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CCLAON

Anabsurdisttextof

apsychoosmosisfilm.

WRITTENBY

PEREIRAIRVINGPAUL

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“It’snothowbutwhatitends.”

Wearecomprehensibleonlytoaselectfewbecauseineverygenerationthere

areonlycertainchromosomesthatwillmakeitintotoday’slightage.”

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Thefilmstartedwithaglimpseofthepainting.

Aquickcutthenitwasgone.Backtoblack.Butthatshotalonepressurizedthe

headasifthelightofthepainting,orit’sshapeandessence,wasanenergyinvadingthewindowstothesoul.Anditentersanditcorrupts.Itwasenoughto

imprintsomething.Itwasenoughtoseedandgetawaywithit.

Fromtheblackscreencamethescreamingagain.Itisunusualtofinditfamiliar,tothinkofitasarecurrencebecausethefilmhadonlyjuststartedbutsuchisthe

case.Weallhaveseenthefilmbefore,evenifwehaven’t.Itwasmadebyoneof

ourkind.Someofourkindeven,butthatisenoughtomakeit‘forallofourkind.’

Itwasacollectiveendeavorwhetherwewantedtoornot.Itwasthesinof

mankindherselfandsheaswepayforourcosmicmistakes,becomesourevermistress.

Yousee,thefilmwasinourheadsallthiswhile,sincemanbegan.

Wehadsetthestage,signedthecontractslongbeforeearthwasseparatedfromskyandwater.

Therewasbloodlongbeforetherewasword.

Justthatbeginning.

Thatawfulsound(screaming,nottheword)Westopped.Pausedthefilmmore

likeitforwecannottrulystopthefilm.Itsreelgoesonliketimeandrivers,likethemarchofobsidiandeath.Towardsabysmalsea.Ittakesusalong,sweepsus

downit’sovexeddeteriorationandensuresnoabortion.

Thisisnotlikesomehorrorserialchainfilm.Atease,anentertainment(oh

watchitandyoudieprank).Groupshavedied.Massesofsuicidal.Weburied

themourselves,consoledtheirchildrenandyetwefindourselvesreturningtothefilmagain,toreplayit’smenaceandvirus,tomakeitoccuragainasif

withoutchoiceorhope,justtounderstand, justtoknowit’snamesowecanexorcizeit.Whatdidweendeavortoachievewatchingthatcursedthing?Why

didn’twejustSTOP?

Thefilmwastheearliestsign.Partofsomethingsignificantlylarger.More

convexed.

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Wehadtogetpastthatnomatterwhatthecost(ourlives,minds,lovedones,

reality)thewhitenoiseentersthescreens(thescreaminghasstopped)someofusarealreadysickandthepriestsaredoingtheirritualsto‘containthecorax’as

theyarewonttodo.Ifyoudonotknowwhatwemeanthenyouarenotfromthisplaceandtime.INfact,youcannotbefromthistimebecauseallofusare

technicallywithoutbodies,withonlymindsintact.Andyouareusingyoureyestoconsumethismatter.Youhaveeyes,weonlyseewiththeinnereye…

Wewatchagainthestaticandoutofitcomestheface.Thefirstface.Thebride.

‘Ohgod,ohsweetness.’Someofthecrewisleft.Theyremember.Justpartsofthe

film(theywatchnowandrecollectastheirmemoriesseemedtohavebeen

erasedsincetheir‘returnfromthevanishingpoint.’Theyrecognizethefirstface,theactress.Theirheartswellupwithtearsandtheyseewiththeirinnereyeher

outerbeauty(forthesakeofthenarrationandbelief,letusgivethemallbackoureyesTomakethingsplausiblesinceweneedtobelieveinordertosee.)

They’reonthescreensheissobountifulandfullbreastedandvirginal.Thiswasonlythestartingofthefilm.Thestaringofitintoourblacksouls,theaudience.A

projectionofnegativelifeessenceintolivingeyesasscreendevoursviewersand

theviewersdevourthelightinfrontofthem.

EXT.Sheisrunningontheshoreforherphotoshoot(herhusbandisalreadydrownedoffcameraandsheisunawareofit.)

(Thefilmtakesthemonebyonebuttheyonlyknowwhatisaroundtheminthescript.Theyarethereforekeptinthedarkwithregardstherealityandnotthe

plot–whichultimatelyintertwinesmidwaythroughthefilm)

Shespinsbarefootonthesand(onlylater,wecutherlegswiththebroken

bottleshiddeninthesandandwithdrawtheparamedics)

*cuelovetheme.Sheissohappystill(unawareofthefloatingbodynearbywith

onlyhalfatuxedoon.)nobloodfound,nowaterinthelungs.Bleedingformtheanus,rapedbythefilm.

Sohappynow(happy,happyfoolishbitch,soonyouwillweep)

Thecrewwatcheswithusandtheyalreadyknowherending.Itissomeofthe

fewthingstheycannotforgetdespitethedrugsandbrainwashing.

(Whatsomeofthemfearedtomentionthroughouttheinvestigationisthedirector’sshadowcompanyCCLAONandthatitwasacompanyinadifferent

senseoftheword.)

2“itcametousforsomething,butbecause,ofhowscarredourmemorieshad

become,wehadforgottenwhatthatthingwas.Itwasonlyinthelateryearsofthesickness,didwebegintoremember,andbythattime,thetimingwassimply

right.Everythingelsehasgonewrong”

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“thenotionthatsurfaceexpressionsarereflectionsofdeeperanalogiesfirst

cametolightwhentheever firstfulcametobethelastofitskind.”

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Together,wesleptandtogetherwedreamed.

Itwasthesounddesignerofthefilmwhoenteredastral-scapefirstandfoundhimselfinthetempleroom(theset-designerwaslosttothefilmandnooneelse

couldverifytheoccultdesignofthetempleroom.)itwasasparseroom,ared

canopy,air-conditioned.Atablewithablackbox(knownasthespeaker)asidefromthesense-surroundspeakershungatthepointofthe4directionsonthe

ceiling.Themicrophonetherewasarmed(uni-directional)andtheprocessor(hidden)wassetto½stepecho.Sounddesignerbegantomakevocalsounds

(notwords)butfrequenciestoberecorded,playedbackandloopedintothe

system.

Thiswasthekeyaspectofthefilmsoundtrack.Organichumannoises

manipulatedbymachineswithanintentsetbythezeitgeistofthefilm,theshadowcompanyknownasCCLAON.

ooOoo-mmMmmm–errRRrrrRrr–UuuuUuuuu

echo.Echo.Feedback.Loop.Echo.Microphone.Amplify.

Earthtoneswall.Redlight.(awallofnoise)Anothermanappearedinthe

templeandapprovedofthepulsatingbassgeneratedbytheechosystem.Somehow,thesounddesignercouldgotoanadjacentroom,insideofwhichwas

blackandstoredsomeotherarchaicmachine…

Theatmosphereitselfwasspaciousanditwasthespaceofblackthatdidit.Itseemedtoexpandandmindscouldbeassimilatedintoitslivingfield.Thevoice

vibrationunlockedthesecretsoftheroomanditbreathed.Therearenosignsofrecordingsortransferstoanalternatedevicethatcouldbeusedlatertosupport

thefilm.

Whenweallwoke,wegatheredthedataandcross-referencedthedreams.Someofusdidnotdreambutsleptthroughacertaindensityacertifieddarkness.Wewerenolessafraidthenwhenthe‘returnofthecastandcrew’wastakingshape,

rightafterthedamnedfilmwasprocessed.

Weareinthewarehousewhereitallbegan,wheretheauditioninnocentlytook

place.Nowwecannotleave.Wehadtimestampedin,checkedintotheunending

astheysay,thentimenolongerworkedforusandtheunendingstarted.

We’retwoandahalfminutesintothefilm.

Thescreenuntowhichweareprojectingthefinalproductistremblingasifitwascoldorperhapssick.Yes,thetechpeoplebelievethattheprojectoritselfcan

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bediseasedbecauseitisbeamingtheactualfilm.Thatlivingnightmare.

Somehownoonewantedtogiveitit’sactualname,sowejustnameditFILMC.

TheproductioncompanyisCCLAON,asmentioned.Nohumannamedit.Itwas

conceivedandnamedlongagobyit’spatronconsciousness.Thenitstarted

hiring,callinguponthecastandcrewonebyone,throughcircumstances,andvisions,asequencesofevents,accidents,threatsandhypnotism(somewherethereisaportraitofacodenamedJOHN.Itisbelievedthatheisthelogistics

behindthehiringthoughwecannotbesureofitnow.

Themajorplayersofthefilm.;thedirector.Executiveproducer.Leadingman

andwomanwerepossessed.Thiswastomakesurethattherightsoulswere

involvedbecausesoulsweretheonlyprice,istheonlyprizedpossessionofanykindofzeitgeistclassspirit.

3.“ConcentratingonSymbiosisadmissionisonewaytodisruptthedistribution.”.

“herehnheight translatesthatthedivisionoftheonixianwilldevelopaseveretrisectiontodisputetheinevitableformulation:isafalsestatement.”

Deathofthemassesafterwatchingthefilmwasonlyonesmallpartoftheeffects.Themajorityofthecomplicationrelatestothedisappearances.

Childrenweretakenfirst.Thentheyounggirls(believedtobestoredfor pregnation.Followedbytheirmothersandfinallyfathers(merelytoystobe

destroyed).Theelderlyweremostlyspared(unlessdeathtookthem,whichwas

mostofthetime)

Atsomestagewehadreturnedtothesameplacewherethehusbanddrowned.Thatsameriverthattookhimwassoggyandmuddy.Notenoughtodrown

anyonenow.Thebrokentreeswereinsidetheriver,likeanepitaphorsomekind

ofreplicableobjectofdesire.Bythen,thebridehadshavedherheadandsavedherhairinaplasticbag,whichshecarriedaboutaroundhershoulders.Wehad

rippedmostofherweddinggownoff,notjusttopartakeingroupsexbutalsoto

bandagethewoundedfromtheconstantfleeingthroughthesharptootheddensejunglethatoccludedtheislandwherewefilmed.

Therewasacitythereoncebuttheessenceofthefilmthathadbeenprojected

beforeourtimehadstrippedtheurbanjungledown.Itwasbelievedthatthecity

showedthefilminthesquare,squarelyagainstthebackdropoftheirsuperscrapersasakindofartact.Thedigitalmovielightateintotheheartofthe

beatingcityandtookawayit’spacer.

Soweweretaskedtofilminthememoriamoftheplace,guessingthatitwould

maketheproductionmucheasiersincethatwhichwilltraverseinfuturehasbeen

traversedbeforeandsoin-cyclical,canberepeated.

Youknowwhatwemean.Itwasdonebeforesoitcanbedoneagain,easily.

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Someofthecrew,diggingthroughthesoiltodeepenthetripodsfoundbones

snappedoffatunusualangles.Someoftheothercameramensawvisions:thedensityofthefilmhaddoneittheysaid.Theheavinessofthescenewastangible

anditrippedthesebonesapart.Theburialpatternsweredistinctlyinhuman(itwasmuchmuchlaterwhenthemonstersstartedrevealingthemselvesinthefilm

withoutourknowledgeorknowasfromoutsidethescript ,invokedbytheghostofthefilmitself).

Itwassuspectedthatcharactersfromtheancientfilmhaddetachedfromtheir

realmsandenteredthisrealmtoperformthere-ceremonies.Tppartakeagainintheact.Itwouldmostlikelybethatnoonewasleftalivetoburythedeadandso

suchanoperationneededtobedone.Fromfilmtolifetofilmagaininoneunusualprocess.

FILMINSERT:

extractoftheinvadingfilmwithsoundsoriginallyrecordedduringtheCCLAON

conditionoralsoknownaspossessionbytheshadowofcclaon.Sourcesindicatethe figureinthefilmcouldbethatoftheexecutiveproducertryingtomakesomekind

ofconfessionbeforehewastakenonthesecondthursdayintofilming.Originalvoicerecordingwasnotfoundandidentitynotwhollyconfirmed.

“itisherethatwebuiltthegrimtower.” 4

Themother(bride)andchild(woman)remainofthecast.Thesoundman,2

cameramenandIremainofthecrew.SometimesweforgetnotallofusreturnedfromFILMC.Fromthatotheruniverse.yetwealsofeelthatmoreofushad

returnedthanexpectedbutourtherapistsinsistit’sanillusionstemmingfrom

thetrauma.

Noonetrulybelievesourstory.

Everyoneknewwehadvanished.Thepopmediahadreported.Thenewsroom

hadreported.Newspapersprintedourfaces.Theytwistedthecomebackstory.Theycouldn’ttalkofthefantasticbecausethegreyandblackandwhiteofthe

mediademandedit’sstoriesnotbesocolorful.“wedonotwantthemysteriesto

scarethepeople.’

Itwasthepeoplewhoscaredthemysteriesawaywesay.Butnoonebelievesus.

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IstillgobytheBDSMclubandstandoutsidethedooronrainynightsandthink

ofthenightthebridehadreturnedafterthe2yearswevanishedfromthisreality.

IstillgobythetunnelwhereIhadreturnedinaseven-carpileupontheanniversarynightofourdisappearance.Itwasn’trainingatall.Theyjustfound

mybodybreathinginthecrushedcar.Nooneclaimedmetobetherebeforethe

accident.Noonewasleftalivetowitnessmyappearanceanyway.Itwasagivenmystery.TheimpactimpregnatedtherealityairandIwasgivenbirth(returned)

IstillwonderhowIhadimpregnatedthebride,howshehadgivenbirthtothechildandhowthechildhadcometojoinusevenbeforeshewasconceived.She

isthebiggestmysteryofthewholeFILMCepisode.Notevenour‘extraction

fromreality’isasstrangeastheconceptofthepre-existingchildthatexistedpost-trauma.

“wasitthemachinethatgeneratedtheghost?”thedirectorhadaskedusthat,ononeofthenightsadrift,daysjustafterweburiedthehusbandactor(hewho

drowned)

noonecouldtrulyanswer.Notbecauseitdidn’tmakesensetous,butbecause

weeachhadavarianttheoryonwheretheghosthadcomefrom.

Mytheoryisthatitfollowsthefilmineachofitsincarnationsineachreality

destinedtohaveit’sconceptrealizedregardlessofthedegreeofadvancementinfilmtechnology.Theghostexistsindependentlyfromtechnology.Istrongly

believethatitistheghostthatdesignedthetechnologyinthefirstplaceandhad

subsequentlyprogrammedthetechtoexpresstheillusionaryprospectthattheghostispartofit’sinfrastructure.Likethechildmasqueradingasthemotherora

bride.

