrrrreally had a right to say so: I really had a right to say
so: I really had a right to say so: I really had a right to say so:
I really had a right to say so: I really had such an aim andeally
had such an aim andeally had such an aim andeally had such an aim
andeally had such an aim and
thertherthertherthere re re re re really was such a cireally was
such a cireally was such a cireally was such a cireally was such a
circumstance. cumstance. cumstance. cumstance. cumstance. WWWWWait
a minute, gentle-ait a minute, gentle-ait a minute, gentle-ait a
minute, gentle-ait a minute, gentle-
men; I havmen; I havmen; I havmen; I havmen; I have always been
the first to hate this pawnbre always been the first to hate this
pawnbre always been the first to hate this pawnbre always been the
first to hate this pawnbre always been the first to hate this
pawnbrokingokingokingokingoking
A Gentle Spirit - Dostoevsky
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business, but in rbusiness, but in rbusiness, but in rbusiness,
but in rbusiness, but in realityealityealityealityeality, thoug