5“see?Thepromisesmadenevercametrue…”

Theysaidtenyearspassedbetweenourdisappearanceandourreturn.Tousofcourse,itwasonlythescheduled2weeksofshootingonlocation.Now,thesefewofusleft,welivealifeinpost-film-c,knowingour

existencetobeunnatural.Wherewelivenowisunnatural.Thisisnotourdestineddestiny.Thisisnotourearth.

We’reghostsinourownbodies.Thesixofus.

Welastmetclosetothreemonthsback.Notallofus.Thechildwasn’tpresent

(hospitalizedforanunknownsicknesswhichcamebackwithherfromthefilmtrip*note:nooneknowshowshereturnedtothisreality*endnote).

Thebride,wasintheasylumforanotherepisodicmultiplepersonalitybreakdown.

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Itwasjustme,thesoundmanandthetwocameramen.ThemalespeciesoftheI

film,smokinganderadicatingourselvesinablackroom

Wetradednewfoundsecrets. Asitwasrevealedtousoverthecourseofour

existencepostfilm.Weremember thingsagain,ofthattwoweeks(tenyears),

althoughslowlyandinfragments.

Wesharedourdreams.Ofthosepeoplewedidnotrecognize,ofthosefeelings

thatwerenotoursforsure,butwasforustounderstandandfeel.

Therewerethosesounds,nevertobeexorcizedfromourheads.Fromthese

soundscametheseideasandthroughouttime,wetriedtoreasonwiththe

madnessthat’sourlot.

a. werememberdifferentpartsofthefilm.Forme,itwasmostlythemonuments…

b. certaincolorswererobbedfromourminds,yettheseare

colorswecannotexplainfortheydonotexisthereintheplacewereturnto.Thesecolors,belongtotheworld,the

film,tothatlocale.

c. Thelogicofcclaonisocturnal innature.d. SometimesIthinkwereturnedasmalignanciestothisday

andage.Wearethebringersofsomekindofend.Ascclaonphilosophyattests:It’snothowbutwhat,ends.

e. Wearenotafraidofthingsfromthisearthbutthingsfrom

thatearth.

“weshouldcontinuetoscreenandwatchthefilm,todissectit’sproperties.”

Wetriedtogatherthesurvivorsinonescreeningroom,butthechildscreams

whensheseesus,especiallythesecondcameraman.Hecouldnotintervenebuthadtosimplyfilmthewholesequenceasthechildwasravaged….

The‘non-intrusive’clauseofthefilmcontractdestroyedmostofourmoralsandourmindsmostofall.Wasthereanotherwayoutofit?Anotherway,throughthe

wholething?

Ofcoursenot.

Itwould‘veshiftediftherewas.thefilmwouldn’tbemadeiftherewasawayout.

“Someworldswouldstillbearound…”(wewouldstillbeokandnotwithoutour

families(thusrealities)

inthefilm,theskywasbrokenupintopieces.Thetruthis,inthatworld,that

wasthetruenatureoftheheavens.

Brokenrealitiesslowlycollidingwitheachothertryingnottoconfusethegassesof

existence.

Ourcamerascouldnottaketheopticalillusionsinthatworldandtheymalfunctioned‘toworkaccordingtothelawsofcclaon’

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Therearenofootagetorevealthetruenatureoftheskiesinthatotherspace.

Technologymutated.(somewhereinme,IbelieveIhavementionedthisand

eventriedtoexplainthisbefore,inthefilmreport,butthewords,theykepton

changingtoworkagainstus,toquestionoursystemsofthought,tochallenge

oursanity.

Noonebelievedus.ThatmuchIknowIhavesaidbefore….

6#/\________________________”toforgetwhathasgoneonbeforetogooffcorrectly.”

Intangentrealization,wepackedupourthingstoeradicatetotheblackmountain.Theequipmentnowwascrucial.Film,camera,micstands,lighting.

Especiallylightingsincemostofeverythingdoneinthenextfuturewillbedonewithoutthesun.

Yousee,thepartsofusbrokeninside,isbetweentwoaspectsofourlives.Beforethefilmandafterthefilm.Inbetween,theechochambersuggeststhings.

Wemustmaketheanti-film.Comprisingtheabstractedweaponsofreality.

Ourvocabulariesarestolenandsomewordsdon’texistanymoreinourheads.

Wecannotsaywhichwordswerestolenformusbecausetheyaregone.Youunderstand?

Wecannotspeakofthatwhichisnotexistinginconceptorreality

“Ilistenandtheworlddisappears.WhichworldwaslisteningthatmadeUSdisappear?”

We’resmokingintheblackroomcontemplatingsuchthings(theblackroomispartofthewarehouseispartofthefilmsetispartoftheportal).Thecigarettes

burnbackwardsbutwearebreathingnormally.Atrickofthemindandwe’re

amusedbythis.Hiddenintheroom,nooneelseseesourmirages.Expectedly,wedonotchokeonthesmoke(ithasnowheretogoexceptbackintoourbodies

andoutintofaces)

“Imissthebride.”

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“Imissthechild.”

Oneofushaspicturesofthedrownedhusbandbutsomethingishappeningto

thepicture.Hisfaceisinterlacingwithours.Oneatatime.Itscaresusbutalso

setsusfree.

“Ithinkwediedthere,butthefilmsentusbackheretolive.We’realiveanddeadatthesametime.”

It’sasoundquantummystery.Itisworthyofthisconfusion.Thesoundmanhasthismachinesetupthat’shookedtoabiggermachineandwe’rereissuingthe

soundtrack,replayingthescoreofFilmCinafeedbackloopandwe’regetting

newandmixedmessages.Theaudiosectorofthefilm,backmasked,revealsotherseriousundertonesandthesounditmakestriggersoffothermemories.

Likethestarshipthatcameoutofthelightinthecitywefilmedat.

Itwasnightaswedon’trememberdaybutthatnighttherewasasunwithinthe

blackness.Itroseforusandoutofthelightsomethingunidentifiedemerged.Someunknowntechnologyappeared.Itmadeusbelieveinwhatwesaw…

“okyes,wemustmaketheanti-film.”

Butwecouldnotleavetheblackroom.(Werewestillintheshipnowwithoutrealizingit?Hasitmadeusthinkwehadreturnedtoourrealities?Ithinkweare

beginningtonotknowwhichworldwearein.

“rolltape.Action.”

Somebodyisshootingus,welookaround,thestudiolampsareonthethreeofus

andsomekindofphantomdirectorisvoicingcommands,tellinguswhattodo.Thesecondcameramanisalreadynakedandburningholesinhisthighwithhis

cigarette,andheisn’tscreaming….

“Ididnotwritethisintothefilm.”Isaid.

“whatfilm?Theanti-filmcannothaveascript.”

Thecameramanisscreamingnow,yetit’slikeacting,apracticefortherealthingeventhoughwecansmellburntflesh.

“butitcanhaveanoriginalrecording….”

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7somethingofthatworldcamebackwithusbutitwasbecausewedidn’twant

toreturnandsobroughtbackwhatwedidn’twanttoleave.

Deepdowninside,theannihilationwasnecessary

We’rethreeandahalfminutesintothefilm.

We’rerunningdownacorridor.Editsflashmomentsofthebrideasanold

womansittingalongthewallsconsumingherroots.

Thecameramanisrunningbackwardsfilmingusforwardandthereisthe

husbandandthebrideandthechild.Aholyfamilyrunningfromthedarkness(a

dogchasingitstail).Yettheyareknowntohavesmilesontheirfacesasifinacarnival.

Thehusbandiscallingoutforalightswitch.Somethingtellsusthey’redelirious(andit’sbecauseoftherootsthey’veconsumedinashortscenebefore.A

birthdaysurprise(thewifeis38yearsold.)

We’refiveminutesintothefilm.

Thechildisgrownupandthemotherisyounger(thechildreversestheages).Theyarestickingpicturesofthedad/husbandontoaflimsyboard.It’slikeina

schoolhallwayandit’ssomeone’sprojecttopresentthefamilyoftreasures.Thethingistherestoftheschoolhasburneddown.

Theprojectisforthekilledkids.Somethingforthemtoremembertheconnectiontofamily.Thechildinthefilmcouldsensethegatheringofchild

spiritsaroundherassheputuptheboard(theyallwanttheirdaddiesand

mommiestocomebackforthemastheirfleshcook)Themotheriscrying(sheisrecallingherbalddaysafterthedrowningandthepartwherewe,thecrewdid

notgoaheadwithburningupherhairbecausenoparamedicwasonstandby)

Themotherandchildarerunningthroughtheburnthallwayslaughing.

Ghostchildrenarechasingafterthem.Theyarenotlaughing.

Theremainingcrewisintheblackroomstill.I’mdonewithwrappingupthe

holesinthethighofthecameraman.Heissmokinghiscigarettenowinsteadoftwistingitintohisflesh.Hiseyesshowafarawayglance.Thesoundmanis

listeningtovoicesherecordedandhebelievesthemtobehischildren.Amultitudeofthemlayeredandbackmaskedandheightenedandtoned.He

recallsvaryingwomenwhohadgivenbirthwithin9minutesofconceptionindifferentrooms.Heisabrothelownerinthesememories.Heisalsoa

handmaiden.

“partoftheanti-filmistousechildrenastheinnocenceweapon.Their

lullabyvoiceswilldrivethedemonsoutofthegroundofthecitywe’rein.that

waywecanwalkfurtherwithoutthethreatofsickness.”

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Theothercameramanisvomitingnowintoapail.Insidethepailhefindssmall

toysandwondersiftheyweretherebeforeorhehadthrownthemupbecauseofindigestion.

Nooneissureifit’snightordayoutsidebutIsensethewifelurkingbeyondthe

wallslookingforherchild,ourchild.

Icannotrecallmakinglovetothewoman.Ionlyrecalltryingtocutouttherape

scenetonoavail.

Thecameramenthatfilmedthegangrapeneverreturnedwithus.Thecitythen

wantedthem,fortheireyeswerekeenandtheiranglesobtuseandbrutalsex

filmswerealltherage.

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macrofilmingofussweating

we’re5.6minutesintothefilm.

Fromournecks,back(tricklingdownburnttannedskin)

sometimeswecaughttearscomingoutandthatwerethebettershots

weneededtearsespeciallyonesthatcamefromrememberingterriblemomentsfromFilmC

thepureanguish,thatwasthepower,coupledwiththeinnocentsweaponofthechildren(whereweretheynow?)

theconspiracyiswellversed.Whoeverreceivedusuponourreturn,thoughwereturnedindiverseways,werewaitingforus.

Theconspiracyisassuch.

Theplanetwefilmedinwasareplicaofearth.Whenweweresentbacktoour

earth,itwasanotherreplicaweweresentto.

Agentsfromtheearthwherefilmcwasfilmedreturnedwithusandpretendedtobetheauthoritiesreceivingus.

Thatwaswhyweneverfoundouroriginalfamilyandfriends.Theyclaimedwewere10yearsgone,butweknowitwasonly2weeks.

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Wearethereforeonafalseearthandmustescape.Ourweaponistheanti-film.

Projectingtheanti-filmuntothissocietywillexposetheagents.itismysuspicionthatthiscivilizationisaclone.Everyonewillceasetoexistwhentheyseethe

trueanti-film.

Thismustmedone.

Macrofilmingofussalivating.Thewettonguelashingoutattheworld.

“wemustfindthechildandthewife.”

“getthemoutoftheirpre-establishedprisons.Thewifeisn’tmad,theasylumisa

prison.Thechildisn’tsick,thehospitalisaprison.”

“howdidweescapethen?”

“wehavenotescaped.Thisblackroomisourprison.”

“yetwestillhaveourcamera’sandsoundequipmentandourminds.Surelywecanusethesetoescape.”

Theblackroom.It’stheblackroomthatescapesusfirst.Weareinactualityholdingtheroomhostagewithinus.Wemustescapeourownbodies.

Death?Suicide?

No.wehavetotranscendthose…makethesoundsfirst.Weonlygotourvoicesandtheeffectsprocessorinthesoundequipment.Usethattofindthelastsound

planetearthmade.Usethattomakethesoundofgenesis.Thenwehavethefull

circleofcreationinourhands.Withthattool,wecandefeatdeath.Andgobeyondsuchathing.

Wecanfindourdoorout.

Wegotogethertorewireandproducethegutturaltongue.Wespoketheancientnoisesandranitthroughechoprocessingtomultiplyit’sresonance.

Ourhairstoodonendswhentherighteffectwasmadeandwesetittotapefor

playback.

Wemacroshotoureyes,deepwindowsintotheworldsweknewthenreversed

thelightofthecamerafutureandprojecteditoutontotheeasternwall.

Withourmindsisinunison,ourheartsdevouredtheconfines.

Theblackroomstartedtodissolve….

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thewoman,thewife,wasinatightwhitedress,sittingonthebedinthedark.

Somehow,umhandwasclenchedbetweenherthighsandIwithdrewitapologizingforpossiblecatchingaglimpsebetweenherlegs.Isawthatherinner

thighwasbruised,asifdamagedbyinjectionmarks.

WithoutwordsIhadaskedherwhyshehadsleptwithhim.

ShesaidonemustsleepwithahairymanifonemustsleepwithJohn.

ThatwasthefirsttimeIheardhisname.andsheshowedmeapicture,butitwas

ofamanwithmuchbodyhair….

Shereappearedtomestandingbythesideofthebedasifreturningfromsomewhereandherdresshadelongatedintoakindofsimplewhitedinner/

nightie.Shewasanotherwoman,physicallybutthesameinspirit…

ShesaidwehadforgottentofeedthedogandIsawtheanimaleatingbreadand

butterbutitwasnotadog.Theabsenceofus,perhapsarrangingtoseetothe

funeralofthehusband,hadturnedthepetintoacreature.

Shetoldmeshehadblisterinhermouth…

Weledtheelderlywomenthroughthewarehousefromthegreatmetallicelevator.Thisisindustrialworldbutthewarehousestoredcraftsofthepottery

kind,coloredandartistic.Somehoweachartifacthadakindofpowerrelatedtonature(floraenergyinfloraldécoretc)andthisworld,isnottheonewecome

from.Locatedonanotherlevel,itisasifwedepartedfromonereality(ground

floor)andenteredthehigherrealms.Ihadthefeelingthattheplacewasownedbysomeonepowerfulbuthidden.

10theblackroommeltsawayaroundusandourheartsarepalpitating.Somehow

wefeltweweregearedforthis,asifourinternalorganshadchangedthroughout

theprocessionofthefilm.

Theblackroomisvanquishedandwithitafreedomisinherentinthedestruction.Weseebeyondthewallsnowandweareexposedtotheelementsof

thiscitywhichisnotourearth.Wearefreetoroambutsomethinginside

cautionsus.Somethinginsideis‘responding’toanotherworldsignal.

Itisthedeadofourcrewandourcast.Theirphantomsraisedtheirsignalsin

unison(perhapshavingknownthatwearenowfreefromtheblockageoftheroomwhileneedingtomakecontactwith‘theothersthatliveontheotherside.

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Webrokeoutintoasweatandwithourequipment,leftthesafetyzoneofthe

blackwarehouseandenteredthestreets….

Atfirstitwashardtorecognizeit(hadwebeeninside,awayforsolong?)

Thereseemedtobelessstreetlampsthanrememberedandalotmoreblocksof

blackconcretebuildingswithnolights.Thosethathadlightsonusuallyhadanemptywindoworsomeoneatthewindowlookingoutattheskyordownatus

withoutwordsornoises.Wefeltwewerebeingwatched.Thereweretheusual

dogsinsomelostdistance,heardbutnotseen.Assumingitwaslate,wemovedthroughthemainstreetsandsawfoggedupvehiclesgopasthummingitsdeep

throatenginesandwhitesmokecoughingoutoffrozentailpipes.Redlights

blinked,turningsignalscameonandoff,noneofthemweretaxis.

Somethingdensewasintheairanditwasdescendinguponus.Therewerenostreetnames.

Forever?Hours?Welinedthestreetslookingforwhatwedidn’tknow.Ifeltthingsmovingaboveus,likebatsorother,Iknewtheywerelivingthings,just

toohardtocatch.Theymovedsilentlylikethefiguresinthewindows,pastthe

framesofreality.

Inthedistancewesawit.

Thetruck.It’senginewasrunningandbothsidedoorswereajar.Ithadnothing

uponits14footback,asifitwasspaceforourequipment.Somethingredwasglowingatthefrontofthetruckanditwasn’theadlights.InmyheadIsawthe

sametruckhalfsubmergedinwaterwithkomododragonsswimmingaround

it….

“thisisit,thisisthewayout.”

“wehaveitinourheads,wehaveitinourminds.”

“comeondon’tquestiontheauthorities,ride.”

Weascended.

10.1

itsanalterednarrative.Thechildisstandingnearaflagpole.Uponthehalfmast

fliestheflagofadeadhero.Atthefootofthepostisadeadwoman.Thechildis

notaffected.Itappearsthathehadhisfeelingsremoved.Heistherewaitingbythecorpseforsomekindofblackvehicletocomeby.

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Hestartedisngingtohimself.INthedarkofthenight.hiseyesstrainedinthe

blackness.Strainedtoseetheoutlinesofthepyramidsinthedistance.Heclosedhiseyesthen,hefeltthatitwouldbeabetterwaytoconnect.

Hedidn’twantorneedtoescapeanyplacejusttomoveforwardintoanother

space.Soheconnectedandhewasthere.

Theinsideoftheroomwaslikeabeehive

Blacktarpaintmovedandwasalive

Therewasavaguelightinthedistanceandhesawatallbeastlyfiguremove

Ithadwhitefur

Itmadenoisesasifitwasabear.

“areyoumyfather?”thechildasked.

thebeargrowled.

Thefirstvisionthatcameintotheboysmindwasanakedwoman,itwasthesamedeadwomanonlyyoungerandmuchalive

Shecarriedablackvaseonherhead

Thewomanlookedathimassaid,“areyoumymother.”

“yes.”Theboyrepliedandoutstretchedhishands.

Thewomanhandedoverthevasetohimandhegazedintothetopofitandsmelt

thewaters

Itwascleanandfreshandsecret.Hedrankfromittocleansehissoul

Shecameclosertohim,kneltdownandputherheadagainsthischest.Shelistenedcloselytohisheartbeat.

Therhythmitselfremindedherofasacredtimeinsidethewombofthegreatplanetsheisfrom.

“Iloveyou”saidtheboy.

Thewomanjustsmiledandmovedherlisteningtohisstomach.Initsheheardtheworldsturn.

“youarespecial.Onedayyouwillfindyourselffarintothefuture,whereyouwillawakeonabedmadeforkings.Youwillbeontheseashoreandamonkeywill

wakeyouup.Thermonkeywillhaveabluetailanditwouldappearorseemtobethatthemonkeyissittinginanotherdimensionbutisinthesamespaceas

you.Itishardtounderstandthisnowbutyouwillunderstanditlater.”

“whatdoIdothereatthebeach?”

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youwillsleepandawakesleepandawakeuntilatimewhenadogwillalsowake

youup.Nowthemonkeyandthedogwillbemakingnoisewitheachotherandthatisbecausethedogbelongstoamanwhowouldhavejustappearedonteh

shores.Hedoesnotbelongtoyourworldbutheneedshelpfromyourworldandyouwillbetheboywhowillhelphi,”

“whatdoIdowiththeman?Ishemyfather?”

“noyouarehisfatherandyouwillshowhimthewayaroundyourworldbecause

thetwoofyouwillbetheonlytwohumansleftonearth.Thenthecclaonoflightandthecclaonofthedarkwillcomeintoyourquartersandtherewillbeaclash

ofthecclaons.Oneofyouwillhavetochooseaside.”

“adarkorthelight?WhichwillIchoose?”

butshedidnotanswer.

Shegotoffherknees.Beforeherskinwasgreenandnowitwasyellow.Shewalkedbackwards.Thevasewasstillinhishandsthenaroundhimhesawthe

worldslowlyburningformthegroundup.

Hepouredthewaterontotheearthandthewatersquenchedtheearth.Somuch

watercameout(itwasasifthevasewasneverending)thattheboyhadbegun

tocreatetheriversthenthestreamsthenthepoolsthentheoceans.

Thewatersrosepasthisanklesandhisfeetandkneesthenfinallyhalfhisbodywassubmergedinthewater.

Hebentdownslightlyanddrankformtheblackwatersswirlingaroundhimandinhismindopenedupanothervision.

Hersawtheseconddelugefollowingabrightpurplestar

Ithestarhadninefiguresandtherewasawomanthereeventhoughitwasnot

thesamewomanashehadspokentojustmomentsbefore.

Heknewthisgrouptobeofhiskindthattheywerehelpinghimandwasgoingto

helphimwhenthetimecomes.

Thedelugethatwentaheadofthestarnowwasfindingitswaytoawhite

buildingwhereinsidewerewhitemenandagirl.

Itwasthenthathefellinlovefortheveryfirsttimeandthethoughtsofthedeadwomanbytheflagpolevanished.

Thegirlhesawwasalightbeingnotunlikehimbutshewaspurerinasense,andfromaworldheknewwastoostrongforhimtolivein.butsomehowhe

knewthatshewasgoingtobeinathirdworldwherehewouldinterfacewith

her.Somewhereinthefuturetheywouldmeetandheknewshebelongedtothegroupoften.

Shetriedtoseehereyestofeelhersoulbutthevisionwasquicklyfading.

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Morningwascoming.Thewatersaroundhimwasrecedingandalightwasgoing

tobeshoneintohisworldatthatmomentbutwithoutamomentsdoubt,hesaidinhisheart,“Iwillbewithyouagain.”Andvowedtoknowhernamewhenthe

timecame.

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themanwhowouldlateridentifyhimselfasJOHNstoodinourheadlights,theredlightofthesignofthetruckglaringathim.Hishandshonoreduslikea

blessing,hiseyesshoneadeathlywhite.Bubblesroundhismouthhetriedto

speaktousbutspeechmadeitincomprehensible.

Weusedourmindstotalkandimageryfromthefilm.Identificationcompleted.

Heisthedeadhusband.

Oratleast,thebodyofthedeadhusbandwithanotherentitywithinit.Thereisa

poolofmurkywaterwherehestands,anothersignoftheolddrowningnowbackfromthecclaonworldtomakecontact.

Theengineofthetruckdied.Westartedfilmingthemanintheheadlightsand

continuedtotelepathic

Hehadcometowarnus.

“FILMChasenteredtherays.Itiscoming.Therewillbemenbuildingupthetowerstoreceiveit.Thecounteragentistheantifilmwhichyouaretakingtoo

longtomake.Iamheretospeeduptheprocess….

Weweretostareattheredsign.Itisoneofthesignsofcclaonofthelightto

countercclaonofthedarkness.

Sowegatheredaroundthefrontofthetruck,Johnrefusedtosit.Wesetupthe

shotsinsuchawaythatbothhisprofileswerecaughtinrealtimeasourshadowsandbodiesmovedinandoutoftheframe.“itistosuggestthatwefade

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inandoutofreferencebutdetermineswearestillrelevant.Weunderstoodthis

andcontinuedtofollowtheinstructionsofJohnofthelight.

Nomorningwouldcome,thatmuchwewerecertain.Andnospeechwasmade

becausethesoundequipmentcouldnotprocessthislanguageofours.Wewere

speakingcclaon,evenatthisearlystage.,,,

Inoneofthenextscenes,thetruckwassystematicallydismantled.Thetirewas

burnedaliveandtossedmightilyintothesky.Theshotfollowedtheburningtire

asitburstagainsttheblackwallofthenamelessbuilding.

Thisactwastoattracttherioters.

Wearesevenminutesintothefilm.

Thehusband(intheearlyhoursofthehoneymoon)isholedupinthemotelroomwiththewife.Theyaremakinglovebecauseoutsidethestreetsareupin

violence.Thedictatorshipofthecountrytheywereinhadfallen.Therewaslooting,magicandangerintheair.Thecouplesomehowfeltitwastheir

responsibility.Theymarriedattherightconjectureoftheplanets.

Theirlovewastherevolution.Thatwastheactualfootageofthefilm.

Theirlovewassupposedtochangeeverything.Itwassupposedtore-enactthecreationofEdeninthesuburbiaofadisturbedworld.

TheywereadamandevebutGodwasanotherentity.

Thatwasthemistake.

Wehadinvokedusingthewrongwordsofpower….

Thewrongsoundshadcomeoutoftheirbodies,nakedinthebed.

Nooneanticipatedtherioters…

12–SALVO

THIRTEENSECONDVISION

Thegirlisinaroomwithalargewallturnedintoatwowaymirror.

Therearewhitebearsaroundher,threeasleeponesittingupIthadjustwoken

up.

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Thegirlistryingtogetthebeartoawakenmore.

Sheisafterall,thedaughterofthewifeofthedeadhusband.

Therearephotographicequipmentsetupbutnoneofusarethere.Itisadifferentcrewresponsible.Adifferentdocumentary.Thisisnotfilmc.

YetIamthere,anobservertothesceneunfolding.

Thegirl,thechild,she’sabout22now.Takingonthebeautyofhermother.

SomethingindecentstirsinmygroinandIremembercorrectlythatIamnotto

thinksuchthoughtsbecauseIhadgivenupsuchindecencysincethereturnfromtheotherearth.

(hadIimpregnatedthechildorthewife?)somethingdisturbsme.

Thegirliscoaxingthebeartobemorealive.Theroomiscold.Ithinkitsthecoldnessthatkeepsthebeardrowsyorperhaps,thenamelessmenwhoare

watchinghersomehowfromtheothersideofthemirror,hasdruggedthebears.

Itseemvitallyimportantforhertosetupthepositionsofthebearsonthefloor.

Tomoveitspawandarmsinsuchawayastomimicsomephysiologythat’s

importanttothedocumentary.

Thisisnotpartoffilmcbutherroleinithassomedistinctqualitiesand

associations.

InathirteensecondvisionIhadseenanouttakeoffilmc.

Ihadseenthegirl(thenasyoungasseven)tryingtore-arrangethebodiesofthe

crewthatwerestruckdownbythetowersofcclaon.

Thiswasdaysbeforethefinalbombing.

Whenthecasthadtoplaytheroleofthecrew,tofilmtheirownescape.

WherewasIatthattimeIcannottell.

PerhapsIhadalreadybeentakenonboardforthereturning.

PerhapsIhadmymemorieserasedandIwasthere,re-scriptingthescenestofitthedeeperdemandsofCclaon.

Perhapseverythingwasreallylifeitselfandnowthisisjustadream,dreamingof

whathadhappened.

Icannotsayanymore.

Icannotfeelanymore.

Idonottrustmygroinanymore.Itwantsonlytospreadtheseedofcclaon.

Thecameramanwokemefrommyreverie.

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Johnwasgone.

Wemustteardownthesetandmoveontotheforest.JohnsaidtheAngelof

cclaonisarrivingthereandwemustmeetitwiththeeyeofthecameras…”

Ihadtoagreewiththemforthelogisticswerecrucial.

Somethingreverberatesinsideme,apremonitionofmeetingtheangel.

“ItwasthechildfromthefilmthatsawtheCCLAONangel.

hejustclosedhiseyeandtheworldofthefilmvanished.theworkchanges.the

presencebecomedeeperthanthedreamitcreated.

theangelsaidnothingbutshowedthechildadoorway….”

Welefttheblankstreetswithoutwarning.andwerenotdistractedevenwhenweheardtheloudnessofthebears....

12a

THETHINGFROMTHEFOREST

CCLAONCITY

“Thisiswhereitwillhappen.”

Thetwocameramen,johnandIwalkedpastthemainshorelineandreachedthecanalthatdividedusfromtheforest.Thefencingontheothersidewastornand

brokendownasifsomethinghadescapedfromtheforestandnotintoit(based

ontheforwardcollapseofthefence)

“thisiswherethecclaonofthedarkwillconfrontthecclaonofthelightafterall

ofmankindhasvanishedsavedthemanwiththedogandthemonkeywhoarepositionedonthebed….)

deepinsideIknowittobetrueandIalsoknowthatthiswillnothappenforawhilemore

atleast2months….

“howdowestopit?”

johnsaidwedon’t.wejustchangeitscourse.

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“withtheanti-film?”

“no.withthechild.”

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johnleftustoourdevices.Wewouldgatheragainsoon,justtakeoffinthe

directionofthehospital.forthechildissickinthebodyandthewifeissickinthe

mindbutthesicknessisreallyaprojectionformthemenwhohavethem,whoarethemenwhowanttobringthedeathoffilmcintothisuniverse.Goandwage

thewaryouwerefictionalizedtolive.”

Fromsomewhereinourmemorieswerecalledthetireofthetruckburstinginto

flamesbutitisnotsoforthesaidtruckwiththeredsign/Theredsignisthe

fixesoftheimmobilemakingitthepremiummobile.

Werideagainintheexistentialtruckthatcrossesspace/time.

Thetruckthatcomesfromanothernarrative.

Werideoninradiostatic.

Ifthiswastheworldasitbelongsto,therewouldbeacagewithabirdinit.The

birdisthesignaler,justasthebearwasthedreamerandthehusbandwasthedrownerandinhislungsthewifekeptthefish.

Weslept

Weawoke

Thetruckdroveus

Weusedourmindstonavigate

Thisisnotarealworld

Wearedead

Wearesleeping.

Wearesevenminutesandfortyfivesecondsintothefilm.

ThebrideandgroomwaitsoutsidetheA&E.

Theykiss.Intheircostumes.Todeflectthetragediesgoingoninside.

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Abrideisonthegurney,bleeding.Emergency.

Thehusbandiserratic.

Inapolicestation,adarkmanisinterrogatedforattackingthebride.

Hesaid,“wewerelovers,thenshecamealong…”

Themotherofthebleedingbrideisonthephonedialingtocatchheryounger

son.

Theyoungersonisinabrothelscrewinganunderagedgirl.

Thereisacrimewaveresurging.

Wearenineminutesintothefilm.

Thebridedies.

Weawake.

Wewereasleep.

Wearepassinggasstations.Thecameramanischargingupthelostbatteryto

thesoundmodule.

Thesoundmanistryingtolighthiscigaretteinthewind.

Iwonderedwherethescripthadgonesowrong.

Noonewassupposedtodie.

Itwassupposedtobeacelebrationoflovebuttheaudience(world)demandschaos.

Thechallengeswereuncalledfor,unscripted.

Theyjustarrivedfromthatotherplacelikeavengefulspirit

OFFDOOR

CCLAONCEMETERY

14

Thedarkmanisintheinterrogationroomlaughingintothetwowaymirror.Hislaughingispsychotic,focusedonapointheseesinthemirror(heisstanding

closetotheglasshishandsandfeetchained.Hehasnotconfessedanythingelse

otherthanhisdeepaffectionforthegrievinghusband.

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Hislaughterisfocused,psychotic.

Ontheotherendoftheglass,thebear’smouthisopenlikethelaughingmanbut

itisyawning.

Thegirliscryingbecausetheotherbearsareasleepandshecan’twakethemup

justyettoconsoleher.

Shemustmakedowiththehalfawakebear.

Theairconditioningiscoldintherooms.

Inthetruck,weawaitourdestinies.

Behindusintheskiesthere’sakindoffiregrovelingbehindblackspaceand

thickdensefogclouds,hidingitstrueidentityofthefire.(Thefires’trueorigin)anditchasesus

Butwearenot‘steppingonit’asitiswonttosay.

Thehospital,iffaraway,yettobe

Wewerenotawareofthebrides’death

NotawareoftheotherbridekissingthehusbandintheA&Ewaitingroom.

Notawareofhoweverythingisconnectedinthreesandthatthethirdbrideisthewife,theactress,theonesickintheheadwaitingintheinterrogationroom.

Sheisquietlylaughingtoherselfinbemusementbecauseshehaddreamtofsleepybears….

Themenintheotherroomaremonitoringbuttheycannotdecipherthecontents

inherhead.Deepinside,shebelievesinkeepingtheinformationonthebear’s,

secret.Itissomethingthatwouldreturntohelpherlateronthecycleofcclaon.

Withoutanyone’sknowledge,noteventheweepinggirlsittingacrossthetwo

waymirror,thebearbeganit’spatternofgrowlingwhichonlythewifeunderstood,becauseshewasthewolf….

Thesoundsofthebearmadethevisionsinherheadandinherheartshebegan

thehowling.

Thegirlintheroomstirredandscared.

Twoanimalsintheheadtalking,exchangingCODES.

Thetruckstallednexttoblossomingtrees.

Camera2enteredtheenginetowitnessthewires.

Apanicroseincameraoneandwithcigaretteshestartedburningthingsinthe

airwhichwedidnotsee.Iwasconcernedforhismind.InthenotepadInoted

downanewwavedirectionfortheanti-film.

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Weweretofilmthechild(ifherhealthwasintact)onstageinaplay.The

backdrophadtobemostcolorful.Thisistooffsetthedarknessofthewayofnightcclaon.Ispokethisideatocamera1andhestoppedhisburningritual.

Somethingresonatedinhimanditwasalright.

Wewerenotsurehowlongtheenginewouldtake.Onourleftwasacemetery…

“it’sadiversion’camera2saidasheexitedtheenginespace.“Thisthingisstalled

notformtheinside,butfromtheoutside.”

“someoneisresponsible?”

“no,something.Anevent.”

Weturnedtoseethecemeteryagain,itwasinside,deeperfield,wehadto

investigate.Theeventbirthedanddiedthere,ithadfourlegs.

Wetookourknivesandsearchlights.Themosquitonettingthathidourfacessavedit..ourroughbootsmadethewaythroughdenseearth.Inourheartswe

saidtheprayerofthewolf…

Ourlightswentoutsomewayintotheburialgrounds.

Wehunted,weweresurethattherewassomekindofgatewayavailable.Ashortcutperhaps,tothehospitals.

Wemovedon,thenfoundtheplasticlifesizeddeer.Anorangedeerplacedtherebysomegiantchildperhaps.Therewasapaintedeyeoncanvasasthe

backgroundandbricksformedasquaredenclosurearoundthesacredspace.Wewerecertainthatwhateverwasburiedtheredidnotbelongtothisearth,it

belongedwithourearth.Anexiledhumanperhaps,onethathadcomebeforeus

toleadusviaafterlife.Therewasnopointindigginguptheskeletal.Wehadtoinviteitsspirittojoinustomakethereturntrip,afterwe’vesecuredthewife,

thechild,andhavebeguntoendtheshootingoffilmd,theanti-film.

Wetookfootageofthecemetery,thisparticularonewiththewhitebricksand

thestrangeimagery.Wassomethinginthefakedeeralive?Wasitaconduitoravessel?

Cameraonesuggestedwecarrythethingbacktothetruck,toseeifthetruck

acceptedit.“thatwaywecanknowifitwasmeanttobewithus.”Weagreedbutcouldn’tgetthedeermovingbecauseitwassecuredtothespace.

Weleftnotentirelydisheartened.HavingitonfilmwasgoodenoughandI

believethatthatwastheplan.

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THEICECREAMTHATALTEREDDESTINY

THEJUDGE-”there are no signs, n o symmetry, no resolution when one fate contacts another.” - CCLAON Belief.

15

We’reeightminutesintothefilm.

Thechildandthesinglemotherwantsicecream.Theybothhavetheirheadsshavedinmemoryoftheirdeadhusband-dad.Thechild’sheadhasscaresbut

nothingsuggestsit’sthemotherwhomadeit.

Theyareinacarnivalsetting.

Astheywalkpasttheclownsandsillymusic,thereglimpsesabaldtarotcard

reader.Everythingfeelshypnagogichalloftwistedmirrorhaze.

Heisnotbusybutheisstudyingthebodyshapesofthechildandthewife.He

calculatestheirdestiniesandsomethingistriggeredoff‘deepwell’insidehim.So

stronglythatsomeoftheelectrogamemachinesaroundhimstopworkingelectromagnetically.Hisbirdoffortunestircrazies.

Heplacesa‘Iwillreturn’signandshortcutsleftthroughthebackwaterstotheicecreammanofthefuture.

Avistaofopportunitiesopensup.

“Dohad,”hesays,“ThecclaonwomanIwasdreamingabout?Sheisherewiththechild.”

Theturkagreesaftersendingouthispsychghoststoverifytheclaimofthetarotman.

Atthisjuncture,thestrangeconditionsmustbeapprehended.Thisisbeforethe

girlandthewifewastakenintothehospital.Thisisthefilm,beforetheywereevenlostandbeforetheywerereturned.Sounderstand.Whatisseenisnotscriptedbuthashappenedinsomekindofformalrealitythatisrelativeonlyto

filmcanditsattendingrealities.Thishasnothingtodowiththemomentofthe

truck.Likewise,thebearsdoexistinthiscontinuum,inthecrazycircus.Theyaredancingbearsthatwillfollowusbacktothecurrentreality…..

Thisiseightminutesandthirtythreesecondsintothefilm.

ThegirlandthemotherarriveatthedessertworldandDohadhandsthemtheicecreamcones,permeatingwiththemilkofthestargoddess.Itdripsa

strangesilver.

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Theconversationsarelostinthegeneralnoiseofthecarnival.Justagreements,

theexchangeofmetals(coins)halfsmiles,knowledgeofmourning.

Firstfewlicksandthedrugsalreadytakehold.Thespacediversionelements

enterthebloodstreamandthedaughterisalreadygiggling.

Destiniesarealteredandwillberevealedintheendparts.

Somehowthemothergrowslonghairinthespanofminutesthoughnoone

entirelyobservesthis.Dohadgrowsbigger,likeagiantintheeyesofthechildSheisnotgigglingnowbutlooksupontheTurkasifhewasafigureofauthority.

Hehandsoverthechildablessing.Sheunderstandsthewordsthoughthe

languageisoneshehasneverhears.

Hermotherstarscrying.

Thechildreminisces,“thisisthefateofbillions.”Shelooksaroundthecarnival

andsherealizesfortheveryfirsttimethatthesearedeadsoulsneedingthenoiseandthecrazinessofthelightstobringthemacertainpulse.

“wheredoesthedullnesscomefrom?”

“yearsofcrawlingontheirbellieseatingthedust.”

“butwebelongtoadifferentsphereoftinglingsensations.”

“itsthefairyride,thefairyride.”thereissomekindofhypnoticmusicintheairanditscracklestheworld.

Avertigotakesover

TheDohad(Turkishwordforombudsmanor‘medicinemerchant’)takesthewifebythehandandleadsherthroughthemazeofpuzzles,amultilevel

mythicalgeneratingcenterwhilethedaughterissafelyleftbehindinthehands

oftheTarotreaderwhosenameiscalledJohnTheJudgeofthemultiples.

FAIRYTALEOBSCURITY

CCLAONCREATIONMYTH

16

“OnceItisalive,wecannotretractit’s‘one-fullness”

beginningattwoendsofthescale,thereis‘thatwhichisborne’andthatwhichis

givingbirth’

thecclaonisawindowofopportunity,theopportunityissoughtbythe

existencespirititself.Theoriginalsareextraterrestrial.Theshapesandspiritofthecclaonistheunworshippeddreamsofthetravelersininterstellarspace.

Distributingtheirmindjunkintotheblackholeoftheircollective

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unconsciousness.Insidetheblackholethelivingenergyconsumes.Exittheblack

hole.

We’renineminutesintothefilm.

Acacophonyofpolicecruisers.Agentsfromunknowndivisionthecarnivalisa

burntdownmess.Themotherandchildarenowheretobefound.Thebirdoffortuneisdead.Theicecreamtrolleyismelteddown.Theirownersnowhereto

befound.

Theblacksmokedoesnotceasetobe,anditsobscuringtheentirevisionofthefilm.Flashinglights,firemen,butsomethingaboutthescene…thepeoplearenot

chockingonthesmoke,justobscuredlikedarkoilonthelenses,wecannotseewhatgoeson,justmovementthenclarityshotsofthedeadbirdetctoestablish

whathasbeenestablished.Themusicishaunting,aslowdiversion,a

denouncement,themissinginaction,theactionismissing,snippetsofconversation.

“thisiswherewelostthewoman.”

“Ithinkthechildisresponsible.”

“thefirestartedinthepuzzlehouse.”

Welostsomecrewthatnightshootingthepost-firescene,asifthestoryhaddecidedtotaketheproductionpeopletooinsteadofjustthe2actresses(wife

andchild)

Wewereuneasy,thoseofuswhowereleftandyetwealreadyknewthescore.

Thefilmhadushostage.

Whocouldwereportto?Wejustlistenedtoourgutsandmovedontothenextscene.Bythenthescriptwaschangingitself.Someotherhandwasrewritingit

andmymindcomplied.Thedirectorbythen(thetenthminuteintothefilm

sequence)wasrunninghiscclaonfever.Hedespisedclothesandworked

withoutthem.

Hismindwasunraveling

Oureditorwasre-editingthefootagesofar,andfromthelooksofit,eachofusappearedtohaveadifferentversionofthefilmonscript.Whattheeditor

followedwasrewrittenbythehandthatwrotethescriptforthedirectorina

differentdirection.Thiswastomodifytheprocessreflexively

Thefilmwasonethingaftershooting

Thenanotherthingduringedit

Andanotherthingwithaddedsound.

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Thesoundwasthechieftransformerofthewholeprocess

Throughthesoundsthefilmbecamemoreandmorealiveandthatinturned

influencedtheshootingscriptandlaofourmindstogether

Eventhelocation,itsatmosphere,therealitywewereinwasreforming

Theevolutionwas/isinterconnected

(thewifethatgoesmissinginthefilm,goesmissinginreallife)

theimpersonationiscompleted.Cclaonhasher.

SHOCKINGGANGENTERSPORTALTOFIGHTINUNIVERSEC

FORBIDDENINVOCATIONS

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weseethroughthestreetsasifthroughagrey-scalenightvision.We’vesetup

thenightfilmingonthebackofthetruckandcircledintowhatlookedlikea

containerhub.Theredlightsignofthetruck,plusabrokenfacedceramicfigureofadoghadledushere(accordingtothepremonitionsanddeclarationsofJohn

ofthemultiples)

Inthishubstoodmonolithsofrectangularmetallockeddoorsandsemi-refugees

inhiddenspaces,seenonlyviapassingbyofthetruck.

Wesloweddown.Themonolithstriggeredinmememoriesofthemegaliths.We

wereintherightspacebutthewrongtime.

Cameramanonetoldusthathefeltthemotherletterswerenear.Themother

lettersweregiventouselevenminutesintothefilm.Itwaslikeafuneralinthemakeshifthouseofthebrideandgroom,posthusbanddeath.Wewere

contemplatingonthedisappearanceofthewomanandheronstagemotherwas

there.Fromherblackboxcamethevelveteendrawstringbagandfromitcametheletters.Theywerewrittenintheteendaysofthemotherprophesyingthe

transfigurationofthewomanwhowastobeherdaughterthatwould

rightfullydisappear.

Thesetoflettershadaresonancetothemthatguaranteedsomekindofshiftifopenedintherightspaceandtherighttime.Nowfeltlikeit.

Wecircleddowntherowsofdirtywhitecontainers,thetypeusedforshipping.

Therewasonewithdoorsopenandinsideitstackedneatlywereletters.

“dotheyhaveitsoeasilyforus?”cameraman2said.“likeasetup?”

“uponthepathofleastresistanceisthewayin”

“orout”

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wegotoffthetruck{stalled)toinspectthecontentsofthegreatbox.

Carefullyleafingthroughthehistories,arrangedbyeras.Wetooktothestack

thatcamefromthefuture.

Ononeparticulardismemberedletterwerethenamesofthehalfdozencastand

crewmissing,thesecondaryvanishersasIcalledthembecausetheywerenotthemainline.Theletterheadingnotedthattheyhadturnedintowhatcclaon

depictsas‘theshockinggang.’

“look”Isaidpointingoutseveralredlines,“universeCasbeingreadnowatthis

moonlithour,isundergoingthefinalinvasion.”

“hey,intruders.”

Weturnedtoseealargemanwhowashungeringforsomething.Hisskinandclothesweregrey

“awomanhadcomethroughherewhosaidagroupofthreewouldcomethrough

heregoingthroughtheletters.Wherearetheseafoods?”

wedidn’tunderstand.

“thecrab.Shehadbroughtthewrongcrab.Weneedtheonewithtworedlinesandonelongredline.Wecannoteatthemlikethis.”Hegesturedtothefireinthe

metalbarrelusedtoburnhellmoneywaybackwhereafewothersweregatheredforsomekindofevent.Weretheysquatters,wedidnotknowbutsome

ofthemwerewelldressed.

“wehavenocrabs”Itoldhim,“Ithinkyougotthewrongteam.”

“butwehadtherightwomanuntilshehadtomoveoninsearchofherchild.”

Itsoundedlikeourwomansowequestionedhimmoreaboutitandalsoasked

himtotakeustohisgroupsowecanwitnessthecrabstheycouldnoteat.

Immediatelycameramantworecognizedtheburningbin.

“it’sareceptacleandaprojector.”Heexplained,“burnaletterinitandweseeits

occurrencevisionary.”

Thevibrationsfromthebrokefaceddogescalatedandsetinourheadstheidea

thatwewillfindamapthroughtheeventsthathappenedtothewifeintheperiodofhervanishing,wewouldseewhatwaswhatandunderstand.

Wecountedandpreparedtherightamountofletterstoburn.

• BRIDALDECELERATIONANDMINDCONTROL

• NOXIOU• WEDDINGDINNEROMEN

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Therewasasetofweddinginvites.Therewasastrategydocumentonthe

counterattackinuniversec.therewasapsychiatricevaluationsheetand

classifieddocumentswiththestampofanunknowngovernmentagency.We

arrangedthelettersinsuchawaywhereitformedarightfullinksowecouldcomprehendtheascensionanddirectionofthenarrativeathand.Therewereinstancesofadhesivesontheenvelopedtobeburntandthatwouldcreatethe

noxiousneededtobringusintothevisionarystateofwitnessing.

Weraisedthefirehigherwithourmindsusingforbiddeninvocations….

Westoodaroundtheburningbinwithoureyesrolledupintoourheads.

Wesetupthecamsaroundusandfilmedthewholefiasco.

Thebrightfireblindedallofusfirst(andasourvisionswerelost,sowereour

bodiesinturn)

EXT:NIGHT

Thereisnothingbutadirtroad

Thereisnothingontheroadexcepttheblackcar

Andthecarisonfire

Wildlandsspreadacrossallhorizons

Thefireisintensebutappearstobeburninginslowmotion/thereisnosmoke,notthatwecansee/

Theburningcarinblackdesertedstreet,adealeriskilledinsidebecausehetooheldontothefilm.Hefeigneddistribution.Weapproachedthevehiclelike

inspectors,somehowwewereallsuitedupforthebiohazardthatwasoccurring

Fullbodyprotectionspacegasmaninmachine

Wewerenottheretoputoutanyfire(wehadnocontrollers)

Weapproachedthevehiclefromallsectorsandwatchedthecharredbodymove

Itswhiteeyesglaringoutatus,itsmouthmovingintandemwiththeforbidden

invocationswerepeatedjustbeforere-entryintothissituation.Itspelledoutwarningitspelledout transversion

Thestenchofthefleshonfiregaggedusandstungoureyes(alienosmosisthroughthesuitslikealivingintruder)

Itattackedusinsidethesuit.Blindedus.Tookoverourminds.

ANDInTHATblindnesswesawagain:

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EXT:DAY

Thedealeriscrossingtheparktowardstheovercrowdedtent.

Aweddingisinmotion.Wehavetofollowhim.

HAZMATvansandTRUCKSWITHREDSIGNSwaitoutsideinthecarpark.

Thegeneralnoiseintheairisthatofretching.

Panic.

Somethingwithintheeventhashappened.

Wespreadouttoinvestigate(wearestillinHAZMATsuits)medivacand

paramedicambulancesarrivelikeaparade

Beholdpolicecruisers

Ifollowtheleadofthedealer,heisdazedandholdingontoasilverdisc(the

film)stumblingintothereceptionareaandintothediningareabythepool.

Officialsarefishingoutguestsfromthepool(dead)

Irecognizethescreamingnatureofthebride,sheissomewhere,notbeing

consoledbutthreatened,chaineduplikeananimal.

We’re12minutesintothefilm.

Sheisinherblackbra.

Shehasnohair.Herfaceisoneofobsessionandpossession(takenoverbythedarkofcclaon)threeofficesareholdingherdown,sheishissingatthem

“Iwilldestroythelightofcclaon,Iwilldestroytheloveoftheland.”

Sheisrepeatingthisasonebyoneherguestsdiefromseizuresandpoisoning.

Thehusbandisnowheretobefoundnoteveninthepool.

Somethinghasgonewronginthecontinuumofthefilm.

“we’veenteredthewrongeditofthemovie.”CamethedistortedsignalvoiceinmyHAZMATsuit.

“whatisthis?Wherearewe?”

“EditB.-Weddingdinnerbiohazardwife”

Sheissuspectedandheldunderasylumransomforantidote.

“shewhohassetthepoisonwillnotproducethecure.”

“Cantoxicbreakdowntheformulae?Comeoutwithsomething?”

“itisnotfatedforittobeso.”

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“Thebabywasnotthefirstofitskind”

/Outsidetheworlddisappears/

JUMP:CUT

EXT:NIGHT

TheTVTowers.“wesawthepossessedmenandtheirmachinesbuildingthe

towersthroughthenight.Cclaonwasgainingentryintothisworld.Thefilmwouldbebroadcastheresoonenoughandthatistheendofit.”

“Possessmysoul,youareequaltothunder.”

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ALCHEMYOFHEROESUSINGCCLAONFIRE

“WEHAVETOFINDTHESUPRUS3”

CCLAONTRINITYMODAL

Theauthorityhaslockeddowntheweddingspaceandthebodiesandthesurvivorshavebeencarriedoffinblackandwhitevans.Westoodaroundthedrieduppool(waterdrainedfortoxicologytesting)cameraoneandtwoandI

hadtheunifiedfeelingthatsomewhereinthiswholeevent,achildhadbeen

borne.

“itsontheothersideoftheedit.Inthepost-worldoffilmc.”

howcanweconfirmthis.

Westalkedtheground.

“nothegroundsisnottheobjectofinvestigation.It’sthepoison.Thepoisonis

thekey.Deathisthedoor.”

Theguardisalreadyblindanddeaf

Itistrue.Wemadesurehewassafesowecouldenter

Theonewatchinguswouldonlywatchthedark

Letusenter.

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Westrippedformoursuitsandpenetratedthedeepofthepool.Uponbarefoot

contactwealreadyfeltthepoisonseepintoourentranceatthefootofourownmountains.Osmosistravelmagic.

Ourfingerstracedthetiles

Thelayerofliquidleftwasenough

Welacedoureyesandearssothatwemayseeandheartheintentionsand

narrativesoftheotherside,ofeditB.

Wegoblindathirdtime.

Onenarrationjumpsintotheanother.Wemustnotlosesightofthegold/goal

Wearechasingthewifethroughthemazeofedits

Theeditsarevariationsoftheelectronicrealities

Ofthevividastralplanes

Wedonotcontrolthisbutwecontrolourdirections

Wehuntwithcclaonforcclaon

We’re13minutesintothefilm

We’reconfrontedbyaninexplicablescene.Thethreeofusarefacingthethreeof

usbutinaheightened,higherselfstate.

Weareseeingourownfireelementalspiritformsaroundapurplefire.

“itislikethecontainerhubwhereweareallaroundtheburningbin”

“maybetheburningbinpeoplehaddonesomethingtothefirehencedevelopingthisimagerythisvision.”

“theyarecontrollingusnow?”

“no,thisisstillpartofthepact/partoftheprocedureoftheinvestigations.”

Thisisthealchemy.Ourstateshigherthanourdreamingselvesarepreparingfor

there-entryintohigherrealitytodemandacountereffecttodispelthedarkcclaon.

ThisisthesuprusIII

Weestablishedcontact.Thethreeentitiesofthefireacknowledgedus.

Theygaveusthecommandsthewayforward.

“thrustintotheparallelofthisfilm.Ithasalreadydevouredtheenergyworldsofcclaonearthoneandtwo.Yoursisthethirdandfinalrock.Withitthesolar

cosmosisofyourgalaxywillbeblackholed.Realitytodrainintothedaysbefore

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thegreatnightofthefirstexplosion.Thebigbangwasn’tthecreationmyth,it

wasaseparationmyth

youruniverseispartofagreaterreality.Thebigbangseparatedyoufromit.

Cclaonofthedarkwantstheuniversetoremaininthedark

Cclaonofthelightlookstounison.

Theageofthegreateruniverseisuponus

Whatwefightforisnotforuniversecoraorb

Itisforuniverseomni.

Theythusgaveusadditionalkeystothemysterydoors.

Afistfulofcoins

Adeckofcards

Jewelsfromafourthendangeredworld.

“beholdthefifthandsixthhorsemen.”

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WEAREUNABLETOCOMPREHENDTHISSITUATION

Thereislightningsnakingacrosstheabsolutesky

Thereisredivision,astormofmovement

Theearthisonfirebutthereisnoheatonlynaturalcolorsstrippedofftheir

palette,onapsychedelicwashindreamscape.

ThereisstrengthandabsolutionTherearecountlesshorsemenwithfacelessarmor

Thereareflagsofunknowngovernmentsflyinghigh

Clashofironandsteelandspiritandwine

Wearesnakingthroughthecloudsofspacestormsaslight,aspointsofpower

Divertingthroughelectromagneticmess

Movingfasterthanlight,cloningourselves,multiplyingthoughtandactionand

further

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Thefiguresonthehellboundhorsesarearchetypes

Livingtowersofpowermovingthroughde-volutionprinciplesorarcheonand

archangelicshells

We’resevenhundredminutesintothefilmandwecannotcomprehendthis

situation.

Apocalypse.

Nognashingofteeth,noburningwarehouses,thewhoresarefreeandnaked,

theyarethemaidensoftheevolution,theyarefeedingtheheroesmilkform

heaven.

SECONDARRIVALOFJOHN

BeholdtheCCLAONangelbreakingtheeleventhseal.

Thereupontherockbytheglaciersbytheendlessviolentoceanstandsthe

multiplemanJOHN.

Theskyisanelectricblueandstillfullofstrengthandvigor

Thethunderofthearchetypesisdistantbutresonantstill

Millionsofdiscsofsilverfallfromtheskylikemeteorshowers

“FILMCisenteringyouratmosphere”warnedJohnCclaon.”

Kidsarestartingtowatchthisshitandthey’regoingouttherehuntingforwives

andchildren.

Notforprocreationbutrecreation.Andtheyhaveknives.

“wecannotaccesstheoriginalreality.”Cam2reported.Wewereconnected

telepathicallybutdisconnectingrealism.ThestatureofJohnoftheMultipleswas

overwhelmingourcollectivesenses.Werememberedstormsbutit’snotasif

theywerehappeningthenornow.The child led us to this part of her mind.

her mother was certain it did not belong to her memory

it had nothing to do with the film, everyone agreed

this was going to happen post-film-c...

weputonourHAZMATsuitsagainbecausesomethinginthedistancewasmimickingpyramids.Onegrewontopoftheother,moldinginthinairfromthe

dustparticlesintoharshEgyptianshapes

itwasemittinglightthatwasunusual.Wewatched/wefloatednow,theearth

beneathuswasgone,everythinginlightaroundwasred,approachingmarslike,redsandduststorms,glowingpyramidsonthehorizon/thefigure,themessiah,

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theJohnwasnolongerontherockandtheairwebreathedwasnotfromthis

earthanditenlivenedus

itmadeourbodiesoflightshimmer

weweremovedclosertothebrightburningcenterofthevisionbeforeus,adrug

haze,afantasticlight

intheheartofthatflarecameagainthecclaonfireandthefigure,adifferent

figurenowappeared

hehadthefalconsheadbutwastooelongatedandthinandocculttobethatof

HorusofEgypt.it’scloakwasfromafuturewedidnotrecognize

thiswasaparallel,aversionoftheoriginal

thebirdissimplyconsciousness

thecclaonbird(perhapstheghostbirdofthefortuneteller)perhapsitisthe

fortunetellerhimselffromthecarnivalthatledthewifeandchildtotheice

creamthataltereddestiny

andperhapsthiswasthedestinyspokenorreplicatedabout

truemagickrevealingitselfacinemaworld.

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MYSTERYTEXTUNDECIPHERED

Thepyramidialmovescloser(ordowemoveclosertothepyramidial)

“weareadvancingdeeperintothemystery.”

“weareescapingtheinvasionofthefilm.”

“bidourbodiesgoodbye”

theburningbinwillbetoppledIthink,wewilllosecontactwiththefalseearth.

Andthishere,itisnotfalsetoo?

Alotmorereal,adeeperrealthantheghostlandwetraveledin

Wehavebecomethetruck

Nowehavebecometheredsignonthetruck

Asignal.

Frequency.

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Awallappearsontheperipheryandagainstitisaninsectoidcreature

Itishidingfromsomethingbeyondthewallbutitisnotafraid

Thethingitishidingfromisthethingafraid

Deepinsidewefelttheburningbintumbleandafirewentoutinthatworld

Overrunbythekidswhowatchedthefilm

INTHEWESTYOUDON’TKNOWWHATYOU’REPRAYINGFOR

Wefelttherelease.Wefeelthefreedomfromtheanxietyofthebody

Theinsectoidisnomorethereandinplaceofthewallisadoororratheradoor

hasappeareduponthewall(Iamthinkingthattheinsectoidhasbecomethedoorbutnooneagrees.

Weenterthemainframeoftheentrance/exitanditisagamblebutwehavetodoitforthesakeoftheanti-film-dwhichisnowbeingmadeonlyinourheads

combinedbecauseinthisastraluniverse,theequipmentofvisionsisconsciousness,theagnifire,thethirdeye.

Wehaveenteredthebookweare36chaptersintothenarrativetwenty somethingminutesintothefilm

Thewifeisinhercell.Sheisflippingabookbuteveryoneelsethatlooksintothemetalpaddedcellseesherflippinganimaginarybook.Herdaughteris

talkingtoherinherhead.Themotherknowsthedaughterissickinbody

andisinahospitalfarfromher.Themotherknowssheisnotsickintheheadandthatbyflippingthroughthebookshewillfindthewordsthatwill

liberateherfromthisdestiny

Outsidetheminutesofthefilm,wearetryinghardtopenetrateintothe

enclosureofthefilm(thatisfromoutsiderealityoftheastraltotheinsiderealityofthemoviethatisstoredinthecosmicrecords.

Weareattemptinganoperationwhosenameescapesme(Iremembereda

mortalmanoncewhohadwalkedthroughawallanditwasfilmedontelevision)

wearedoingthesimilarthingbutthewallisaseparationenergybandbetween

oneworldandthenext

Wearetryingtotranscendaswellasinvolveourspirits,formoneplaneintoanotherandthisrequiresstaticanddynamicfocus.

Pushitthrough,pushagainstthetideofillusionanddiversion

Thedarkcclaonwantsusstopped

Thelightofcclaonpromisessalvationfromtheinevitablestaticthatisourlot

Turnontheenginesofourmonad.

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22

ANDTHEREISAWAVISIONANDTHEVISIONWASNOTMINE

Wehavereturnedtotheburningcarinthewasteland.Thedealer’sbodyisnoongerinside,itissuspendedabovethefirewatchingintoit,calculating

somethingasitshiftsinhismind.Streamsoflightextendsfromhisheartandhis

thirdeyeandwedeliberatelyconnectwithit

Weallfloattogetherintheflotsam

Hebeginsdetailing:thewifehasgeneratedthenucleusandthestructural

damagetotheun-world.

Thisun-worldwillbeinherentlyhauntinginyourbloodbecauseweallcome

fromthemajorchainofarchetypesthatistracedbeyondthisnarration

Wearenotvictimsoftheunworldbutitscreators

WearethenewteamX.

Intheskyabrightlightappearslikearotatingdisc,awheel

Inourheadsweenvisionedsatelliteimagesthathadpickedupwheelscattered

acrossatuneddown,upsidedownworld

Inthatskieswerethewheelsalsobutmadeofaetherandnotrockortree

Thewheelsgatherednearlycloselytoeachothersoitmimickedsomekindof

internalmachinegearsofeverchangingworld

Togazeuponthemanyturningsistogazealsoinwardstothemanyshiftingof

manandsubmanandpost-manandotherman.

Wewereraisedup.Theburningcarwasourmerkaba

Thegreatwheeloflightabovewasourmerrhaba(mothership)

Weenteredsimultaneouslyintoherbosom.

Themotherenergyinthehuboftheshipwasimmense.Fromourbellies(diamondchakra)wereumbilicalcordsofopticsstreamingdataandcclaon

linguistics.Itsnakedoutfromusandvanishedaroundcornersofforeignwalls.

Itreturnedtouslikelavahologramsactingastracersinthenightworld

Laserbeamedintoourbodiesofflightanditsvibrationsseemedtoberidofourdisbeliefs.

Theblackwallsthrobbedandpulsedandappearedtouslikehivesurfaces.

Thereweremanycorridorsexpandingoutwardslikealabyrinth

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Oureyessearchedinalldirectionsandminelockedonadoorwaywiththe

appearanceofthewhitebear

Itstoodonitshindlegs.Itlookedoldandempowered.Itsfurstoodonendsand

initseyeswerethesoulofthegirlwhohadbecomeawomanwhomI

recognized.

Iaskedifshewasok,thewhitebearcamecloser,agreeing,sentimental.The

soundthatcameoutfromitsmouthwasnotanimalisticorhuman.

Itwassymphonic,altruistic,futuristic.

Thebearwasanimatronicswithahumansoul.

Itcomputedourprobabilitiesthatwewerealiveandverifiedso,onlythatwe

hadtoleaveourbodiesbehind

“bodiesarealwaysfailingonus”itfinallysaid,“butweshouldnotfailthepowerthatisinsideourbodies”

morebearsappearedfromtheothercorridors

theyspokeinunison,“wherearethethreegiftsofthesuprusIII?”

weeachheldontooneofthegifts.Ihandedoverthebagofjewels.Cameraone

handedoverthebagofcoinsandcameratwohandedoverthedeckofcards

eachtotheirownrespectivebearsintheirrespectivecorridors.

“followusrespectively.”Theysuggested.Andlikehypnotismwecomplied.

23BLINDSIDE1

thisisthevisionsasfollowedbycameraone.

Hehasbecomeatlascarryingtheworld

Heisinatunnelandabovehimisthesurgingworld,eliminatingangelofcclaon,

streakingthroughacityoffilthandcash

Heescapesdeeperintothetunneltofindthelightthatwillserveashisexit

Hefindsthechairandthedolls

Immediatelyhesensesthechildtobethere.Hecallsouthername

Shelovesalongthewallsthoughunseen

Herhairislongandblacksheisinherbluedresssheissinginginthedark

Aslowchurningsong

Heisafraidsheisafraidbutthethirdthingthatiswiththemisthemostafraid

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Sheissingingtolureitout

Heisthereholdingasonicweapon

Whenthethingcomesouthehastoshootit

Hefeelsthecityburninsideout

Hecarriestheweightoftheworldabove

Hisflashbackisresolutememory

Heisinchildhood,andtheshipheisonastheytookhimfromoneporttoanother

Thegirlisontheship

Shesitsattheirplaytablewiththeotherchairsandthedolls

Shestaresintohiseyesandasachildhebecomesachildbutseeshisworld

whenisanoldermaninatimewhentheworldheisinhassupposedtobeended

Heisaghost

Thegirlissigningthechildhoodsong

Thethingiscomingoutfromtheshadows

Heaimshisweapon.

Heisdesperate,thethingisdesperatebutthegirl,itisthegirlwhoisthemostsecure.

Sheattacksthemboth,todestroyonebuttodevourthecameramanonebecause

thatishowtheycontractedtheirfatestobe

Hewillliveoninherextraterrestrialgut

Hewillbeavoiceinherhead

Shewillbehiscclaondaughter

(theyareinthefield,postfilm.Sheandhim,noteatenintoeachother,thereistranquilitybythetreesoflifeandtheywatchtheskieswhicharesafeandbluenowandwithoutstarshipsfromablackuniverse.)

willyoumissthewar?Heaskedher

Iwillmissthebook

Shestayedquietforawhile.‘Iwillmissthecompound’

That’swheretheytorturedyouthemost

Yeas,andthereiswherethingsaremostreal,whenitwasmostredinthemind

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Themostpainyoumean

No,themostred.Painisn’trealatall.painisjustthehurttheorganismfeels

whenimbeddedwithacclaonconsciousness

Butyouarenotcclaon

Youare.ButIloveyouandsoIwillfeelyourpain

Iwillnotberealtoyouanymore,afterthefireintheskygoesaway

Thenitwould’vebeenthemostbeautifulmemoryneverlived

Thebearisnowfollowingcameramanonethroughthedarktunnel

Themanwillreachtheundergroundriverandthere,theferrymanwillrequestthecoinsfromthebear

Thebearwillboardtheboatbutthemanwillsimplywatchtheboatdepart

Thebearwillnotbidfarewellbutthemanknowsthatthebearwillbereturningsafelyhome.

24BLINDSIDE2

Iwanttounderstandcclaon,cameramantwotoldthebear

Theywereunderamakeshiftrefugeeshelter

Aroundthemleprosyanddisorganizationwasinorder

Theworldhadcollapsedafterviewingthefilm

Thisisarealitynoneofthembelongedtobutwassupersanctionedto

experience,tounderstand

Thebearspokewithitseyes

Openyourdeckofcardsandseewhatthesixcardsmean

A

Themenwiththegovernmentflagdepictingamythicalcreatureisthespiritofanagethatwilldestroythetraditionoftheday

Heretheparadetragicsonandtheweakmenwhowillflagellatethemselvesbeforeunrighteousbeingswillbeslavedfurther

Themenwhocarrythescepterwillbefeedingontheanimalsforlife

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Thatisunlessthesignalisbrokenby:

B

Themanwiththeemptycupwhoseatsbeforetheblackedoutprostitute

Sheisoverweightbutnotpregnantbutthereisadeepbruiseinsidehersoul

Themanwhohasanemptycupcannotbeartoseethiswhorelikethisbecause

sheremindshimofhismother

Heishidingsomethingfromherinsideofabrownbag

Inthebagisthedirectionstobetakenbythesleepingmenwhocongregate

aroundher

Theseactivitiesmusthappenduringthedeepestofthesleepcyclesbecausethe

placetobejourneyedtowouldbethefarthestyetundertakenbyanyoneofsuchmeaningandinsolence

Thereisasmallfallenstatuebehindtheman.Thatstatueisthekingoftheworldnowmadeinsignificantbytheeventsoffilmc

C

Thehavehangedthegodsinthesquare

Thebearandthemanwhoholdscameratwoistransportedtotheasylumhallof

thewife

Thewifeisnottherebutthejudgesare

Amaninamilitaryhelmetisbeingtriedfortreasonandsabotage

ThewasactuallysenttodefendthecinemastopreventthescreeningofthefilminuniverseG

Thefilminfluencedhimtothedegreethathewouldgoontosealintheoccupantsofthejadedcinemaandtosetthemonfire

Thereisanumbrellathemanholds

Itisafinalminutedeportation,areasontocalluponevenstrangergodsbutthestrangestofgodshavenoears

Theyonlyhaveeyesthatseeinto2realitiesatonceandinnoneoftherealitiesisthismaneveralive

Theexecutionofthegodsandthemilitarymanwillbecarriedonaccordingly

D

Thebeastisherebybeingsubdued.Formthisthegreatstrengthrises

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Thehunterstabstheanimal.

Theanimalinitsdyingthroeswhisperssomethingintothehuntersears

Itsays,“thewomanwiththeswordwillbringjusticetothesecretthatishiddeninthehoursofthedestructionofuniverseH.shewillseeonlythesilver

reflectioninthesteeleyeandnotthecountlessslavesbeingtriedfortreasoninthedaysahead.

Thehunterisasmuscularasthebeastandtogethertheybleedintoone

Thebeastisthehunterandthehunteristhebeast

Thefifthanswer:

Thereisaclowninabrokentree

Heholdsontoastickbutnoonecanbesureifthestickhadoncebeenusedasaflagbearer

Perhapstheclownhasusedthestickasaweaponandisnowexpressingsitspoweroverthebeaten

Perhapsthejokeoftheuniverseisnotyettobedisclosedbecauseultimatelythereisonlyonethingonthemindoftheclown

Abeautifulwomandisguisedasamanwhowillsneakupuponanunsuspectingvillagerandpretendstokillhim(whensheactuallyiseyeingthedeathofthe

armedguardwhomisaboutthebeheadthevillager)

Here,thetruthrevealsthediscrepancybetweentheauthorityandthelayman

Filmcwillreversethepolarities

Themeekwillbethetrueadvancedkillersinsocietyforthestrongmustbe

melteddownandbenttotheruleofthenextforecast

6hoursleft.

Thebookfallsoutofthehandsofthewifeintheinstigationroom

Partofthechainsaroundheranklebreaksfreefromsomeunknownforce

Thewomanwiththeswordappearsonherthroneanddethronesthecaptiveof

thewoman

Theprocessionbecomesdangerouslyclear

Theflagbearerwasthediversion

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Themanwiththeemptycupisdigestingtheliquidofthegodsthatwillawaken

thewhore

Themilitarymanwhohadsleptwiththewhorewasinfectedbythetrapthat

wouldbehisdownfall.Theirorgasmexposedhisthreatandsabotage

Thisledtothetruebelieverswhoholdsthedaggerofrealityandusedittokillthebeatofillusion

Thejesterissetfreeandcolorreturnstothefictionalworldwhere

Thewhoreenterstheencampmentdisguisedasanurseandkillsthedoctorhigh

onhishorse

Thebookfalls.Thewoman,thewifeisreleasedformtheprisons.

Theescapeisprematurebutstillanecessaryescape.

Level3islefttodenouement

25BLINDSIDE3

jewelsarebutdustundermyfeet.Thebearsays

Iscatterthestonesonthedirtoftheearth,insideIalreadysensetheescapeofthewife,thedepartureofthefirstbearinexchangeforthelifeofthefirstcamera

man(thebearhadsacrificeditslifetoprotectthecameramanfromhisproposed

deathlateronthecontinuumheisnowasafeandfreeman.

Thecardreaderorratherthedeckhadrevealedsomeoftheothermysteriesof

thewhoreandtheescapeofthewife.

Iscatterthestonesonthefilthyground

Thebearagreeswithme.

Thegirlmademe,helpedmeweep.ThroughthosetearsInowseewithneweyes

andIseeyourpathsahead.Thebearseemedmelancholyandwideawake

Smokewascomingoutofitsnostrils

Thejewelswillrecalibrateyourteam.

Thereare15stonesherescattered.Theysinkintothefilthanddirtoftheearthfalse

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Andgrowoutofearthtrue.

Youwillleavethisspaceshipwithyourcrew

Andyouwillfindawayintoearthtrue.Youhavetofindwifetrue.Shewillleadyoutothechildtrue.

Thewhitebearbeganurinatingonthejewelsthatsunkintotheearth,itspiss

shininggoldenandIknewatonceourhiddenpowerswouldbeactivated…..

Heearthsteamed,smokeroseintheheartofthestarship,itfoggedoutourlives

andfromthethreedistinctdirectionsofthecorridorsthefogengulfedandit

stungoureyesandintheblindness.Wesawagainforthefourthtime.

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Blackholeinfilm

ANDTHERETHEVISIONSAWMEBUTMINEEYESWASLOST

Weareinaprequeltothefilm.

Therearethestatuesofthetwentyofus.

Weareinaroomwithwhiteboxes

Someboxeshavemorestatuesthanothers.Someboxeshavenothing

Eachboxisoneworld,oneearth

Wearedistributedacrossthemultiverse

Awomanistheroomwithus,notthewife,notthemother,sheisanunknown

contributiontothenarrative

Herhairhasbeencutshortbythemonkswhoserverher

Herfatherisacookbutwhathecooksisn’tallowed.Hiseyesareyellow,somethinginhisgutmoves.I’mnotsureifhe’shuman.I’mnotsureifwhathe

cooksisn’thuman.Hejuststandstherewithswolleneyes

Sheisholdingalistinonehand,andonitarenotournames.Theyareblankbut

somehowIfeelthatournameshavenotbeenfilledinyetanditshallbe

Therearetwomonkswithherintheroomandtheyappeartobeliningupto

entersomeplace(perhapstoreceivethenames)

Herrighthandwhichisfreehasalargemysticalsymbolresonatinglikeashield

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ItisdifficulttodecipheritbutIthinksheissignalingtooneofusaswewatch

themintheroom

Theytooareslavestocclaondark.ThismuchIfeel.

Theyeachwillbebrandedwithnumbersandlines

Itisliketheclotheswewearnowwithourbarcodes,that’showwearebeing

tracked.

Behold

Weareintothetwentyseventhminuteofthefilm.

Amanwiththelargerimmedhatisholdinguphisskirtwhilepouringoutwater

fromanoccultflaskwithimpossiblehandles

Thereisamanholdinghishandstogetherwashingthemasthewaterrunsthroughhisfingers

Themanwiththehatisthetarotreader

Henowhaslonghairandabeard

Themanwhoiswashinghishandsisthedeadhusband,….

Apriestlookson.

Heislookingstraightatus.Weareawarethatourstatueshavemoved.Wearestillintheroomsomehow

Idon’tknowwhatritualthisisbutitsnotwhatwewereexpecting.

Somethinggrowsintheheartoftheroom.

We’retwentynineminutesintothefilm.

Aholeisburntinthemiddleofthescreenanditisspreading

Littlesoundsofshoutingcomefromtheblacknessofthehole

Thewaterbeingpoureddoesnotseemtobeending.

Thetarotmanischantingsomething.Hisbeardandhairmakeshimlooklikeawizard

Heisprotectingthedeadhusbandfromsomething

No.no.thecameratwomantellsme

Heisbaptizingthedeadmanbecausethedeadmanhasturnedfromdeathinto

life

“andtheothermenintheline?Whereareweallgoing?”

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weareleavingtheship.Thoughwewereonceblindnowweshallsee.Thisisithe

dockingbay.Wehavelandedbackintoastate.Wecancontinueourguardourprogressandmovement.

Thedeadhusbandjoinsus,hewantstosavehiswife.

Doweknowwherethewifeis?

Thetargetterwillbringusthere.Hewillmeetusontheothersideofthebridge.

Itisthemanwhoholdsthesonicweapon.

Soundwilltakeusthere

Weshallyieldtoitspromise

Enoughsaid,thelienisgettingshorter

Wegreetthehusbandbuthevaguelyrecognizesus…

27

THETARGETTER

Thereisawarehousethatprocessesthepresents.Thousandsofindividually

wrappedgifts.Birthdays,ceremonies,weddings.Weexitedthedarkroomintothishallofpresents.Whatweremissingwereballoons.

Nearastackofredboxesstoodtheshortfigureofthetargetter

Heappearstohaveburstoutofagiantheart.

“thissituationisdire.Myfathershavesentmetoyoutoleadyouthroughthe

battlefieldsoutside.

Thekidswho’vewatchedthefilms,havenowtakenonlychildrenhostage.These

presentsallneverreachedtheyoungones.Alltheparentsarenullified

Cameramantwostartstobreakdown

“ICAN’TFUCKINGSTANDTHIS!ICAN’TDEALWITHTHISABSURDITY!ICAN’T!”

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weknowhowitfeels.Nothingfeelsorseemsasitseems.Allweknowiswehave

tomoveonwiththetargetter.Itknowshowtomoveamongthismess.

Whichuniverseisthis?

UniverseC

Thisiswheretherootofthefilmis.

Yes.

Doyouhavetheantifilm?

Itsinourheads.

Weneedtofinaprojectionthenthewifewhichwillleadustothechildthenreunitedwecanovercomethesituationerror

Othermilitarymenappearedformbehindunwrappedpresents.Theywerearmedwithunusualblackweapons.Mostlysonicinnature.

Ispoketothecommandingofficer.

“thetrickis”heexplained”istoletthekidsoutsidethinktheycansurviveashottothehead.Ifwepullthetriggerandtheydonotflinch,evenifwemisstheshot

andtheydonotdodge,itshowstheyarereadytodie,thatwaywecantakethem

inforbelievinginsuicide.

Oncetheybelievetheycankillthemselves,theinstitutewillopenuptothemand

taketheminwhole.

Wewillhaveenoughkidstokeeptheinstitutepleased.thenwecanbringtheotherchildrentosafety.

Itisgoodenough.Letsgetthishappening.

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TENSACREDMYSTERYGATESOFCCLAON

GATEA

BELIEVER.Menandwomengatheraroundpools.Inthepoolsfloatthebaby

clothes.Themenmustfishouttheclothesusingswords.Thewomenmustbreastfeedthemen.Togethertheymustrecitethepoemstothestarchildren.They

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mustlearntospeakthelanguageoflightoftheoldfire.Theymustmakecontact

withwhattheyoncebelievebutdidnotbelieveanymoreoncetheywereadults.Theyhadtobechildrenagaininordertomeetheaven.

GATEB

STAR

Undertheblackskytheadultsmustliedownwithoutanyclotheson.Theymust

begincountingthestars.Themenbegincountingfromtheleftoftheirpartners.Thewomenbeginontheright.

Witheachstartheymustnameateatsoneboysnameandonegirlsnamethattheylove.Theymustnotstopnamingthemuntilallthestarshavebeencounted.

GATEC

Subtitles.

Translationsmustbesecuredthroughputthefilm.Theaudienceisdividedinto

fourgroups.Grouponewilldeciphertheimagesbasedonthecollectivememory

oftheprimalancestorsthatisusingonlyfireandstone

Theothermustdecipherthefilmusingonlyplantsmineralsandherbs.Each

objectofnaturehavingpropertiesthatmustmatchthedescriptionofwhatashappeningonscreen

Thethirdgroupmustonlybehummingmusicwithnoparticularlanguage

Thelastgroupmustdecipherusingonlysilenceandfeelingnotvisionsandwordsandanythingwithform.

GATED

Death/door

Funerarytextmustbememorizedandrecountedatthepointofbirthandviolence.Inthewarzonesthemilitaryleadersmustbeawareinthefieldoftheonsetoftheangelsofdeath.Theymustrecitethebooksofdeathappropriately

andaccordingtothedegreeofpoweraccordedwitheachconfrontation.

GATEE

Poisoning.

Theconcentrationofnegativepowersmustbefocusedintothepoisontakenbymankindherselfinthewakeoffilmc.thereisnostoppingthepoisoncultsfrom

enteringthestatesandleadingthehungrytotheirdeaths.Foodisingestedandsoisthekillingthing.

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Onlya33.3%needtodiethisway(thatwasthenumbertakenduringtheguests

andtheweddingomen)thewifewasheldforransombutnotanymore.

Asimilareventwilloccurbutnoonehastherighttostoptheonslaught.

Thisisthesacrificeofcclaonlight.

GATEF

Fire

Webeganwiththeburningofthetheatersthentheburningcarthentheburning

humansandtheburningflags

Fireistheendallofstartall

Wehavetosurrendertotheinventionwecreated.

Wemustdieatthelifethefirebrings

Thisisinevitable.Thecclaonfireistheonlythingthatwillguaranteeusthe

transmutationofthefutures.

FATEG

Warofthecclaon.Hereisnotthespaceortimetodiscussthewarthatwillbegin

andendattheshorewiththeman,thedogandthemonkey.

GATEH

Thereisadiamondlightbeyondthewindows

Thelightcallstousandwearelulledbyitsgentlepull

Wewishforrestinthehoursofsuchtrauma

Throughoureyestheraysofthefilmenterandsomethingisseededwhichnever

goesaway

Deepinsidewearechangedandwewhenweleavenoonewillrecognizeus

muchanymore.

GATEI

Withoutbodiesweareunrestrained

Wenowmovefasterthanlight

Wenowmultiplyusingonlythought

Weareimmortalandcanbeinmorethanoneplace

FilmCdoesn’tendusbadly

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FilmCexpandsus

GATEJ

TheJohnOfThemultiplesappearbeforeus.

Inoneswiftmoveofhisarmofthelawheremovesourenemies

Hemakeswaythewastelandandpavesawayforustowardsoureternalmother

Attheendofthehighwaywecanstoprunning

Fortherewewillmeetaweakbutfreemotherandwife

Sheisstillsobeautifulandbountiful

Immediatelysherecognizesme

Ihavewrittenherintothesafetyofmyarms

IhaveforgottenhowmuchIloveher

AndhereIloveherevenmore

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THEBOMBINGOFCCLAONCITY

Recover

Recuperate

Countourlosses.

Westoodtherelookingateachother.Herhairhadn’tgrownmuch,andhersoul

inhereyes,sodeepsobruised,sodark.

There’sadeeplossinsideher.Sovastthatit’sstill.Withoutaneedtoeven

expandanymore“howdidyoufindus?”Iaskedher.

We’reallthesameoncewe’vebeeninthesameshoot.Webreatheeachother’sair,weknoweachheartbeateachlife.”

Shespokethiswithacertainsureness.

Shemovedasshespokeasifsteppingforthalittleintoeachhorizonbeforestoppingandreiteratingsomething.

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WhenthatBDSMclubfoundtheextracoffin.Withmeinside.Doyouthinkthey

knewhowmuchtheirworldwouldchange?”shedidn’tsoundsadorweaksayingit.Shesoundedcurious.

Ithinknooneknewhowmuchwouldbealtereduponourreturn.

“wasourreturnworthit?”

“wedon’tquiteknowthatendingyet”

comewithusthentofindthatending.

Youknowitwouldbelongbeforewereachit.

Yes,butatleastletusfindourchild.

Shepausedatthatstatementforshehadn’ttrulyrealized.Thatherhusbandwas

withustoo,somewhere,butthatsheandI,weweretheactuallovers,unitedinthiscatastrophe

Thehusbandappears.Hisstomachisguttedopen.Hestaresatthewifeandshe

staresbackbuttheydonotrecognizeeachother.

ThenIrealizewhatthisallis.

Heisthebringerofthesituation.

Haveningbeendeadheshallknowwhatdeathmaycome.Hepointstotheskies.

Blackshipsareapproachingoveradifferentcoloredhorizon

Whenthewifeescapedcclaonchasedher

Whenweescapedcclaoncaughtoursignalsandapproachedustothispoint

ButthedeusExmachinaintervenes.

Wherecclaondarkgoes,cclaonlightisnearby

Thejewelsinthesacredpissofthewhitebearhasbroughtthebomberstolife.

Theinterventionisunderwaynow,here,forever

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ARGUMENTATIONWITHTHEBREASTMASTERABOUTPORTALSIX

Itsinconsistent.

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We’rethirtythreeminutesintothefilm.

Isthefilmnecessarynow?Wecannotdefineit.

Whetherornotitisplayedouttilltheend,thebombingofthecclaoncitywasnotpartoftheoperationdrive

Wefilmedfilmcthereandnowwithitdestroyedthereisnorealbasisofacityto

connecttoanytimesomeonewatchesthefilm.

Wearethusconnectingonlywithamemoryandnottherealthing

It’stherealthingthatmakesthefilmsodeadly.

Thatwasthebasisoftheplan.

Whateveritwasinfilmc,mustremaininfilmc.theactualityoftheeventsor

personsinvolvedinthefilmoncedestroyedorremovedwillhavenosignificantimpactupontheorganixlifeandinfectionofthefilmitself

FilmDisreallyFilmDEATH.

Spaceandtimeandpeoplemustbeended.

Thatwaswhytheywantedtokeeptheactressandthechildinhospitals.

Itwastokeepthemalivesothefilmwouldbealive.Andthatwhichisalivecanmultiply.

Thebreastmaster(johninfeminineexposition)arguedthatportalsix(deathrow)mustnowbeopenedsothatwecanleadthewifeandthechildthroughits

doors.

“Iwillnotleadthemtotheirdeaths.We’vecomethisfar,wecanfindan

alternative”

“really?Whatplanhaveyou?”

“itgoesbeyondthisnarrative.Wejusthavetofindthechildfirst.”

I’vesetportalsiztoopen,wehavenotmuchtime,atleastkillthe

NO!doyounotlisten?Wefindthechild,tohellwithyourportalsix!”

“yourmistakeisgraven.”

“itistherightway.Lifenotdeath.Deathonlytothedark.”

“don’tbeachild.”

Islappedthebreastmaster.

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31

SOMETIMESTHECHILDNEEDSTODREAMOFINCUBATION

Inthesickroom,themeninwhitearedistressed

Theyhaveheardoftheescapeofthemother

Andnomotherwhohasachildmissingwillstopuntilshehasfoundthatchild

Andinordertomovethechildfromthisrealitytothenextthechildhastobe

conscious

Butthechildnowsleepsandthechildnowdreams

Inthedreamthechildhearshermothersingofwhitebearsandjewels

Thesongkeepsherdeeperintothesleep

Evenbeforethesleepthefreemotherhadmadecontactwiththechild

Enteringherstateofmindtoproducetheresultsofthebedtimesong

Tosleeptoenterastralworld,topreparefortheexitfromthesickroomtomake

themeninwhitepanic

Themothercoaxesthechild

Breathedeepandnatural

Feelmywarmthinyourlegsmovingupyourspineintoyourheart

Feelyourheartopenandfeelalightopeningupinyourheart

Feelthatlightexpandingthenleavingyourheart

Toenteryourlungs

BreathedeepandgentleLetthelightgentlymoveupyourthroatandintoyourface

Itmovesupintoyourmindandthereanothereyeinyourmindslowlyawakens

Awakenonlythiseyeandtherestofyoustaydeepintoyoursleep

Keepyoureyeopenforyouwillseeavisionsoonandthatvisionwillmakethe

mostpowerfulchildinthemultiverse…

StaywithmeasIshallstaywithyou

CeratewithmeasIshallceratewithyou

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Destroywithmeasisshalldestroywithyou

YouaremyheartbeatasIamyourheartbeat

Sleepdreambigdreamdeep

Iamcomingforyou

Andyouwillbecomingfortheworld

32

THEMERGINGOFTEAMX

Thewifestandsbeforethehusbandandtellshimhisneedtomoveon.

Thoughhehadaskedforaboonfromthetarotmanhehadnorighttoreturnfromthedead

Perhapsheneededtosayhistruefarewellandperhapstoapologize,forhistrue

heartwaswiththeafterworldandnotwithher

Sheunderstood.Shetouchedhisfaceandhisfleshdissolveundertheheatofhersupernovalove

Deadmenshouldstaywiththedeadshetoldhimandhistearswettheearthand

thespotsturnedintoflowersofred

Nowgo.

Hedepartedgracefully.

Withherlefthandsheledhimawaytothelightandwithherrighthandsheledanenvoyfromthelightintothisworld

Ididnotexpectit.

Theshockinggangenters.Thedirector.Thelostsoundman.Thesetdesigner.

Thepainter.Theelectrician.Theyhadbeenwaitingintheirappropriatetimezonesforthemotherleadertocalltheirsecretnames.

Theirentrieswereagodsend.

Nowtherewerenineofus.

Thechildwouldmakeus10.

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Wewillbethecompletedteamx.

Webroughtanendtowhatappearedtobeagreatfilm.

Itisnottrue

Weseekthetruthinthis.

(themenandwomancametogetherfromvariousangles.Allintheirbodiesof

lightfortrulytheydidnothavebodiesanymore.Itwassimplyaneasierwaytoseeeachother

thisworldisonlyashellbutwearesoulsrichinitscore

wemakeuptheworld

andsoweareunited.

WecalledupontheredsignofthetrucktoformulateourMERTABA

Thisisthewarchariot.

Intheheartofitsatthemotherwhothendirectedthecosmicvehicletotheplace

wherethesacredchildwaskept.

33

ENTRYOFCCLAONCONSCIOUSNESSINTOTHETHIRDEYEOFTHECHILD

Mylove

Mychild

Openupyourinnereyes

Weare33minutesand44secondsintothefilm.

Doyourememberthisscene?

Weareinthebigwheel.Wearehighabovethecity.Doyourememberthe

lightsmylove?

Doyouseethepyramids?

Thatisyourhome.

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Doyouseethebrightblackstar?Thatisyourfather,andheiswithmenowand

withallyouruncles,remembertheuncles?Whohelpedusdothatsceneinthe playground,ontheswing?Theyarewithmenowandallofusarecomingtofind

you.Reachouttomemysweet

Thinkofthebird,thefirebird,youknowhowmuchyoulovethefirebird?Nowthinkofitinyourmind,that’sagoodgirl,thinkofthebirdoffire,thetarotman’s fortunebirdrememberthatwhenwehadtheicecream?Yes,nowwatchthebird

spreaditswings,spreaditbrightandwideinyourmindcanyoudothat?

That’sverygood

Nowmylovely,tellthebirdtoleaveyourhead

Andtoflytous.

Letitflytousanditpromisestocomebacktoyouandwewillfollowitbackand

wewillfindyouandwewillallbetogetheragain.Nomoremaninwhiteshallhurt you.Canyoudothat?

Tellthebirdtoflytous

Thebirdknowshowtofindus

Findussowecanfindyou

Thatmysweetgirl

That’smygoodgirl

Mommy’scoming

Daddy’scoming

Teamxiscoming.

34THETHINGWECOULDN’TTRUSTFEEDINGOFFTHEGRIMEOFINNOCENCE

TRANSFORMATIONOFTHECHILDAFTERCOSMICPOISONING

Amanofmonstrosity

Wholoveslittleyounggirls

Hishandsaresoiled

Hisfaceamessofdistortion

Histongueblue

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Themeninwhitemakewayforhimashepenetratestheroominhiswildsuit

Hishairisatangleofdeadsnakes

Heapproachesthechildinthebed

Herlittlepinkdresssoftandinviting

Hewantstoslowlytouchthechild

Thenherealizesherskinturninggreen….

35

WATERSPIRITOFTHESECONDDELUGE

Inthegreatdistancetheinevitabletideturnsandtheinevitablewaterrises

WiththespeedoftheMERTABAtheearthshatters

Realitiesdissipate

Themotherisanxiousforsheknowssomethingterribleishappeningintheroomwherethechildlays

Inthetimeofthecoffinsherecallsthewordsdrilledintohermindbytheordeal

intheotherworldoffilmc

Somethinginherconnectshertothemysteryofthepanicshefeelsnow

Butsheunderstands.Wateristhetransmitterofenergy

Inherheadshebrigsupthegreattsunamiassheremembersit

Shesendstheviolenceskywardsdirectingittothechildwhosethirdeyeisstillopen,whosedreamsarenowturningintopoisonattherequestofthefather

(tofighttheperversityofmonstersonemustbecomethatwhichmonstersfear)

thefathertouchestheother’stempleoftheheartandwiththementaltsunami

andthememoryofpoisonintheswimmingpool

adirectiveisinitiated.

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36

Theeyesofthechildopensjustasthemonsterdecidestoclimbontothebed

Somethingakintovomitexitsthechild’smouthandnose

Anddeepinthechild’sbellybeneaththesweetcandyflossdress

AterriblesoundTURNS.

Asoundofsomethingorganicrippingapart

Ofsomethingwettwistinginsomethingslimy

Foramomentthemonsterofamanisnotawareofwhataburstingintestineis

supposedtofeellike

Thenthepainhitshiminallaspectofconsciousness

Andthespiritofthechildentersthemindoftheman

Andthechildinsidetheman’sheadisnotachildanymore

Butsomethingfarmoreviciousfarmoresinisterandfarmoreterrifyingthantheoldestterror

Themantriestoscream

Buthecannotscream

Hetriestopassout

Buthecannotpassout

Andtheonlysongthechildismakingnowis

“Mymommyiscomingtogetyou.”

37

SIGNS OF THE PROJECTION.

SYNCING CONSCIOUSNESS WITH THE HYPNOTA OF LIGHT CCLAON

We’re38minutesintothefilm.

Thereisahiwtehouse.Adoublestorey.Thewallsarenotpaintedyetanditsbeenmanydecadessincetheholesinthewallhadbeenplastered

Thedustonthefloorisnotasthickasonewouldassume

Someonehaslivedherebeforeinthepast

Andsomeonewilllivehereagaininthefuture

Nothingmovesnow

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Wejustseetheinsideofthehouse

Thesparsefurniture

Thefireplacewithitsfreshfireburning

Asongiscomingfromupstairs

Wegoupthestairs

Alongthewallarepicturesofwhitebearsandmenwhostandonrocksandlarge

openspacesandaburningcarinadesertedstreet

Onthesecondlevelthereisalargeorangefakedeerandwhatlookslikeasand

boxbutwithoutanysandinit.

Inoneoftheroomswepassinsideitsdarkandthereisonlyaredlightglowinga

redsignslowlyblinkingonandoff

Wegopasttheroomandwehearthewaterisrunning

Itisdaylight.Suniskeepingthespacelightedandwarm

Wehearthebathrunning

Thenwehearthesmalllaughterofagirl

Andwehearasmalllaughterofawoman.

Wedonotentertheroom

Insteadweenterintothestudy

Andthereinthedeskweseeamanhunchedoveracomputerkeyboardandheis

typingfuriouslyandheiswatchingthewhitescreenwithhiswordsappearinginblack.

Heisrecountingsomethingsfromhispastwhichheneedstoexorcize

Heisreportingsomething’sthathadhappenedbecauseatsomestagesome

worldisgoingtoneedtoknow.

Hekeepsontypingbutheisnotanxious.Heknowstheendiscomingsoon.

Weleavetheroom.

Thereisasoundcomingformoneofthebackrooms

Wehearvoices,thenmusicandnoiseandstatic.Somethingflickersinoneofthedarkrooms

Wewaitoutsideandpeerinjustenoughtoknowjustenoughtoseethatafilmisbeingprojectedontoascreen

Thefilmhasnopeopleinit

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Justcolorsandabstractshapesmovinginthedark

Aflashherealittlelightthereashadowhere,aflickerthere,andnothingmore.

Butthere’ssomethingpeacefulandpowerfulaboutthefilm.What’smorepowerfulisthedeepsoundscomingformthescreen.

Itsoundslikeamantrathoughthewordsareunknown.

Thesounditselfisdeeplymovingtothepointwherenewvisionskeeparisinginthemindifonelistenshardenoughtosee

Weseewithourearsandourheartsunderstandsthelanguageofthesoundsofnoiseandsilence.

Thepoplemanningtheprojectorischeckinginthefilm

Theyseemtobepleasedwithwhatever’shappening.

Somewheredownthehallwaywehearthelaughterofayoungchild

Andthevoiceofawoman

Andeverythingfeelsalrightinthehousethathasnotbeenpaintedfordecades.

38

VISITATIONWITHTHEDREAMGODOFCCLAON

We’reinthelasttwominutesofthefilm.

Thewallsofthewhiteroomistorndown

Thereisblacksootontheceilings

Aroundthefloorscatterstheshellsofthemeninwhite

Somewhereagainstthewallagrotesquefigureisbloatedandlifeless,his

eyeswideopenandseethingandimpotent.

ThehospitaldidnotsurvivetheinterceptionofTeamX.

Nooneontheothersideofthegamedid.

Itisnotthattheyhavebeenkilled

Itjustappearsthatway.

Intheworldsofcclaon,thereisnotruedeath.

EnergiesjustreturntotheirshadowsortheirlightsThereisnoend.

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Thisisjustasuspendedbattle.

Thebattlecontinuesbutnothereandnotnow.

Fornowitisunderstoodthatthechildiswiththemother

Thefilmcrewoffilmcisdownto10

Andthatisenoughtoseethroughtothenextphase

Thetruefilmhasnotbeenstoppedyet

ButtheXisnowintheway.

FilmXshallbethefinalchapter.

39

We’rethirtynineminutesandthirtysecondsintothefilm.

Everyoneinthewhitehouseisasleep.

Buttheirmindsroam.

Domesandpyramidsopenandclose

Lightsmoveinandout

Therearewhitebearsinthehallofthehives

Theyaretalkingallatonceandtheymakemusic

Thegirlisrunningaroundandlaughing

Thereisatelevisionsetsomewhereinthehall

Thescreenistunedintoagreenlight

Somethingflickersinit

Somethingcomesintofocus

Thereisamaninthetelevision

Heispaintingalargecanvas

Heisdressedinblackandhehaslonghairandalongbeard

Heispaintingatarotcard

Thereisawheelturningslowlyandmajestically

Therearesatellitesbeamingafilmintotheheavens

Thereisamanwithanarrowinhisback,hisskinisashen

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Therearelargeunfathomablecreaturesontheoldearthandtheyaredead

ordying

Thereisaredplanetintheskynothingwehaveseenbefore.

Thetarotmanstopspainting,heturnsandwalkstowardsthethescreenof

thetelevision

HespeaksoutdirectlyfromittotheeyesofthedirectorandI,thescreen

writer.

Hesays“Ibelieveinthecycle.”

Truethereisamanbeingpaintedandheisonaunicycle.

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THECYCLEOFCCLAONBEGINSANDENDS

“weareunfortunatetobehalfformed.Thisisthefinalminuteofthefilmyet

we’renotdevelopedtothepointoftrueabsolution.

Thereisyetalongwaymorebeforetherestistrulyhere.Therestofthedeepandthemighty.

Thisearthonyhashermemoriesleft.Whatyouarelivinginarehermemories.

Andasyouremember,memorieswillfade.

Everythingyouknowtobesafenowwillbetakenawaybytheonwardmarchoftime

Youmustmoveifyouaretomeananythingtothenextworldandthenextandthenext

Fordonotbemistaken.

Theendofoneworlddoesnotsignifytheendofall

Eachworldwillfeelalossthatiswhyeveryworldfeelssomethingabsent

Itistheabsenceoftheirbrotherworldsandsisterworlds

Whatmanseeksarethelostworlds,nottheworldheisseparatedfrom

Heseekstheworldthatwasbefore

Heseekstheworldthatistocome

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Theseekingcanonlybedoneinaworldthatisalreadyhere

Thisworldisthestage

Thereisnothingtotreasurehere

Itisonlyaplatformdoyouunderstand?

Aplatformtobeinthetrueworlds

Therearecertainpainsthatafflictusfromonegenerationtothenext

Somuchsothatweareaddictedtothesepains

Weusethemasacrutch

Withoutthesepainswesay,wecannotprogresswecannotgrow

Weareaworldobsessedwithsufferingandyet

Sufferingisnotobsessedwithus.

Thevulturewatches

Thevultureknowswhenourtimeisupanddeepinsideweknowthattoo

Butwearenotafraidbecausewewillrepeatitallagainandagain

Weliveinthewheelandwecallitthewheeloflifethewheeloftimebuttrulywe

areonlygoingaroundincircles.

Thereisnothingnewhere

Whatisaymanyhavesaidbefore

Butweareconvincedthatthisisthewayandthisisthetruthandthisisthelife

Itisnotneeded.

Thereisdeathhidingbehindourthronesbutwithourscepterwecandriveit

backtoitsabodewhichistheabodeofthelimit.

Deathneedsanendtoalwaysbeviable.Toberelevant.Weneedabeginning,ofanything,tokeepbeingalive.Tobelife.

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